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[obsourie]

FRIENDZONED !

a normal shopping day with your bsf! what could go wrong? except, you dont know why hes so demanding...

cw: 18+, highly suggested themes, gaslighting & emotional manipulation, intense possessive/obsessive behavior, toxic friendship dynamics, objectification, perverted thoughts

pairings: dark!bsf!rafe x gentle!oblivious!reader

more of friendzoned ! series here

“ouhh, this is cute.” you grab a white, linen midi dress hanging on the clothing rack. staring up and down of the design on the dress. its flowy and stops at your shin. you held the dress on your body, watching how good it would look. “i could wear this to topper’s boat party.”

“put that shit down.” rafe lazily comments from behind you. eyes not leaving his phone. you turn around, pouting. “youre not even looking at it!”

your face scrunched up in a frown. “c’mon, ray, this is pretty. white is my color, it makes me look classy.”

rafe turns his phone off, sliding it into his pocket. he closed the distance between you until hes completely towering you.

he reaches out, pinching the fabric between his thick fingers, looking at it with disgust. it was boring and completely swallowing your body shape.

“since when do you get so boring?” he spoke up. your face falters. looking back at the white dress youre holding. a faint blush covering your face in embarrassment.

“last summer you wore a bikini top to a bonfire. now youre trying to dress like.. this. if you dont want to show off, fine. but i know your real style.” he guilt trips was right. you immediately panic. thinking youre losing your 'cool' girl image on his eyes.

“you think it looks bad?” you put the white midi dress back into the rack.

“it looks cheap.” he lies answered smoothly.

“you wanna be the girl everyone stares at, right? try this one on.” he grabs a white ribbed mini dress instead. its.. very tight, scoops low on the chest, and the hemline ends on your inner thigh.

you paused. “ray, thats.. way too short. if i bend over, everyone’s gonna see everything.” you look at the dress, not sure. your face flushes hot.

rafe stares at you, gaze slowly getting dark. he smirks possessively. he leans his head down to your ear. dropping his ‘bestfriend’ act. “then dont bend over unless im standin’ right behind you.”

you gasp, brows furrowing. well, its not unusual for your bestfriend to whisper you weird things. hes just like that! a little perverted but you love him.

“youre so pervy.” you roll your eyes and giggling. he steps back, handing you the dress. “go try it on.” he orders lazily. you grab the dress and step inside to a massive, private fitting room.

once you put the dress on, you stare at yourself in the mirror. turning around to see how it looks from the back. it looks so short and tight. almost suffocating your body. you cant help but to admit you indeed look sexy in this. glad youre bestfriends with rafe, he always picks out the best for you!

and not long, rafe enters the fitting room with you there. you ask nervously, “does this look good?” you show him the front and then turning around.

rafe doesnt say anything. he physically cannot speak. his eyes goes hungry, tracking from your collarbone, down to the swell of your tits in a cleavage, then to the dip of your waist and hip, finally to how barely it covers your plush thighs and ass. you look innocent in white, yet so disrespectful.

“its fuckin’ perfect.” he compliments. theres something about rafe that makes you feel.. weird. everytime he conpliments you or stares at you, you always feel shy. maybe its because hes just intense like that.

“thanks! but im not sure—”

“keep it. you look pretty.” pretty, he said. there it was. mostly, guys and your stupid exes call you ‘hot, sexy, fine’. never ‘pretty and beautiful’. its weird ‘cause.. considering of how pervy you know your bestfriend is. but hes got a kind heart.

you stare up at rafe with a smile, heart fluttering. “aw, rafe. you always find a way to make me feel so entirely seen.”

rafe’s smile didnt reach his eyes, it stayed sharp and hungry as he dropped his gaze back to the short dress. he felt a dark thrill. feeling like he was the only guy who actually gets you and treats you right.

you take a shaky breath, fingers digging at the hem of the dress to pull it over your head, “uhm, okay. ill pick this one. just go wait outside so i can change back into my clothes.”

rafe doesnt even move towards the door. he reached over to the small hook on the wall and grabs the black micro string bikini. he brought it here before she even enters the fitting room. what the?

“try this one first.” he stares back at her. “fits your style, no?”

you stared at the bikini he held in his hand, eyes going wide. “i have to take my bra off to put that on. get out, ray.” you command softly.

rafe lazily looks down at you. tilting his head and brows furrowing in confusion. “just put it on.”

“im about to take my clothes off..?” you hiss, cheeks burning.

rafe sighs in exhaustion, “y’know, if youre that insecure about your body right now, we can put it back. thought it would look good on you, but if youre going to be weird ‘bout it.. whatever.” classic rafe, hes always dramatic!

before he could left, you let out a gasp. “im not insecure!” you argued gently, a small smile coming out. you take the bikini from his hand. “fine, ill put it on. but i want you to turn around. or, look at your phone, whatever.” well you know rafe’s definitely hooked up with a lot of girls and see them naked but still, hes your bestfriend. your rafe. you feel shy undressing under his gaze.

you take the white dress off over your head. leaving only in the pink lacy panties and bra. obviously youre not taking your panties off whenever youre trying bikinis on.

your fingers moved behind you, unclasping the bra. and just then, you quickly grab the tiny black triangle top to cover your tits.

you dont know the fitting room has three-way mirrors on every single wall. youre too busy putting the bikini on, not realizing rafe wasnt staring at his screen. he stares right at you. eyes taking in your soft skin, curve of your waist, and the way your thighs press against each other. pink undies? how cute. makes him want to ruin you.

he noticed how your fingers fumbled against the bikini string. your face confused.

“ray, i cant get the knot.” you admit, looking back at him.

he shoved his phone back into his pocket, walking closer to you. “drop your hands, ill do it.” he closed the distance, tall frame towering over you.

he reached his thick fingers to the nape of her neck. blood rushing violently on his head (and dick) that he actually feels dizzy. he takes the bikini strings and tying it slowly. he could see your tits from up here.

the air felt so thick. dont know maybe from how tense you were or the fact that his dick is throbbing. hes thinking about groping your tits from behind, and bending you over in here. he would cover your mouth to keep your moans quiet and muffled from making the staff suspicious. bet you’d get so cockdrunk. he jerked off at the thought of you for a lot of times before.

then, he brings the second set of strings down to her back. he pulls them really tight.

you squirm, “rafe, wait, thats too tig—” a gasp left your mouth, from how warm his broad body is, pressing against yours.

“if its loose, youre gonna spill right outta it. wouldnt want any other guys oglin’ at you, hm?” he tied the knot on your back carefully. his bruised knuckles from whatever fight he got—brushing softly into your bare back on purpose. once hes done, he pats your right hip. “there. told you it’d fit you.”

you stare at your reflection in the mirror infront. suddenly realizing how big his frame is swallowing you from behind. your gaze tracks down to your body—from your pink panties to the micro bikini top, but then directed at rafe.

he stares back from the mirror. making a long eye contact seconds after seconds. he leans down, his chin pressing against your bare shoulder. you dont even realize both of his hands are gripping the sides of your waist, not tightly—but firm enough.

“youre wearing this under the white dress tomorrow,” rafe dictates, tone flat. his eyes bored, but then dropped to your body again. smirking secretly. he lifts his chin off your shoulder.

“and when other guys say you look so good, youre gonna tell ‘em i picked it out for you. understood?” his big hand grabbed your chin, making you look and turning up at him.

he loves making you his doll. putting his name on your aesthetic and demanding you to brag about it to the rest of the island.

overwhelmed, flustered, and so obedient.

your lips part slightly. you give a tiny nod as you stare up at him.

“put your clothes back on. im paying for everything weve picked out.”

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FRIENDZONED !

bless your kind heart. you patched up and comfort your bsf after he had a rough night with his dad. but you dont know it was all fake & lies, do you? (wc: 12k+)

cw: 18+, graphic physical violence & blood, mentions of drug use, dry humping, dub-con, boundary crossing, extreme gaslighting & lying, weaponizing trauma, manipulative behavior, pervy thoughts

pairings: dark!bsf!rafe x gentle!oblivious!reader

more of friendzoned ! series here

“are you fucking kidding me? get off the property, you filthy pogues!”

topper shouts out, rolling his eyes when he saw jj maybank and pope heyward sitting on the bumper of the country club golf carts, trespassing and drinking stolen kook beer. laughing without any guilt.

topper and rafe were just walking out of the back kitchen doors of the country club after a kook dinner. they walked through the dark alleyway until topper spotted them.

after topper spoke up, pope stood up from the bumper. ready to leave and avoid any conflict. “alright, were leaving. c’mon, j.”

but as pope tried to walk past them, rafe steps directly—blocking the path with his massive frame. he tilts his head, a terrifying smile slowly spreading across his face.

“whoa, wait a second.” rafe grabs pope by the shoulders. he looks back at topper, “where are your manners, top? you dont just kick guests out.” rafe grins. “not when theyre enjoying our world-class hospitality.” he continued, glaring at jj and pope.

jj stopped in his tracks, eyes narrowing at rafe. he already knows whats gonna happen. rafe takes a slow step forward. trapping both of them.

“so?” rafe crossed his heavy arms, looking down at the half empty beer can jj is holding on. “how is it? the imported stuff. tastes better than the swamp water you guys drank down at the cut, aint it?”

pope stays quiet. but he sure looks back at rafe in disgust. while jj cant keep his mouth shut.. “nice golf cart,” he looks back at it. “does it come with a pair of balls, or do you have to borrow your dad’s?”

rafe’s jaw clenched. face getting blank, but the smile doesnt leave him. his fist shoots out, hitting jj directly across the jaw. its sharp and fast. jj stumbles back, and holding his face.

“wrong answer, maybank.” rafe chides softly. head shaking in fake dissapointment. “lets try again. d’you know how much a membership costs here? take a guess.”

jj spits a wad of blood onto the asphalt, glaring back at rafe. pausing in between his breaths, “go to hell, rafe.” he lunges over, throwing a hook straight into rafe’s head.

the punch grazes rafe’s cheekbone, snapping his head to the side. rafe’s eyes go dark. before jj can swing again, rafe dodged. he punched straight into jj’s stomach.

jj folds, clutching his stomach while gasping for air. but he immediately smashed rafe’s nose, causing a little blood to spurt instantly. jj later tried to tackle rafe by the waist.

“hey, back off!” pope yelled, rushing in to pull rafe away from his friend. but topper was faster. he grabs pope by the collar of his jacket and slams him hard against a bricked wall. “stay out of it!” topper yells back.

jj threw elbows and kicked—but rafe is bigger and more aggressive. rafe grabs the front of his shirt, shoving jj backward.

jj’s body slammed hard into the side of the golf cart and down to the asphalt. jj pushed himself up on his elbows, clutching his ribs. he stares up at rafe.

jj lets out a breathless laugh “you got alot of anger for someone who pretends to be sweet around your bestfriend, rafe. does she know youre a fucking psycho? bet if she does, she wont let you get in her pants.”

the alleyway goes completely silent. topper flinches, knowing what his crazy friend will do. pope closes his eyes, knowing jj went too far.

