Warning: nsfw, Mentions of abuse, graphic imagery.
This story is not related to the Jujutsu Kaisen Story, all Characters mentioned from the Anime are credited to the author of the manga.
When the coldest wind cruelly blows over the highest mountain top, leaving a kiss on my skin and my broken heart buried in snow. Light your flames, build a fire that’ll overtake the ice and dry my fallen tears.
Remember all those memories we shared, grow a garden with my last fire shining through.
When my heart forgets your old distant tune, your flames come alive.
The Emperor rises, the Fool falls and the Wheel of Fortune spins.
Does the Sun shine on the other side of the Tower?
Is there a way I could detach my heart from that strong feeling?
Is there a way I can find peace?
You wanted to hide, run and never see this place again. You hated this place, the place you were supposed to be happy with, since you’ve been able to make a living for your brother. But sadly, you’ll be forced to never see him again. How is he supposed to live, to eat, to sleep, without you?
He was still too young to live alone. The grandmother, who sold apples from her own trees, was kind enough to look after him, till your return. The memory of your promise to your little brother echoed through your mind.
“I’ll be back before the sun sets and I’ll bring something delicious.” - that was the promise. These words were like thorns in your heart. The tears, ran down your soft cheeks, cheeks that were tinted a cherry red. Your silent sobs are unheard by the guards, but echoed through the darkness. You wanted to leave, but you were locked in a golden cage for eternity.
Small rays of light shined on your face, as they broke through the small gaps of the window above you. A new day began, a new day of pain and emptyness. You sat up and abandoned the thin matress on the floor. You felt cold and hugged your arms around your fragile body. The room was unfamiliar and unknown to you. Step by step, your eyes wandered around the room, searching for any sign of comfort. Curious, your body found it’s way to the door, seeking for freedom. Your hand reached the door knop, turning and twisting it. Nothing worked. Knocking? Too naiv, they wouldn’t let you go that easy, if you asked. You dropped your hand to the side, ready to go back onto the matress. But as the door opened, you stepped backwards. You were shook, you couldn’t understand what was going to happen next.
The door revealed a man, with light hair, covering his forhead.
“Follow me.” The man truned around, giving you no single glance back. You hesitated first. Should you really follow him? But you had no choice, as the man grew unpatiend and glared down on you. Without a single second thought, you ran up after the man.
You walked down a long hallway, red carpet covering the floor as drawings hung from the wall beside you. Opposite, were windows - all perfectly aligned, revealing a small garden in the middle of the building.
The man in front of you guided you to a locker room. “Change, you can’t walk around like a peasant. As a servant you have to mirror the masters prestige and not harm it.” The man handed you a black dress, an white apron and shoes. Your fingertips brushed against the fabric. It was soft, such a rich black fabric was something you’ve never seen. Not even the richer in your village had those fabrics. “I’ll be waiting outside for you.” The man closed the door, so you were able to change, as you were ready, you stepped out of the room. The dress was wide, but fitted your bust perfectly. The length of the skirt wasn’t too long, enough to work in. “Tie your hair away. It will get in your way.” you tried to tie your hair together, but struggled as a stinging pain went through your fingertips. Your hands left your hair to observ the source of pain. There were various cuts, questionly marking your hands, you couldn’t recall where they’ve been from.
“Here, you should tie them like that.” The man grew annoyed as you took too long to do your hair. His face showed a sign of distaste. Your eyes didn’t leave the marks on your hand, still questioning the source. “You’ve been running around the forrest and fell multiple times, as we tried to catch you. Don’t worry, they’ll heal. Here take those, these will cover them up until you’re fully healed. Our master wants a clean look and doesn’t like to look at a mess.” he handed you a pair of white handkerchiefs.
“Thank you.” was the only phrase you could say in that moment. Your mind was numb, qestioning nothing anymore.
“You don’t have to thank me. My name is Kihyun, I’ll be incorporating you. First off the rules. Rule number one and most important - don’t talk to the master if not said other wise. Don’t look at him, always keep a distance between you two. Rule number two - everything has to be within the given time. All things are scheduled till the last second. Don’t take too long and be fast without mistakes. Rule number three - Look clean, as I said before, you represent our masters prestige. Those are the main rules, I’ll tell you more later. Now we don’t have time. The Master will wake up soon and breackfast has to be prepared. Follow me.” Kihyun went ahead, not leaving time for you to comprehent what he said. You mindlessly followed him to the kitchen. The next hall seemed different from the one you’ve been before. Your feet became heavy, as you came closer to the door of the kitchen, the smell grew stronger and secondas became faster. Kihyun threw the heavy door open, for you to enter. The people in the room turned their attention towards you two, they bowed down as soon as their eyes landed on the man next to you.
“Good morning Mr Kihyun.” said all in inusion. Kihyun nodded his head as his eyes roamed around the room until they landed on a certain person.
“Changkyun” a boy who seemed your age or older got surprised by the sudden mention of his voice. You could see how he catched all the items he had previously in his hand and laid them on the iron table. He wiped his dirty hands aganst his white apron and set the fabric on his head as it slipped over his head. Changkyun made his way towards you two and walked past obstacles.
“Yes Mr Kihyun.” As the man fully stood before us, he bowed his upper body and Kihyun continued
“This is Y/N, she’ll help you with the ingredients. Don’t give her too many tasks, we can’t make her mess up. The Master wouldn’t like it.” Changkyun looked you up and down with an unreadable expression.
“Yes Mr Kihyun.”
“Good I’ll leave you then, I’ll be picking you up after the Breakfast is finished and the Master has left to his studies.” Kihyun walked out of the kitchen without giving you a second glance.
“Yes Mr Kihyun.” Changkyun bowed to the retreating form of Kihyun and turned his attention to you. “My name is Changkyun, I’m preparing the side disches for the Master. Follow me.” Changkyun walked ahead, while again, walking around obstacles. You both reached Changykuns working spot, the table was full of different kinds of ingredients. A range from any kind of fruits to vegetables and different kind of meats. All for small side dishes. “These ingredients are from our garden at the back of the mansion. I collect them every morning so they could be fresh. They’re not only for breakfast, but also for lunch, dinner and anytime the Master wishes something simple in between. Today, the Master will have guests over, that’s why we have so much over here.” Changkyun explained everything through. The boy hasn’t gave you another glance since the first time you saw eachother. You didn’t know what to answer and just nodded along. Changkyun instructed you to take out the seeds in every cherry. He helped you doing so, as it was extremely much as they have to be done for most of the dishes today.
Time went by and you had no other task for that time. The breakfast got served on the table and you were supposed to wait in the kitchen. The people in the kitchen weren’t allowed to work while the Master was eating, so they waited for him to arrive. You couldn’t hear anything except for your own and Changkyuns breathing. Nervousness creeped up in your body as it was painfully silent, until you heard the sound of a door opening.
“Master, the table is served. Please take a seat.” you heard an unfamiliar voice from the other side of the door. The dining room.
“Thank you Hyungwon.” The voice of the master drowned your body in coldness. A shiver ran down your spine as your body started to get more nervous any minute. The chair crunched against the floor and echoed throughout the halls.
Minutes passed and the sound of forks and spoons touching eachother was so loud, it felt like it was right next to your ear.
“Hm. The cherry sorbet smells pretty different.” Your body stiffened at the dish mentioned and Changkyun seemed unfazed. “It has a certain scent to it. I can’t remember smelling it that way. Hyungwon, do we have a new addition in our house?” Your body froze and your eyes widened the double size. Your limbs grew suddenly cold, you felt like passing out but still tried to keep your ground.
“I apologize my Master, but I don’t recall recruiting someone new.”
“Hm. Call Kihyun over, I think he knows more.”
“Yes Master?” You could hear Kihyuns voice, it was softer then before.
“Did you brought someone knew into my house?”
“Yes Master. I found a maiden outside the doors of your mansion. She asked for help and I took her inside.”
“Without my permission?” The Masters voice sounded curious as his voice rose in a teasing manner.
“I apolpgize for my selflessness, but she seemed like someone who fits into your prestige.” Kihyun kept his head low, not looking at the Master.
“If you say so. I’d like to see her face, so I can confirm your decision. Call her in.”
“Yes Master.” Kihyun listened and walked over to the door of the kitchen and opened it without any noise. As Kihyun entered the room, his eyes were roaming through the air, searching for your face. He walked towards you fast and grabbed your hand. Your feet turned to iron, not able to move. “The Master has been calling for you, follow me.”
“I don’t think I can.” Kihyun stopped pulling your hand and turned to you.
“You have to go in there, he wants to see you. Just follow me.” Like a spell, you were following Kihyun into the dining room. Your eyes seached for Changkyuns face, asking for help. But his expression showed you, he couldn’t help you, he felt sorry. Kihyuns grip on your hand got stronger, the closer you got. Your head stayed low as you remembered the rules.
