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this version of me is dead lol

[egberts]

[genderhexed]

October is LGBT history month & national ADHD awareness month so support me, your local hyperactive distracted queer, by giving me $100,000

[nuuc-deactiv-byebye]

someone who is good at self regulating: and after i take a shower i will do my homework

me, a goblin: i will lie in bed for 6 hours thinking about what i should do

[loathsomespider]

this is so genuinely refreshing to read 

[coratorium]

this is especially nice because this isnt even like apologizing for overt transphobia this is like something i probably wouldnt have even recognized personally in context as being transphobic? and hes apologizing anyway i guess the point im trying to make is that justin is a good dude and also my standards for Popular Youtube Men are very, very low

[goodsprings]

the tweet he sent out after this was really nice too, he’s really a good dude and it’s really refreshing as a trans person to see someone you admire being humble and recognizing their mistakes

[commander-shep]

Podcast rec list

My old podcast rec/request list is still getting notes so I figured I’d make a new list with everything I’ve downloaded since then. Favourites are italicized*.

Audio drama (Fantasy)

Alba Salix, Royal Physician* - Follows trials and tribulations of Farloria’s head witch of the House of Healing, Alba Salix. It is a 6-part mini-series (+ bonuses) with no future episodes currently planned.

The Behemoth -  15-year-old Madyson tells the story of the Behemoth, a large, lumbering beast that has emerged from the waters off of Cape Cod. It will be a 20-part mini-series.

Hello From the Magic Tavern - An improv comedy podcast hosted by Arnie, a man who accidentally passed through a portal into the land of “Foon”. Every week Arnie interviews patrons of the Vermilion Minotaur tavern including monsters, wizard, and adventurers.

Audio drama (Horror)

Alice Isn’t Dead* - A truck driver searches across America for the wife she had long assumed was dead, encountering not-quite-human serial murderers, towns literally lost in time, and a conspiracy that goes way beyond one missing woman along the way. This podcast is produced by the same people who brought you Welcome to Night Vale.

Archive 81 - These are the recovered tapes of missing archivist Daniel Powell, posted by a well-meaning friend hoping to locate him.

Help Me - Nicole investigates the mysterious death of her friend Olivia and possible link to a dangerous entity. It is a 15-part mini-series with no future episodes currently planned.

Limetown* - Radio host Lia Haddock investigates the sudden disappearance of the residents of Limetown. It is a 7-part mini-series (+ bonuses) with future seasons (and possibly a TV show) in the works.

Return Home - Jonathan Baker returns to his home town after being contacted by a mysterious entity. Episodes are broken up into multiple parts aired every week, with breaks between episodes.

Audio drama (Pseudo-radio show)

The Black Tapes* - (horror) A weekly radio show hosted by Alex Reagan that investigates unsolved paranormal phenomenon documented by the Strand Institute. They also produce TANIS.

The Message* - (sci-fi) Nicky Tomalin documents the work of a team of cryptologists as the attempt to decipher an alien message. It is an 8-part mini-series.

Good Morning Zakera Ward - (sci-fi, Mass Effect) A morning radio show set in the Mass Effect universe. It is an 11-part series that appears to have ended abruptly, but is still worth a listen if you’re a fan of the games.

King Falls AM - (sci-fi/fantasy) A late-night talk show from quaint town of King Falls that is frequently interrupted by peculiar happenings and paranormal events.

TANIS - (horror) A docu-drama series hosted by Nic Silver exploring the myth and conspiracy of Tanis. They also produce The Black Tapes.

Welcome to Night Vale - (cosmic horror)  Community radio updates for the small desert town of Night Vale, featuring local weather, news, announcements from the Sheriff’s Secret Police, mysterious lights in the night sky, dark hooded figures with unknowable powers, and cultural events.

Audio drama (Sci-Fi)

ars PARADOXICA* - A journey through spacetime and the Cold War with Dr. Sally Grissom, a physicist send back in time when an experiment goes awry.

The Bright Sessions* - The recorded therapy sessions of Dr. Bright, who provides support for patients with unusual talents. ((It’s more of a paranormal drama that a true sci-fi)).