“keep my girl out of your fucking mouth!” rafe roars.

he lunges forward, grabbing jj by throat and slamming him so hard against the asphalt. rafe doesnt fucking care. he could just kill him right now. rafe punched jj three times, his gold ring slices jj’s eyebrow open.

pope breaks away from topper and tackles rafe from the side. only for pope to get another punch by rafe in the jaw.

topper grabbed rafe’s forearms and shoulders to stop him. “dude, stop! youre gonna kill him! if the cops come—”

rafe firmly shrugged him off. but he stopped punching jj. rafe shot a warning look to topper. then, he gets up and goes back inside his truck, slamming the door shut.

his chest heaving. breath getting ragged. the adrenaline’s still there. rafe holds his nose to prevent from bleeding further after jj’s punch. his knuckles hurt from bruising. fuck, he needed an escape. anything. to make him calm down.

he searched for coke in his truck. his movements getting sloppy. “no no no, where is it?!” he remembers well last week he snorts some and getting high inside his own truck.

shit. he forgot ward had caught them. his dad threw the cokes away and threatened him to stay out of it. called him a dissapointment.

he cant help, a frustrated sob escapes him first. tears of anger and exhaustion wetting his face. theres nothing he could do to make him relax again.

until then, rafe remembers something.

you. his bestfriend girl.

he remembers exactly your soft hands were. he remembers how you always try to take care of him when he complains about a headache. and how gentle your hands were running through his hair.

you were so sweet and grounding. why didnt he think of you earlier? you were better than any coke he had snorted anyway.

hes thinking about coming over to your place. but its midnight already. are you asleep yet?

rafe reached for his phone, opening your contact to text you. he found something. yours and his texts from today, hours ago from this noon:

“imma watch ‘about time’ tonight! :) guess ill stay up late haha. have you watched itt??” and he replied exactly: “stay up late? really? you should sleep. and no, not interested.” he forgot.

thats it. hes gonna come over now.

your eyes stayed focus on the tv screen infront, mind absorbing in the movie youre watching. body laying relax on bed. you were so peaceful in your brand new pajamas that rafe bought days ago.

until, you heard a heavy tapping on your second story window. you paused the movie, leaving your bed and pulling the curtains up. a gasp left your mouth. rafe, his nose bleeding, cheekbone bruised and hair messy. hes clinging to the trellis with his broad shoulders hunched.

he wasnt the rafe you usually see. he doesnt look like a cocky kook prince.

you immediately unlock the window, pushing it open. “ray?! oh my god, what happened?” rafe gets inside your room and sat on the carpet.

well.. lying a little wouldnt cause any problems, right? this might be the perfect time. hell, theres no way hes gonna tell you that he almost killed the pogues. not when youre so sweet and looks at him like a god. he couldnt imagine if one day, you looked at him as the way everyone does.

“dont.” his voice is broken. he looks up at you, eyes red and glassy with tears. “just dont look at me now, please..”

“your nose..” you moved closer to him, putting a hand on his shoulder. “who did this to you, ray? you can tell me everything.”

rafe lets out a pathetic exhale. “it was ward.” he lies admits. “he screamed at me, telling me that im a dissapointment and ruining the family name. i didnt see it coming, he just suddenly swung.” voice cracking, his fingers wiping his tears.

“he told me he wishes sarah was his only kid. its always sarah. and im just a liability he has to pay for.” he drags a palm across his tear filled eyes.

your heart sank listening to his story. “thats horrible. im so sorry, ray. c’mere.” you pulled him closer, giving him a warm tight hug. fingers gently running through his hair and you rub his wide back to soothe him.

over your shoulder, rafe’s fake tears and expression faded. a sinister smile coming through. he hit the jackpot. he could just beat the pogues until they die and still get some comfort from you.

“hes wrong, ray. dont listen to him. ward is miserable and he takes everything out to you. youre not a liability.” you pulled away from him, he quickly changed his expression again. you put a hand over his left cheek, wiping his tear. and then you both go silent for a moment.

he needs to stay here. and sleep with you. he misses you.

his blue eyes watch your face intently. “you look beautiful. go have fun.” he said softly, trying to stand up. “ill just.. ill probably go back home. if my dad starts up again, dont worry.” hes pity baiting hoping you could let him crash here.

your eyes going wide in panic. before he could walk away, you grab his wrist. “n-no. dont go back there. you can stay here for the night.”

“here, sit.” you stood up and bring him closer to your bed. he sits in the middle of it. with you on the edge of the bed. you stare at each other, making a long eye contact. he kept watching you with his half lidded gaze.

you clear your throat, feeling awkward under his gaze. “your nose, ill take care of it. wait here.” you rushed out of your bedroom, looking for some ice and a thin towel. after a minute passed, youre back inside.

you slowly get on the bed. moving closer to his spread thighs, pushing yourself down. rafe let out a grunt. he couldnt bear the feeling of your soft ass pressing against his thighs. or that your warm pussy is sitting right on top of his throbbing dick, just fabrics separating you. he wishes he could just dry hump you right there until youre soaked.

since you sit on his lap, his face is met with the sight of your tits. without any shame or awkwardness, he pressed his face right into your tits. feeling how warm your body is. fuck, did your tits get bigger? uh, maybe not, his mind is hazing over.

you giggle against him, patting the top of his head. “ray, youre so clingy.” not even thinking anything dirty about it, hes just your rafe. you bring the towel-wrapped ice pack closer to him.

“look at me.” you whisper softly. he stops nuzzling his face, looking right up to you. youve never been this close to him. and you cant help but to secretly admire his handsome features.

you pressed the cold towel gently to his swelling nose. but your hands shaking slightly, dont know why. you carefully wipe the smeared blood off his top lip.

rafe looks up at you and down lazily. “youre shaking.” another cocky smirk escapes him. this jerk. hes literally in pain and got the audacity to be annoying!

“n-no, im just mad at him for hurting you this bad.” you lie. well, not really cause youre actually upset with ward. “yeah?” he replied back. you only have one weakness. holding a long eye contact with rafe cameron. hes your bestfriend, yeah, but.. still! hes so intense. his gaze wont even look away from you now.

“you wearin’ the pajama i bought, huh?” a small smile escapes him. you smile back softly while holding the towel against his nose. “its.. comfy.”

you swear to god, you feel his big hands dropping down slowly from the sides of your waist to your ass.

he just taps the cheeks of your ass with both of his hands, humming slightly. you feel your face burning.

and just then, he admits something in between the silence. “i miss you.”

you stare back at him with a raised eyebrow, chuckling. “rafe, we just met yesterday. its only been a day.”

his thick fingers slowly cupping the fat of your ass. he didnt hesitate to grind his fat cock against you, seeking the warm feeling between your legs. “i know. i still miss you.”

you bit a lip to supress a moan. and youre also still focusing on his broken nose. you cant say anything. because if you do, you dont wanna be the person that oversexualize everything or being a pervert in the room.

but rafe watched you. he knows your body language well. he slowly grinds his clothed dick again, back and forth. his fingers are almost squeezing your ass now. “you dont miss me?” he tilts his head, trying to tease and get a reaction out of you. he loves how youre trying to act normal.

“i.. miss you too.” you spoke back. you dont even look at his eyes, gaze focusing on his broken nose. feeling your body stiff. and god, you never realized youre that small compared to his frame.

you hate to admit that youre slightly wet.

but desperately trying to change the convo, you stopped pressing the cold towel against his nose. getting up from his lap. “your shirt’s dirty. ill go check if my dad have some for you to borrow.” you smile awkwardly before leaving your bedroom.

the second you leave, rafe smirks. he didnt give a shit about the pain. he only cared that you were actually affected and trying to fetch him clothes like a perfect trained doll. he had beaten up the pogues, weaponize his trauma, and crossed your boundaries without you even protesting.

he knew with terrifying certainty, that he owned you.

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FRIENDZONED ! —MASTERLIST

synopsis . ݁ ˖ youre the only calm and sweetest thing in rafe cameron's life, because of that, you trusts him too much. you treat him normally like a bsf—sometimes almost like hes your gay bsf. the thing you dont know? hes been obsessed & waiting to fuck you, playing the long game.

pairings . ݁ ˖ dark!bsf!rafe x gentle!oblivious!reader.

warnings . ݁ ˖ 18+ mdni, dark romance, toxic friendship dynamics, heavy objectification, dub-con, coercion, exhibitionism risks, power dynamics, size difference, weird fetishes, gaslighting, emotional manipulation, extreme possessive & obsessive behavior, unhinged jealousy, invasion of privacy, stalking, isolation tactics.

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FRIENDZONED !

a normal shopping day with your bsf! what could go wrong? except, you dont know why hes so demanding...

cw: 18+, highly suggested themes, gaslighting & emotional manipulation, intense possessive/obsessive behavior, toxic friendship dynamics, objectification, perverted thoughts

pairings: dark!bsf!rafe x gentle!oblivious!reader

more of friendzoned ! series here

“ouhh, this is cute.” you grab a white, linen midi dress hanging on the clothing rack. staring up and down of the design on the dress. its flowy and stops at your shin. you held the dress on your body, watching how good it would look. “i could wear this to topper’s boat party.”

“put that shit down.” rafe lazily comments from behind you. eyes not leaving his phone. you turn around, pouting. “youre not even looking at it!”

your face scrunched up in a frown. “c’mon, ray, this is pretty. white is my color, it makes me look classy.”

rafe turns his phone off, sliding it into his pocket. he closed the distance between you until hes completely towering you.

he reaches out, pinching the fabric between his thick fingers, looking at it with disgust. it was boring and completely swallowing your body shape.

“since when do you get so boring?” he spoke up. your face falters. looking back at the white dress youre holding. a faint blush covering your face in embarrassment.

“last summer you wore a bikini top to a bonfire. now youre trying to dress like.. this. if you dont want to show off, fine. but i know your real style.” he guilt trips was right. you immediately panic. thinking youre losing your 'cool' girl image on his eyes.

“you think it looks bad?” you put the white midi dress back into the rack.

“it looks cheap.” he lies answered smoothly.

“you wanna be the girl everyone stares at, right? try this one on.” he grabs a white ribbed mini dress instead. its.. very tight, scoops low on the chest, and the hemline ends on your inner thigh.

you paused. “ray, thats.. way too short. if i bend over, everyone’s gonna see everything.” you look at the dress, not sure. your face flushes hot.

rafe stares at you, gaze slowly getting dark. he smirks possessively. he leans his head down to your ear. dropping his ‘bestfriend’ act. “then dont bend over unless im standin’ right behind you.”

you gasp, brows furrowing. well, its not unusual for your bestfriend to whisper you weird things. hes just like that! a little perverted but you love him.

“youre so pervy.” you roll your eyes and giggling. he steps back, handing you the dress. “go try it on.” he orders lazily. you grab the dress and step inside to a massive, private fitting room.

once you put the dress on, you stare at yourself in the mirror. turning around to see how it looks from the back. it looks so short and tight. almost suffocating your body. you cant help but to admit you indeed look sexy in this. glad youre bestfriends with rafe, he always picks out the best for you!

and not long, rafe enters the fitting room with you there. you ask nervously, “does this look good?” you show him the front and then turning around.

rafe doesnt say anything. he physically cannot speak. his eyes goes hungry, tracking from your collarbone, down to the swell of your tits in a cleavage, then to the dip of your waist and hip, finally to how barely it covers your plush thighs and ass. you look innocent in white, yet so disrespectful.

“its fuckin’ perfect.” he compliments. theres something about rafe that makes you feel.. weird. everytime he conpliments you or stares at you, you always feel shy. maybe its because hes just intense like that.

“thanks! but im not sure—”

“keep it. you look pretty.” pretty, he said. there it was. mostly, guys and your stupid exes call you ‘hot, sexy, fine’. never ‘pretty and beautiful’. its weird ‘cause.. considering of how pervy you know your bestfriend is. but hes got a kind heart.

you stare up at rafe with a smile, heart fluttering. “aw, rafe. you always find a way to make me feel so entirely seen.”

rafe’s smile didnt reach his eyes, it stayed sharp and hungry as he dropped his gaze back to the short dress. he felt a dark thrill. feeling like he was the only guy who actually gets you and treats you right.

you take a shaky breath, fingers digging at the hem of the dress to pull it over your head, “uhm, okay. ill pick this one. just go wait outside so i can change back into my clothes.”

rafe doesnt even move towards the door. he reached over to the small hook on the wall and grabs the black micro string bikini. he brought it here before she even enters the fitting room. what the?

