Hey there! Welcome to the lawless frontier that is my blog. My super cool, super secret interweb codename is Batty if you'd like to call me anything other than "friend." 🧡
I write fanfic. I like Dragon Age, dnd, scifi and long drabbles about feelings. You can find me on Ao3 as fruitbatproductions, and I'm just getting started over there. Details and current WIPS are linked below. Stick around if you see something you like!
Drink water, take your meds and fear no darkness! 🥭🦇
Long term projects:
Carry the Dagger (47415 words) by fruitbatproductions
Chapters: 5/? Fandom: Dragon Age (Video Games), Dragon Age: The Veilguard (Video Game)
Rating: Mature
Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Major Character Death
Relationships: Lucanis Dellamorte/Rook, Lucanis Dellamorte/Rook/Spite, Neve Gallus & Bellara Lutare, Strife/Emmrich Volkarin
Characters: Neve Gallus, Lucanis Dellamorte, Davrin (Dragon Age), Taash (Dragon Age), Emmrich Volkarin, Lace Harding, Bellara Lutare, Rook (Dragon Age), Solas (Dragon Age), Original Inquisitor Character(s) (Dragon Age), Dorian Pavus, Manfred (Dragon Age), Assan (Dragon Age)
Additional Tags: Hurt/Comfort, Tooth-Rotting Fluff
Summary: Rook was not prepared to drop a statue on an elven god. Or for the world to immediately start ending. But Maker's Breath, they are meeting some of the most amazing people trying to stitch Thedas back together again, including the soft spoken assassin that keeps making their stomach do backflips without even trying.
Lucanis was not prepared to meet a Veil Jumper so ready to set fire to the gods' coattails. Much less for them to ask his help in it. Spite, of course, is thrilled.
Uncombed by fruitbatproductions
Words: 4,642 and counting
TANGLED AU BELLARA/DAVRIN CRACKFIC
Rating: Teen & Up
Summary: Bellara when her life will begin outside the walls of a magic tower. You guys saw Tangled. Davrin as Flynn Rider? Click the link. You might like it.
Inspired by a few lovely mutuals on tumblr. I have thrown myself headfirst into... whatever the hell this is. Enjoy chapter one!
Oneshots & Drabbles
Critiqued Form and The Kitchen Counter by fruitbatproductions
4,604 words
Rating: Explicit
Summary: Mild smutty drabble of Rookanis, post Blood of Arlathan (in that time somewhere, prompted on tumblr 7. “Oh, shut up. “You shut up.” “Make me.” “Okay, but you might moan a little.” ) Porn with feelings, praise, handjob with romantic intent
TYSM for the tags @kogarashi-art, @sorcerousadventurer, @redaresss & @handsignals! Your perfume bottles and scents are gorgeous! 😍
picrew here!
I had a lot of fun thinking about this, and had a vision of a perfume ad in Warden Magazine, so y'all know I had to make one lol.
Canonically Ayla is a basic #SadWardenBitch, and can't even be bothered to do her own hair, let alone wear perfume. She's never even worn a dress until she snoops around at a Mourn Watch ball with Emmrich in my longfic!! 😂
But despite her no-frills lifestyle, she will happily indulge that man in anything. And like most nice things she owns, I reckon her signature scent was gifted to her by Em. In my canon Emmrich POVs, he thinks Ayla smells like moonblossoms, leather, and the woods. So I have to imagine that's what this smells like.
Top Notes: moonblossoms
Heart Notes: whiskey & petrichor (Ayla always thinks the air smells like petrichor after one of Emmrich's spells)
Base Notes: leather, moss, & cedar
As for the name, y'all know I love my moon symbolism for Ayla since her name means 'moonlight' and it's the reason I picked her name in the first place: 'cause what are Wardens if not a light in the darkness? ✨
Actually, no, I don't think that friendships dropping like flies in your late 20s and early 30s because no one has time for that between overwork and family obligations and marriage and kids and partners and the ritual of the time slayer is normal and ok. No I don't think deep conversations and spontaneous adventures being replaced with a tired coffee every six months is a normal part of growing up. I don't think that emotional intimacy and soul bonds disintegrating in the face of practical inconvenience is a fact of life. I think that means something is deeply deeply wrong with our society and I will never forgive it for the friends I've lost
Thanks for the tags @genjyoandgojyoandhakkai and @thiamilano! This was a fun Friday morning distraction from work!
Get a screenshot of your OC's eye color and surround it with 8 things that are of the same color.
I did more than 8 😅
So Maribel has eyes that are tricky to pin down entirely, because they can be quite different depending on the light (and don't even get me started on makeup), hence the three damn screenshots I included! More than anything else, they remind me of a stormy sea, and all the colors that can contain. But I tried to pick some other fun things too! I LOVE celestite and aquamarine, and they fit the bill perfectly too!
Gentle-est of tags to @notyourmamasdeerbat, @rosha84, @bigshrimp365, @vixenofcadmea, @gatesofminrathous, @ripzaraschips, @eiluned and anyone else that might want to play!
Like “I realized that I was in the wrong and now I will work hard to atone” is good and all, but “how dare you infect me with morals” will always be so much more entertaining
No. I know this is probably just a casual commiseration but I think it's a real and important question to ask and answer. If doing the stuff you're expected to do everyday is super hard, then something is probably wrong.
Anyone who relates to this too hard, I'd recommend looking up spoon theory and starting to make a record of how you feel and your experiences that you can bring up with some kind of health professional. Chances are if doing laundry feels like climbing everest, it's because you're disabled in some way. Whether that disability is some invisible chronic illness or depression or ADHD or burnout, *something* is wrong.
