I'm not who you think I am.
TAYLOR SWIFT
23 years old
paramedic // cam girl
I feel like I’m floating down stream On a raft made from uneven gummy bears
And I’m sick to my stomach on your sweetness. The demons make home in my cavities, walls knocked down from my past. Something just never quite fixed
With more than scotch tape and tissue paper.
Not everyone can say they’ve been to the Big Apple, but [ TAYLOR SWIFT ], a [ 23 ] year-old [ TRANSFEMALE ] has lived in [ THE BRONX ] for [ 23 YEARS ]. This is the city of dreams and [ SHE ] knows it, because they came to NYC to be an [ PARAMEDIC / CAM GIRL ]. Well, that and as an [ FAKE RELATIONSHIP ] to [ KEYS ]. Living in the city means they meet all kinds of people, but everyone always seems to think they look like [ HUNTER SCHAFER ]. They even got away with free cab fare once because of it!
TW: attack, homophobia, transphobia
FULL BIO HERE
WANTED CONNECTIONS (in progress)
Born in Manhattan to a teen mom, was given up for adoption at the age of 3
Adopted by Irvin & Nicole Swift and moved to Staten Island when she lived from 3-13
Irvin and Nicole quickly realized that their son wasn’t exactly “normal” by their standards. They put her in conversion therapy. They did everything they could to make Taylor the all-american boy she was supposed to be
At 13 Taylor tried to run away. Eventually it was settled that her aunt and uncle ( @peytonxrobinson ) would take guardianship. That’s where she would live with her older brother and sister in the Bronx
Was able to transition with blockers and female clothing, etc
Used her college tuition fund for surgery which her parents happily allowed so she could be happier
Decided college wasn’t for her, getting into sex work because it made money quicker, and she was able to get a little apartment to herself
Decided after a couple months of that that she wanted to do something else. After she was attacked in the street walking home one night, she found an appreciation for the paramedics who took care of her. She got her EMT basic then advanced before following it with a paramedic degree so she could help people. Now she does both
@rylanpratt was the first girl that she actually slept with, despite the fact that when they met she was dating her brother
Hates her name but won’t change it because it’s who she is. Often gets shit for it but will allow 1 singular joke before throwing hands about it unless you’re close with her
Would like to meet her bio mom but is terrified
Somehow ended up in a fake relationship with @ofmckeys which is bordering real
closed starter to @nxtthatxne
location: Second Circle Adult Entertainment
On a typical day, Lucifer would have left intake processes to the people he’d hired to do them. Today, though, was certainly not a typical day and hadn’t been seen he’d arrived. Nearly everything seemed to be going wrong—some cosmic smite on his company, wrecking havoc all morning. Lucifer, who would normally be handling the affairs that kept Second Circle standing, was now escorting a new employee into a meeting room, because in the worst luck possible, every person in his onboarding team had some hurdle that prevented them from being at work.
He shouldered open the door, and then held it open for the woman to enter before he did. The woman who he’d scrolled through her OnlyFans account just a week prior, subscribed, and then messaged her to contact them if she was interested in making it onto the big screen, and—”No, this is not a joke.”
And it certainly wasn’t, as he pulled out a seat for her, contract paperwork in hand. “You know, for a second when I saw your ad, I actually thought Taylor Swift had gotten out of music and into porn,” he joked, and then took his own seat. “You are gonna make me so much money, I guarantee it.” A pause, then an easy grin. “That is… if you’re not having second thoughts?”
Taylor was in a strange place lately. Between her confusion with Keys and Theo, it sort of overtook anything else outside of work. That was until she got a mysterious message. She should have learned from last time, but here she was, looking at this message from some man 3 times her size offering a chance of a lifetime.
So she did what she always did. She risked it. Going to meet up with him, or someone, she was going to figure out what this is all about. She picked out what she considered classy enough for a meeting, while still matching who she was. She sat down at the large table, brushing blonde hair out of the way. When he joked about her name, she made a mental note. One.
“She’s got quality BDE but pretty sure mine is actually bigger than hers.” Certainly if the Taylor Swift had one, it would probably be perfect beyond compare, but she was alright with what she had. Some days were better than others, but for the most part, it was there. It did the job. It was fun to play with. “From the looks of this place it looks like you make enough money. What about me making money off me?”