“try this one first.” he stares back at her. “fits your style, no?”

you stared at the bikini he held in his hand, eyes going wide. “i have to take my bra off to put that on. get out, ray.” you command softly.

rafe lazily looks down at you. tilting his head and brows furrowing in confusion. “just put it on.”

“im about to take my clothes off..?” you hiss, cheeks burning.

rafe sighs in exhaustion, “y’know, if youre that insecure about your body right now, we can put it back. thought it would look good on you, but if youre going to be weird ‘bout it.. whatever.” classic rafe, hes always dramatic!

before he could left, you let out a gasp. “im not insecure!” you argued gently, a small smile coming out. you take the bikini from his hand. “fine, ill put it on. but i want you to turn around. or, look at your phone, whatever.” well you know rafe’s definitely hooked up with a lot of girls and see them naked but still, hes your bestfriend. your rafe. you feel shy undressing under his gaze.

you take the white dress off over your head. leaving only in the pink lacy panties and bra. obviously youre not taking your panties off whenever youre trying bikinis on.

your fingers moved behind you, unclasping the bra. and just then, you quickly grab the tiny black triangle top to cover your tits.

you dont know the fitting room has three-way mirrors on every single wall. youre too busy putting the bikini on, not realizing rafe wasnt staring at his screen. he stares right at you. eyes taking in your soft skin, curve of your waist, and the way your thighs press against each other. pink undies? how cute. makes him want to ruin you.

he noticed how your fingers fumbled against the bikini string. your face confused.

“ray, i cant get the knot.” you admit, looking back at him.

he shoved his phone back into his pocket, walking closer to you. “drop your hands, ill do it.” he closed the distance, tall frame towering over you.

he reached his thick fingers to the nape of her neck. blood rushing violently on his head (and dick) that he actually feels dizzy. he takes the bikini strings and tying it slowly. he could see your tits from up here.

the air felt so thick. dont know maybe from how tense you were or the fact that his dick is throbbing. hes thinking about groping your tits from behind, and bending you over in here. he would cover your mouth to keep your moans quiet and muffled from making the staff suspicious. bet you’d get so cockdrunk. he jerked off at the thought of you for a lot of times before.

then, he brings the second set of strings down to her back. he pulls them really tight.

you squirm, “rafe, wait, thats too tig—” a gasp left your mouth, from how warm his broad body is, pressing against yours.

“if its loose, youre gonna spill right outta it. wouldnt want any other guys oglin’ at you, hm?” he tied the knot on your back carefully. his bruised knuckles from whatever fight he got—brushing softly into your bare back on purpose. once hes done, he pats your right hip. “there. told you it’d fit you.”

you stare at your reflection in the mirror infront. suddenly realizing how big his frame is swallowing you from behind. your gaze tracks down to your body—from your pink panties to the micro bikini top, but then directed at rafe.

he stares back from the mirror. making a long eye contact seconds after seconds. he leans down, his chin pressing against your bare shoulder. you dont even realize both of his hands are gripping the sides of your waist, not tightly—but firm enough.

“youre wearing this under the white dress tomorrow,” rafe dictates, tone flat. his eyes bored, but then dropped to your body again. smirking secretly. he lifts his chin off your shoulder.

“and when other guys say you look so good, youre gonna tell ‘em i picked it out for you. understood?” his big hand grabbed your chin, making you look and turning up at him.

he loves making you his doll. putting his name on your aesthetic and demanding you to brag about it to the rest of the island.

overwhelmed, flustered, and so obedient.

your lips part slightly. you give a tiny nod as you stare up at him.

“put your clothes back on. im paying for everything weve picked out.”

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[obsourie]

nasty!trio kook boys x shy!kook!reader

summary: being the only girl 'bsf' allowed in the toxic boys friendgroup on figure eight means you belong to all three of them.

18+ mdni. messy grammar

“you actually gonna wear that?” kelce’s voice cuts through the low hum of the outboard machine, heavy with mockery. gaze scanning to your whole body without any shame. its just funny seeing you wearing a grey zip up hoodie with denim shorts. cause, ironically and usually, you wear slutty fits infront of them—hell, or even naked. theyve seen your body. and they never miss a beat to not praise it, how could they not? they loved seeing your flustered face. plus, youve got a nice body to keep.

sometimes you wonder, what kind of best friends that see each other naked? not to mention youve fucked the three of them and suck their cocks too. they absolutely have nasty pics of you saved on each their phones too.

“i—”

“leave her alone, man.” topper’s arm shoots around your waist. holding you close and steady. pressing your ass against his cock underneath the garment intentionally. you gasped and turn your head. he looks down, eyes taking in the blown out eyes and flushed cheeks. “didnt i buy you a new bikini last night?”

you gulped, “yeah.. im wearing it, actually.”

“take them off, baby.” the command was low and raspy. it made your stomach drop. rafe leans lazily in the helm of the boat, pulling from his vape. blowing icy mint smoke out into the salty warm air. he kept his dark gaze locked to you. abandoning the wheel and walked forward. his tall and broad frame completely swallowing you. cedarwood and something spicy of his expensive cologne fills your nose.

you tensed. but you cant help to feel your cunt getting wetter, rubbing your thighs together. topper’s arm around you tightens, not in jealousy, he was smug about it. “dont make him wait,” low voice murmuring against your ear. “show him how fucking sexy you look in what i bought you.”

kelce let out a crude laugh. leaning back and manspreading onto the vinyl seat. “put on a show for us, babe. wouldnt miss any of it.”

rafe’s rough thumb pressing against your lower lip. parting your lips slightly and brushing it slowly. undressing you with his eyes. “well?” he smirked. you can hear the pulse in your ears. “strip.”

his dirty command sent a thrill down to your spine. with trembling fingers, you reached up to the zipper of your hoodie. but you couldnt bring yourself to pull it down.

youre trapped in a cage with men times bigger than you. suddenly youre very aware of topper’s arm around your waist. you could feel burning, heavy predatory gaze from the three of them. waiting for you to strip and perform for them like youre nothing but for them to play with.

well, youve worn bikinis to bonfire or boat parties. but the one youre wearing now? its a micro string bikini. the tiny triangles of silk barely covers your tits. threatening to spill out any time, only hiding your hard nipples. the strings riding high on your hips. making your plump ass and thighs pop more. the fabric only covers your puffy cunt. either way, you look sexy and slutty but, youre too shy to strip. especially not in a broad daylight like this, at a boat where any passing yacht could drift by.

every second felt longer. the predatory eyes are watching you to strip yourself. it made your skin crawl. you take too fucking long. you hesitate too much. i mean, its not like youve never strip infront of them—you have, alot of times even. but still, it all felt too much sometimes. your shaking hands still holding the zipper. biting lower lip unconciously. “im not sure if im—”

kelce let out a loud mocking sigh from the vinyl seat. “boring.” followed by a theaterical yawn. to humiliate you. you turn, a shameful flush burning spreading across your face and neck. you were so terrified and he treats it like its nothing.

“aw, you feelin’ shy now?” you even forgot topper was holding you close. his fingers digging into your waist.

“too fucking long.” rafe cuts impatiently, jaw clenching. he stood closer to you. watching his eyes go dark.

and just suddenly, he didnt ask for permission—stripped you from beside you. rough hand unzipping it down and throwing it away. he shoved the denim shorts over your hips until it pooled at your ankles.

the boat went silent.

you were completely exposed now. fingers intertwined as you fidget on them. you dont even dare to look at the three of these guys.

“holy fuck,” kelce let out a low whistle. “top, you deserve a goddamn medal for finding this.” hes practically drooling. you glanced between his spread legs, his bulge almost prominent now.

“hot, aint she?” topper’s fingers on your waist were long gone. he drifts them lower to the back of your hip now. slowly palming and cupping the fat of your ass. you went still, frozen.

“bet you were dripping bein’ our whore, huh? waiting for us to fuck you ‘til youre brain dead?” rafe gets behind you, whispered low on your ear. his hot breath makes your skin crawl.

you feel two thick fingers—and one of them with a ring, brushing against your pussy underneath the thin thong. he rubs you back and forth slowly. teasing your buds, feeling your wetness. a soft moan escaped you. you clamped both thighs while rafe’s fingers still between your thighs. but you press down harder against his fingers, chasing the friction.

topper’s arm around your waist are long gone now. he licked his lip when he watches rafe rubs your folds and your almost rolled eyes. “turn around, sweetheart. show kelce the back.”

your feet still glued. mind too hazed with lust because of how good rafe fingers are rubbing you. just then, his fingers are gone. you pouted in annoyance, not even listening at what topper said. but before you could even whine, he stepped behind you—next to rafe.

topper clicks his tongue in annoyance. “i said turn around.” he demanded, dropping the fake sweetness. he gripped both of your hips and forcefully spun you.

now your ass is facing kelce. he leaned closer in his seat. while you stare up to meet rafe and topper’s gaze. they both just smirk, eyes dark.

you feel kelce’s big hand rubbing your ass. he squeezed it hard, moving it around to watch your ass jiggle. he groans at the sight. “youve got some nice ass, slut.” he spanks you. you whimpered, body flinching. kelce tugged at the thong between your legs, then letting it go to watch the thong slap against your slick cunt.

“feels even better when im bending her over, best three hundred bucks ive ever spent indeed.” topper hooked his fingers under the string at your back. unraveling the knot in one swipe. the bikini top slid down and fell. your soft tits exposed to the air and hungry gazes now.

rafe’s fingers tangled firmly in your hair, making you feel the sharp sensation. he dragged down by your hair and making you kneel right between his legs. you look up to him, hes already fumbling with his belt. shoving his denim and boxers down. his fat cock slapping against his abs. the tip flushing, slick with pre cum. veins visible.

he rubs his dick against your cheek, wet with your humiliated tears from earlier and from his pre cum. he grunts at the sight. your expression is lewd too. you look like a fucking whore. he slides his cock from your cheek, tapping against your lips.

“suck.”

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[sweettoothrafe]

𝑺𝒂𝒗𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒎𝒆 𝒐𝒓 𝒉𝒆𝒓?

rafe cameron x reader

Summary: What if you were the one who saved Sarah from drowning instead of Topper? Unfortunately, being the hero comes with consequences in risking your own life at the hands of Rafe Cameron. 

⚠️warnings⚠️: dark content, violence/gun violence, implied drug usage, kidnapping, language, eventual dubcon

Inspired by season 2 episode 5 "The Darkest Hour"

“You’ve always been against me!”

Rafe had Sarah cornered at the dock, making it impossible for her to escape. You were at the docks late at night, picking up a package that was left at the front shipment of your dad’s fishing business. Once you grabbed the package, you heard a man yelling from the distance.

“Do you understand!” The strong voice boomed throughout the docking area, echoing towards where you stood.

“Where are you going, Sarah?” Rafe says, chasing after his little sister. 

“Sarah” was the only thing you were able to understand. “Sarah!” You drop your package and immediately ran towards the commotion. You quickly reached the main part of the dock, but there was no one there. It was suddenly silent, until you heard water splashing and a gasp for air.

You quickly turn around to find the nearest noise. After jumping over the rope, there you saw Rafe Cameron standing tall as he was drowning Sarah in a container of water. Your adrenaline acted fast, picking up a metal bar you found next to the ropes. Running up to him, you swing the metal bar to his back, causing him to collapse and releasing his grip on Sarah. 

