messiest bitch in the galaxy

doomed by the narrative

[rneowth]

i am now minus one organ

[zukotheartist]

i actually love that Janine gets like her mom when she's drunk and not because it's funny (tho it is) but because it's a very smart way imo of casually reminding people just how much a parent/bad parenting can affect you. Even with characters whose bad upbringings led them to be entirely different from their parents, i feel like sometimes people forget that that certain character wasn't raised properly. And it's really hard to not have an Ounce of similarities (especially bad ones at that too) with your parents idk idk just a really cool and smart choice imo and really underlines that Janine had to put in effort to be as nice as she is (i think another hint of this is when she sees an email from a woman to Eddie and she gets fairly jealous even tho it was some type of hr email or smth)

[everythingisamazing]

The night Jayce and Viktor become partners is a turning point from which their lives are forever intertwined. Within those few hours, I think there is one moment that is especially significant for Viktor – this one:

Viktor: "The crystals will only stabilize at high frequencies. You have to-" Jayce: "Crank it!" Viktor: "Yes. Yes. You have to... crank it!"

Before this, he was intrigued by Jayce’s ideas and hoped they could build something together as scientists. But this is more than discussing facts and theories – it’s playful. And the one thing we know about Viktor’s past is that he was a lonely child: he had no one to play with, due to his disability but also because other children his age likely couldn’t keep up with him intellectually.

The only person who did understand him was Singed - but Singed was already a grown adult - awfully serious - and probably not interested in building toy boats with Viktor. And even if he had been, I think most of us can agree that nothing can ever replace the joy of having someone your own age to play with.

Well, more than a decade later - there's Jayce, who builds upon Viktor's explanation in a way that absolutely delights him. Because not only does Jayce understand him perfectly - the back and forth makes it feel like a game. You can tell how much this moment sticks out to him, because a little later, Viktor brings it up again, only for the joke not to land this time. (He looks so sweet and awkward there, it gives me cute aggression every time I see it).

That's why I see the scene of them being face to face during the council room fight mirroring the crank-it moment. Because once again, Viktor goes for echoing Jayces words back to him: "Let's do this once again as...partners." (This is the first time we hear him using that term to describe them) He also, if you look carefully, has this expectant look, with a small smile on his face - that transforms into a disappointed pout, when Jayce denies him.

Here we can see how Viktor’s playfulness is still there, but now it’s laced with aggression and, if you ask me, sexual frustration. The latter part I think we can derive from a) the doll-form mirroring Mel and b) basically everything else about that fight. Just...look at it lol. So in true Arcane fashion, what once was the innocent wish of a lonely child – to finally have someone to play with – is twisted into something darker, that results in even more heartbreak.

[sulkybender-retired04042026]

Sooo much of Jayce’s impulsive decision-making and emotional life makes sense if you understand that for him, Everything Is An Emergency.

He is so swamped by his emotions that everything registers as an emergency that requires an immediate fix, ideally within the next 30 minutes. He is so overwhelmed by other people’s emotions that it’s an emergency.

He wants to help and protect the people he loves so badly that he is completely overwhelmed and reckless and panicking, with the narrow range of vision panic brings.

He means so well but he is never, never calm inside.

My mental image of Jayce responding to anything is the shot of him racing down the hall with Viktor in his arms. I think everything feels like that to him, always.

I really like thinking about Viktor calming and grounding him. I love that it’s the first thing we see from the moment they meet—Jayce having an emotional emergency, Viktor drawing him back to earth.

[sulkybender-retired04042026]

ding ding ding!

[sulkybender-retired04042026]

I love you guys 😂❤️

[samgirard]

they're really making scott hunter into a character of all time though he's deeply repressed, he's incredibly lonely, he's obsessive, he's a walking tragedy, he's like if american psycho fixated entirely on wifing up a barista, he longs for domesticity, he gets bullied by twinks and bullies them back, he's walking around sochi going through his own circles of hell because he ruined his own life and absolutely no one knows and on top of all that he's like forty years old scott hunter i would protect you with my life

[callmeizukunotdeku]

absolutely hate the way people keep talking about ai because no one seems to know what they're saying. it's always "all ai is bad" until it's "all generative ai is bad" until it's "all generative ai except for things like translators and GPS all those other things that we didn't know were generative ai and have been using for years are bad" and it's like,,, sweetie listen, please

like almost everything else in this world, ai isn't good or bad, just dangerous, and right now, it's being used to carry out a techno-fascist agenda. by not critically engaging with the ethics of ai, not only are you keeping yourself uneducated about a political weapon people are going to be using against you, but you're denying the opportunity of technologized anti-capitalism

you cannot defeat a system by not engaging with it; you defeat a system by striving for an option the system doesn't offer you

[zelkams-art]

in all timelines in all possibilities only you can show me this

[newtness532]

[antigonickpdf]

my favourite part of the teaser is that lestat is actually relatively mellow for most of it, like he takes louis’ teasing fairly goodnaturedly and talks about painful topics without spiralling or lashing out. even when he’s genuinely extremely upset by the book thing, he’s clearly trying to process it in his own way and even attempts to communicate his hurt instead of just getting vicious. but then he hears armand’s name from across the room and you can pinpoint the precise moment Hysterical Cunt Lestat logs back on. those two syllables are all it takes before he’s visibly deciding to be crazy again, and the very next thing he does is scream in a stranger’s face then storm out. after which point presumably he went straight home to flush his mood stabilisers and shred his DBT workbook with his teeth, because mommy dearest is BACK and she’s ready to be WORSE THAN EVER!