“Well, well.” You stood still infront of the big dining table, staring down the floor. Kihyun took a step forward intoducing you.
“She’s a maiden.” You felt cold, your body tingled from the frozen state you are in. The mans eyes stared you down, you felt naked at the stares of the two men.
“So that sweet smell, comes from you. Did you took out the seeds of every cherry you prepared.” you were able to nod slightly, waiting for the next thing to happen. “That means I can anticipate that sweet smell of yours in every dish prepared with cherrys.” His voice was deep, but soft and calming. He could sing a lullaby and could kill everyone listening to him. “My little maiden, please look up, I wanna see that beautiful face of yours.” Kihyuns body tensed up at his masters words, just like yours. Your body started to shake as you slowly lifted your head, looking away from the man in front of you. “Sweetheart look at me, I wanna see those eyes of yours.” you hesitated, should you really look at him? But he told you so. So you did it, with shaking pupils, your eyes wandered to the source of the voice.
Your eyes widened at the sight of the man, who was named as your Master. His silk like skin looked as white as the deepest winter, His lips as red as the cherry sorbet, his eyes shaped like almonds. The beauty he radiated amazed you and left you awestruck. He didn’t seem human, he was like a creature from another dimension. Something like him wouldn’t be alowed in the world of yours. He must be a sin, a sin you easily commit. His smile stretched his cheeks as he fully saw your facial features. “I can’t believe how Kihyun had found such beauty outside my mansion and did not report her to me.”
“I apologize Master, it was late after you went to rest. As this woman appeared at your doorsteps. I couldn’t bring myself to disturb you and your sleep.” Kihyun kept the same position, he seemed tense and you felt bad for him.
“Sure enough, I’m glad I met you today. You really did sweetned my morning. I have to leave for my studies now. I request some tea, make sure it’ll be delivered by our new addition.” The Master left the dining room leaving me and Kihyun alone. Kihyun exhaled as much air as he could and stood straight up again.
“Come, I’ll show you how to serve our Master.” Kihyun turned to you, his eyes softened. Your body relaxed after he gave you a soft smile. He knew how nervous you’ve became and now he started to worry about you. The moment the Master called out for you he knew he had to be nice to you. You nodded and followed Kihyun back into the kitchen. Changkyun ran up to you asking what happened. You explained it to him quickly, as Kihyun dragged you to another corner of the kitchen to help you practice. “You have to hold it down there, but make sure you don‘t burn yourself. The tea is extremely hot.”
“Why did he requested me to do this?” you were curious as to why the master wanted you.
“I don’t know, normally his personal maid is the only one allowed to serve him tea, beside me. Don’t worry, I’ll be with you in the room and helping you.” Kihyun nodded his head as he explained to you how it worked. Eventually you were able to serve it. Kihyun and you pushed the trail up the stairs, to the Masters study. Kihyun knocked on the wooden door twice.
“Come in.” Kihyun opened the door, you entered it while pushing the tray to the middle of the room. Kihyun motioned you to push it nect to the Masters seat. The Master read a book and didn’t move an inch.
Silently, you’ve been preparing the tea, Kihyun helped you. “Kihyun.” you both were startled by the sudden voice in front of you and both of you stopped your movements.
“Yes Master?”
“I think our little maiden, can do that on her own. I want you to leave us alone.” Kihyun was hesitant and scared, he don’t wanted to leave you alone with your Master.
“But - “
“Wasn’t I clear enough Kihyun?” Kihyun couldn’t do anything else then nod to the Masters command. He left the room, after giving you a soft glance, telling you everything will be fine.
As the sound of the closing door echoed through the room. The Master laid the book in his hand down onto the table next to him. Your head hung low, avoiding the Masters gaze. Your eyes fixed on the floor, the Masters feet began to move as he stood up from his seat. The sound of his steps became louder as he came closer to your side.
“You smell so sweet my little maiden. I hope the tea has your smell in it.” The Master came closer and closer as his broad chest touched your shoulderblades. You could feel his strong muscels on yours. his body was cold but firm. You felt no heartbeat coming from his chest. His breath tickled the back of your neck, his lips hovering against your ear. His nose loosing itself in your hair. He breathed in your scent as your body froze, your heart beated faster, your mind bocame dizzy. “My little maiden, how’s your name?” His smooth voice sended a tingling sensation down your back, air cought up in your chest, your throat grew tight.
“It’s Y/N.” the sentence came out low and quiet, but the man behind you could hear it perfectly.
“And how did my little Y/N end up in my territory?”
“I don’t know, the only thign I can remember was Mr Kihyun taking me to get dressed.”
“Hm. So Kihyun helped you get dressed. I see. Has he seen your exposed soft skin of yours.” You shook your head to a no. Your Masters voice became deeper and annoyed as he spat out the sentence. “Did he touched you?” You shook your head again. “But why do I smell him on your hair and on your hand? i also smell a little from my little chef Changkyunie on you.” Your Master took your hand and lifted it upwards.
“Mr Kihyun helped me with my hair, he took my hand to follow him to your dining room as you called for me. I helped Changkyun with the Cherrys as you might remember. Master.” Your felt small as you stuttered every word through your lips.
“Please don’t call me Master. I don’t like that name out of your seewt little lips. My Name is Wonho, my little Y/N.”
“I apologize Master Wonho.” you bowed your head down as Wonho stood straight, but he kept his body close to yours.
“Do you know my little maiden, who I actually am?” You shook your head to his answer. “Too sad, beacause I feel like I want to sink my teeth down onto your soft skin and taste that sweet blood of yours.” Your eyes widened by his words, fear made your blood run cold. Was this your death? His fingertips glided down your neck, leaving the spot with a cold feeling. “But I won’t do it, I’m a gentleman and someone like me just doesn’t bite into someones neck without permission.” Wonho retreated fully from behind you and circled your body, standing fully in front of you, observing you. “Look at me.” you did as you were told, with shaking eyes, you managed to fully look at the man in front of you. His face was expressionless, his skin mild and his statue build like a god. “There you go. From now on, I want you around me, only me. Because you’re mine and only mine.”
Rules: answer 20 questions then tag 20 people (which we all know I won’t do bc I’m lazyyyyyy)
I was tagged by my newest mutual @heartkyu I love you Ana!!!
— Name: Kait
— Nickname: Century, Mom, Crash, and like any other nickname you can think of
— Height: 5’4″ (163 cm)
— Languages: English, and Spanish I also speak a very minute amount of Norwegian and Korean
— Nationality: Technically I’m American, but how ever most of my family is Norwegian and therefore the culture was a large part of my upbringing
— Favourite season? Spring!!!
— Favorite flower? Columbines and and Snow Drops!
— Favourite scent? I absolutely love the smell of fresh rain, I grew up where it rained almost 300 days a year, I don’t like artificial smells as they trigger my migraines :(
— Favourite color? Olive Green! (I also love Lilac and Peach)
— Favorite animal? Sharks! Specifically Megamouth or Oceanic Black Tip!
— Favourite fictional characters? Captain Rex, Dr. Ian Malcolm, Kelly and Arby from Jurassic Park Lost World, Nuru Kungurama, Lawrence Kutner, Fives, (I could make a whole ass list)
— Coffee, tea, or hot chocolate? Iced Tea! Preferably either unsweet or sugar-free, i’ll drink hot tea but very rarely
— Average hours of sleep? 2-6 (unless I take a benadryl)
— Dog or cat? I love both but if I had to pick I would pick Cats
— No. of blankets you sleep with? A singular blanket as it’s hot as hell out here
— Dream trip? Uhhh idk, Maldives? All I want to do is go shark cage diving so wherever I can do it I’ll go
— Blog established: May 2017!
— Followers: 3k! We just hit it! Yay!
— Random fact: Uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh Somehow I play like almost every instrument yet I cannot read in any key besides Bb so when I play other instruments I read It as If I’m in Bb essentially (even in bass clef)
I tag: @justlovingamy @ridin-and-rolling-reloading @mafia-nct @emmaishere92 @wydyuto @renjunsunflower
Nicknames: Leroy, Lera. That’s how my family and friends call me.
Height: 5’6 or something dunno, I’m like 172 cm or something
Languages: Russian, German, English and a tiny bit Korean.
Nationality: Orignally kirgisian but now german
Favourite season: Autumn BITXH, I love wearing sweater!
Favourite flower: I don’t have any...
Favourite scent: freshly washed bedsheets. Uff I love that!
Favourite colour: Green
Favourite animal: Tiger
Favourite fictionnal characters: Mikoto Suho from K project, Calcifer from Howls moving castle and many more anime characters oh and Kuroko from Kuroko no basket. Don’t forget Hisoka from HunterxHunter and Sabito from demon slayer (even tho he’s dead, hehe)
Coffee, tea or hot chocolate: THE HOT TEA BABY
Average hours of sleep: 7 - 8 hours I guess
Dogs or cats: Cats
No. of blankets you sleep with: 2
Dream trip: Japan, I’d really love to go there someday!!!