“Oh my god, Sarah!” You quickly pulled her out of the water.

Her lips were turning blue by the second she wasn't responding.

Finally, she gasps for air. Choking on the water she had accidentally swallowed.

“Hey, hey! Are you okay?!” you were painted with concern. She hunches over, while you hit her back to release more of the water.

“Yeah, yeah. I’m fin- y/n!” she yells in warning. Rafe was suddenly behind you, grabbing you harshly.

“What are you doing here, y/n.” His voice ran a chill down your spine. 

“Let go of me!” You struggle to escape from his brutal grasp, but that only made him hold on tighter.

“You’re not supposed to be here.”

He then drags you away from Sarah, and moved towards the exit. 

“No! Let go of her!” Sarah attempts to run after him, but he turns around and pushes her down, causing her to hit her head on the ground. 

You scream at her unconscious body lying there.

“You think you could just save the day, huh? Everyone wants to save Miss. Sarah Cameron!”

He shoves you into his truck, clicking the child safe locks, as he gets into the drivers seat. 

“Rafe! Let me out! Help!” Your attempt to punch him and bang at the window was no use. Your resistance only made him angrier. Without any warning, Rafe reaches from under his seat and a black rectangular object appears in his hands.

“Stop! Stop!” he yells, you silently cry as his aim was now pointed at your forehead. Salty tears ran down your face, your vision so blurry from all the tears, yet the gun was so clear to see. 

“Here’s what’s gonna happen. You’re gonna come with me, okay? No more screaming, and no more fighting, or else I will pull the trigger, alright?” 

You were crying so hard that your words were muffled, making it difficult for him to understand you.

“I said, alright!” He shouted, repeating himself. You flinched, immediately clearing your throat. “Yes! Alright!” Your words were laced with fear. Rafe removed the gun away from your head, tucking it back under his seat. He turns on his car and quickly pulls out of the driveway towards the main road. 

Quiet sobs escaped you while Rafe drove you to god knows where. The roads were too dark to make it out, all you heard was ocean waves crashing into the night. You glance at him slightly in hopes of creating some conversation. But he didn’t even flinch, his eyes were fixated on the dark road for about 10 minutes now. You opened your mouth, but you were quick to close it. 

“What is it, y/n?” Rafe says, his eyes still focused on the road. His tone was tense, but it was a bit more calmer than how it was earlier.

You gulped, not sure if anything you ask will get you killed.

 “What are you going to do to me?” You choked out, your voice comes out so little, so weak in comparison to Rafe’s.

He finally looks at you, his bloodshot eyes stares directly at your swollen ones. You weren’t the type to cause any drama. That was JJ’s job. But since everyone on the goddamn island knew how much Rafe Cameron loves to stir shit up, you just never cared to interact with him. Simple as that. Plus, you don’t remember the last time you two had a proper conversation. Rafe was either too coked out or drunk to keep one with you. JJ once made an absurd joke saying how Rafe had given you the “Pogue pass.”

“Pogue pass? you just made that shit up, JJ” you exclaimed. 

“I did not!” he stomped his foot on the ground.

You shoot him a ‘are you serious’ look that he knew all too well. 

“Okay, maybe I did. But listen, I’m right. And you wanna know why I’m right? Because out of all the times that Rafe had tormented us…” JJ’s index finger whirls into a circle and then points directly at you. 

“He made sure that you weren’t there.” 

That made you stop to think for a minute. 

JJ threw another crushed up beer can on the grass as he watches you come to this realization. 

“Give me an example” you said, not fully convinced.

“That time at the movies, you couldn’t go because some Kook family placed a large amount of fish orders that night.” 

“JJ that’s nothing out of the ordinary-”

“Then bam! Rafe and his little Kook minions attacks me, Kiara, and Pope.”

“Okay but-“

“Ah! ah! ah! And there was that other time when our bikes “magically disappeared” on the beach, but the only one left was yours. You had to leave early because you were late for dinner, and what does Rafe do? He picks a fight with John B.”

You placed your hands on your hips.

“Well, maybe he didn’t want some hot pink bike from when I was nine.”

“Doesn’t matter, you still had your bike.” JJ shrugs. “Oh and guess what? You still weren’t there!"

You playfully roll your eyes at JJ's crazy theory. There's no way that Rafe would create a plan to keep you from being involved in his violent activities.

"I’m telling you y/n, Pogue pass, soft spot, pretty privilege, whatever the hell it is! Rafe doesn’t hate you as much as he hates us.”

Now, if only you could tell JJ that Rafe has held you at gunpoint, kidnapped you, and is now going to finish you off…

You would have placed a bet on it.

Rafe ignores your question and just mumbles, “We’ll be there soon.”

Your heart starts to race even faster, you thought of so many possibilities all at once.

Is he going to take you somewhere to finish you off?

Drown you like what he did to Sarah?

Actually pulling the trigger this time?

Panic starts to flood your body and you had to think quick. Now’s the time to act before you reach your final destination.

Running off on adrenaline, you suddenly shot your hand out to grab the steering wheel, causing the car to swerve left and right.

“You monster!”

“Hey! What the fuck are you doing!” Rafe shouts, trying to get a hold of the wheel. But you didn’t let go. You didn’t care if you crashed, as long as he wasn’t going to be the cause of your death. The truck screeched in circles, and the smell of tires burns through your nose. However, Rafe’s grip was stronger. He swats your hand away and now has full control of the wheel. Rafe took a hard break, but the sudden turn made his truck hit a small tree off the side of the highway. The impact wasn’t hard enough for the airbags to inflate, but the front bumper had been damaged. 

“Shit!” Rafe yelled, slamming his hand on the wheel. Now was your chance to escape. You busted the passenger door open, headache pounding as you run side to side of the opposite way of the truck. Dizziness and blurred stars start to form in your vision. You started to visualize your friends waiting for you at the end of the street. Sarah waving and encouraging you to make it towards her. As you run faster to them, you feel your body betray you at the worst moment. Your muscles felt like jelly, making it harder for you to keep up. And before you knew it, you dropped down to the pavement floor. Just like that, the environment around you faded like a black screen. Heavy steps and the sound of loafers rang through your ears. All there was left was the light sensation of your body weight being lifted off the ground from a pair of strong arms. 

💙 ೃ࿔*:･ 💙 ೃ࿔*:･ 💙 ೃ࿔*:･

You passed out without even knowing it. A bump in the road causing you to shoot up from your unconscious body, hoping that all of this was just one big nightmare. A light grey jacket was draped over your shoulders. The jacket's scent consisted of soap and smoke fills your senses, making you realize that it was Rafe who had placed it there while you were out. You curse yourself for being so reckless, who knows what Rafe could’ve done to you while you were out? But as your eyes adjusted to the bright gate lights, there you saw a medium sized blue house, enough to fit a family of 5. It was not as extravagant as Tannyhill, but definitely in better condition than your house back on The Cut. This was probably one of the many beach houses that the Cameron’s own.

Rafe exits the drivers seat, opening your door and pulling you out from your seat. His grey jacket now on the floor. You wince at his cruel way of manhandling you, glaring at him at every chance you could get. He then pulls out a black bandana and tightly wraps it around your eyes. While also grabbing your two hands, and placing them behind your back. Rafe noticed how you stiffened when he tightened the zip ties around your wrists.

“That’s what happens when you make stupid decisions”, He spits out.

You stumble up the patio steps, tripping over your own feet. Rafe opens the front door, pushing you to go in first. He leads you through the house, while your legs were trembling on every step of the staircase.

Before opening the first room that he could find, Rafe stops in the middle of the hallway. He digs for something in his pocket and takes a deep breath. You didn't need your eyes to know what he was doing in that moment.

Guilt starts to creep up on you while you wondered if Sarah was even alive. Yes, you saved her, but at the cost of putting her in danger again. Seeing her body go limp at the docks made you want to cry all over again. You were really hoping someone had found her. Snapping you out of your thoughts, Rafe pulls you the opposite way of where you two were standing at and opens a door. He forces your body onto the firm mattress, making you groan.

“Pl-please, Rafe. I’m so sorry, don’t do this to me. Just let me go, please.” you beg so desperately, not knowing which direction he’s standing in.

His body weight dips onto the mattress when he stalks closer to you. His rough calloused hands shoots out to squeeze your cheeks together, making you form a squishy face. Your body starts to shake, preparing for the worst to come.

"You're lucky I got somewhere to be right now, or else I would've fucked the desperation outta you", he whispers into your ear like it's a secret.

The mattress then felt lighter below you when the sound of the door locking fills the room. Leaving you all alone, and tied up with no indication of when he’s coming back.

part two -> HERE

author's note: soo…😳😳 what do we think?? there will be a part 2! hopefully i have some time to revise it soon bc i’ve been booked😪 but i never thought i’ll be posting this so 🕺🏼 coming out of my shell! cheers to my first fic being posted!🥂

taglist🍥: @babydollrafe @rafesdaydream

[obsourie]

i js watched enola holmes 3 and it doesnt made sense why is the sherlock holmes easily kidnapped 😭

[obsourie]

perv!bully!rafe cameron headcanons

18+ mdni. fem pogue!onlyfans!reader pairing. bad grammar cs english aint my first language. divider by @/cursed-camine.

perv!bully!rafe cameron will never know about your onlyfans account if topper and kelce didnt show him. it was mid hangout. kelce found the link floating around, topper clicks it, landing on your free page. scrolling through the unlocked teasers of yourself in skimpiest clothes. lewd expressions, bending over in a micro skirt that barely covers your plump ass, arching your back in a tight top that pushed your soft tits higher, or thighs spread to show thong that clings to your puffy soaked folds. obviously, the videos of you being naked and fucking yourself is pay per view—$25 each. he cant believe it. youre a fucking slut online.

perv!bully!rafe cameron scoffs in disgust. laughs along with his friends as they make some crude jokes about you. he called you ‘garbage’ ‘whore’ ‘for the streets’. though he can feel his blood rushing straight to his dick. shorts getting tighter. breath hitching. he hates himself for staring at the visible hard nipples rubbing against your top. shit, he wanna tease and suck on them so bad ‘til you whine. he bets you have the tightest pussy too. wait, what the fuck?

perv!bully!rafe cameron later that night, locking his room at tannyhill—makes an account. it was nothing. @user8472910. his fingers typing your username, memorized it very well. he tells himself hes just ‘checking’ your account and find something to mock later. even pressed the ‘subscribe’ button, in case he missed a post that could give him an opportunity to corner and bully you.

perv!bully!rafe cameron quickly checks his phone when his phone rings a notification of your new post. he drools at the sight. taking in the tight towel accentuating your body curves. towel hanging low, almost showing your nipples. fucking tease. his grip on the phone gets tighter. he reads your caption. “want me to drop it? jst sent it to ur dms.. check ur inbox 👀💋”. he already imagines taking the towel off and pounding you right there. but he doesnt like that its a mass dm, meaning you sent that to other guys too..

perv!bully!rafe cameron immediately opens his dm. a blurry photo of you naked with a big lock icon and “$20” to open it in the middle of the pic. he hissed, you see him almost everyday. plus, he was always the one taking upper hand on you. mocking you, humiliating you. unfortunately the onlyfans system doesnt care. so he clicked the unlock button. processing the charge of his credit card. not even his, ward’s. rafe clears his throat, feeling embarrassed of how desperate he is, “fucking pogue.”