The Bunker - A breakfast radio show broadcast back in time to us from the post-apocalyptic year 2414. It’s a 12-part mini-series, and the developers are currently working on another sci-fi series that will be titled Mars Corp.

EOS 10* - The adventures of two maladjusted doctors, their medical team, and a hypochondriac ex-prince aboard an intergalactic travel hub.

Kakos Industries - Corporate announcements for Kakos Industries, a corporation dedicated to helping you ‘do evil better’.

Liberty - Tales from Atrius, a colony cut off from humanity and racked by civil war, and the surrounding lawless expanse known as the Fringe. It consists of multiple mini-series.

Sayer - Acclimate to life on Earth’s man-made second moon, Typhon, with the assistance of the self-aware AI SAYER.

Thrilling Adventure Hour - A podcast in the style of an old-timey radio show consisting of the regular sub-series ‘Sparks Nevada: Marshall on Mars’ and ‘Beyond Belief’ as well as other segments.

Wolf 359*** - Follows the crew of the U.S.S. Hephaestus Research Station as they orbit around the red dwarf Wolf 359. This is my all-time favourite series - you should be downloading it right now… unless you’ve already heard it in which case you should definitely treat yourself and listen to it again.

Informational

Dan Carlin’s Hardcore History - As the title implies, this is really hardcore history. Episodes are exceedingly well-researched and is surprisingly easy to listen to considering the density of the subject matter.

Lore - A podcast examining myths and folktales alongside the true dark stories that either inspired or arose from them. A chilling listen that also has a TV show in the works.

Myths and Legends - Re-tellings of both popular and obscure legends that make them very accessible to a modern audience (i.e. people like me who DON’T read Beowulf in it’s original Old English for fun in their free time).

Sleep With Me* - Honestly, I have no idea what this podcast is actually about because Ackerman’s ramblings are so soothing I’m usually asleep shortly after turning it on. If you have insomnia and problems falling asleep to silence (like myself), this is a must-download - it’s more engaging that rain/wave/whale noises but you don’t have to worry about missing anything.

Literature

Escape Pod - Every episode consists of a sci-fi short story from a variety of sub-genres, and they are generally 30-60 minutes in length. If you enjoy Escape Pod, also check out their fantasy (PodCastle) and horror (PseudoPod) podcasts.

The NoSleep Podcast - Narrations of short horror stories posted to the NoSleep reddit board. It’s featured horror stories for every squick and trigger imaginable so be careful with this one if you aren’t into hardcore horror, and definitely heed the warnings at the beginnings of episodes.

True Crime

Serial - I don’t think it’s possible to be a podcast fan and not have (at the very least) heard about Serial. If you haven’t listened to it yet, definitely give it a go - there’s a reason it was at the top of the (Canadian) iTunes store for close to a year. It’s produced by ‘This American Life’, which is another professionally-produced podcast worthy of downloading.

Someone Knows Something - A series produced by CBC that examines unsolved cases of missing or murdered individuals.

Thin Air Podcast - Two English majors investigate cold cases by examining evidence and interviewing people involved with the original investigation.

Pending - I either haven’t started these or haven’t listened to enough to categorize them, but most have been rec’d by multiple sources so check them out!

A New Winter - A first-hand account of the unsolved murders and disappearances of 25 people in a small UK village.

The Cleansed: A Post-Apocalyptic Saga - (audio drama - sci-fi) An epic post-apocalyptic saga set in a world ravaged by fossil fuel scarcity.

Greater Boston - An audio drama set in Boston that blends the real and the unreal, the historical and the fantastical.

Hadron Gospel Hour - (audio drama - sci-fi)A sci-fi comedy/adventure following a duo of scientists stranded ouside of spacetime in the Hadron Bunker.

Jim Robbie and the Wanderers - (audio drama - sci-fi) Follows two female musicians travelling surreal America with their robot companion, Jim Robbie.

Monster Talk - (informational) Examines the science behind cryptozoological and legendary monsters. 

The Night Blogger - (audio drama - paranormal) It appears to follow blogger Brian Foster’s encounters with the paranormal.

Our Fair City - (audio drama - sci-fi) A campy (their words), post-apocalyptic audio drama.

Pete’s Paranormal Chronicles -  (audio drama) In 1996, Pete Schwartz began work on a documentary series called Pete’s Paranormal Chronicles, but his sanity began to unravel during the production of the program and he became completely immersed in a nationwide conspiracy.

The Twilight World of Ultimate Smoothness - A podcast chronicling the decline and fall of radio veteran Greg Willis. It is a 6-part mini-series.

Ruby: The Adventures of a Galactic Gumshoe -  (audio drama) Ruby is a hip, tough-talking detective hired to track down the malefactors who are manipulating the media on the planet Summa Nulla (the “high point of nothing”).

Unexplained - (informational) A podcast about strange and mysterious real-life events that continue to evade explanation.

As always, if there’s a podcast you like that’s missing from this list, please drop me a line (message, ask, fan mail, raven, etc. etc.) and I’ll check it out! I’ll also be adding a podcast link to my blog featuring this list with updates. Enjoy~

[okaywowcool]

ghost jersey dress

[dreamie]

are you a witch or fairy person? a scented candle or incense person? a blueberry or strawberry person? an opal or diamond person? a vinyl or cassette person?

[realindevelopment-returns]

well auspol is having a weird, weird week

[deathrots]

YALL

[deathrots]

UFCKINGG

[deathrots]

look at how many fucking notes

[babyegg-deactivated20250610]

When ppl kno about ur depression and they randomly ask “are you okay? How are you doing?” In that special voice

[croptopdelapistola-deactivated2]

Whats up u depressed bastard

[sanshofox]

I can kinda imagine Rami malek as SAGA Marko

[straightboyfriend]

[consolation-deactivated20161214]

if you don't mind answering what's wrong with intersectional feminism? do you want it to just be called feminism or is there something wrong with the concept itself?? i googled it and only found articles written by white women who were mad they got called racist

the problem for me isn’t in the concept. the problem is that ‘intersectional’ has become a buzzword for feminists of all kinds (but particularly white and/or liberal ones) to tack on at the end of their identities to declare that they aren’t racist. the problem is that intersectionality has been completely divorced from the origins of its creation, which kimberlé crenshaw (a black woman) coined when describing the intersections (like at a traffic light) where she could experience systemic injustice and exploitation: through the road of her blackness, her womanhood, her class, or a mixture of any/all of them. the fact that her work is so decontextualized should be reason enough for why i take issue with how the word is used. but my biggest problem is that this gap in the understanding of where the word comes from and its usage as a personal identifier often ends up being incredibly insidious

(white) feminists learn what this word means, decide for themselves “well i’m not racist/homophobic/transphobic/etc so i must be an intersectional feminist!” and then that’s it. because there’s literally no other un/learning going on, no other real grasp at attaining solidarity, no attempt at growing or strengthening their world view on these things, on themselves, on how they perceive, on how they act. they claim intersectionality as a label and that’s it! they know what the word means and put it in their instagram bios or in the tagline of their art pieces, so how could they possibly be racist? how could they make bad art? this is who they are now. they said they were intersectional, after all! it’s as if this word almost absolves them of any kind of real backlash

just last week this popular white woman artist made an awful installation piece featuring neon bunny rabbits surrounded by fairy lights holding up protest signs, some of which had things like jenny holzer quotes, some of which had things like “i can’t breathe” and “black lives matter” (how those two things become conflated in a white person’s art, i have literally no idea). even for me who is not black, it was clearly disturbing to see the last words eric garner spoke being held by a fucking pastel colored bunny rabbit! made by a white girl nonetheless! her response when black and brown creatives called her out was a given: i am trying, i am learning something, i am taking this critique seriously. to which i say, FUCKING DO BETTER THEN! how are you in your mid twenties making this shit art to circulate amongst tens of thousands of people?! esp when creatives in these aesthetically pleasing art circles have social clout, slapping on “oh i’m intersectional” like a sticker is suddenly what makes their creations good and politically sound. when it really is just a masturbatory cycle of meaningless, mediocre, and vapid dribble amongst all the other artists who cosign this crap

i know sooooo many people who when asked “are you an intersectional feminist?” they would say yes. but people would rather decide that they all of a sudden are this thing without taking the necessary steps to realize and encompass everything that this means, which is the case for intersectional theory imo. instead of tacking on a label that describes your so-called politics on a very shallow level, i.e. “i’m not racist” i think everybody would be much better off actually working every day to shed their unconscious internal biases, learning from people of other backgrounds to gather a larger world view, and using these things to examine how you inhabit the earth. and not only that, but using this newfound knowledge to make what you create better and more meaningful. to truly make you a better person

if you’re looking for readings i suggest this article and of course crenshaw’s work mapping the margins: intersectionality, identity politics, and violence against women of color 

