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glowcowboy

where my fellow crybabies at

glowcowboy

crybabies make some fuckin noiiiise

notavampiretrustme

Anger? Crying. Depression? Crying. Hope? Crying. Love? Crying.

Ts never stops

#crybaby #sensitive #screaming crying throwing up #overly emotional

willgrahamscock

you’re always posting about some faggot shit

hell yeah brother

transgenderization

i love this gif im posting it everywhere today

cracklet

Punching Him Thursday

loveridden1999

i’m a drunk, lord. i’m a liar. i am a thief, lord. i profit off the miseries of other men, and i do it easy. drugs, liquor, women. i-i-i lure them in and grab what they got, lord. i take daughters with no homes and i-i put em out on the street, lord, and i lie to myself saying i-i’m giving em roof and food and dollar bills in they pocket, but i look in the mirror, i know what i am. the big man in the big house, stuffin cotton in my ear so i can't hear their cries. and, lord, i dragged my family into this mess with me. I SHAME MY FATHER. i failed my brother. i lost my mother and sister, and rather than fix it like a man should, lord, i run like a coward. i run to the bottle. i run to the grift. i run to bad beds. i laid down with a MAN. i laid down with THE DEVIL. and he has ROOTS in me. all his SPINDLY ROOTS in me. AND I CAN'T THINK NOTHING ANYMORE BUT HIS VOICE AND HIS WORDS!! please. HELP MEEE! I AM WEAK!!! i wanna die.

voidpostings1

rustblogging

I think chronic/ passive suicidal ideation is akin to the non descriptive feeling of homesickness while you are still at home. A sense of “I want to go home” without knowing what your brain means by “home”. All you know is you long for it

#pdd #bipolar disorder #bipolar 2 #chronic illness #chronic suicidality #passive suicidality #mental health #pontification #homesick #mom im tired #can i dream for a few months more #can you wash my back this once #so that I can forget it all

I know people don’t think of me as a particularly generous or selfless person but what they don’t realize is that everyday I make the conscious, painful decision to stop them from feeling a lifelong grief. And part of this sacrifice is never letting them find out what exactly I fight off for their sake.