Blog established: Phew, I have it for about three years now I guess, but never posted since 2016 or something and not started last year again.
Followers: Almost 500 I’m not that popular, but I don’t mind as long as people enjoy my bullshit XD
Random fact: Almost everyone in my family, accidently broke my fingers excpet for my mom.
I can’t find 20 people to tag so I’ll just tag a few and if someone sees it can do it too.
@meiiyue @jayeezbabo @kpopstuffs002 @jacksonstwin (that’s my sis she’s going to write NCT and StrayKids scenarios soon!)
She can feel how the liquids make her loosen up all the tense muscles in her body. Forgetting all the things that happened hours ago. Moving to the rhythm, she closed her eyes to get a more intense feeling of satisfaction. She’s not holding back, being bold and driven by adrenaline.
Dancing close to strangers, seeing faces that would be forgotten after this night. Her dress sticking to her body, shoving almost every detail of imperfection. She never felt so sexy before, except for this night and it didn’t go unnoticed by one man.
He’s captivated by her, watching her from afar and forgetting his surroundings. Holding back from crashing himself into her. How much he would do to lay a finger on her hips, tracing every curve of her body, feeling her soft skin underneath his fingertips. Moving against her body, holding her tight and not losing any contact.
His eyes got darker the longer his gaze stayed on her, she was driving him on the edge. Never was he so focused on one person, she was all over his mind, not leaving for one second and all he could do was watch. But he wants so much more. He wants to feel her against his skin and kiss down her neck to mark her as his property. Soon his thoughts became so vivid, he couldn’t tell if they were real. Her sweet moans started to ring through his ear as his imagination goes wild. Her hips grinding onto him, taking him all in.
He automatically slides his hand slowly down to his crotch, feeling his arousal building up. A small groan escapes his dry throat, catching his breath after holding it in.
He imagined how her tight walls would hug him perfectly and after every squeeze, he wants more, more of that intense pleasure. He’s ready to coat her insides with his cum, he wants to see how it drips down her inner thighs. Kissing her wrecked core, to reward her for taking him in so well.
His breathing got heavier and his pants got even tighter. His lips and throat went dry, suddenly thirsty for her sweet taste, he took a sip of his drink, the cold liquor going down his throat, but it couldn’t replace his intense desire.
“Hey Y/N!” someone repeated your name for a few times, until you turned around and saw your best friend approaching and joining you on the middle of the dance floor. “Hey Nelly! What’s up? Wanna dance?” you asked her excitedly. She smirked at you and came closer to your ear “Babe, there’s someone watching you the whole time. It looks like he’s ready to eat you alive.”
She pulled away from you and took a glance at the said man. You followed her gaze, the man looked straight at you, both of you locking eyes. You could see a smirk building up on his lips, despite being drunk, you felt flustered and snapped your head to the side to avoid his gaze. Heat went up your cheeks, the alcohol not being the reason for it. “Oh Come on Y/N! Don’t be shy, that boy looks fine. If he would look at me the way he does at you. I would love to suck his dick right away.”
You couldn’t help but to agree with Nelly, he does look attractive. You could feel his aura up to you as his gaze lays heavy on you, the feeling in you, the warning in your head seems so loud but you wanted it.
“Babe, you should play with him a little, you haven’t had a little fun in a while now. If I was you, I’d be frustrated by now to be honest.” You both chuckled at her comment and nudged her side a little, she raised her eyebrow and nodded her head towards him.
You turned your head, to look at him again. You noticed that his eyes never left you, your confidence suddenly coming back. He pulled his hand up and waved you over, you decided to take the advice of your friend and play a little with your new target. Acting hard to get, you smirked and turned around and made sure that he has your butt on full display. Moving your hips from side to side.
Your target couldn’t keep his smile hidden and bite his lip, titling his head a little. His gaze laying on your perfect bum, that’s been wrapped up in your tight dress.
“So, she wants to play a little. Ok then, let’s play!” He told himself and stood up from his spot on the red couch. Adjusting his jacket and making his way towards her.
You sat down on a bar stool, taking a glance at the spot where the man was sitting a few moments ago. The spot was empty, disappointment striked through your body. Continuing sipping on your new ordered drink, you didn’t notice someone taking a seat next to you. “Give me a glass of the most expensive whiskey you got.” You heard the person next to you, ordering their drink.
“Weird Flex but ok.” Was your only comment about his choice of order, You heard him chuckle next to you.
“I’d rather flex with a beauty like you on my lap.” A smirk grew over his lips, as his eyes scanned your attire. Staying a little longer on your exposed thigh, his tongue glided over his lips, imagining the taste of your skin.
You could see his eyes, taking off your dress. How hungry those dark orbs were. You became hungry for that man, as much as he wanted you, you wanted him. But you knew, it wouldn’t be easy, like your friend said - play with him a little, entertain yourself. You’re more worth and you need that reminder, immediately.
You had been in a pretty nasty relationship, you and your friends came out tonight to celebrate your break up with your ex. He was the reason, for your dissatisfaction of yourself. He made you an easy target, a puppy who would run to him if he told you so. This relationship was toxic, toxic on you and you wished to never fall down the same hole as before. So now you were here, sitting at the bar, next to an extremely hot person. You weren’t ready for another relationship yet, but why not having a little fun and get down for an one night stand or a simple makeout session.
“My name is Jooheon by the way and what’s my beautys name here?” Jooheon extended his hand, his finger gliding along your jawline. A smirk visible in the dark light.
“Y/N.” you simply stated your name and took a sip of your drink.
“Y/N~ “ Jooheon repeated your name tasting it on his tongue, his smirk grew and his hand found his drink as he took a sip of it, just like you did. “That’s a beautiful name for a woman like you, my beauty.” His eyes wouldn’t leave your face, they studied you, remembering every inch. You found it a bit amusing, how this man was so interested in you. The cheesyness in his words made you chuckle as you faced him again.
“Some pretty words you use there, Jooheon~” you repeated his name, emphasing it, sounding like a melody in his ears. He wished he could hear his name out of your lips again. Jooheon chuckled and lowered his head in a little defeat. He couldn’t believe himself, that he used this kind of phrasing.
“Thank you. So answer me one question - Why does a beautiful woman like you, sit here alone and is not hooking up with a random dude here? Men should be running around you asking for attention.” You shrugged your shoulders at his question and thought of an smart answer.
“If there would be so many man, how am I supposed to sit and talk to you?” Jooheon smiled at your answer-question.
“Looks like it’s my lucky day then.” Jooheon motioned the bartender over with a gesture. “Get me and my girl a nice drink.”
“I’m your girl now? Wow, that’s quick.” you were a little impressed by the boldness of him, it seemed like you’ll get a bit more fun than you expected.
“Baby, the moment you stepped into this club you became my girl.” you laughed at his statement as you covered your hand over your mouth.
“And what makes you think that?”
“Baby, I own this place. What I say is law and tonight, you’re my girl. Enjoy it.” Jooheon winked at you. You couldn’t believe your ears, was it the loud music or did this guy really called dips on you. “I’d like to invite you to my private booth up there. I bet you saw me there already, cuz as I can remember, we made eye contact and you walked off and showed me that beautiful ass of yours.” Jooheon was confident and the sassyness in you vanished quickly. You were happy, that the lights were dark enough or else the redness on your face would destroy your little game. You snapped out of your embarrassement and got serious again.
“And what makes you think I would like to hang out with you?” You leaned your head on your arm, looking at the man with a flirty look. Jooheon came closer to your ear, his soft lips brushing your earlobe.
“Cuz I know you want me, your eyes are giving you away.” Jooheon wrapped you around his finger. His deep voice gave a weird vibration through your body, a shiver ran down your spine and his voice alone sent you to overdrive.
You scoffed to hide your sudden arousal, as Jooheon leaned back. You wished he would stay this close. His cologne mixed with whiskey was still around you, you wanted him close again, talk that husky voice of his into your ear. “Don’t worry babe, I don’t expect you to come with me now, I see your friend there observing us. If you want some fun, I’ll be up there. Say my name and you’ll get in, my men know you belong to me. See ya my beauty.” Jooheon left you at the bar, awestruck.
What exactly happened now?
Nelly came up to you asking what happened, after Jooheon dissapeared in the crowd leaving you there. You remembered how to breath again, your head followed you friends voice.
“That’s it for hard to get” you facepalmed yourself as you replayed the conversation between you and Jooheon. You thought you had him in the first, but it looked like he had you the whole time.
“What do you mean by that? What happened?” Nelly grew curious as you talked for yourself, leaving her completly left out.
“I made a total fool of myself, he had me in his hand from the moment he sat next to me.” You ignored the question and continued rambling to yourself.
