Being headmates, having hobbies and becoming "full persons".
The other day I was talking with my headmate -another “tulpa” (not exactly but he functions like one)- about our differences in how our hobbies make us feel, how much importance they have for us, it got deeper than we had anticipated and I realized that I could go quite in-depth on this topic, so here’s a reflection on some different views of how growing as persons -and especially finding hobbies and interests- makes us feel as tulpas, persons who suddenly started existing on a body that had already existed for… a while.
Oh and I wrote this from the perspective of us -tulpas- but I bet it works for many other types of plurality too ;)
But before starting, let’s define what we truly mean with “full persons” here, since it’s rather a confusing or abstract way to call something quite complex and it’s just a random term we will use for this.
First, we have the concept of a tulpa being “fully developed” (completely sentient, vocal, with their own opinions, tastes, and blah blah blah), and we’re only talking about stuff that happens after that.
We believe that with just being sentient or kinda sentient you already get the metaphoric ID of being a person, valid and all that. Being someone and not something (tho if u wanna be called something, das cool too). But being sentient or even fully developed doesn’t necessarily mean that you will feel equivalent to someone who has been on the body since forever. Even after being “fully developed”. Which is fair, one has been there -let’s say- 20 years and another 2 months. Even if both have the same capabilities, feel the same age, and even share memories, there’s a huge 20-year difference of experiences. It’s that reference person (who would be different for everyone), who we call the “full person”. Who is not really more person than anyone, but it may feel like that to some, or in certain situations.
We can just talk from our own experience, but we have seen people refer to that “gap” in many ways through the time we’ve been on the community, so it’s definitely an “only us” thing.
Yet it’s on us to put weight to that gap or not.
Here’s where K and I kind of clash.
At the start, he always felt empty.
In any other way, there was not much difference between him and Aily (our “reference person”, the original and -back then- the host), but while K didn’t have any hobbies and almost no interests, Aily was WAY too complex as a person. Obviously, that was because Aily had existed for -at that point- more than 19 years while K only had around a year of proper practical existence (and not very practical counting lockdown and that he didn’t front all that time). Aily had 19+ years of time to get tons of hobbies, forget some, don’t care much about others, be able to lose and re-gain interest in things and have complex feelings about them. Have preferred activities for rainy days, for lazy days, etc… while K was just like “well, I like mint bubble gums and cats” and that was all. A couple of mild interests with no depth to it. Regardless of how complex his personality and thoughts were, everything about his interests was just… very simple.
He felt empty, or in other words, not a “full person”. He was lacking things Aily had -and everyone on our IRL surroundings seemed to have-. And that bothered him tremendously.
He didn’t feel comfortable feeling “less” -which is how that gap felt for him- even when he knew he wasn’t (this sometimes led to short existential crisis) and it didn’t get better for him until he found his thing. Which later triggered more and more discoveries of hobbies and interests. All around the same topic, so not as complex as Aily, but strong enough for him to feel “ah, this is it” -and a year later I believe our wallet regrets it-.
While me, I don’t have many hobbies, I just have counted interests -some stronger than others- and then if I’m bored I just “borrow” their hobbies till I find something that entertains me for a while and then leave it and not do it again in months since it’s just not my thing. And I’m ok and cool with that. I don’t feel empty or lacking in any way. Yeah, I’m quite simple in that regard, but I don’t mind. Probably with time it will change. A while ago I didn’t write essays about us! But even if I remain “not that full” I’m ok with that. I don’t feel the need to not be.
Our guess is that it depends on how we view the front. K has always been fronting a lot, and his amount of fronting time has grown organically (and he’s gone through being co-host and now host). So he had more time to feel empty, to sit on a chair without much to do. Even from the start, he knew he was going to have at the very least, the same weight Aily had on the front, so he felt he was required to have that “fullness” that people who have lived whole lives have, or at least be close to that. Meanwhile, I don’t front much, I just pop in, do my things, spent my time and that’s all, I don’t need or wish for more. If I have to help, I come, help, leave the body with nice hair and pretty nails and see u again in a few days. If for some reason I end up fronting for long, after 2 days or our brain fries, or I end up being done with the world. I don’t need much for that, and I prefer small things to do here and there than big things that have too much weight in our lives. And again, I like borrowing hobbies/interests.
