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good vibes & knuckle knives [18+]

[rosenkranz-does-things]

How would you have asked Alecto the First to lie—how would you have persuaded that mad monster into even an unsophisticated con?

[light-camera-bitch-smile]

ianthe: harry can't POSSIBLY love you, nav; she lobotomized herself to forget about you! to love is to remember!

not five pages earlier: gideon waxing poetic about how harrow tenderly wrapped gideon's sunglasses (that harrow allegedly hated btw) and sealed them tightly in an envelope for eight months on the OFF CHANCE gideon came back in some way shape or form

gideon: yeah seems legit. i mean she didn't even seem happy when i died for her so like.

[jillothewisp]

me: the ninth is a poor planet, and harrow is more cognizant of that than anyone, so if anything her look should be austere!

also me: hnnng,, bone kokoshnik

[vividciggy]

Something silly

[ofroseandivory]

i’m not calling you a liar, griddlehark song of all time. “just stop haunting me”? “and i love you so much, i’m gonna let you kill me”?? “there’s a ghost in my lungs and it sighs in my sleep”??? “then it walks with my legs to fall (to fall, to fall) at your feet”???? “but for the grace of god go i, and when you kiss me i am happy enough to die”?????

[tulipseason]

this is harrow on the erebos. to me

[vividciggy]

Some more doodles

[theabyssofhappy]

THE EGGS YOU GAVE ME ALL DIED AND YOU LIED TO ME SO I DID THE IMPLANTATION MYSELF YOU SELF-SERVING ZOMBIE AND YOU STILL SENT HIM AFTER ME AND I WOULD HAVE HAD HIM IF I HADN’T BEEN COMPROMISED AND HE TOOK PITY ON ME! HE TOOK PITY ON ME! HE SAW ME AND HE TOOK PITY ON ME

AND FOR THAT I’LL MAKE YOU BOTH SUFFER UNTIL YOU NO LONGER UNDERSTAND THE MEANING OF THAT GODDAMNED WORD

HIM I’LL KILL QUICK BECAUSE SHE ASKED ME TO AND BECAUSE THAT MUCH HE HONESTLY DESERVES BUT YOU TWO MUMMIFIED WIZARD SHITS I WILL BURN AND BURN AND BURN AND BURN UNTIL THERE IS NO TRACE OF YOU LEFT IN THE SHADOW OF MY LONG-LOST NATAL SUN.

WILL REMEMBER THE FIRST TIME YOU KISSED ME—YOU APOLOGISED—YOU SAID, I AM SORRY, DESTROY ME AS I AM, BUT I WANT TO KISS YOU BEFORE I AM KILLED, AND I SAID TO YOU WHY, AND YOU SAID, BECAUSE I HAVE ONLY ONCE MET SOMEONE SO UTTERLY WILLING TO BURN FOR WHAT THEY BELIEVED IN, AND I LOVED HIM ON SIGHT, AND THE FIRST TIME I DIED I ASKED OF HIM WHAT I NOW ASK OF YOU

I KISSED YOU AND LATER I WOULD KISS HIM TOO BEFORE I UNDERSTOOD WHAT YOU WERE, AND ALL THREE OF US LIVED TO REGRET IT—BUT WHEN I AM IN HEAVEN I WILL REMEMBER YOUR MOUTH, AND WHEN YOU ROAST DOWN IN HELL I THINK YOU WILL REMEMBER MINE

THE ONLY THING OUR CIVILIZATION CAN EVER LEARN FROM YOURS IS THAT WHEN OUR BACKS ARE TO THE WALL AND OUR TOWERS ARE FALLING ALL AROUND US AND WE ARE WATCHING OURSELVES BURN 

WE RARELY BECOME HEROES.

-Commander Awake Remembrance of These Valiant Dead Kia Hua Ko Te Pai Snap Back to Reality Oops There Goes Gravity, Harrow the Ninth

[aspiringwarriorlibrarian]

Sometimes I think about how one of the few things we know about M— was that she was an ardent supporter of reproductive rights. Even when the investors had already dismissed the possibility, she was insistent on creating a form of cryosleep that would not force anyone to terminate their pregnancies. Even 10,000 years and a memory wipe later, when it became necessary to steal John's genetic material, she still provided her own eggs for the child that would break the wards on the Tomb.

The Eighth House is the house of justice, the house of conviction. The house of a woman who demanded complete bodily autonomy, and another woman who was willing to die to save humanity. But Mercymorn and Cristabel Oct had nothing worth fighting for, just the lies of a would-be God and his endless, pointless quest for revenge. And so the Eighth House, Keepers of the Tome, the Forgiving House, have become empty zealots, fanatics of an empire. Fanatics who use the bodies and souls of their cavaliers as batteries without consideration or consent.

I wonder how Mercymorn feels about soul siphoning. I wonder if sometimes, right before she wakes, she remembers what it was like to believe in something true.

[runasulienadanika]

GRIDDLEHARK AND CAMPAL ARE OPPOSITES BUT ALSO PARALLEL TO EACH OTHER AND IT MAKES ME SO INSANE

6th House is on mercury and 9th House is on pluto so they're on the opposite ends of the dominicus system

9 is 6 uspide down and 6 is 9 upside down

the Ninth House and the Sixth House are religion vs science

Gideon and Harrow are (were) childhood enemies, Camilla and Palamedes are (were) childhood friends. Gideon and Harrow had a hard time trusting each other, Camilla and Palamedes trusted each other with everything.