[cephalopodvictorious]

'Rollie pollies' remove heavy metals from soil, stabilizing growing conditions, protecting groundwater

'Rollie pollies' remove heavy metals from soil, stabilizing growing conditions, protecting groundwater

[wombshaker]

i’m proud of them

[pleasestopandrew]

The bugs that matter

[carlssmom-deactivated20181118]

I love them

[tiffanarchy]

thanks, friends

[eponis]

Everything Is Awful and I’m Not Okay: questions to ask before giving up

Are you hydrated?  If not, have a glass of water.

Have you eaten in the past three hours?  If not, get some food — something with protein, not just simple carbs.  Perhaps some nuts or hummus?

Have you showered in the past day?  If not, take a shower right now.

If daytime: are you dressed?  If not, put on clean clothes that aren’t pajamas.  Give yourself permission to wear something special, whether it’s a funny t-shirt or a pretty dress.

If nighttime: are you sleepy and fatigued but resisting going to sleep?  Put on pajamas, make yourself cozy in bed with a teddy bear and the sound of falling rain, and close your eyes for fifteen minutes — no electronic screens allowed.  If you’re still awake after that, you can get up again; no pressure.

Have you stretched your legs in the past day?  If not, do so right now.  If you don’t have the spoons for a run or trip to the gym, just walk around the block, then keep walking as long as you please.  If the weather’s crap, drive to a big box store (e.g. Target) and go on a brisk walk through the aisles you normally skip.

Have you said something nice to someone in the past day?  Do so, whether online or in person.  Make it genuine; wait until you see something really wonderful about someone, and tell them about it.

Have you moved your body to music in the past day?  If not, do so — jog for the length of an EDM song at your favorite BPM, or just dance around the room for the length of an upbeat song.

Have you cuddled a living being in the past two days?  If not, do so.  Don’t be afraid to ask for hugs from friends or friends’ pets.  Most of them will enjoy the cuddles too; you’re not imposing on them.

Do you feel ineffective?  Pause right now and get something small completed, whether it’s responding to an e-mail, loading up the dishwasher, or packing your gym bag for your next trip.  Good job!

Do you feel unattractive?  Take a goddamn selfie.  Your friends will remind you how great you look, and you’ll fight society’s restrictions on what beauty can look like.

Do you feel paralyzed by indecision?  Give yourself ten minutes to sit back and figure out a game plan for the day.  If a particular decision or problem is still being a roadblock, simply set it aside for now, and pick something else that seems doable.  Right now, the important part is to break through that stasis, even if it means doing something trivial.

Have you seen a therapist in the past few days?  If not, hang on until your next therapy visit and talk through things then.

Have you been over-exerting yourself lately — physically, emotionally, socially, or intellectually?  That can take a toll that lingers for days. Give yourself a break in that area, whether it’s physical rest, taking time alone, or relaxing with some silly entertainment.

Have you changed any of your medications in the past couple of weeks, including skipped doses or a change in generic prescription brand?  That may be screwing with your head.  Give things a few days, then talk to your doctor if it doesn’t settle down.

Have you waited a week?  Sometimes our perception of life is skewed, and we can’t even tell that we’re not thinking clearly, and there’s no obvious external cause.  It happens.  Keep yourself going for a full week, whatever it takes, and see if you still feel the same way then.

You’ve made it this far, and you will make it through.  You are stronger than you think.

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[hvlth-gxth-deactivated20170928]

Me, with my indie folk gf

Her: The cider on my tongue is hot with false rememberings and that’s what summer means to me Me: Yo, what the fuck do you ever be talking about?

[girlidiotdotcom-deactivated2023]

your hometown + the last food you ate is your cryptid name

[prozd]

rochester ice cream