Still, I get it, having a list of things I want to do, “an appointment this Friday”, a project to finish or an account on Tumblr or a save on a game, a group or band that you’re obsessed with… are things that just feel good. To a certain point, they can give some sense of worth or meaning to existence, and that can have A LOT of weight for some, and probably the more weight that thing has in your life or the more meaningful it feels, the more that may add to someone’s experience.
Not saying that internal experiences don’t matter. They do -and a lot-, but for some, they may fall into a different category, if we can say it like that. Sometimes they just feel different, or their fulfillingness is of a different kind. Goes to fil a different need.
So yeah, the weight on that gap is the one you give to it.
Of course, this is not always something voluntary or completely voluntary, but knowing about it, knowing what to look into can help, whether how to think about it, work on it, or ease the possible harsh feelings about it if they’re there.
Sadly, this is not a tutorial on “how to find your hobbies” and if there’s any magic formula for it, we definitely do not have it. I can only say that we have found a bit useful to look first into the current hobbies of the reference person and then branch from that or look into past/almost forgotten hobbies of them. And that “mainstream hobbies” aren’t necessarily “one size fits all”, so there’s nothing wrong with not finding joy in them.
Also, although there’s a luck factor to it -to find/think of something you like-, time (and especially fronting time) is key, since it will allow you to see, experience, try, etc more things and/or get more into them. If that’s what you’re into, of course. But even for me, who has just a few interests, for some, it took a while, and I don’t even know how much I actually like them, since I haven’t invested enough time in them yet.
That said, we’d like to see more talk about how others think or feel about that gap, as we only know well about our experiences. So, feel free to tell us about it, how important is for you, how did you go about it, is it still bothering you…? It’d be cool to know!
All The Resources You'll Need To Build Your Own Wonderland, Headspace or Inner World, Now Mobile Compatible!
I made a page dedicated to this, but it wasn't mobile compatible. On request, I decided to make this in a post for mobile readers.
I see a lot of systems asking for advice on building their own inner worlds and Wonderlands. There are a lot of resources out there, but they can be difficult to track down because they all are so spread out between different websites and different systems, so I decided to make a dedicated page for the topic with all of the guides and resources I’ve gathered, to make the process as streamlined as possible.
What’s a Wonderland?
Wonderland, inner world and headspace all refer to places you create inside your mind. These are imagined environments in which you can interact with your headmates.
You should start with the expectation that it isn’t going to feel very real in the beginning. Immersion is a skill that takes time to build. Don’t get discouraged if your inner world experiences don’t match up perfectly with those of others. Be patient and be kind to yourselves.
On Building Headspace
On Building Headspace is an introductory guide that focuses on beginning with a simple object and building around it. It’s light, but is an effective starting point.
YOUR GUIDE TO THE HEADSPACE (For OSDD/DID systems)
This is an introductory guide to building headspaces specific for OSDD/DID.
The DIY Headspace Guide
This handy little guide has a lot of ideas of how to build a headspace for yourself with an accompanying pinterest to jog your creativity. This guide is all about using references from real life, games and art to use as the basis for your inner world.
Immersion
Now that you have the basics down, it’s time to start working on immersion. This is a more in-depth guide focused on immersing yourself in your Wonderland or headspace, going through each of your senses.
Wonderland Immersion
This guide utilizes a much more focused method of immersion through semantic analysis.
How To Refocus On Your Wonderland
A detailed guide on focusing your attention in the Wonderland and staying in the moment.
When Things Go Wrong in Your Imagination and How To Fix Them So They Don’t
This one is pretty self-explanatory, providing tips on how to rein in your Wonderland when it doesn’t seem to be behaving how you’d like it too.
Innerworlds & mindscapes in Plurality & dissociative identity disorder #DID101
This DID-focused guide to inner world creation is centered around using self-hypnosis to enter your inner world and create a safe space in your mind.
How to Build a Memory Palace
This one is actually not about building Wonderlands per se. Rather, it provides you a practical way to use your Wonderland to improve your memory once it’s built. If you’ve already worked so hard building your visualization skills, why not put them to good use by allowing you to more easily remember large amounts of information?
