deadly died suffering

24, aries sun, gemini moon, leo rising. asian MDNI

[dreamyvixen]

quincymood

[nottosoundslikeapsycho]

i didn't think you'd understand me. how could you ever even try?

[nottosoundslikeapsycho]

crashing tf out

[nottosoundslikeapsycho]

it must be so easy for you to ignore me for the whole week then popping up on my screen with “how are you?” like nothing happened

[nottosoundslikeapsycho]

to you, i might have always been just some air, not because it’s important. but the way you will never notice me, or my existence.

[nottosoundslikeapsycho]

reassurance was all i ever wanted from you

but it seems like you have no clue

i need to beg for the right treatment.. what’s the point then? since i have said it too many times. finally, you’ve already killed me.. with the ignorance, instead of what i asked

[webzzo]

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[musingsofmi]

I seek to find peace of mind

but, I can’t escape my mind

I create my own demise

Dark thoughts summon doom

Dark clouds loom over my tomb

Raining on me like a monsoon,

This doom

This doom

Peace be still

Peace be kind

Peace be mine

Empty my mind, Refill it with wine

Empty my mind, Refill it with rhymes

Dance in front of open blinds

Who cares who sees my crimes

Watering my soil, filling my heart

This doom monsoon no longer tears me apart

I sway, I pray, I scream into the winds,

The doom is benign I’ve got plenty of time

To renew my fight

To harness my own light

That can burn through dark nights.

This is healing. March 21, 2022

[cindyzcorner]

still waters

white fluorescent spindly limbs

blue lips, white eyes

still she haunts you

whenever you close your eyes

her smile will follow

you know what you did

as if the water leaking from her mouth

wasn't enough of a reminder

[leonardospoetry]

Some chapters of life don’t actually have an apparent ending. They just fade away silently.

It’s a strange feeling to look back at the past sometimes and see how some parts of life have simply dissolved into nothingness. And even though this poem might sound sad, I believe that being mindful of the transience of life actually helps us to feel all the preciousness and beauty of it.

[letsbelonelytogetherr]

Oscar Wilde, The Picture of Dorian Gray

[letsbelonelytogetherr]

i hope you never have to know the weight of being left before you’re even gone.

the quiet cruelty of being unloved in advance, of someone deciding—before you’ve even had the chance to be— that they don’t want you anymore.

[thoughtbegone]

I get attached and detached from some people way too quickly and ik it’s part and parcel of the disorder but damn ouch

[beautifuldarkmind]

I’m jealous of those who can function like a normal human being. They don’t have anxiety holding them back from everything, they don’t struggle to get out of bed or have to put on an act that everything is fine when its not. They don’t struggle to hold friendships and relationships… they don’t feel sad for no fucking reason everyday. Those that can hold jobs and work towards their dreams, the ones who have self esteem and see the beauty in themselves. Those that know what its like to feel safe and secure, not insecure and fearful of it all. 

[anqelek]

hard relate

[anqelek]

everyday is the same. i’m so extremely bored and empty. no energy to do anything other than sleep. when will this end

[rain-rainynights-side]

after living my life in monochrome, it is strange to step into a world of soft pastels and feel the gentle warmth of being alive and loved

[rain-rainynights-side]

i thought i was happier, i thought i was doing better, i thought i was beyond the sadness that penetrated every fiber of my being. but i guess when one domino falls, the rest cascade until you are right back where you started: all your pieces in a pile you can't pick up and reassemble in the manner that you wish