perv!bully!rafe cameron cant believe his eyes. his mind went blank the moment your photo loaded. suddenly the air felt thick. heartbeat making uneven rhythm against his ribs. youre laying naked on your bed, thighs pushed against your tits—camera angled low, showing a clear picture of your needy cunt. what a sight for sore eyes. rafe cant look away. youre so sexy.

perv!bully!rafe cameron tugged the fabric of his shorts before taking them off with his boxers, aggresively manspreading. his fat cock half hard, slick with pre cum. hand fisting in slow movement. “s-shit..” a low groan tore his throat. he spits at the head and rubbed it. his thick shaft fully hard now. hes aching so hard it almost hurts. feeling so angry at himself. pumping his cock faster and sloppier. squelch sounds getting louder. rafe bucked his hip into hand, desperate for more. jerking off to the thoughts of him bending you over and fucking you hard, warm pussy perfectly grips him. imagining the way your plump ass will bounce against his hip, as he degrades you, licking the tears out of your eyes. minutes passed and he later came alot on his chair. all he can think is, he doesnt like any other loser guys seeing the erotic sight of you.

perv!bully!rafe cameron who later became your top tipper, dropping hundred of dollars just to request nasty custom videos and sending “hows your day?” dms, acting as if youre his girlfriend. funny. but he doesnt care. as long as he pays you alot and give you his sweet attention, he knows you’ll be focused on him—the anonymous user. he lied to his dad when ward confronts his son, “why is there a reccuring charge for ‘onlyfans’ on my account?”. rafe would just rolls his eyes and gaslights his dad it was “hacked”.

perv!bully!rafe cameron cant stop ogling at your body when he sees you in real life. though you were just wearing a non revealing outfit. before then, he would glare at you and throw mean remarks. but now? his brain’s faded with lust. still, he would pretend to hate you. calling your onlyfans ‘embarrassing’ ‘no self respect’ ‘broke’ ‘cheap’ and more. it hits too close obviously, but youre used to him being your hater so some of his comments doesnt even affect you anymore.

perv!bully!rafe cameron cornered you when youre working on a catering shift at tannyhill for one of ward’s big party. he tried to make you hurt. even trying to make you spill a tray of drinks so he could get you fired. youre in the kitchen. rafe heard his name shouted by ward at the other room. he cursed, left his phone on the counter and stormed out. you just roll your eyes, searching in the pocket for your phone. deciding to open onlyfans and post a pay per view video that you just recorded hours ago in your room. you typed a flirty and nasty caption—whatever, to make them continue paying. at the same time your video’s uploaded, a notification on rafe’s phone rings. maybe just.. coincidence..? you decided to glance a bit.

his phone’s unlocked. the screen stayed lit. a familiar blue and white logo at the top of the screen. it even included an username. @user8472910. the string of numbers felt like a physical blow. it was.. him the whole time?! no, this cant be. is this real? maybe you were exhausted from your job. you know you shouldnt do this but, your fingers are way faster to clicking the notification.

it loaded for a second before landing on a homepage. your eyes widen in shock. the homepage’s full of your pay per view videos and teasers. you wanted proof if its really him. you tapped the little grey icon in the bottom, pulling up to his account. it was actually him. you stopped breathing. and suddenly everything around stopped too.

the guy who humiliated you in public, making you feel insecure because of his harsh words. is actually jerking off to your onlyfans—even being the top tipper? you wonder does he actually want you to know this or no, maybe hes just dumb enough to be sneaky. youre nauseous. but also, you cant help that your ego boosts from the fact that hes desperate enough to pay for your contents. but also embarrassment cause he has definitely seen you in inappropriate states. knowing hes the top tipper, he definitely doesnt hate you. you dont view him as the arrogant rich bully anymore, hes actually a desperate gooner. it was all just an act. you quickly remove onlyfans from his recent apps.

perv!bully!rafe cameron stormed back into the kitchen, running a hand through his hair. he was ready to throw another crude jokes, not to mention he was checking out on your ass the whole time. you turned to face him. he noticed your expression. you look like youve seen a ghost. he wonders why.

he glanced at his phone on the counter beside you, he realized he left it unlocked the whole time. without even demanding an explanation, everything made sense.

colors drained from his face. he looks sick. you thought hes gonna go blame you and gaslight you. instead his lips parted, trying to say something but he could barely say a word. hes caught. and panicked. also? he cant help to something dark inside. hes thrilled. like he wants you to know about it. he doesnt need to hide his obsession again. maybe even he could get to finally fuck you.

omg this was better in my head😭 also first writing ever wtf i didnt intend on making it this long lmaoo

[drewstarkeylicious]

Oh Cary Masterson I already love you 💗

[obsourie]

thats dada

[ss4phire]

FRATGAMER!RAFE

18+ ᴍɪɴᴏʀꜱ ᴅɴɪ .ᐟ

cw: degrading, rough sex, spitting, fingering, piv, implied receiving (m), hair pulling. riding

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“YO— man, what the fuck!?” Rafe yelled while looking like he was two seconds away from smashing the keyboard through the desk.

He was hunched over his desk in the dim glow of his monitor, his room a mess of empty beer cans and tangled controller chords while you were sprawled on his bed beside him, wearing nothing but one of his oversized football tees that barely covered your ass. Definitely horny.

You’d been waiting for almost an hour, doing everything just to catch his attention. You finally got really impatient and whined, stretching your leg out to nudge his bicep with your bare manicured foot, toes brushing against him.

“Rafey…~” you dragged out his name, voice needy and sweet.

Rafe didn’t even glance back, fingers slamming against the keyboard. “Mmm, what’s up, babe?” before one of his teammates screamed through the mic about saving him. “Cant you see I’m trying? they’re like five fucking people!”

You rolled your eyes, trying again. “Babyyyy~” Nudging on his bicep again.

He let out a long exasperated sigh, fingers still flying across the keyboard. “Yessss, sweetheart? i’m kinda in the middle of something, baby.”

You nudged him again, toes sliding down his arm. “Rafey, baby… come on.”

Rafe let out an irritated groan, ripping his headset off and spinning around in the chair. His jaw was tight, eyes flashing with annoyance. “Fine, fine! What do you want, babe?” he snapped, voice rough and frustrated. “You’ve been fucking whining my name for ten minutes straight while I’m trying to play ranked. Jesus Christ.”

You bit your lip, heat rushing through you at his tone. “i dunno… ‘m so horny…”

Rafe’s gaze dropped between your legs where the shirt had ridden up, spotting how slick you already were. “Seriously? That’s what this is about?” He grabbed your ankle and yanked you to the edge of the bed. “My needy little girlfriend can’t wait her turn, huh?

You nodded before he went in between you thighs and leaned in to kiss you. “no panties either, hm?” he mumbled against your lips.

Before you could answer, he shoved your thighs apart further and pushed two thick fingers into you roughly, curling them deep. You moaned, back arching instantly.

He spat directly on your pussy before dragging his thumb in between your folds before stopping at your clit and inserting three fingers in your hole.

Your legs started shaking, but right as you were getting close he pulled his fingers out.

He sat back in his gaming chair, shoving his sweats down just enough to free his hard, heavy cock. It slapped against his stomach as he reached into the desk drawer, pulled out a condom—extra large, duh—and tore the wrapper open with his teeth.

You watched, biting your lip, as he rolled the condom down his thick length with quick, practiced strokes, making sure it was secure at the base. His eyes stayed locked on you the whole time while doing couple quick strokes, pinching the tip to make sure it was on right.

He tapped on his thigh, “work for it.”

You climbed into his lap quick, straddling him. Rafe lined his cock up and you sank down onto him, gasping at how full he felt. He gripped your hips tight and immediately started thrusting up into you hard, slamming deep with every snap of his hips. “Yeah? finally got what y’wanted, huh?”

You tried to bounce but Rafe was relentless, pounding up into you with brutal force, his grip on your hips bruising as he controlled the pace. His breath was heavy against your neck. One hand fisted your hair, yanking your head back so he could growl right in your ear, “Greedy fucking pussy… couldn’t even let me finish the match, bro.”

He spat on your tits, watching it run down while he kept thrusting up hard, making you take every inch. His other hand smacked your ass sharply before gripping it tight. “love how y’fuckin beg for dick.”

“mmh, hmp!” You moaned, hands gripping his shoulders while you stuck out your tongue for him to spit on it and swallowing without hesitation before you came hard around him. You shook in his lap while he thrusted up even harder a few more times before he buried himself deep and filled the condom with a low curse.

He slapped your ass again, breathing heavy against your ear before he lifted you off of him. Peeling the condom off, tying it quick and tossing it in the trash before pushing your head toward his lap. “Now clean me up so i can try to salvage the fucking game you ruined, babe.”

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[obsourie]

— THREE TO ONE

summary: being the only girl 'bsf' allowed in the toxic boys friendgroup on figure eight means you belong to all three of them.

pairings: nasty!trio kook boys x shy!kook!reader

18+ mdni. messy grammar

“you actually gonna wear that?” kelce’s voice cuts through the low hum of the outboard machine, heavy with mockery. gaze scanning to your whole body without any shame. its just funny seeing you wearing a grey zip up hoodie with denim shorts. cause, ironically and usually, you wear slutty fits infront of them—hell, or even naked. theyve seen your body. and they never miss a beat to not praise it, how could they not? they loved seeing your flustered face. plus, youve got a nice body to keep.

sometimes you wonder, what kind of best friends that see each other naked? not to mention youve fucked the three of them and suck their cocks too. they absolutely have nasty pics of you saved on each their phones too.

“i—”

“leave her alone, man.” topper’s arm shoots around your waist. holding you close and steady. pressing your ass against his cock underneath the garment intentionally. you gasped and turn your head. he looks down, eyes taking in the blown out eyes and flushed cheeks. “didnt i buy you a new bikini last night?”

you gulped, “yeah.. im wearing it, actually.”

“take them off, baby.” the command was low and raspy. it made your stomach drop. rafe leans lazily in the helm of the boat, pulling from his vape. blowing icy mint smoke out into the salty warm air. he kept his dark gaze locked to you. abandoning the wheel and walked forward. his tall and broad frame completely swallowing you. cedarwood and something spicy of his expensive cologne fills your nose.

you tensed. but you cant help to feel your cunt getting wetter, rubbing your thighs together. topper’s arm around you tightens, not in jealousy, he was smug about it. “dont make him wait,” low voice murmuring against your ear. “show him how fucking sexy you look in what i bought you.”

kelce let out a crude laugh. leaning back and manspreading onto the vinyl seat. “put on a show for us, babe. wouldnt miss any of it.”

rafe’s rough thumb pressing against your lower lip. parting your lips slightly and brushing it slowly. undressing you with his eyes. “well?” he smirked. you can hear the pulse in your ears. “strip.”

his dirty command sent a thrill down to your spine. with trembling fingers, you reached up to the zipper of your hoodie. but you couldnt bring yourself to pull it down.

youre trapped in a cage with men times bigger than you. suddenly youre very aware of topper’s arm around your waist. you could feel burning, heavy predatory gaze from the three of them. waiting for you to strip and perform for them like youre nothing but for them to play with.

well, youve worn bikinis to bonfire or boat parties. but the one youre wearing now? its a micro string bikini. the tiny triangles of silk barely covers your tits. threatening to spill out any time, only hiding your hard nipples. the strings riding high on your hips. making your plump ass and thighs pop more. the fabric only covers your puffy cunt. either way, you look sexy and slutty but, youre too shy to strip. especially not in a broad daylight like this, at a boat where any passing yacht could drift by.

every second felt longer. the predatory eyes are watching you to strip yourself. it made your skin crawl. you take too fucking long. you hesitate too much. i mean, its not like youve never strip infront of them—you have, alot of times even. but still, it all felt too much sometimes. your shaking hands still holding the zipper. biting lower lip unconciously. “im not sure if im—”

kelce let out a loud mocking sigh from the vinyl seat. “boring.” followed by a theaterical yawn. to humiliate you. you turn, a shameful flush burning spreading across your face and neck. you were so terrified and he treats it like its nothing.