Additional Resources:
Besides guides, here are some other tools you might be interested in using for making your headspaces.
Homestyler
This was mentioned in the DIY guide, but I wanted to provide a direct link to the site, as it’s a free program and could be really useful for designing homes in your inner world.
Inkarnate
Where Homestyler is for your homes, Inkarnate is a map maker that you might find useful for designing the larger areas of your Wonderland. Caves, , landscapes, cities, countries, etc. It’s unfortunately mostly a fantasy map-maker, so you’ll struggle at building a lot of modern or sci-fi environments with it.
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Anyway, I hope someone out there can make use of these. And if anyone else has more guides or resources to add, don’t be afraid to send them my way! Good luck, and happy Wonderlanding!
From the handbook of the UniversCity of Sockovia.
Written and translated by Cpt. Bucky “Saia” Stardancer - Masterphool in the Outer Space
There is also something like a theory of colour in discordian magic. Discodianism refers specifically to some very special colours, the meaning of which should be explained briefly here from a discordo-magic point of view.
Gold
Ah, nice gold. Gold is pure, unadulterated and valuable. Gold has always been given special importance. Despite its apparent futility, wars for gold have always been fought and many people have lost their lives for absolutely unbelievable reasons (see Note 2). In Discordianism, gold is the colour of the Eris’ apple. If you look at the apple as a symbol of its meaning in early religious groups, you can quickly see that the apple is often revered here as a fertility symbol and is generally associated with beginning, creation and fertility. The scholairly Phool may quickly discover certain parallels here. Thus we have the golden apple of Eris and because gold is not rarely the color of beauty but unfortunately also of destruction is symbolized here the aspect of the season “aftermath”. The apple, on the other hand, symbolizes fertility and a new beginning and stands under the aspect of the season “chaos”. In this sense, the golden apple is thrown at the end of the seasons, the cards are shuffled and everyone is waiting for the events of the new year. Maybe it is this deeper insight that connects the gold with the divine, which makes people worship gold and assigns it to strange magical peculiarities. For the discordians, gold is the color of the divine. Eris himself touched the apple and in it lies her extraordinary ability to walk in chaos. It stands for the fertility of chaos and the old gods, but also for destruction and war. Just think of the legend of the Trojan War in its Discordic version of history, in which the only golden thing is the apple and gold is, for once, not the main reason for a war.
Another reference to gold as a magical Discordic colour can be found in R. A.’s Illuminatus books. Wilson and Robert Shea. Hagbard’s submarine is also made of gold and hides golden statues in the ruins of Atlantis that were more than just perfect (aspect divine).
So whenever a Phool wants to call the divine powers, the color gold should also be in play. Gold can also be used in lower rituals that are devoted to either fertility or destruction.
Gold:
Aspects: Divine, Creative, Destroying
Seasons: Aftermath, Chaos
Special item: Golden Apple, Submarines
Special holiday: The night of the 73rd aftermath of the 1st chaos
Residence: Anarchy, Spirituality
Direction: Top
Saint: Hagbard Celine
Serape: Billbob Cipherpants
Power animal: Starfish
Reagent: Gold, apples, starfish powder
Element: Boom
Note 1 It is advisable from Discordo’s magical point of view to place rituals containing an apple throw at the end of the year, exactly into the night when the seasons change. This symbolic action also reinforces the apple throwing as a symbol for the destruction of the old by the new.
Note 2 An old discordic proverb that I heard from the Dude of Germs at the time does not say “if you want to blind an army, throw gold in their faces”.
Note 3: The starfish is chosen as a power animal because it represents the beginning as well as the end, according to Starfish Cult. In the Starfish Circle it is an exploding star in fom by Big Motha Starfish who sends a small starfish to Earth and lets it all begin there. The circle ends with the small starfish returning to the cosmos. This is also where the cycle of decay and depletion can be seen. The golden cut also shows that the Starfish has a direct connection to Eris.