“Girl, what did he say?” Your friend grew unpatient and pulled the fabric on your hip.
“He invited me to his private booth.” you looked into Nellys eyes, your pupils shaking.
“And why haven’t you accepted it? Why did you not go with him? Y/N!” Nelly grew extremely annoyed at your behaviour and slapped her own forhead.
“I don’t know, he just made me speechless.” it was true, the moment he turned the tables, he made you speechless and your brain turned black. You couldn’t describe why it happened. He was just a random guy, flirting with you. Like any other would, but he was different. Something in him was different, something that drew you to him and made you lost.
“What do you mean he made you speechless?”
“I thought I had the upper hand, but he saw through everything I did.” you analyzed every bit of interaction, feeling more and more self concious again.
“Y/N, what did he say exactly?” you thought for a quick moment, remembering the conversation.
“He said - I wanted him and he knew it, cuz my eyes give it away.”
“Well, Y/N he’s not wrong though, you can’t even lie properly. What else did he say?”
“He saw us talking about him and he knew I swayed my hips on purpose for him.” Your face grew hot again, as you remembered the moment.
“You should go there.” suggested Nelly.
”No, don’t you listened to me? I clearly embarrassed myself in front of him.” Your friend rolled her eyes at your childish panicing.
“You did not embarrass yourself. So go up there and sit on his damn lap.”
“What about you?” you couldn’t leave your friend, well you actually don’t wanted to leave her after this encounter.
“I’ll be fine, don’t worry. I found one of my old classmates, he looks extremely hot. Not as hot as your Romeo, but hot enough to hangout for tonight. So, go up there, be a bad bitch and flirt the shit out of this man. You need to relax and enjoy the night. Who said, you’ll get this opportunity again?” Your friend pushed you towards the staircase, while ranting to you why you should go to him.
Meanwhile Jooheon was observing the situation between you and your friend, he found it cute - how sexy and unaproachable you acted, but ended up a little emabarrassed and shy when it was his turn to tease you.
You did as Nelly told you and walked up to him, Jooheons eyes followed every step of yours and made himself ready for you. He made all women around him, who tried to get his attention, vanish from his booth. So only you two would be alone.
“I’m here for Jooheon, he invited me to his booth.” You nervously fiddled with your fingers, as you stood in front of the bodyguard. He looked you up and down, you tried to cover your shyness and acted confident.
“Let her in, she belongs to me.” you could hear Jooheons voice from behind. As the guy stepped aside, revealing a casual sitting Jooheon with a plain black T-shirt, a semi-tight pants and expensive looking leather shoes in a rounded lounge couch. His hair styled out of his face, revealing his fierce looking eyes.
“There you are my beauty. Come here, sit next to me. I’ve been waiting for you.” Jooheons arm laid on the back of the couch. You went closer and sat down next to him. You could feel the stares and the jealousy of other women in the room were heavy and made the air thicker and harder to breath. Jooheons arm found it’s place around your shoulders. “Don’t worry about them, they come here often enough. I’ve never gave them my attention in the first place. They can’t do anything to you.” His arm squeezed your shoulder, to assure you that you’re safe and you should not worry about them.
“Oh really?” you could hear a chuckle coming out of his chest, his knee was touching yours. This simple touch send your mind into overdrive again, a sudden dizzyness envaded your mind.
Was it him or the alcohol?
“Hm. Like I said before, you’re mine and everyone knows not to mess with you.” Jooheon turned his gaze to you, searching for your eyes. As you turned you face, you both met eyes and looked deeply into them. His eyes seemed darker and deeper upclose. You were scared, they seemed dangerous and had so many secrets, but you pushed those thoughts behind, far behind. For some reason you felt safe in his embrace. It was only for this night, he’s a stranger, a stranger you won’t see again.
“That’s pretty interesting, that you assume, I would let you claim me as yours. Even though you don’t know me.” you tried to put some distance between you two and start your game again.
“Oh babe, I don’t need to know you, to claim you. I don’t assume, I just simply do it, without you knowing it.” He’s not missing any confidence - that’s your thought.
“That’s pretty bold of you.” you chuckled at his way of thinking, but still found it extremely interesting. There was something about this man, you couldn’t describe it.
“I know, but you sit here next to me. That means my words are in fact, law.” Jooheon sat up a little, to be able to see you properly. His upper body leaned forward, grabbing two drinks and handing you on. “So now, tell me what changed in your mind and sended you here to me?” you chuckled at his words and took a sip of the drink. The taste of alcohol was stronger then your previous drinks, your face mirrored the bitterness and unliking of the drink. Jooheon couldn’t hold back his laughing at your cringing face.
“What is that?” Your hand covered your lips as you looked at the man next to you.
“It’s a whiskey I made, it’s pretty strong. I guess too strong for you.” Jooheon replaced the drink in your hand with a glass of water.
“That tastes awful, how can you drink that without cringing?”
“Practice, I guess.”
“Practice my ass, no one can drink it.” you drowned the liquid in your cup, hoping the taste of the whiskey would vanish.
“Watch me baby.” Jooheon drowned his whole glass in one go, without cringing at the bitterness and burn of the alcohol. Your face cringed at the memory of the drink. Jooheon was amused by your reaction and placed the glass onto the table. His arm returned to it’s place around your shoulder, as he leaned back. His face was close, his lips near your ear, brushing lightly. Goosebumps were visible on your arm. Your heart beated faster, you were sure he could here it. Your face stayed looking forward as Jooheon studied your sideprofile up close. Air found no way into your lungs, until the man beside you leaned back, away from your face, a chuckle ringing through your ears. “Don’t worry baby, I won’t bite you. I just want to enjoy my time with you.” There it was again, his smile with those two deep dimples.
And here you were, sitting in full darkness on the softness of your bed, remebering and reliving the night over and over again.
Warnings: nsfw, drugs, alcohol, human trafficking, blood and anything related to the world of mafia.
This Story is an imaginary Story, please don’t take it too serious. We all know that Jooheon is 100 % not like that or maybe 75%... Please enjoy!
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It's too dangerous here, I need you here. You took me - take responsibility. You marked me - take responsibility. You loved me - take responsibility. You killed me - take responsibility.
You bet on this table and I bet my heart. There’s this Demon under the table, talking to you. That vodka, in my cup, going round and round. I spin it, you tip it, they strip it. Give me that what you call fear, hook that on mine, spin that wheel, roulette - that’s the game.
You taste the muzzle of a gun, you taste the taste of money. You think I'm dazzled up by you and your world. Tie that bitch, it ain't funny, I had sleepless nights playing with zeros. I see you buried in cash, my tears become diamonds.
Next chips and next checks. Next matches and next chicks.
Uff Thank you💚 I’ve seen the TikToks and some of them are hilarious😂
I’m catching up on my long waited requests.
I’m so sorry for making you wait, but I’m trying my best!
Shownu: You walk in as he eats his after-workout-meal and because of you it wouldn’t stay long in his mouth. His eyes are looking over every curve you have, not missing one inch. Somehow you’d think he would jump up and run up to you in lightning speed. But his mind is blank and the only thing he can do is stare. He’ll snap out, the moment you say his name.
“Hyunwoo.”
“Yes?” Shownu got flustered and locked eyes with you, ignoring you exposed skin.
“What you think?”
“Put something over you, so I can actually think.”
Wonho: The moment his eyes met your naked body in the mirror of your home made gym-room, the boy is lost and smiling like an insane man. The weights he’s been lifting, dropped to the floor and his tongue is gliding over his lips. Remembering the taste of your skin on his tongue. His smile is bright but his thoughts are dark. He wanted to take you there and immediately.
“Woah! Y/N” Wonho was surprised by your appearence.
“You like what you see?” A smirk growing over your lips as confidence boosted you more.
“I would like to get surprised to this kind of view all the time though.”
Minhyuk: He dropped his brush the moment he took a glimpse of you. Minhyuk had one of his very artistic moment and was ready to draw something, as you interrupted that inspirational moment. But it looked like he got a whole new inspiration.
“Hi Minhyuk” you dropped the fabric from your body. As Minhyuk gave you a quick glance, but returned his attention to you, followed by eyes in the size of a whale.
“Wow, Y/N.” he was awestruck and couldn’t find the right words.
“Could you draw me like one of your french girls?” a smirk placed itself over Minhyuks lips.
“Of course my love.”
[Well here you can skip the drawing part, get ready for some paint on your ass]
Kihyun: Walking in naked in front of your boyfriend is fun they said, Being naked in bright daylight was fun they said. Well, it was kinda fun afterwards.
Kihyuns facial expression became unreadable as you dropped the fabric from your body. You blocked Kihyuns freeway sight to the TV and interrupted his daily dose of Netflix shows. You thought he was mad, because he said nothing and just looked you dead in the eyes.
“Kihyun?” you asked, starting to feel embarrassed.