Describe your best friend in as much detail as possible WITHOUT saying their name
Which one? I’ve got a few. I guess I’ll pick one. Fuck. Okay. Okay.
Her eyes feel like they could suck you in like a black hole. I could get lost in them so deep even Sandra Bullock in Gravity or whatever that movie is even about to save me. I know that Neil Armstrong’s name backwards or whatever spells out A. lien, but if this girl was one, I’d surrender because damn girl, I don’t know if I’d come in peace if you catch my drift.
She’s got long dark hair that I’ve always wondered how it manages to always look so perfect. I guess I’ve never paid attention to if she straightens it or puts product in it, but it’s always shiny. It looks so soft I just want to sit and play with it all day.
Olive skin fucking glistens like stars among space. She can look good in anything but I mostly see her wearing dark clothes. The more you ask me to say the more I realize I may just have a crush on her. Venus definitely can’t compare. Or is that Aphrodite? I guess I don’t know my Greek mythology as much as I thought I did.
She oozes cool. She could march through The Black Parade and come out just as beautiful as she went in. She’s always doing what she wants to, from what I see. Did I mention her eyes could suck your soul out of your body and you’d be thanking her? @dontdrxnkthewater
I know life is really really hard right now. Please hang in there. Right now we’re only 23, and life isn’t going exactly how you imagined it would, but I promise when people say ‘it gets better’ they aren’t lying. It will be okay one day.
People keep telling you you’re wrong to feel the way you do. You’re not disgusting, Tay. You’re fucking beautiful. Soon enough you’re going to live with your adoptive mom’s sister. Your aunt is the best person in the world. Her name is Peyton and she’s going to help you embrace who you really are. She’s going to take you shopping, teach you things, treat you like a teenage girl just like your new sister, Kelsey.
Kelsey is wild. You’re going to absolutely love her. She’s the best person in the world. I don’t know who teaches who more, or who gets in trouble more, but you’re going to have the best sister in the world. You’re getting a brother too, Tanner. It’s weird at first, but he loves you more than anything. He’s going to support you when people try and bully you.
Another cool thing about Tan, is his ex-girlfriend, or I guess for you future girlfriend. Her name is Rylan and she’s your best friend. I don’t know what I’d do without her. Remember that. You’re going to have so many friends it’s crazy. All these people are going to love you for you. Don’t let anyone tell you otherwise.
We’re not something super fancy, but we were just offered this big job. I can’t tell you what because you’re like, 7, but trust me. It’s cool. If you meet a dude who calls himself the devil of New York, probably just go along with it and don’t laugh about it. I don’t want you to change anything about what’s to come. Life is going to hurt so much, but because of this you’re going to meet this guy Keys. That’s not his real name, but it’s what he likes to be called. He’s going to do so much for you, and one day it’s going to hurt, but honestly, I still don’t know what to do with it. I guess we’ll find out together.
Just please hold on for me, Tay. A few things I’ll tell you now is that you are a girl. You can rock the long hair. You can experiment with the color. You’re smarter than you think you are. It’s okay to love men, women, and everyone who doesn’t fit into one of those categories.
Life is going to hurt you more than you’re ready for. You’re not going to want to hold on. You’re really lost and confused right now. Just know that even though days are still rough sometimes, you matter. We’ll get through this together.
If you had to pick one Taylor Swift album to describe you, which would it be and why?
If this is some kind of bullshit, you’ve used your one T-Swift joke, Greyface. But if I had to choose, I’d like to think I’m in my Lover Era, but honestly I’m probably not. Probably Red (Taylor’s Version) because fuck all that bullshit. Definitely Red. Am I? What do you think?
Where do you see yourself in five years? Or even next year?
Well, this is super awkward because I didn’t think I’d still be alive by this point in my life. I guess...when I’m 24 I hope I feel more comfortable in my job and where I’m at in life. By 28 I hope I’m married or at least happy in a relationship. Not that I’m not happy now with Keys, I just, you know what I mean, right? I just hope I’m alive.
how do they handle being upset/angry? do they yell, cry, go silent, etc?
It depends on what kind of angry/upset it is. Do you react the same every time you’re upset? Sometimes I yell, sometimes I cry, sometimes I’m silent. Most of the time I cry.