Grey
Grey is also a Discordic colour. She stands for grey face and grey bureaucracy on grey computers in grey buildings. Grey are grey days and the boredom that such days occasionally cause is horrible. Grey is monotonous. A meaningless mass in which all fountains in the grey fog become one and no separation between black and white can be seen. Grey thus represents the dissolution of concepts and black and white thinking. If you think grey, you think monochrome, not even another aspect is allowed besides grey, because grey covers everything. On the one hand, grey symbolizes the monotony or also the stubbornness with all the consequences of just one way to follow, on the other hand, the black and white one will just think that bureaucrats are so often subordinated to being dissolved in grey. Here, as with gold, you can see the contrast inherent in every discordic colour. Gray is the monotony, but it hides all aspects and facets that are hidden in the scale black and white. This represents the absolute tolerance that can be found in the discordo magic context in grey. That tolerance stands in direct connection with the proverbial black and white thinking and the ignorance people show when they simply hide unpleasant things. Since grey is also in connection with the fog, which hides everything from the eyes as a cloudy, grey mass, the colour grey is also suitable for discordo magic rituals that make something or someone disappear. Maybe on a grey day some nice gentlemen who are dressed in black and white, have a bureaucratic background and are ignorant and make something or someone disappear. In Discordianism, grey is also directly associated with Gruad Greyface, as well as with the curse of the grey face and the people we generally call “Greyface”. Despite this, for the discordant quite negative interpretation, Phools know the duality inherent in grey.
In the sense of the doctrine of emptiness and the dissolution of concepts as well as the blurring of boundaries, rituals containing the colour grey are often used in connection with the sacrifice of hard drugs.
Grey:
Aspects: duality, resolution, monotony
Seasons: Bureaucracy
Special item: jug, stamp
Special holiday: Bureauflux and every 4 years especially St. Tibs Day
Residence: Empty, Bureaucracy
Direction: Without
Saint: Anonymous
Serape: Ormek, Smith 51
Power animal: single-celled organism
Reagent: cabbages, bureaucratium, hard drugs
Element: Prickle
Note 1 The House of Emptiness uses a jug of water for certain rituals related to bureaucracy, disappearances or conformity. This may sound paradox at first, but it should also. Only together do the benefits of jug and water come together and so two things merge into one, black and white becomes grey. In addition, Larry lives in a jug and Larry is often seen as a protective demon of the home of emptiness.
Orange
Orange is one of the most classic colours offered by Discodianism. It is even so classical that it has its own element. Orange is strongly associated with gold and so it is hardly surprising that even orange has classic destructive gold aspects. Finally, orange is formed from the mixture of yellow and red. Fire is often depicted in orange, red or yellow, and just as fire has a destructive component, fire also stands for enlightenment and light in general. Fire is progress but also destruction and orange symbolizes just that. Progress by overcoming the old. Orange may well destroy, but the old is always followed by the new and Orange shows this in all its facets. Thus destruction can mean that this planet will eventually burn in the orange fire of the sun, but also the old ideas will be replaced in favour of new knowledge. The torch is a typical object whose orange features are more than obvious for initiated phoolics. Prometheus gave fire to the people and with it progress, knowledge and prosperity (gold/yellow colour) but also many villages were razed to the ground by the targeted throwing of a torch, not to mention how many people died on the pyre of the Middle Ages. And so, in Orange, the powers of destructive are united with the powers of constructive and prosperity. Orange is always used when it comes to invoking the powers of destruction or knowledge and creative creation. Orange thus clearly shows those aspects that have such a decisive influence on discordanism. Orange impressively combines the concepts of destructive and constructive order with the concepts of destructive and constructive chaos. And just as the warm fire in the huts and caves of our ancestors brought them safety, so Orange brings us security at least in the question of what comes after the end.
Orange:
Aspects: Destruction, Enlightenment, Security
Seasons: Finish
Special item: Torch
Special holiday: Afflux
Home: Wisdom, Anarchy
Direction: Bottom, Top
Saints: - unknown -
Serape: Maloy
Power animal: Butterfly
Reagent: Oranges, book ash, candles
Element: Orange
Note 1 Remarkable is that the color yellow from which orange is formed contains the aspect of creation and destruction as well as red the other color. Here, too, we find the astonishing connection between the four assumptions of the Discordians about the nature of chaos and order.