“What are you doing?” his expression was still unreadable. you said nothing and avoided his eyes. You picked up the fabric, as you pulled it over halfway. Kihyun was already in front of you, his eyes dark and ready to punish you. “Who told you to look like that in daylight? There might be people watching you from the window.”
[Get wrecked straight on the couch, there’s no time to go to the bedroom]
Hyungwon: He couldn’t understand what your mission was. He was just sitting there, playing his video game, as you walked in and interrupted him. But he wasn’t down to end his game so fast, he only started it a few hours ago and your very desirable attire is not stopping from it.
“Yah! Y/N go put some clothes on.”
“But Hyungwon, don’t like what you see?”
“I do, but I’m not ending this game only because of you horny ass.”
Jooheon: You and Jooheon haven’t been too intimate yet, it was still early in your realtionship. But as you saw this trend on TikTok you felt bold enough to try it out and it was the best occasion to start your sexual journey with your boyfriend. That’s how you ended up in his room, naked in front of him. His face lighted up by his computer screen.
“What the fuck?” Jooheon chuckled, he couldn’t trust his eyes.
“Don’t you like what you see?” You teasingly mocked him, not ready to feel ashamed yet.
“I do, but seeing you like this is like seeing a godlike creature.”
Changkyun: Damn the Maknae, he acts so cocky on the outside, but sceaks like a child after seeing a puppy for the first time. You entered the room, you dropped the cloth wrapped around your body and all he does ist giving you that sign (look at gif).
“Changkyun-ah”
*Changkyun turns away from his screen gives you a sign and turns around*
“Hey!” you slapped his shoulder and Changkyun started to laugh at your reaction and while you continuesly hit him, Changkyun turned off the game. Out of surprise he stood up, grabbed you and threw you on the bed, hovering over you.
Uff, I heard about the stuff happening in Italy. I hope YOU ARE SAFE!!! And YOU TAKE CARE TOO!!!
I took extremely long, I’m soooo SORRYYYYY!!!! But anyway ENJOY!
I wrote it in an collage!au.
AND OF COURSE YOU’LL GET YOUR REQUEST WRITTEN BY MOI!!!!
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“Y/N!” someone repeatedly tried to get your attention, but you felt like you were in a bubble. You were lost in your thoughts. “Yah! Y/N-ssi!”
After hearing your name again, you snapped out of your train of thoughts and came back to reality. Your eyes searched in a quick pace for the source of the voice and found Minhyuk across the table.
“Stop shouting Minhyuk! We’re in a library.” you whisper shouted towards your friend who interrupted your study session.
“Woman, I’ve been repeating your name for quite some time without any reaction from you. Of course I have to shout your damn name to get your attention.” Minhyuk sat back in his chair, crossing his arms over his chest. You sighed and rolled your eyes at the attitude your best male friend was giving you.
“Spit it out! What do you want?” A smirk grew over Minhyuks features, his body moved towards you. He extended his finger to come closer to him as well. As you moved simultaneously to the middle, Minhyuk flicked your forehead with the exact fsame finger he was motioning you to him. You let out a small shriek and covered the formed red mark on your forehead. Meanwhile, Minhyhuk laid back on his chair again.
“Don’t be rude, I’m still older than you. You shouldn’t talk like that to your Oppa~” Minhyuk smiled as you cringed at the name “Oppa”, he used it often to tease you with.
“Shut up.”
“Yah, Y/F/N!” You stood up ready to leave, as Minhyuk did the same and followed you outside the library. “Do I have to repeat myself? You’re not-”
“Allowed to talk like that to your senior.” you finished his words in a mocking way. “You’re not my senior Minhyuk, you’re just older than me and you’re only helping me with some of the stuff for university.”
“Which makes me a senpai for you.”
“You’re watching too many animes.” You walked faster, making Minhyuk fall behind. He catched up fast, with a poud on his face.
“Don’t be so mean to me Y/N-chan~” you groaned at the nickname he gave you and stopped walking, making Minhyuk to walk ahead of you and stop too. “What?” his puppy eyes were annoying you the most and you really wished you could punch him in the face.
“What do you want?” You knew that man wanted something from you, or else he wouldn’t be so consistent and annoy you to this extent.
“I don’t know if I wanna ask you anymore you’ve been so mean to me.” Minhyuk fake-pouted to make you more annoyed. You grew frustrated and don’t wanted to go even further with his childish behavior.
“Stop being a baby and tell me for fucks sake, what you want.”
“Okey~” Minhyuk seemed defeated and a disappointing frown took over his features. “I want you to go out with me.” Your eyes grew a size three times than normal. A stream of thoughts and ideas shot like a gun through your mind.
“What?” you stuttered out the small question, your face heated up.
“Y/N-shi! I’m not asking you out on a date, I just told you to hang out with me, cuz we haven’t spend much time together since the exams started. And the others actually want to see you too”
“The others?” A flash of relieve ran through your body and you knew how to breath again. But as he mentioned others, you were confused as who he meant.
“Like Hyunwoo, Kihyun, Jooheon and so on. You know which dudes I mean.” You thought a while, remembering the people Minhyuk meant. Until a certain name popped up in your mind and your eyes widened.
“Do you mean all your friends?”
“Yeah, all six of them. Even Changkyun.” your hands started to sweat at the mention of his name. You don’t know why you grew so nervous about it.
Well you never really talked to him, even though you did spend a decent amount of time with Minhyuks friends. But for some odd reason, you never spoke with. You only met if the eight of you meet up together or when you share the same lecture and even then you don’t speak. Well for sure you know, you can’t speak to him because of your little crush towards him. Whenever you tried to initiate a conversation, something comes in between and you’re not able to talk.
What makes you even more sad is, that you feel like you’re the only one who tries to initiate a conversation between you two. Sometimes you think, that Changkyun doesn’t like you. He always sits quietly when you gather together and it makes you feel uncomfortable, because you think that you’re making him uncomfortable around his friends and it makes you feel unwanted at the same time. In lectures you tried to talk to him but dropped the thought, whenever he seems annoyed by you. You always see him smile and cheerful, when he’s with his friends. But when you’re around he seems to change his behavior and becomes a different person.
But the biggest question you give yourself is why you’re still attached to him and started to grow feelings?
“Come on Y/N-shi~ Everything will be fine! Don’t worry about him. He’s just a moody kid.” Minhyuk laid his arm over your shoulders. He knew who you were stressing out about. He also knew about your little crush towards Changkyun and used it to tease you a lot about it. But he knew far more than you did.
“I don’t think it’s a good idea. especially since you’ll tease the shit out of me after all this.” You pushed his arm away and started to walk to your next lecture.
“I’ll pick you up after you last lecture!”
As you walked to the next building, you thought more about the upcoming meet up. You sure missed the guys too and would love to meet them again, but the thought of making Changkyun uncomfortable, made you pissed about yourself. You felt terrible, since you felt like an intruder trespassing the circle of friends.
As you reached the door to the lecturing hall, you noticed, that there were only a few people. You scanned the room, to find a perfect spot, until you met the figure of a certain person.
Speaking of the devil.
There he was Lim Changkyun, the man you’re having a one sided crush on. The man who can’t stand you and ignores you. He was talking to Jooheon, his smile captivated you as his small dimple showed up on his cheek. You could only see the back and side of his head, as it was turned to Jooheon.
You stood still observing them with sad eyes, oh how you wished he would talk to you like he did to Jooheon. Eventually you started to move and find a seat, but got interrupted as someone shouted your name. You knew who the voice belonged to. Jooheon saw you at the door and shouted after you, signaling you to come over to them. his bright and excited smile made you no choice to turn around and ignore him. You did walk towards the two men, smiling a tight smile, your hand gripping your back tighter. You observed Changkyuns behavior and yet again, he turned cold. He gave you a small glance and turned back to Jooheon as you arrived at their tables.
“Hey, Y/N-shi! Come sit with us.”
“Oh I actually wanted-”
“Come on Y/N sit down, alone in the front isn’t fun!” you got cut off by Jooheon and obligated to his words. You sat down next to Changkyun so he was sitting between you and Jooheon. Immediately, the awkwardness rose and you felt uncomfortable. You felt bad for Changkyun, again. “So Y/N-shi~ are you coming with us to the bar tonight?” Jooheons cheeky expression made you loose up just a little bit, but as your gaze landed on Changkyun, the tension came back and felt nervous again.
“I don’t know, I still have some assignments to do though.” You tried to excuse yourself and came up with this lame one.
“Stop talking shit, we all have assignments to do and we’re still hanging up anyway. As much as I know you, you’re already done with it.” You laughed awkwardly.
“Well Minhyuk did tell me he would pick me up after the lecture, so I guess I have no choice then.”