Almost all disabilities have some form of treatment or accommodation that can make your life easier. If you can get a diagnosis, you might also be eligible for official accommodations and benefits. Social security sucks ass and is almost impossible to access but like, it's not the only thing out there set up to help disabled folks and usually local organizations are gonna be better anyway.
Plenty of people reblogging this probably already know they're disabled in some way but if even 1 person sees this and can learn something important about themselves then it's worth saying.
TLDR: people who aren't disabled don't find acts of daily living extremely hard. Maybe look into that and see if you can get help making your life less hard.
This is super important okay. Like, I used to try to ask my conservative family/church/etc. for help, and they’d just be all, “suck it up; life is hard for everyone; quit being such a baby”... and then I went to, like, actual experts, and they were basically like, “um, wow, you’re clearly super depressed and suicidal; you should actually be proud of yourself for still being alive!” And I’m still trying to unlearn the former and accept the latter, even after all this time. And I’m so mad that I’ve wasted so much time just trying to “push through it” instead of getting help I clearly need(ed), and that’s still a thing I struggle with.
Please, please seek real help if you need it. Like, I understand that there are shitty doctors and shitty therapists and whatnot, but it’s so worth expending what effort you can to find good ones who can help. If you have mentally ill friends -- which, if you’re reading this in the first place, you almost certainly do -- they might be able to point you in the right direction.
I have a friend with insane ADD and we have this same conversation sometimes
She can't actually even define laziness (which is weird) but she thought she was just lazy, life was that hard for everyone, and that everyone else was just being more responsible at managing it. I told her laziness feels good once and she blue screened.
Like if you can't define laziness, you've probably been convinced it's something that it's not. Probably something nebulous and hard to describe. Like, idk, an unknown disorder.
In case you're one such person, laziness feels great. It's not stressful. It's like the opposite of stressful. If you're being stressed and lazy at the same time you've managed to do it wrong somehow. The only struggle in being lazy is wanting the tv remote and being to darn comfortable to want to move. (But you get it anyways, because it's not an inability to get the remote. You were just cozy.)
Think of it like a cat sitting near a warm heater or a hamster so relaxed it "melts". If there were danger, or if the animal were hungry, it would get up. It probably doesn't want to get up because it's comfortable but it will. If the hamster is actually genuinely hungry but it can't get up and it's just laying there stressed and starving, you would take your animal to the vet because it has a problem.
That’s how it was for me growing up, too. I seriously thought everyone was constantly exhausted, confused, and in pain like I was and I was just really, really bad at dealing with it, didn’t want to try hard enough, and was just lazy.
Additional gentle reminder that the regular amount of unidentifiable/unexpected pain is none. The normal amount of unidentifiable/unexpected pain is none.
Sore the next day after a workout? Makes sense.
Sore for the next week after a workout? Not normal.
Barked your shin on a low coffee table and have an ache/bruise? Expected.
Gently brushed past the doorframe and your arm feels like it's on fire? Not normal.
Joint pain in your teens/20's is not normal. Heart problems in your teens/20's are not normal. Continual (AKA chronic!) fatigue despite diet/sleep schedule is not normal.
If you cannot point to an event or series of events that caused the discomfort/pain you are experiencing ("I fell off my bike", "I walked 3 miles", "I slept poorly", "I haven't been getting all the nutrients I need"), it's probably not normal! And it is okay to want that discomfort/pain to stop, even if it's mild! Most people are not going through their daily lives consistently uncomfortable or in pain.
Most people are not going through their daily lives uncomfortable or in pain.
You deserve to be comfortable and to have things be easy. Whether that looks like readjusting your life and expectations or getting professional help (medical/mental/other), you deserve it. I promise.
Thanks for the tags @gatesofminrathous and @epiphany-jones! How is it Wednesday again already? 😅
Broken record time. I'm still chipping away at this first kiss thing and not making a ton of progress on it. But this week, I think I figured out why!
Up to this point, with the exception of the 4 chapters of pulverizing Lucanis post-Tearstone (that I also still need to finish 😅😅😅), I am historically a one-shot writer that jumps the FUCK around. I have been writing this first kiss thing with the intention of getting to Lucanis & Maribel's first time together, since I've had the meat and potatoes of it written out since last summer! The thing is, it needs some rework and garnishing simply because of revelations I've had about them both in that time. I am still having revelations about them, and this is what's getting to me; I think I need to buckle down and write some stuff in order, to prevent even more revelation-based rework in the future.
Because I could pull the trigger and publish them fuckin' sloppy in the Cantori Diamond tomorrow, but I know I will be circling back around to it eventually, and with work so up in the air, I may not have the luxury of that kind of time.
So I've been spending some time writing out something of an outline (which is not very fun to share as a WIP!). I've always had a vague plan of one-shots in mind for them, I just think I might be morphing it into a little collection of arcs I can fit into small multi-chapter fics, both for organization's sake, and to be a little more cohesive as a story (and as a way to inject a lil more angst, because we love angst). Now it's just a matter of getting it all out of my head into some kind of plan to set myself up for future success.
All that to say I am very much wanting to amp up their push and pull a bit more than I'd originally planned, so here, have some literal pushing on their Minrathous walk and talk after Inner Demons.
Gentle-est of tags to @notyourmamasdeerbat, @rosha84, @bigshrimp365, @genjyoandgojyoandhakkai, @vixenofcadmea, @ripzaraschips, @eiluned and anyone else that might want to play!