Note 2 As described below for purple, Orange is a transformer color capable of transforming something or someone. Often associated with the burning of a fire, wood is more rarely transformed into ashes than a torch or light of enlightenment, which transforms the seeker into a finder.
Purple
Purple is considered the colour of kings. Many noble men and women were described as “dressed in purple” and many high positions, whether secular or ecclesiastical, are only too happy to dress in this colour. Purple as a dye, was and is rare in demand. Whoever can afford it must have something (a crate of golden apples, for example) and whoever has something has the right to look down at the mob from above. That’s the way it is. It is astonishing to see the origin of purple as a dye, which is appreciated by the high people. The basic ingredient is the purple snail. Add salt and urine and the dye was almost ready. The whole thing must not only have stank horribly so somehow also remains a silent suspicion that the dyers gave their urine only too gladly into the mixture. This shows the first magical property of purple. For when the high Lord wears a robe of purple, he also carries snail secretion and urine. Purple has a balancing effect where inequality prevails. It syncronizes the room and provides a harmonious balance in which, in contrast to grey, it makes it easy for people to do what they want. Where grey aggresiev and dominant occurs, purple is rather soft, subtle and unpredictable. Purple is considered to be a high, possibly divine colour even in the Christian sect, and it is used to clothe the most important and highest offices or to decorate the most important and highest objects. Through this charge of purple, which has been recalled as a shade of colour, one can safely assume that purple also possesses a certain heightened degree of spiritual and magical nature. In Discordianism we find purple as the color of the Purple sage. An obviously wise man who was presumably dressed in purple or painted purple. We find him as a remark in the Principia Discordia, which refers to the Honest Book of Truth. There is also a legend about a stone of the Purple sage which is said to contain the chaos in its purple purest form. This stone is said to transform (grey lead) into golden apples, which in magical form means that purple is a transformator capable of magically turning discordomagic grey to discordomagic gold. Snail glands and dyer’s pipi become a king. For this reason, Phools like to use purple as a transformer color or for transfering rituals. Also in rituals that include the Phool as a fool or a joke amused about authorities is occasionally used purple to depict this. The fool is only too often king because he has more freedom to say what he thinks than anyone else. Likewise, many a king is a fool if he thinks he can control everything. However, purple is also the colour of wisdom that is obtained when the way gives the seeker a saying that appears meaningless.
Brother Ron Oxymo of the monastery Santa Pippilotta auf dem Besen writes to Purple
Purple/lilac/violet (not even an unambiguous designation has been achieved so far) is a highly transcendent color that breaks the frame and therefore stands outside of this color system. Each colour has its own specific oscillation, from blue (low frequency) to red (high frequency), but violet, since it is a mixture of red and blue, has both high and low oscillation. Because of this inherent contradiction, it is also regarded as a colour of irrationality or religiousness (which is not a contradiction for discordants). It is also suitable as a symbolic color for the contradictory DISCORDIA, as YOUR actual symbol color hyperpurple (a mixture of infrared and ultraviolet) is unfortunately invisible to human (and many other) eyes.
Since hyperpurple is not visible to the human eye, it can be assumed that there is also a strong connection between purple and Shmoo (the 5th colour). For Phools, this insight is invaluable when inventing spells and rituals that are supposed to transfer “base” qualities, things or persons into outer space. Here, too, the person to be transferred or transformed is wrapped in purple as a symbol of the transformation that the artifact in question is currently going through.
Purple:
Aspects: Transforming, Balancing
Seasons: All
Special item: robe,
Special holiday: All Flux days
Residence: Wisdom, Spirituality
Direction: Right, left
Morph: Betty (Bapheris)
Saint: - unknown - (the purple way can be used)
Flying monkey: - unknown-
Power animal: octopus
Reagent: red wine, a glass of snails, urine
Element: Piercing
Note 1 Just as purple can be understood as a transformer for the base to noble, so orange can be inspired as a counterpole transformer. Where purple used marble and fine wood to create palaces and temples, orange burns them down and transforms them into ashes.