“See? On Minhyuk we count!” As Minhyuks name got mentioned, you noticed how Changkyun shifted awkwardly in his seat, which made you even more uncomfortable. “Ah what I wanted to ask, are-” Jooheon got interrupted by the professor who entered the room and you felt another rush of relieve going through your body.
The lecture went painfully slow, especially since it was the first time ever you sat next to Changkyun. Occasionally, you snatched a quick glance to him. Seeing him up close was doing nothing good to your heart. You wanted to jump out of the window, because of the mixture of emotions, that were inside of you. You were excited but also nervous and it seemed like your heart just couldn’t handle it very well until the end of the lecture. As you finished, you packed your back as fast as you could to leave them first and to not make things more awkward.
“Wait, Y/N! Why are you running? It’s your last lecture right? We’ll go with you.” Jooheon stopped your rushing form, you looked at Changkyun and catched him rolling his eyes. Sadness filled your body, but brushed it off quickly.
“But Minhyuk wanted to pick me up.”
“I know, we meet up anyway, so why not go together? Come on Kkyun.” Jooheon followed up, together with Changkyun. You awkwardly walked next to Jooheon, but happy enough to not walk next to Changkyun.
As you walked out, you saw a very surprised Minhyuk standing at the end of the staircase. You never walked out or were near Changkyun without at least five more people. So this was very new to him.
“How come I see such a rare view today?”
“What are you talking about Hyung?” Jooheon was clearly too oblivious to see in what kind of situation he was in.
“Ah, never mind Jooheony~” Minhyuks attention was drawn to you as you reached the two men. “Y/N had fun at your lecture?” Minhyuk teased you as always.
“It wasn’t different from the previous ones.” you shot back
“Mmh~ Y/N-chan being so mean again.” Minhyuk whined playfully, earning a slap on his arm from you. “Ouch!”
“Shut up.”
“Nevermind, give me your backpack, I’ll hold it.” Minhyuk tried to get your back and observed Changkyun through a side-eye.
“Why do you want my backpack?” you were confused, as to why he would want to carry your back. He never did that before. “You never ask to carry it and if I asked you, you always start to whine like a small baby.”
“Stop questioning and give it to me.” Minhyuk took you backpack and watched his younger friend. Jooheon stood there observing everything and being dumbfounded.
“Hyung, why don’t you ask us how the lecture was?” Jooheon whined and was completely oblivious from the situation again.
“Jooheon, why should I ask, when I know that you sleep through it most of the time.” Jooheon frowned deeply at his older friends words and followed Minhyuk and you towards the bar. Changkyun was behind you, next to Jooheon.
Changkyun observed you and Minhyuk talking, he saw how much you two interacted and grew jealous of his friend. He didn’t liked the way you two are towards each other, so close. Why couldn’t he be so close to you?
To be fair and honest, Changkyun had a really bad crush on you. But since he’s like the biggest introvert in the world, he’s to shy to even look at you or be in the same room as you. You just took away all his attention towards lecture sometimes, that he’s close to fail the class he is with you. Changkyun has a general problem talking to girls, he gets pretty shy, but is still able to talk with them and being able to act cool. Resulting in him getting plenty of confessions, but rejecting them every time. But why on earth can’t he be like that towards you? Why is he a mess, when you’re around?
Why is he so scared to ask you out? Is it because you don’t like him? Do you think he’s strange and weird? Or is it because you like Minhyuk?
Minhyuk, the person he loves but also hates at the same time. He wishes to be like him, to be able to talk freely to you. Changkyun thinks that you’d like a more open type like Jooheon or Minhyuk. Someone who makes you laugh, like they do.
You arrived at the place, the rest of your group wasn’t there yet. So you decided to get a booth and order before hand. So when the others come, the food will be there already. You sat next to Minhyuk, Jooheon and Changkyun opposite from you two. So you were facing Jooheon and Minhyuk was facing Changkyun. Normally you and Changkyun would sit extremely far apart, but today was weird anyway. You could feel something was going to happen, since Minhyuk interrupted your study session in the library. It’s as if he was planning something fishy.
You ordered your first drinks and food and waited for them to arrive. The drinks came fast, as you took the first sip. Jooheon dropped the bomb of his unfinished question from beginning of the lecture.
“Ah, I almost forgot. Are you guys actually together now?” you almost choked on you drink, as Minhyuk chuckled. Both of you knew who he was referring to.
“Yah, don’t die, it’s just a question.”
“What?” you managed to speak out.
“No Jooheony, we’re not dating.” Minhyuk was quick to unfold the misunderstanding.
“But why not? You both are so close, I was wondering why you don’t have started to date yet.” Jooheon, was really curious. But the man next to him wasn’t having it at all, but stayed quite.
“Jooheon, we’re not going to date, we’re just friends. Nothing more.” You grew serious and your eyes switched from Jooheon to Changkyun every now and then. But Changkyun seemed unfazed by your eyes and it hurt you a little. Minhyuk was quick to notice you two and thought about something. Why not add a little fuel to the small fire.
“It’s really a shame, you two look really cute together.”
“It is a shame, why don’t you accept my love Y/N?” your eyes widened at that sudden confession, of your friend.
“What are you talking about? You haven’t started drinking yet!”
“You know what I’m talking about. Y/N-shi~ stop denying your feelings for me already.” Changykuns eyes went wide and looked at you two in shock. You haven’t noticed it and continued to look at Minhyuk in disbelieve. “And let’s date already, even Jooheon wants us to date. Right Jooheony~?” Jooheon nodded seriously.
“Minhyuk, are you meaning it for real?”
“Of course.” Minhyuk wrapped his arm around you and pulled you closer, looking at Changkyun. Who grew pissed even more, his facial features showed all kind of building up anger and finally, you looked at him. You both made eye contact for the first time.
“I gotta go somewhere real quick. “ Changkyun stood up to leave and bumped his shoulder against one of the currently arriving freinds.”
“Hey, where are you going?” Hoseok asked curiously, getting no response from him.
“He said, he needed to go somewhere real quick.” Explained Jooheon.
“And what is with you two?” Asked Kihyun as he sat next to Hoseok, who sat in Changkyuns previous seat.
“Nothing.” you pushed Minhyuks arm away in a really frustrated and mad way.
“What’s wrong? God, why did you have to do that?” you turned to Minhyuk
“Do what?”
“Don’t act dumb, you know about my crush on Changkyun. Why did you have to act like that in front of him?”
“Wait, you have a crush on Changkyun? Our Changkyun?” asked Hoseok, who seemed really oblivious just like Jooheon, who grew extremely confused about this whole situation.
“You didn’t knew that?” asked Kihyun.
“Of course she’s been crushing on him, the whole time. Didn’t you noticed it?” included Hyungwon. By now most of them in their group of friends, knew about their crush on Changkyun. But the also knew about his crush on you.
“No, I thought they hated each other.” said Hoseok.
“Since we made it clear that I have a big crush and Changkyun. Can we talk about the mess Minhyuk had done?” You interrupted the small discussion about your feelings towards their youngest mate.
“Minhyuk, why did you do it?” Kihyun was your second best friend after Minhyuk and was ready to back you up. He knows that Changkyun is a pretty deep person and getting him mad ist not a way of getting him out of his shell.
“I was just making fun. There’s no biggy.”
“No biggy? How am I supposed to confess to him, when he thinks that I like you! He would think I’m cheating on you or something like that.”
“Why would he think that?” asked Minhyuk “And as if you were going to confess to him. You had so many opportunities and you always backed up. If you wanted to confess to him then go to him and confess now!” Minhyuk was sick of your and Changkyuns behavior. He knew from the beginning, that you two have been crushing on one another for some time. And that both of you didn’t have the courage to confess drove him crazy. Now was the time you two should start to get together and stop being two oblivious shrimps.
You looked at Minhyuk, suddenly feeling anxious as you eyes started to shake.
“God, just go already and talk to him or I’m going to confess to him for you.”
“Minhyuk -”
“Y/N-shi, Minhyuk’s right, you have to talk to him.” it’s the first time Jooheon said something right for the day. You exhaled loudly, feeling anxious again. You tried to stand up, but stopped as Changkyun entered the booth again. The both of you met eyes, Changkyun was first to look away and sat down. You did the same as some of the people at the table sighed in frustration.
There goes your opportunity to confess.
As the food arrived, the topic changed quickly and was forgotten quickly. You enjoyed the meal and the drinks. Since it was Friday, you guys started to drink a bit more alcohol than usual. Changkyun especially, he seemed pretty down and wanted to drown his sadness. Minhyuk noticed it and took advantage of the situation. If you’re not confessing to him then it must be drunken Changkyun.
The sweet saying is - Drunk words are sober thoughts. Right?
“Y/N-shi~ is so cute I really wanna give you a kiss on the cheek.~”
“Minhyuk, you’re drunk quit it.”
“But Y/N-chan~ you’re so cute! I can’t help myself. Let me give you a kiss.” Minhyuk came closer to you, but you pushed him away.