[lovenotstarwar]

lol. lmao, even

[loveridden1999]

your 20s are all about being stuck in the time loop

[justabittraumatized]

“All those years I spent focusing on her(Mom), all the time I spent orienting my every thought and action toward what I thought would please her most, were pointless. (…) I tried desperately to understand and know my mother—what made her sad, what made her happy, and on and on and on—at the expense of ever really knowing myself. Without Mom around, I don’t know what I want. I don’t know what I need. I don’t know who I am.”

From I’m glad my mom died by Jeanette McCurdy

[maycanady]

@gifevents | new beginnings Day 5. Back to Square One

HAPPY DEATH DAY 2U (2019) dir. Christopher Landon

[bladeweave]

"they should be in a healthy relationship with good communication" they should be obsessive freaks who stalk each other and have zero boundaries

[raisingyourjoys]

because if i don't, that means that all the damage i got isn't good damage, it's just damage. i have gotten nothing out of it, and all those years i was miserable was for nothing. i could have been happy this whole time and written books about girl detectives and been cheerful and popular and had good parents, is that what you're saying? what was it all for?━ when i was a little girl, i thought that everything, all the abuse and neglect, it somehow made me special, and i decided that one day i would write something that would make little girls like me feel less alone. and if i can't write that book...

[gocelot]

Out of Bojack’s stacked cast, Diane is definitely my favorite character (though PC is not far behind). I’m personally convinced Diane Nguyen is a high-masking autistic. Now, is part of this me projecting heavily because I strongly relate to Diane? Yes, definitely. But I also think it makes sense.

The general impression we’re initially given of Diane is that of a somewhat awkward, anxious, nerdy woman. She’s highly devoted to her work, and particularly to ideas of justice and fairness. We soon learn she was bullied in high school and hasn’t really gotten over it. She’s always felt like the odd one out, even within her own family, and to cope with the social ostracism, she developed an unwavering passion: writing. Diane is actually remarkably emotionally intelligent, able to advise and discuss feelings and relationships cogently with Bojack. I think that’s where the high-masking comes in— Diane is someone who’s worked incredibly hard to learn to understand people and be able to navigate them. She comes to understand people as systems, as ruled by the circumstances surrounding them, leading to her investment in politics.

The first episode where I really connected to Diane was season 2’s ‘Hank after Dark.’ Diane nonchalantly lets it slip that the famous and well-liked Hank Hippopopalous is an alleged sexual predator, sparking shock around the country (despite this information previously being available publicly.) the case becomes something of an obsession for her, and she appears constantly on television to advocate for her cause and bring Hippopopalous to justice. Everyone around her tells her to stop, that what’s she’s doing is pointless and only generating threats and hate towards her, but she’s doggedly unwilling to. That complete moral rigidity, that certainty of belief and refusal to back down even when socially pressured, even when it’s maybe causing more harm than good— I watched that and I realized it was exactly like me and my black and white thinking/ Justice sensitivity (though that term is a bit iffy in my mind— it’s more about sticking to perceived fairness and values than the truly just ones) This is a trait of her’s that defines her character throughout the entire show, see the Cordovia ark, Mr.Peanutbutter running for governor, her reporting as a whole.

Diane is someone who defines her life through passion and morality. Her passion ties to her morals— she wants to make the world a better place with her writing, whether that’s through exposing sexual predators, drawing attention to war-torn children in Cordovia, or even writing a book of memoirs that might just connect with other lonely, different little girls. Diane is deeply empathetic, and she wants to be like other people, admires the simplicity and ease which Mr. Peanut butter glides through life, but she simply can’t. She tries to ‘go with the flow’ like he does, accept the showmanship and grand gestures that she finds so surface-level and off putting. She’s disgusted by the apathy of the world, and she can’t help but to be jaded by it. It’s natural, when you’re so acutely aware of the cruelty of the world around you, to lean into sarcasm and adopting a sardonic persona to protect yourself from it (Bojack does something extremely similar and their parallels are something I could talk about all day!) But Diane can still never pretend to not care. That’s the one thing she truly can’t mask, that burning passion and need to challenge the injustices of the world. It’s a sort of intensity that most of the allistic people around her don’t understand, and disparage.

When Diane struggles to write her book of memoirs she asks ‘Why? Why did I suffer so much like this if I could have just been happy, and perky, and popular?’ Before my diagnosis, this was a constant torment for me. The worry that it was my fault, that my inability to fit in was self-inflicted, whether it was the anxiety or simply wanting to be special and different. Diane’s lifelong struggle with anxiety and depression heavily mirrors my own, as well. A lifetime of feeling unlike others, feeling like your values don’t align with anyone else around you, it wears away on you. Makes you feel like you’re personally flawed, broken. And if you can’t work that brokenness into your true passions, into your beautiful salad bowl, then what do you have? What can you do, if all your damage isn’t good damage, with some divine point or lesson. It’s just… damage.

[rosefinchie]

how it all feels lately