Note 2 Purple is a soft, balancing transformer. If Orange transforms then with power and the result is unambiguous and not infrequently unchangeable. Purple as a magical color possesses the ability to transform gently. Almost imperceptibly the snail becomes the colour of the king’s robes and here purple is also very special. Where Orange is consistent, purple is balancing despite the transformation. The king remains dressed in fabric dyed with snails and urine.
Schmu
The last of the Discordo magic colors forms the invisible. The invisible color is that of the suspicions and suppositions and so some Phools suspect that the Principia Discordia also contains some pages that have been written with schmu and give a deeper insight. The invisible colour is, as already mentioned, related to purple but is rather in opposition to grey. When the spectrum is decolorized, every color in it is grey. Schmu looks the opposite. It covers the whole spectrum as well as grey but it intensifies the colours in it to the extreme. One can therefore also assume that schmu is a color from the inner part of the spectrum itself (a color of the inner cosmos). A common example under Phools says one should look into a star that emits all spectral colors. If you practice this only long enough you are able to see the invisible color (even if you don’t see anything after that). However, this comparison really hits the nail on the head and so schmu as well as grey is one of the hiding colors. Normal people and even the most discordians are not able to perceive schmu at all. It is a very phoolistic colour and from the similarity of the schmu in the outer space the name for this invisible colour finally resulted. Explaining schmu as a color is even more complex than explaining red or green to a blind person. Therefore, we should not even try to formulate a comparative explanation here. The color schmu is described by Phools as the color of the schmu of the outer space and for this reason and of course for reasons of simplicity this name was chosen. Schmu also has in common with grey that it is out of the spectrum. Where grey does not contain any colour, schmu combines all colours at the same time. In the ritual, this is clearly demonstrated by the use of rainbow colors or dust as a substitute for (invisible) schmu. Schmu is also often interpreted as the traditional magical colour of the Phools. However, this is usually done by uninitiated people because the inaugurated Phool knows that every colour is magical in equal parts and can therefore be regarded equally. Ultimately, all colours come from the same source anyway.
Schmu:
Aspects: Mixing, Dissolving, Hiding
Seasons: Chaos, Confusion
Special subject: Eristic focus,
Special holiday: - unknown -
House: All
Direction: Without
Saint: - unknown -
Serape: - unknown -
Power animal: - unknown -
Reagent: Rainbow dust
Element: - unknown -
Note 1 Phools also use schmu to describe the color of the particularly powerful, eristic antifacts. For example, this or that object is said to be very schmu saturated, or this or that book is very schmuy. This shows a particularly strong connection to the eristic energy which maybe corresponds to the opposite pole of grey, which is more associated with aneristic energy.
Note 2 There is virtually nothing known about schmu. This is probably due to the fact that only Phools can see this color and to the strange character of the Phools and the schmu itself. Ultimately you only know that this color exists in the discordic spectrum and somehow covers everything that the other colors can’t cover. This is the nature of schmu because schmu is made up of all colours.
How to Get Started as a Chaos Magician, with Links and PDFs
Step 1: start to meditate daily. This is not particularly complicated and will do you a world of good both in your magickal and mundane life. [here] is a no-nonsense video in which some breath control and meditation techniques are explained by some navy seals.
Step 2: Go out and get 2 notebooks, they can even be google docs or word documents. Doesn’t matter what they are so long as you have 2 distinct places to write shit down. Use notebook 1 as a dream journal and stick with it daily. Write down as much detail as you can, and even if you don’t remember dreaming write down “I do not remember any dreams I had yesterday night”. Notebook 2 is your magic notebook. In this you will take very detailed notes about any operation you do, the results, analysis of any failure that may occur, etc. Treat this thing like a lab notebook from a science class: to get anything out of this in the future you’ll not want to slack off when something works.
Step 3: It is often recommended in posts like these to begin the process of learning 2 divination systems. Yes, 2. One of these should be some esoteric shit like Tarot (I recommend the classic Rider-Waite-Smith for beginners) or I Ching, and a yes/no or more straightforward system like Pendulum or Geomancy (which is super cool to learn because it can become unto itself a system of magick as you become more advanced, for example this). Learning 2 systems in this way has a few advantages, such as having a reliable system to determine if your magick is working as you expect (and if it is not, why), as a gauge of events to come, and potentially communication with entities that arise throughout the course of your work.