“aw, you feelin’ shy now?” you even forgot topper was holding you close. his fingers digging into your waist.

“too fucking long.” rafe cuts impatiently, jaw clenching. he stood closer to you. watching his eyes go dark.

and just suddenly, he didnt ask for permission—stripped you from beside you. rough hand unzipping it down and throwing it away. he shoved the denim shorts over your hips until it pooled at your ankles.

the boat went silent.

you were completely exposed now. fingers intertwined as you fidget on them. you dont even dare to look at the three of these guys.

“holy fuck,” kelce let out a low whistle. “top, you deserve a goddamn medal for finding this.” hes practically drooling. you glanced between his spread legs, his bulge almost prominent now.

“hot, aint she?” topper’s fingers on your waist were long gone. he drifts them lower to the back of your hip now. slowly palming and cupping the fat of your ass. you went still, frozen.

“bet you were dripping bein’ our whore, huh? waiting for us to fuck you ‘til youre brain dead?” rafe gets behind you, whispered low on your ear. his hot breath makes your skin crawl.

you feel two thick fingers—and one of them with a ring, brushing against your pussy underneath the thin thong. he rubs you back and forth slowly. teasing your buds, feeling your wetness. a soft moan escaped you. you clamped both thighs while rafe’s fingers still between your thighs. but you press down harder against his fingers, chasing the friction.

topper’s arm around your waist are long gone now. he licked his lip when he watches rafe rubs your folds and your almost rolled eyes. “turn around, sweetheart. show kelce the back.”

your feet still glued. mind too hazed with lust because of how good rafe fingers are rubbing you. just then, his fingers are gone. you pouted in annoyance, not even listening at what topper said. but before you could even whine, he stepped behind you—next to rafe.

topper clicks his tongue in annoyance. “i said turn around.” he demanded, dropping the fake sweetness. he gripped both of your hips and forcefully spun you.

now your ass is facing kelce. he leaned closer in his seat. while you stare up to meet rafe and topper’s gaze. they both just smirk, eyes dark.

you feel kelce’s big hand rubbing your ass. he squeezed it hard, moving it around to watch your ass jiggle. he groans at the sight. “youve got some nice ass, slut.” he spanks you. you whimpered, body flinching. kelce tugged at the thong between your legs, then letting it go to watch the thong slap against your slick cunt.

“feels even better when im bending her over, best three hundred bucks ive ever spent indeed.” topper hooked his fingers under the string at your back. unraveling the knot in one swipe. the bikini top slid down and fell. your soft tits exposed to the air and hungry gazes now.

rafe’s fingers tangled firmly in your hair, making you feel the sharp sensation. he dragged down by your hair and making you kneel right between his legs. you look up to him, hes already fumbling with his belt. shoving his denim and boxers down. his fat cock slapping against his abs. the tip flushing, slick with pre cum. veins visible.

he rubs his dick against your cheek, wet with your humiliated tears from earlier and from his pre cum. he grunts at the sight. your expression is lewd too. you look like a fucking whore. he slides his cock from your cheek, tapping against your lips.

“suck.”

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[evansbby]

“𝙣𝙤 𝙤𝙣𝙚’𝙨 𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙧 𝙝𝙖𝙙 𝙢𝙚, 𝙣𝙤𝙩 𝙡𝙞𝙠𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪…” 𝟐

𝐏𝐀𝐑𝐓 𝐈𝐈 ~ “𝐭𝐫𝐮𝐭𝐡, 𝐝𝐚𝐫𝐞, 𝐬𝐩𝐢𝐧 𝐛𝐨𝐭𝐭𝐥𝐞𝐬…”

𝙋𝙖𝙞𝙧𝙞𝙣𝙜: frat!Rafe Cameron x innocent Pogue!reader

𝙒𝙖𝙧𝙣𝙞𝙣𝙜𝙨: dark, dubcon, coercion, unhinged inner monologue from rafe continues, misogynistic rhetoric, classist rhetoric (in the context of kooks, pogues etc), daddy kink, innocence kink, mentions of smut, MAJORR size kink, daddy issues, condescension, babying, dirty talk, swearing, very unbalanced power dynamic, which rafe gets off on, slut-shaming, derogatory name calling, manipulation, college au, forced kissing, reader is a freshman and rafe is a senior, 18+ only, mdni

𝙎𝙪𝙢𝙢𝙖𝙧𝙮: Rafe tries to win you back, no matter at what cost.

𝘼/𝙉: It's finally here! Final word count: 19.5k. READ CHAPTER ONE HERE. Enjoy :)

“You have any more, Rafe?”

She sounds so whiny. They all sound so fucking whiney to him. He wishes they’d just shut up. Let him use them and then leave. He’s got two of them in his bed now, and for a while he’d watched listlessly as they’d kissed, played around, snorted coke off each other’s naked bodies like the desperate whores they were. He’d called them as a distraction, but now he didn’t even have the heart. Fucking pathetic.

“Bottom drawer.” He mutters, picking up his phone for the tenth time. One of the girls crawls over him, rummaging around in his drawers and brushing her naked body enticingly against him. He couldn’t give less of a shit though. His thumb hovers over your name saved on his phone, and for the hundredth time since the whole fiasco last week, he considers calling or texting you.

Rafe hadn’t run after you that day, when you’d overheard him talking all types of shit about you to his dumb fucking friends. When he’d lied about fucking you, when he’d proclaimed you were no different from any other Pogue slut who’d spread her legs for him. All with a straight face like some type of robot, and you’d cried and run, leaving your books on the ground behind you.

And he’d wanted to run after you. He hates to admit it, but there was a part of him that wanted to chase after you, gather you in his arms and wipe your tears and tell you you’d heard wrong, that he didn’t mean any of it. That he’d just acted up in front of his friends for some stupid reason or the other. That he was sorry.

But he hadn’t. Because he was Rafe fucking Cameron and he never ran after anyone. Especially not a Pogue.

He had picked up your books, though. Once everyone was done laughing at the whole ridiculous spectacle and moved on, he’d grabbed your discarded books from the floor. A fat textbook and your cute binder with all the flower stickers and shit. Your name spelled out in swirly cursive pink pen on the front. So fucking cute, it made his insides hurt. Why the fuck did you have that effect on him?

“Is that your girlfriend?” One of the girls asks, looking at your name on his phone screen.

“You’re not getting paid to talk,” he growls, pushing her head down to his crotch. And he pretends it’s you, of course he pretends it’s you. With your pretty lips wrapped around his cock, crying and choking because he’s so big and you’ve never sucked cock before. And he’d coax you gently, stroke your hair back and tap your cheek condescendingly, tell you what a good girl you are for taking him like this. So brave and pretty, his good little girl. And you’d cry and cry, looking up at him with scared, devoted eyes…

He kicks the girls out the moment he’s finished with them. Tucks the cash into their underwear and sends them packing without another word. One of Ward’s friends had a high-end escort service. Rafe never really felt the need to indulge in it before, since he didn’t really have a problem hooking up with girls. But he’d been on edge and wanted a quiet distraction, a quick fix. It had not worked.

Rafe: Hey. I’m sorry about what happened the other day. I think we should talk.

His thumb hovers over the send button. He wonders if he’d be able to sweet-talk you into forgiving him. Because yes, he wants you to forgive him. He wants you to be his in every way possible, and to achieve that, he needs you to like him again. Fuck his friends and the stupid bet.

He sucks in his breath and presses down on send before he can stop himself. Waits one second, two, three, four, five. Heart lurches to his throat when an error message comes up:

Your message is unable to be delivered to the recipient.

White hot anger chokes him like a vice. You had blocked him. Fuck. Motherfucking shit.

Rafe’s always had issues with his anger. He couldn’t control it most times, and as a result he’d explode like a fucking volcano. He’d try to contain it, but the rage always found its way out. And he throws his phone across the room, where it crashes against the wall with a loud smack. How dare you fucking block him? How dare you? Who the motherfuck did you think you were?

Blindly, he searches his drawer for his coke. Hands shaking, he pours it out into a small heap and snorts it straight up, his heart already racing with an all-consuming rage. Fuck you for blocking him. Didn’t you know Rafe owned you? You were his property, and he had to have access to you whenever he wanted, however he wanted… He had to.

He makes a snap decision. Grabs your books and his keys, his actions fuelled by pure rage and drug-induced adrenaline. Stuffs his phone – now with a shattered screen – into his pocket and wipes any white residue from his nose. He was losing control of the situation. And that just wouldn’t do. He had to fix it. Now.

And Rafe wasn’t anything if not proactive.

Unfortunately, he runs into Ward on the way out.

“Rafe. We need to talk.”

“Not now, dad. I’ve got shit to deal with.”

Ward’s got a newspaper in his hands which he’s undoubtedly reading performatively, and he takes a moment before he folds it down on the kitchen island. “Shit to deal with, huh? Like trying to fuck every girl on the island?”

Rafe sighs, pinching the bridge of his nose, “I’m not doing this right now.”

“I’ve got business partners, investors coming in and out of here. Doesn’t look great when there’s coked out hookers limping out of my son’s bedroom every other day.”

“Your business buddies all do the same shit, dad–”

“Yeah? Well I don’t give a fuck what they do. I’m talking about you. I’m trying to push a clean, family-man image here–”

Rafe snorts. Ward ignores him.

“You’re getting too old for this shit, Rafe. You’re graduating soon, then you’ll take over the family business. You need to get your shit together, find a nice girl and settle down.”

Rafe rolls his eyes. He knows what’s expected of him. Knows his father wants him married sooner rather than later. Probably to some spoilt kook princess that he wouldn’t give two fucks about, a marriage built on connections and maximising power for the Cameron business. He figures being married wouldn’t be much different from being single. He’d still sleep around with the Pogue girls like he always did. But his mind’s too occupied by other things to really focus on this redundant conversation with his father.

“Look, dad, I have to be somewhere right now, so…”

“Who was that one girl you had over the other day? In the cute dress?”

Rafe stops short, feeling like he’s been injected with a dark, poisonous, all-consuming dose of sudden, icy-cold jealousy that winds him from the inside out. “What?”

“I was looking over the security footage. You had her on the patio. Cute, innocent looking girl. Now someone like that would be much better for your image, Rafe.”

Rafe’s jaw tenses, his fists clenched to his sides. He doesn’t want to react in front of his father, but it’s hard. The mere mention of you by another man – even if it was just his fucking dad – was making his blood boil. Boil in a way it never had before. He feels like choking someone the fuck out. Nobody was allowed to look at you. Jesus fucking Christ, what the fuck had you done to him? Now he’s even more determined to fix things with you, have you safely under his wing again so he could protect you from the lecherous gazes of other men.

He leaves without another word.

He takes his motorbike. It’s his preferred method of transport anyways. Quicker, less attention drawn to him than when he’s in one of his big cars. And he deliberately leaves his helmet behind, needing to feel the air whip on his face. Maybe it would snap him out of whatever crazed spell you’d put him under. He feels like ripping his fucking hair out – how dare you fucking block him? He was your only friend.

Rafe’s feeling no less crazy when he finally pulls up to your street. If anything, he’s even more incensed. His girl. His property. And he’d lost you? All because of some stupid shit he’d said to his dumb idiot fucking friend group? Fuck them – it was all their fault for making up that bet. All their fault for badgering him for private pictures of you. Fuck them.