Gideon and Harrow are all about forgetting ("But I don’t even remember about you most of the time", the whole lobotomy situation), Camilla and Palamedes are all about remembering ("I’ve carried you, Warden. And I’ve carried your memory … I’d rather carry you", "Palamedes remembers everything: That was his problem. I always remember him. That’s mine")

Gideon and Harrow are water (the Pool Scene, Gideon being in the "well" in Harrow's mind, Harrow deciding to stay in the River and Gideon "dying" in the River), Camilla and Palamedes are fire (Palamedes's first death, Palamedes and Camilla's lyctoral ascention)

in griddlehark's case the necromancer carried their cavalier's soul, in campal's case the cavalier carried their necromancer's soul

Gideon and Palamedes sacrificed themselves, Harrow then carried Gideon's sword even though it was killing her and Camilla carried Palamedes's bones even though boe electrocuted her for it

Gideon and Camilla are both "devotion's casualties"

Harrow and Camilla risked permanent brain damage to save the souls they carried

Gideon barely had any training for her position and Camilla trained her whole life, but they both didn't normally use their rapiers and were both set on fighting rather than on traditional duelling

the 6th and the 9th are both poor, underestimated, dying houses. Harrow and Palamedes have been leading them since they were very young and they do anything to try to improve the situation

Harrow fell in love with the Body when she was 10, Palamedes began writing to Dulcinea when he was 8. both into old dead chicks (as Gideon phrased it) while also loving their cavaliers

Camilla watched Gideon impale herself to force Harrow's ascention, Gideon watched Camilla light herself on fire during her and Palamedes's ascention

"This was your shell but it was all filled up with me" & "It's not you. It's me wearing you"

"I keep turning around to find you, and there’s nobody there." "I know the feeling." & "You’d touched that letter, and I—you know it was killing me twice that you weren’t there, right? You must know it was destroying me to be there in your body, trying to keep your thumbs on, and I couldn’t even hear your damn voice?"

"Kiriona Gaia was staring politely at the side of the truck, as though there were something really interesting on the paintwork" & "Even Camilla, who had turned away to politely investigate something on the opposite wall, wasn’t there"

"It was just her and Harrow and Harrow’s bitter, high-boned, stupid little face" & "Palamedes said, and now Nona knew he wasn’t speaking to anyone else in the universe"

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there's probably more, that's just from the top of my head. but yeah, they make me insane and i'm foaming at the mouth.

[steampunkcorgi]

Harrowhark the First

[weepylucifer]

there's something just amazing about john gaius being all "i saved the world, but not for me", blatantly riffing off of lord of the rings, which no one will ever call him on, bc he's the only person who remembers lord of the rings. to make matters worse better more, he's not even quoting the book. he's quoting the movie. so lame, you think, and then you remember where the movies were filmed and about the hobbit tax and the maōri stuntpeople who only ever got to play "evil ugly" orcs and easterlings and all of that and oh boy it's all connected here isn't it

but it also is unambiguously hilarious of him to compare himself to frodo. it's like if frodo set out to destroy sauron but orcs kept trying to arrest the fellowship and call him a charlatan on the middle earth news or whatever and also halfway through he gets hit up by gondor and they tell him that denethor just died and they need him to use the ring to reanimate his corpse and he just does it. and in the end frodo loses it and destroys all of middle earth except sauron who runs away on a spaceship

[katakaluptastrophy]

Had he ventured beyond the movie and into Tolkien's wider legendarium, he might have discovered that there is a character who fixates on vengeance and draws those close to him into a centuries long bloodbath in the name of justice, resulting in mass murder, exile from their home world, and all round metaphysical bad stuff...

[corvophobia]

based off this tweet lol

[clubnich]

The Ninth Saint to Serve the King Undying and her cavalier Ǫ̸̥̬̳̟̞̙̼̳͓̉͋́ṛ̶̠̰̘̤̯̹͎̫̈́̌̚t̸̢̡̧̢̛̛̘̘͎̝̪͉̅͆̈́̈̒̈́̿͘ú̴͉̳͊̀̇͠s̸̺̘̙͑̈̂͂̒̾͜ ̶̘̠͔͆̌Н̴̼͚̱͚̙̭̳̪̙́̐̄̈͌̚и̶̧̌̓̇͜г̶͔̲̼͖̙̳̒̀͌́͋͂͝͝е̴͓͈̲̌н̸̡̢̛̠͚̼̻͍̠̂͂͑̾̇͒̕͝͝а̴̠̪͌̈́̎̀̓̅̀̚͠д̵̭̬͓̠̫͓͓̝̹̍̾ͅ

[reversibledoll]

Amie reminded me these pics existed so here a lil more of my Cytherea cosplay!

Photography & edit: amiephotos @ Instagram Cosplay & makeup: me

[deathviaroses]

whoever it was on here that said the two of them are both Orpheus and Eurydice at once, I’m hunting you for sport xxx

transcript of the really small handwritten bits under the cut in case they’re unreadable:

bottom left -

Camilla (blocky text): I don’t like the way your handwriting looks from my fingers

Palamedes (messy cursive): do you want me to write in a different script?

Camilla: no.

top left -

C: this would be much faster if we could actually talk to each other.

P: I know. I hate whoring myself to the paper.

C: I miss the sound of your voice.

P: I keep turning around to tell you things, and you’re not there.

C: I do the same.

top right -

P: I think I might be killing you, Cam. We can’t keep doing this. You’re going to end up dead.

bottom right-

P: you carried around bones in the hopes I could be salvaged, somehow

(p.s. they’re not meant to be canon exchanges (frankly idk that there are a lot of them from the tape recorder or the notebook that are actually in ntn) but yeah thanks for reading this far :))

[light-camera-bitch-smile]

John Gaius circa the Mithraeum: