NotQuiteMarya

"...you are all that you have, so you must be enough." - MH

[notquitemarya]

I met someone at a party. I never meet people at parties. We talked. We danced. We drank. We held hands and kissed. And for the first time in a very long time I just want to be near this man and talk to him about everything and nothing, although I’ve only spent a few hours of my entire existence with him. I don’t know if we’d actually be compatible. But living on different continents makes it hard to find out.

Not impossible, just harder.

[notquitemarya]

Perspective

My struggles are nothing compared to those literally fighting to survive.

https://www.bbc.com/news/world-asia-india-52672764

https://www.bbc.com/news/av/world-africa-52711195/teranga-a-naples-nightclub-helping-migrants-overcome-trauma

[notquitemarya]

How to Make Hearty Sweet Potato-and-Kale Soup

Here's how to make Hearty Sweet Potato-and-Kale Soup.

[lsleofskye]

Pine Tree Heaven | moners

[thinterwonderland-deactivated20]

Reblog if you’ve been trying for way too long while simultaneously not trying at all

[notquitemarya]

About to be brave and go running. Send power vibes!

[elivanto]

[notquitemarya]

Truth

[elivanto]

[nodesserttillyoufinishyourfandom]

P

[bluegrasshole]

here’s the same post but less bitter/more coherent so skinny people are allowed to read it lmao

[notquitemarya]

This.

[notquitemarya]

I myself am hell

nobody’s here.

-Robert Lowell

[notquitemarya]

You don’t have to tell me you love me

when you see that I am troubled

and lunge across the chasm

grabbing my hand,

refusing to let go -

I already know.

[heart-of-a-wildflower-deactivat]

What about

What about when recovery isn’t smoothie bowls and organic vegan bars and protein cookies? What about when recovery is about trying to eat whatever’s in the fridge because you can’t afford all that?

What about when recovery isn’t supportive family members visiting you in hospital and crying with you? What about when recovery is accepting that just because they blame you, it doesn’t mean it’s your fault?

What about when recovery isn’t collapsing and being rushed to hospital to be tube fed? What about when recovery is functioning on the outside and learning to deal with ‘you don’t look ill’?

You are the one who is ill. You are the one who is recovering. It does not have to look the same as someone else.

[notquitemarya]

He held me in his arms tonight while we talked about some deep things, and he kissed me on top of my head.

I believe more and more that I love him. And I am starting to think that he loves me.

[notquitemarya]

My dear boy,

How do I love you? Oh, this way and that way. Oh, happily. Perhaps I may elaborate by

demonstration? Like this, and like this and

no more words now

(I care about you very much.)

[notquitemarya]

I feel really sad

No good reason why.

[notquitemarya]

Currently in Kathmandu

It's bizarre, really, to be in a developing country where I can't drink the tap water but I see everyone with a smartphone.

Everyone has been so kind. The pace is relaxed, even the chaos in the roads is "chill". It is appealing in a way, but I do miss some of the modern comforts of the US. But this is good for me.

It's a completely different perspective on life. For that I am grateful.

[cartnsncreal]

She should have a statue. Not those confederate MFs.

[caffeine-freee]

That’s literally the most badass portrait too

[notquitemarya]

First time in Seattle. A darling little city, loving the contrast between the skyline and the mountains.