He’s still reeling with rage when he knocks harshly on your front door. Which is why he’s caught off guard when someone opens it immediately.

At first, he thinks it’s you. No, this woman looks older. Not much older, though. It’s your mother.

“Is everything alright? Can I help you?”

He forces himself to calm down, running a hand through his hair to get it out of his face. Switches on the charm, smiles down at the woman who gazes at him with an unreadable expression.

“Hi. I’m Y/N’s friend from school. Is she at home?”

Your mother blinks, doing that thing that he knows people from The Cut do. Takes in his expensive clothes, the Rolex on his wrist, his signet ring that gleams in the afternoon sunlight. People like her looked at him often with clear disdain simply because of his family’s wealth and where he came from. It was a good thing Rafe did not care much for what a Pogue thought about him.

He tries again when she doesn’t immediately respond; “I’m very sorry to show up unannounced, ma’am. She left her books on campus and I thought I’d return them.”

Your mother clears her throat, “I’m sorry, she’s not at home right now. But you can give her books to me.”

Rafe hesitates, not wanting to give up your things just yet. “Where is she? When will she be back?”

“Who are you?”

He tells her his name, watching as her eyes widen slightly. That was the usual reaction he got. The Cameron name was well known in Kildare. His dad’s company – soon to be his – was global, but notoriously well known around the Outer Banks.

“Thank you for bringing my daughter’s things back, Mr. Cameron.” There’s an air of formality in her tone as she takes your books.

“That’s okay. When did you say she’d be back?”

There’s a long pause.

“I don’t think it’s a good idea for her to be seeing you.”

It takes him aback, the frank way in which your mother speaks. He feels shock, and then a wave of anger.

“Well, I think that’s up to her, isn’t it?”

Your mother’s jaw twitches, and she steps back slightly, inching the door closed as if shutting him out. He gets the message but does not care.

“Look. My daughter hasn’t been the same for the last few days and it doesn’t take a genius to figure out it’s because she got involved with the likes of you.” She sounds cold, distant, almost resigned. “I don’t know you personally, Mr. Cameron, but I know people like you. And I know my daughter is sweet and unassuming. So please, leave her alone.”

It takes everything in him not to lose it. He knows it’s best not to get into it with your mother of all people, and yet he hates when people assume shit about him. Nobody knew him, least of all some nobody-Pogue from the Cut. He wasn’t like Topper and them, but he couldn’t expect this woman to know that.

He forces a smile, “Just returning her books, ma’am. I’m her only friend.”

“As I said, thank you for bringing her things back.” She sniffs, closing the door till it’s only open a crack, “But please stay away from my daughter. It would be best for you both.”

The door slams in his face.

He has to physically retreat before he kicks your fucking door in. Her fucking audacity. As if she didn’t fully understand who the fuck he was. One meeting and a deal is all it would take for Cameron Development to buy this fucking dump of a street where your house was situated in. He’d like to see her slam her fucking door on his face then.

He does that thing his therapist taught him, breathes in and out but it doesn’t calm him down in the slightest. Instead, he clenches his fists by his side, his blunt nails digging into his palms till he knows he’s drawn blood.

Before he really knows what’s doing, he makes his way to the back of your house where he knows your bedroom window is. But the curtains are drawn. Fuck. Were you actually not at home? Or was your mother lying? He bets she was lying. If only he could get to you–

“What are you doing here?”

Rafe whips around, heart lurching to his fucking throat because it’s you. Standing right there in front of him. And he almost can’t believe it. Out here in this seedy little street on the Cut, dressed in a pair of tiny denim shorts and a tank top. Face devoid of any emotion, stripped of any kind of makeup. Lips downturned and pouty, eyes narrowed yet still so big and pretty.

For a moment, you take his breath away.

“Go away, Rafe.”

Promptly, you turn on your heel. Well, you turn in your scuffed white converse, speed walking away from him faster than he can even wrap his head around what’s happening. You’ve got your earphones in, your arms crossed in front of your chest, going as fast as your legs can carry you. Down this dangerous fucking street, dressed like that.

Rafe catches up to you in two strides.

“Wait, I came to talk to you–”

“There’s nothing left to say… LET GO OF ME!”

You scream it so loud, he drops your hand like a hot coal. Taken aback by your fire, but he recovers quickly. Walks around till he’s facing you and blocking your path. Tries to catch your gaze but you look anywhere but at him. Your chest rises and falls, your lips pressed into a thin line as if your emotions are getting the better of you. He’s always seen you as pristine and perfect, but now you’re dishevelled, upset, won’t even look at him. Still so fucking beautiful though.

“I didn’t mean all those things I said, okay?”

You swallow harshly, “I’m not stupid, Rafe.”

“It’s my fuckin’ friends – hey, listen, it was my friends, okay?! They kept goading me about you. I had to say something to get them off my back.”

Finally, you meet his eyes. A look of incredulity on your face.

“You… You told everyone that you slept with me, Rafe! You lied! About everything!”

He sighs impatiently, running his hands through his hair, “I know, fuck, I know I lied, okay? But they kept asking. You need to understand that I only said those things to protect you.”

Silence. You just stare at him. He thinks he sees something break behind your eyes. That same look you’d had on your face when he’d locked eyes with you the last time he’d seen you on the campus courtyard. As if you’re looking at a stranger, and he hates it.

“I had to protect you, okay?” He repeats, trying to ignore how hollow and wooden his words sound, “they all want to sleep with you. I had to tell them I had, so that they knew that they couldn’t–”

You shake your head slowly, “Y-You can’t even accept responsibility for what you did…”

“Fuck, this is me accepting responsibility, don’t you get it?!”

He lowers his voice when you flinch. But he’s so fucking desperate, wants you to understand what he’s trying to say although even he doesn’t understand it. He feels fucking insane right now, and you’re seeing it all unfold first hand. “Look, I didn’t mean any of it. You need to understand that. Hey, hey don’t walk away from me!”

“I feel disgusting, Rafe!” You burst out. And he really sees you then, sees your face crumple up and yet you try to keep this false bravado, chin up, eyes blazing. “I-I trusted you. I did things with you that I… that I’ve never done before. And to think this whole time, it was all just a joke for you. I told you about my dad, and I told you all those things because this whole time I thought you genuinely wanted to be friends, and I trusted you.”

“You can still trust me–”

“No, I can’t! You were lying the whole time.” You swallow again, and through your glasses, he can see the tears welling in your eyes, “I was nothing more than a bet for you. And I… I can’t believe I fell for it, that I let you…”

Your voice breaks, and you wrap your arms around yourself, almost like you’re hiding your body from him. Like you can’t bear the thought of him even looking at you now, can’t bear the thought that you ever let him look at you. Makes him feel like a goddamned monster.

“I wish I’d never called you that night,” you whisper, “I wish I’d never let you see me like that. I wish I could… I wish…”

“You don’t mean that,” he reaches out, doesn’t know why but just wants to hold your arm, but stops himself when you flinch once more. You’re far away, lost in your own broken thoughts, and yet you step back when he tries to touch you. Like you’re scared of him, and it kills him, because you were the only one who wasn’t.

“I feel dirty,” you say, voice thick yet pitiful, “I-I feel like… Like I can’t get myself clean no matter how hard I try.”

It’s Rafe’s turn to swallow, and he’s got a huge lump in his throat, and it makes it harder for him to speak. Like there’s a boulder on top of his heart, weighing it down to the fucking pits of his stomach. Guilt and frustration like flames licking and growing inside him.

“You’re not dirty,” he says softly, wanting, willing you to look at him but you don’t. And he wants you to say something, anything. But you don’t. Like you’re done. And he can’t have that, he fucking can’t. The control is slipping out from under his fingertips, and it’s an all-consuming feeling that he hates.

“I like you,” he tries again, but he’s never been good with his fucking words. His mind’s screaming ten different things for him to say, brain feels like it’s about to explode with frustration because he knows no matter what he says, it won’t be the right thing. How could it be? When he’d done what he’d done and there was no way around it? “I never lied about that. It started out as a bet but I always liked you.”

“You don’t speak about someone like that if you like them.” You look defiant and deflated all at once, angry yet upset, those fucking lips of yours downturned in this crestfallen way that hits him straight in the chest. “I hate myself for being so stupid. Trusting you when all this time, you were probably just laughing behind my back, thinking I was beneath you because I’m just a Pogue.”

“I wasn’t.”

“I don’t believe you.”

“Jesus fucking Christ, why can’t you just understand that I’m telling the goddamned truth?!”

He doesn’t mean to raise his voice. It just happens. It happens a lot with him, and he regrets it instantly when he sees your face morph in fear. Again, you flinch away from him, and he wishes to God you’d stop doing that. Stop being afraid of him because couldn’t you fucking see how insane you made him?

“S-Stay away from me,” you back away towards your house.

“Wait! Shit, I’m sorry, I– hey! Come back! Please, come back!”

You ignore him. Don’t even look back. In fact, you break into a run, as if you can’t stand being near him. And he can tell you’re crying in earnest now, with how your hands reach up and snatch your glasses off your face to blindly wipe away your tears. He calls out again, but his voice is lost in the wind. Fists clench to his sides again, and he hates how helpless he feels. The control he had, it’s dissipated like a cloud of fucking smoke and he hates it.

“Fine! Don’t fuckin’ listen!” He wants to punch something. The frustration of being unable to explain himself is slowly morphing into rage like how it often did. And he doesn’t know what to fucking do, and he’s trying to control his breathing, and he’s itching for a line, anything that’ll make him stop feeling whatever it is he’s feeling right now. “You think I can’t walk away from this shit too? Well, fuck you! I’m done too.”

Your front door slams shut. You don’t even look back once.

***

It’s a whole week before Rafe sees you on campus again. And in those seven days, he’s convinced himself that he doesn’t care. That you didn’t matter. That this was it. Whatever the fuck he’d thought he’d felt for you was clearly not real. And it never had been. He was just a fucking idiot who’d had a lapse in his judgement. Let a stupid Pogue fuck around with his feelings. Never again. Never fucking again.

And yet his heart skips a beat when he sees you. It’s been a whole week of you not showing up to classes, and a part of him had thought you’d transferred out. But there you are, bright and early on a fucking Monday morning. Books and binder clutched to your chest. In a blue top and matching skirt, looking every bit as cute as you always did.

For some reason, he’d half expected you to show up sad and forlorn, in a big hoodie or some other equally unflattering item that chicks wore when they felt depressed. Clearly not.

Rafe himself feels like shit and has all week. He’s got bags under his eyes and stubble he can’t be bothered to shave off. And he hates it, hates how he’s spent the past seven days at home, listlessly staring at his chat with you on his phone. Reading over your old messages again and again. Back when he still had control over what you thought of him. He also keeps staring at the pictures he took of you. He knows he should delete them but he can’t. You were his after all. He had every right to have those pictures on his phone. And you were so fucking hot…

“Look, it’s your little girlfriend,” Kelce snickers, and his entire group turn their heads in your direction. You’re trying your best not to make eye contact, quickening your pace as you speed-walk across the field.

It takes everything in him to keep his cool. “Change the fucking subject, man. If you know what’s best for you.”

They all straighten up, cough, look away. Like fucking clockwork robots responding to their puppet-master. They’d calmed down about the whole debacle, stopped begging for the pictures of you after Rafe had made it clear he wasn’t going to show them. Now, he just wanted to move on. Forget about it all. Pretend like he didn’t know you, just like he did with every other girl he fucked.

It was difficult, though. When you looked so fucking beautiful.