“Minhyuk, I won’t let you kiss me. You’re drunk.” Minhyuk came closer again, giving you a kiss on the cheek.
“Yah! Stop touching Y/N!” every person on the table looked to one person. Changkyun had enough and shouted towards his older friend.
“But Y/N-chan~ is so cute. All I want is to shower her with kisses.” Minhyuks words seemed drunk, but his mind became sober as his plan started to pregress. He had him where he wanted him the most.
“I don’t want you to kiss her!” Changkyuns shouted in a drunk state. Your mind grew completely sober.
“Why not?” teased Minhyuk.
“Minhyuk-.” Kihyun tried to stop Minhyuk but got interrupted by a drunk Changkyun.
“Because she’s mine!” All eyes went wide at those three words. Your face heated up and turned 50 shades of red and your ears were burning.
“I want you to stop touching her! It hurts to see you being so close to her. I want that too. Y/N?-” you looked at him straight in the eyes as he said your name. “Why can’t I talk to you? Why don’t I have so much courage to talk to you? I really wanna be close to you, but why can’t I? Don’t you like me? Is it because I’m quite and weird?”
“Changkyun-” you wanted to say something but got interrupted by Changkyun again.
“Shh- don’t say anything. I know you like Minhyuk, I won’t interfere anymore. I’m just going to leave.” Changkyun tried to stand up but failed. Kihyun and Hyungwon had to catch him from falling. You stood up as well. “Don’t worry I’m fine. You don’t have to help me.”
“Are you sure?” Everyone grew concerned and Changkyun stood steady on his feet, ready to walk out.
“I think I need to go.” Changkyun walked out. The remaining group looked at you concerned pleading you to run after him. You didn’t hesitated and ran after him. Outside in the dark, you noticed Changkyun sitting near a corner his knees covering up his face. Your feet brought you closer to him.
“Changkyun.” you voice was soft, too scared to scare him. He lifted his head, looking straight into your eyes.
“What are you doing outside? Don’t you wanna spend time with your boyfriend?”
“Minhyuk isn’t my boyfriend.”
“Then why is he kissing you and saying that you like him?”
“Minhyuk is just drunk.”
“Just like me.” Changkyuns face landed in his hands as he rubbed it, trying to rub away the drunkenness from his face. “I’m just to drunk to think straight. I’m sorry Y/N, you don’t have to sit here with me.”
“But I came out to you and check on you. I can’t leave you out like this.” you rubbed Changkyuns back, to give him comfort.
“Do you know what?”
“Hm?”
“I didn’t imagine our first conversation to be like that. Me being drunk and confessing at the same time. I actually planned it to be later after we had our first normal conversation.” you chuckled a little bit at his small confession. “You’re laughing. Am I funny too?”
“Why are you saying that?”
“You- “ Changkyun exhaled heavily before continuing. “You just seem like the type of girl, who like men like Minhyuk and I’m the complete opposite of him. I’m shy and don’t talk so much. My jokes are weird and not as funny as his.”
“Changkyun.” Changkyun looked at you, searching your eyes. “I like you and no, Minhyuk is not my type, he’s mostly annoying and a pain in the ass. And how am I supposed to know what type of gyu you are? I thought you hated me.”
“Why did you think that?” Changkyuns face formed itself onto a frown.
“Because you never talked to me and whenever I was around you guys, you seemed annoyed by my presence. But to know, that you were as shy as me. Makes me feel some kind of relief and to know that you like me back is giving me an even better feeling.”
“Wait, you mean, you like me too?” you nodded at his question and smiled softly. Both of you chuckled after a long eye contact. “So you like me.” Changkyun spread his legs on the ground and smiled goofily on them, nodding slightly.
“Yes I do.” you chuckled facing the ground and repeating the same thing Changkyun does.
“Let’s restart.” you looked at Changkyun questioningly, as he extended his hand to you. “Hi, I’m Changkyun.” you took his hand.
“Hi, My name is Y/N.” you both exchanges a soft smile.
“What a beautiful name Y/N, it’s nice meeting you.”
~ To realize what we used to have, we don't have it anymore ~
This man is heartbroken and will take everything on him. Shownu will be quiet he’s not the type to talk a lot and express his feelings. You would think he already moved on. But on the inside it’s like a rose loosing it’s petals. He realizes the things you both did together, the most simple things won’t be the same for him.
~ If you ever leave me baby, leave some morphine at my door 'Cause it would take a whole lot of medication ~
Sensitive, a man with a heart made of glass. Delicate, breakeable but so beautiful you see the sunrays shining through it. Breaking the light shining in beautiful colors. But when you leave, his heart breaks. Wonho is not afraid to show his feelings, when the tears flow, he’s not stopping them. He respects your decision and won’t push you to stay with him. He wants you to be happy and if it’s not him beside you, then so it be.
[I love him and he deserves the world]
~ I'll pick up these broken pieces 'til I'm bleeding if that'll make you mine ~
He may has a difficult time to accept the fact, that you’d like to break things off and he’ll make sure to fight for you in any way possible. Minhyuk may think that you act a little selfish and will show you how much he loves you. He’s there and will always be. Even if it’ll hurt him, he still wants those beautiful memories to continue.
[read kit ~ it won’t write it in russian I hate that!!!]
~ There's no religion that could save me no matter how long my knees are on the floor ~
He seems cold to some kind, but this man is a lover in heart. You mean everything to him. But when you leave, his expressionless face is the last thing you see of him. The moment you close the door behind you. Kihyun drops to his knees and breaks in thousand pieces. He’s shaddered, you broke the selfless and proud man. He couldn’t believe what happened moments ago. His tears will flow and be painful and thick.
~ Ooh so keep in mind all the sacrifices I'm makin' will keep you by my side ~
You left and his mind is full with insecurities. Wasn’t he good enough? Did you never appreciate the things he did for you? Hyungwon is lost, he’s searching for any mistakes he did, how can he improve himself to keep you by his side. He won’t let you go, he’ll make sure to win you back.
~ Just like the clouds my eyes will do the same, if you walk away, everyday it will rain ~
Jooheon is emotional, he’ll cry you a river. He’s a man, true to his feelings. He gave you so much and you just left. He loved you with his whole heart and you just cutted off those strings that attached you to him. His cheeks will be puffy and red, his eyes bloodshot. The lack of sleep is visible in his eyes. The once cheerful Jooheon is a lost man in the rain.
~ I'll never be your mother's favorite, your daddy can't even look me in the eye ~
Just like Kihyun, he shows more of a cold shoulder. Changkyun seems unfazed, but on the inside he’s hurt. But he won’t cry his heart out, he tries to understand your reasons. The reasons why you should break up, only for his heart to feel less pain. He knows it’s crucial but that’s his way of healing.
This content might be triggering to some readers. Please consider before reading it! This scenario contains depression and suicidal thoughts.
Reading at own risk!
[WARNING]
“Y/N-shi~ How come I deserve this pleasure of a call at such time?” Minhyuk joked as soon as he accepted your call. His cheerful voice, felt heavy on your chest. You felt bad for calling him at such time. He sounded so happy, do you really wanna bother him? “Y/N-shi?” Minhyuks worried voice startled you as you started to fade away in your thoughts.
“Huh?” you snapped back to reality and you tried your best to sound as normal as possible. Minhyuk chuckled at your oblivious respond.
“Couldn’t you sleep and started to miss your lovely boy Minhyuk?” he teased you as always, he was playful. Always cheerful, you sometimes asked yourself, if he could ever grow tired of constantly being happy. How come he was always so positive? The thought of smiling alone, made you grow tired.
“Minhyuk.” you seriously don’t wanted to destroy his postitive vibes, normally you would play along. But tonight was too much. You felt like something is pushing you to the ground and you were scared. You couldn’t see yourself in the mirror anymore.
“Y/N.” the cheerfulness dissapeared in mere seconds and the worry in his voice was noticeable. “What’s wrong?” Minhyuk was careful with his words, he couldn’t understand what was happening, he never thought that you would call him at such night with so much sadness in your voice. He was so used to your cheerful calls, whenever you called him in the middle of the night. Just to tell him about a weird idea that popped in your mind. Resulting in long hours of talking and laughing about the most random things.
“I know it’s late, but - “ the sobs tried to come through as you talked. You tried your best to fight back the tears. You took a big breath and continued. “can I come over?” you heard him shifting on the other end of the line.
“Y/N, tell me what happend? Are you okey?” Minhyuk grew more worried and was ready to run to your place.
“I just - “ tears interrupted your mind, you couldn’t form any words. You tried to calm down before continueing. Minhyuk, didn’t pushed you to speak faster, he waited and listened carefully to every word you said. “don’t wanna be alone...” A sob broke through and your hand covered your lips to hold back more sobs, as more tears streamed down your cheeks. Your breathing grew heavier and faster. You wanted to stay calm and holded your breath in for a while and breathed all air out of your lounges. Minhyuk witnessed everything through the phone.