Step 4: Read Oven Ready Chaos [PDF] by Phil Hine. It’s super short, pretty funny, and to the point. The key takeaways from this text are methods of attaining gnosis and the SPLIFF technique of sigilization, which is in theory the most basic discreet unit of magick.
Step 4.5: While you’re downloading Oven Ready Chaos, Dig around on Chaosmatrix [here]. Some of the articles can be a bit silly (bonus points if you can find the story about a dancing bear helping you get a job), but if you use your best judgement and treat everything on there as though a strange old man were yelling it to you across a busy street, there are some real gems.
Step 5: Begin to apply the above tips and tricks alongside the methods contained within Oven Ready Chaos to shape reality around you. In your explorations, you may find other systems of magick from which chaos magick “technology” [referred to as tech, these are the spells and techniques adapted from other systems or developed within the chaos magick paradigm for use by the magician], which you are encouraged to explore. The emphasis in this step is application- practice is so much more useful than theory at almost all levels of experience in chaos magick.
Step 6: You’ll eventually want to learn a method of “Banishing”, which is the fancy name for a ritual act that helps protect you from any magickal dust, grime, wear, and tear that you may pick up along the way. The best banishing procedure for beginners is likely the Gnostic Pentagram Ritual, which can be found [here]. It’s Great for beginners and experienced magicians alike because it’s surprisingly effective and pretty fun- who doesn’t like to spin in circles and say IEAOU while drawing pentagrams in the air?
So what does this all look like in practice?
Lets say you wake up one morning and remember a distinctly vivid dream. You roll over in bed, grab your notebook, and write down the gist of the dream and any important personal symbolism that may have appeared. After this, you go and put on a pot of coffee. While you wait for it to brew you sit quietly in the kitchen and practice box breathing technique until the coffee is done. Over coffee and a bowl of cereal, you grab your shiny new tarot deck and draw a card, both to familiarize yourself with the meanings of the cards and to get a general overview of how the day may go. Let’s say you draw the 3 of Pentacles Reversed, indicating that there may be some problems at work today. Seeing this, you decide that you should do some quick magick to make yourself more agreeable to your coworkers, and decide on making a sigil using the hot new SPLIFF method you just read about. You decide on the phrase “I will have positive interactions with my coworkers today” and turn it into a glyph, use a breath control technique to induce gnosis, and fire away. You ditch the sigil and get the process out of your mind, then go about the rest of your day. You avoid any conflict at work, and have a surprisingly pleasant day, even with those coworkers that you aren’t super fond of. Once you get home, you write down in your magick journal what card you drew, how you interpreted the card, what you did about it, and if what you did worked. Before bed, something in your gut feels slightly off, so you decide to perform the Gnostic Pentagram Ritual before getting into bed. You run through the script and feel much better after the fact, making a quick note of this in your magick journal for the day. You go to bed, satisfied that you’re on your way to becoming a competent chaos magician.
This has been Part 1 in what will hopefully be a long series of posts about doing practical magick and how to actually approach systems of magick in an effective way. Feel free to drop asks with any questions.
You really let yourself go, didn’t you? You’ve gained so much. How can you even look at yourself in the mirror? Do you even recognize who you see? Of course not. You know the solution. It’s so simple. Just eat less. Just cut down on the calories, eat more veggies, stop stuffing you body with carbs and sugar. Don’t go over 500, maybe 600, 700 if it’s a really bad day. Stop binging, only weak fat people binge. If you must eat a lot, binge on veggies. Stop giving up, stop saying “fuck it I’ll eat”. Unless you want to stay a sad, fat, blob.
this is part one of the “skinny girl dines out”. see more restaurants by using the links below to navigate the different sections. feel free to request a menu.
Damn okay. 6 hours worth of songs. I made this in my music taste so some of you may completely hate this but I figured I would post it for you guys. This is stuff Id listen to while restricting or depressed. It is a mix of upbeat songs and sad songs. Mostly sad though. Reblog and share with your friends.