“I can come over if you want. I don’t want you to go around on your own.” Minhyuk was ready to put on some pants and run to your apartment. But you wanted to leave your place, you wanted to run away from it.
“No, I really wanna go to your place. I don’t want to stay here alone tonight. I’m scared.” You started to ell him more about your feeling and current state. You wanted to leave as fast as you could.
“Did something happen, Y/N? You’re scaring me a little. Nevermind! I’ll come and get you! Wait for me.”
“You don’t have to” I can go alone.” You declined his offer, you were already mad at yourself for destroying his night.
“I don’t want you to go out alone.” Minhyuk insisted to pick you up, but you declined it again. You wanted to use this walk to calm down a little and get some fresh air.
“I’ll be fast.” Minhyuk sighed and gave up, he knew how stubborn you could be.
“Okey. Walk along street lights and only where other people are around. Don’t go to dark alleys and when you arrive! Call me!”
“Okey.” You jumped out of your bed and threw on a hoodie.
The air was cold as it hitted your face. You could feel the stains of tears on your cheeks, even though you tried your best to wash them away. Those stains pieced your skin and a burning sensation marked the sadness onto your skin. You wished the fresh air would cool down those places, but all it did was remembering you about the hatred you have on yourself. The walk to the dorm felt like eternity, it felt like your legs were carrying a billion stones. Your body was sore, cold and empty.
After a few minutes, you reached the door of the dorm. You wished that no other member would open the door. So you called Minhyuk and after a few seconds, he was at the front door with open arms and the most worried expression you ever saw on his face.
You felt guilty, because you knew - you were the reason behind it. Your mind screamed to run away, but your legs would carry you.
Minhyuks eyes searched for yours as they didn’t even blink at his direction. His hand reached after you and pulled you inside. He guided you both to his bedroom, away from the other members. They knew something was wrong, after Minhyuk told them what happened.
As the door closed, Minhyuk pulled you into his arms. They were strong and not ready to let go. He said nothing, he waited for you.
In a matter of seconds and the tears were streaming, as if you escaped from the most dangerous situation ever in your life. Your cries were silent, but Mihyuk could feel every virbration coming from you, every tear wetening his shirt. Every sob made his arms grow stronger and pulled you closer to him. Minhyuk laid you on his bed as you calmed down.
“Here.” He pulled out his whale plush and wrapped your arms around it. Your eyes narrowed at his gesture. “Don’t look at it so weird. Just hug it! It’ll make you feel better.” You didn’t think twice and wrapped your arms tighter around the whale plush, your nose pushed itself into the fabric, inhaling his remaining scent. This plush is Minhyuks favorite, he cuddles with it whenever he can, it gives him comfort. Minhyuk hopes it would give you as much comfort as it gives him. He laid himself in front of you and pulled a few blankets over the both of you. He pushed himself closer to you and wrapped his arm around you, so you could feel secure and warm.
Your back was facing the wall and Minhyuk was like a shield, protecting you from any harm. The warmth made your body calm down, you weren’t scared anymore. Everything seemed fine and peaceful.
It was silent between you two, Minhyuk waited for you, before asking anything. he had so many questions, but he made sure that his curiosity wouldn take over. He was afraid of scaring you away and was cautious of every move he made. Eventually, he tried to be as soft as he could and started to speak up.
“Y/n.” you hummed as a respond, already knowing what was about to come. A talk. Sure he had his questions - you were suddenly acting weird, out of yourself and he was extremely worried about you. “Could you tell me what happened?” You thought for a while, to find the right words to explain everything without sounding like a maniac. A sigh escaped your chest before you spoke up.
“I don’t know how to explain it. I just- “
“I won’t judge you. Tell me what’s been on your mind.” Minhyuk interrupted you, making you feel more comfortable.
“I just -” remembering the things that happend a few hours ago, made you grow anxcious again. again, Minhyuk didn’ t pushed you. “I suddenly felt scared and empty. My body felt so sore and tired, even though I did nothing today. I was too exhausted to do anything. Whenever I looked at myself - I grew angry. I hated looking at myself in the mirror. I don’t wanted to see anyone, I wanted everyone to leave me alone. I was driving to work and suddenly -” you swallowed hard and continued “I imagined how it would look like if I would drive off the bridge or how it would be if I was in an accident. I thought I was too tired and thought about these stupid things. I shook them off as quickly as possible. After work, I went to take a bath. I pulled my head into the water imagined how it would feel like to drown. As I went to bed.- “ tears started to well up in your eyes “I wished to fall asleep and never wake up again. Suddenly I became scared of the darkness, I felt so lonely and scared. I don’t wanna die Minhyuk.” The tears streamed down your face without any stop. Minhyuk pulled you closer, squishing the whale plush between the two of you. “Why is everything so hard? Why can’t I live without struggles? Why am I suffering? I can’t do anything anymore, everything seems so hard. All the things I did, all those easy things, the things I love to do, seem so hard to make.” Your head pushed the whale deeper into Minhyuks chest. Minhyuk couldn’t think of any words, that could cheer you up. He knows, that the damage was a lot and it’ll take some time for you to heal. “Nothing happened, everything was fine. Why do I feel like that suddenly? There are people who have it worse than me. Why am I like this? It feels like I’m in a place where I’m surrounded by darkness and there’s this light at the end. I’m running towards it, but I can’t reach it, the faster I try to run the farther it gets. All I want is to reach this light and to escape the darkness”
“You don’t need a reason to be sad. There are times where you just feel not your best self.” Minhyuk was careful, but he wanted to encourage you, that everything doesn’t need a reason to exist. “Y/N, the things you said, seem really bad and it sounds like you’ve been struggling with those things for a longer time now. Why haven’t you told me those things sooner? I’m your boyfriend. Why did you kept them to yourself?”
“I don’t wanted to burden you. Even today - I debated with myself whether I should call you or not. But it was too much to handle.“ you mumbled into his chest as Minhyuk let out an heavy sigh.
“You should always call when you feel bad. You’re not a burden to me and you’ll never be one. I love you and you know that. I want you to be happy and forcing yourself to act happy isn’t good for you.”
“But you’re already busy with your idol-life. I don’t want to push my problems on you and make you worry. When you have to concentrate on your work. I don’t want to be a distraction.”
“Stop talking yourself down, It’s my problem how I manage my idol-life with my personal-life. You are my first priority! You can always come to me. You don’t know how worried I got when you called me like that for the first time. I thought I’m loosing you. I was ready to run to your apartment, in shorts only.” you chuckled a little at the thought of him running through the city in shorts only. Minhyuk smiled a little at the small sound of you. “There are moments, where you feel down and sad, it’s human. You are not suppost to feel happy all the time. How are you supposed to feel at the happiest, when you never felt at the saddest. I want you to be happy, I really do. But I can‘t stop the sadness in you immediately. You need time and healing and I’ll be with you through that journey. I don’t want to see you running to this light, I want you to be the light. You have to light up the room to see the beautiful things surrounding you. I want us to jump on this whales back and let it take us to a place where we both can be happy together. A place where you can shine forever with the whale in your arm. Ready to grow beautifully”
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This story is based on a dream I had at night. A night I wanted to never wake up again and sleep forever. It's one of my most personal stories, but I’m not afraid to show you this side. Because it’s a part of my life, it’s a part of my story.
I know my bias is Jooheon, but this man has a special place in my heart, he’s the person who teached me that I don’t need a light to guide me. I need to be that light, to fully love the way I am.
His smile shows me the bright side of this world and I can’t stop feeling the warmth in my chest whenever I see it.
He’s my biggest inspiration and the source of my most beautiful and meaningful inked piece on my body!
Shine Forever - his line in this song was the only thing that sticked out the most! i fell in love with his voice!
A song that understood the pain and the desire I was searching for the most!
Do you remember the Monsta X-Ray episode where the members did a roleplay? And Minhyuk was a Poet? He wrote Shine Forever in korean and I got that signature on my rib next to my heart.
It’s okey to be sad, it’s ok to be week at some point, If you can’t do the the things you love, because you’re mentally too exhausted - Don’t push yourself!
Take your time, focus on yourself! And stand back up again, when you can!
The biggest strenght lays in you! I had to stand up again, very often. Mostly on my own.
My family couldn’t understand my struggles, they screamed at me after I had to tell them what is wrong with me. I never talked to them about this topic ever again. But I’m glad that I had friends who supported me and still do!
I found the most precious people and I love them to the fullest and now - I really learned to love myself for who I am!
Even if I fall again, I will stand up and go straight with my head up.
I’m me and there is nothing wrong with it.
I hope you enjoyed the story and give it lot’s of love.
I pushed the requested ones to the back, cuz I felt like I needed to post it before returning to be your writer.
Love yall!