Rafe can’t help but try to meet your gaze, but you don’t look at him even once. And it incenses him. He knows he’s supposed to forget about you, discard and move on like he did with all the other girls he’d been with. And yet…

“Hey man, did you hear what I said? What do you think?”

Rafe blinks, forcibly peeling his eyes away, and trying his best to suppress the wild, innate desire to follow you, keep tabs on you, make sure he knows what you’re doing at all times.

Topper waves his hand in front of his face, “Rafe?”

His eyes narrow in irritation, “What?”

“The party. Saturday night. It’s at this abandoned beach house in the Cut. I’m pretty sure Sarah’s gonna be there, and–”

“No.”

Topper sighs, “I mean, I think you should go, man. There’ll be plenty of other Pogue girls there if you’re looking to hook up.”

The thought of that makes him sick.

“I’m not going to some Pogue-infested crack house on the Cut, Topper.”

“But I think the best way for you to get over her is to find someone else–”

“Get it through your thick fucking skull,” Rafe grabs him by the collar, a sudden rage coursing through his veins and he can’t even pinpoint why, “I’m not trying to get over shit, okay? There’s nothing to get over. Don’t fuckin’ project your shit on me just ‘cause you can’t get over my bitch of a sister.”

“Jesus Christ, alright!” Topper shakes him off, backing away and raising his hands in the air, “You shouldn’t speak about Sarah like that.”

“Shut the fuck up.”

Everyone’s staring at him again. Like he’s the crazy one or some shit like that. Fuck them all. His nose twitches, and he wishes he’d brought some coke with him. But the last time he’d been caught on campus with drugs, Ward had to pay a shit ton of money for the faculty to forget it ever happened. Doesn’t help now, when he feels like he’s gonna implode. A part of him wishes he could go to you, because you’d make him feel calm and in control again. But that isn’t an option, and so he tries to control his breathing. He can’t.

Fuck.

Get you back or forget about you. Something had to give.

***

It’s on impulse, really. He doesn’t even remember doing it till it’s done. It’s after he’s spent a good twenty minutes lying on his bed and staring at your pictures on his phone. Fuck, you were so sweet and hot. He still remembers it, waking up next to you on your tiny pink bed, an assorted range of your stuffed animals surrounding you both. You, naked and in his arms. Right where you belonged. Sucking his thumb like you were his baby, and you trusted him with everything.

Before he realises what he’s doing, he orders a Chanel bag. A light pink one with a gold chain. Puts in your address so it can be delivered straight to you. He’d grown up with two sisters and a stepmother obsessed with shopping and designer labels, so he has an idea of what women like. And he’s used to girls from Figure 8, who’s love language was gifts and money. You were different, though, but he still can’t help himself.

He imagines you dripping from head to toe in gifts bought by him. Cute little designer dresses, all in pink or light blue or yellow or some pretty girly colour like that. Fur jackets and dainty, expensive jewellery. And he’d give you an allowance, hell he’d make you save his credit card details on your phone. And he’d pay for you to get your nails done, and your toes too. Pretty, gleaming white polished toes.

He’s jacking off now, picturing it so clearly in his head. He’d move you into his house, and you’d look at him with glowing eyes, so thankful that he’d saved you from the poverty you’d been so used to. And you’d be his little princess, draped in the gifts he’d shower you with. And in return, you’d let him do anything to you. Because you were his. Only ever his.

And he’d push you onto his bed, press your legs up against his chest while he fucked you so good and hard. Came inside you, filled you up till the brim, till his cum was leaking out of you. And even then, he’d push it back inside, stuff you so fucking full of him that you wouldn’t know how to act, and you’d cry and be confused. You’d beg him not to, but he’d do it anyways because he owned you. And if he knocked you up? Fuck, he wouldn’t even care because it would mean you’d be bound to him forever.

He cums at that last thought, the visual of it too fucking hot for him to even fully wrap his head around. High off the fact he’s bought something for you. It gives him a fucking power trip like no other. You were his. Completely and utterly his. He knows he’s supposed to forget about you but fuck it. Maybe, just maybe, he could buy his way back into your life.

It’s only two days later when he’s leaving his car in the campus parking lot that he feels a little tap on his shoulder.

“You can’t do things like this.”

It’s you. Looking all tiny and cute as ever, a fiery look on your face that’s about as intimidating as one of your stuffed animals. Your face that’s half hidden by the big Chanel box you’re carrying in your arms.

“Hello to you too.”

“You… You need to take this back.”

Rafe squints down at you, running a hand through his hair and trying to act nonchalant, “It’s rude to return gifts.”

You look genuinely upset. Distraught, even. It confuses him.

“I don’t want any gifts from you, Rafe. Why can’t you understand that I want nothing to do with you?”

Didn’t he know this would happen? He knew you weren’t materialistic like the girls he was used to. And yet he’d still done it. But at least you were speaking to him again.

“I thought you should have it,” he says. “I was thinking about you.”

“Stop. Don’t.” You swallow harshly, your chest rising up and down as if you have so much you want to say. “Please. Just take this back and leave me alone.”

I CAN’T! He wants to scream, but he knows he can’t risk scaring you away again.

“Take it as an apology,” he says, take a step closer to you except you instantly take a step back, a fearful look in your eye that he hates. “Look, I know I fucked up, okay? Let me make it up to you.”

“You’re unbelievable,” you whisper, “You lied, and now everyone thinks that we…” You gulp, pressing your lips together and trying to push the box into his arms, “My mom saw the bag. She-She thinks I’m sleeping with you in exchange for gifts.”

Rafe blinks, “Why would she think that?”

You gape at him incredulously, and he can’t help but think how cute and hot you look. All weepy and indignant, acting all upset but all it does is get him hard. The Chanel box is almost as big as you, and it makes you look even tinier. And you’re wearing this little buttercup yellow top trimmed with white lace. So fucking hot. He wants to grab you and push you into the backseat of his car. Lock the doors and have his way with you. Fuck you dumb, fuck that indignance straight out of you, till all you can say is thank you daddy for the pretty purse and the orgasm while you cuddle and cry into his chest.

When he doesn’t take the box back, you huff and drop it at his feet.

“I…I don’t care about expensive gifts, Rafe. And if you think you can just throw money at me and expect things to go back to how they were, then I guess we never really knew each other to begin with.”

Rafe sighs, reaches out to grab your wrist, “Look, wait–”

“D-Don’t touch me!”

There it is again. Don’t touch me. It’s the second time you’ve said that to him, and he watches as you flinch away from him again. Like you’re scared. Of him. And he fucking hates it so much, it’s like he can’t breathe.

“Wait–”

You scurry away without looking back at him even once. When all he can do is look at you. Like you’re a drug and he’s an addict. He can’t rip his gaze away. He feels so out of control of the situation, it makes his palms itch and his head hurt. He feels like throwing up. Like fucking punching someone. He wishes you’d just understand him, and he hates himself for not being able to explain himself to you. He’s so fucking obsessed with you, it’s insane.

How the fuck was he supposed to get over you?

***

His eyes follow you wherever you go. He memorises your schedule, your classes, everything. He doesn’t mean to, exactly. It just kind of happens. It’s like he has this innate need to know exactly where you are and what you’re doing. You’re his property after all, so it was only natural.

And Rafe watches you all the time. Whenever he can. He knows it’s unhealthy as shit, this growing obsession he has with you. But he’s been like this as long as he can remember. Hyper focusing on one thing until it consumed him completely. His dad’s approval. Drugs. Alcohol. You.

And you’re putting on a brave front, walking around campus acting like everything between you and him never even happened. But Rafe likes to think he knows you, despite only interacting with you for a week. He knows it’s all an act, and on the inside you’re feeling just as shitty as he is. He watches you smile, nod, hang around the outskirts of some Pogue girl group who barely pays you any attention. And it’s sick of him, but he likes how you don’t have any true friends. All you had was him, and he was hell bent on getting you back no matter what it took.

Which is why he feels this cold, numbing feeling of pure rage when he sees you leaving your last class of the day walking side-by-side next to a boy. Talking to him. Laughing with him.

Rafe’s hands curl into fists.

He doesn’t want you speaking to any other man. Even what looks to be some sorry ass Pogue nerd who’s in your class. No, you were his. You weren’t allowed to even look at another man unless he approved of it. What the fuck could this clown give you that Rafe couldn’t? Nothing. What the fuck.

He waits till you part ways with the boy and make your way out of the building. That’s when he grabs him by the shirt and slams him into a locker, not giving a fuck who sees.

“What the fuck?!” The boy struggles, but it’s extremely easy to overpower him. Rafe’s used to being bigger than most people.

“Shut the fuck up, Pogue. I just want to talk.” Rafe shoots him a wooden ass smile, although it’s taking everything in him not to punch the shit out of this fucking guy. As quickly as he’d grabbed him, he lets him go, straightening him up and smoothening his shirt while the boy stares at him like he’s insane. He’s used to that too.

“Why were you speaking to her?” He asks softly, keeping his tone cold and calculated.

“I don’t know what you’re taking about– OUCH!”

Rafe slams him against the metal lockers again before smirking, “Try again.”

The Pogue scrunches his eyes shut for a second before exhaling loudly through his nose. When he speaks, his voice shakes, “She’s in my class, man. We were put together for a project.”

“Mm,” Rafe’s thoughtful for a second, “You know who I am?”

“Y-Yes.”

“Who am I?”

When the kid doesn’t respond immediately, Rafe takes his head and slams it against the hard metal behind him. He cries out in pain, coughing with a stricken look on his face like he’s about to piss himself.

“You’re Rafe, OK?! R-Rafe Cameron! Please don’t hit me again!”

Rafe smiles, patting his cheek, “Relax, Pogue. You know who my friends are?”

“Yes!”

“Then you know you won’t speak to her again. You won’t even look at her again. Or else I’ll personally come after you. And my friends will too.”

“Look, I don’t know what this is about! We were just discussing our project, it’s worth a lot of credits–”

“You’ll do it yourself,” Rafe fixes the boy’s collar slowly, “You’re not going to say another word to her. If you do, I’ll know.”

The boy gulps, “O-Okay.”

Rafe smirks, patting the boy’s cheek again, “Good boy. And you let your pathetic little Pogue friends know too. She’s off limits to all of you. If any of you so much as look at her, I’ll personally break your fuckin’ legs myself. Got it?”

“Yes, I-I understand.”

Rafe lets the boy go before he pisses himself in fear. He knows the threat will be enough, and yet he still feels so fucking angry. Like he can’t believe you’ve found another man to talk to. He was supposed to be your only friend.

He hates this feeling of desperation that’s only heightening within him as the days go by. A pretty girl like you were bound to find someone else unless Rafe took action.

But what the fuck could he do?

***

He’s still stewing over it when he gets home that day. He’d threatened the kid but would it be enough to keep him away from you? Rafe bets that dumb fucking Pogue had requested to be partnered up with you, thought it’d be an easy way to get in your pants. He thinks back to you in all your cute, sexy outfits, flouncing around campus like you were a free piece of ass. Suddenly acutely aware of just how many men probably wanted to fuck you just like he did…

Over his dead fucking body.

In frustration, he whips out his phone and opens to your chat. He was still blocked. A wave of pure rage completely throttles him, and he throws his phone against his bedroom wall. Again. He’s surprised the damn screen doesn’t completely shatter from the impact.

You’re fucking losing it, he thinks to himself.

After snorting a few lines to calm his nerves (it doesn’t work) as well as downing half the bottle of Gray Goose that he’s got stashed under his bed, Rafe decides to pay you another visit.

“Rafe, we need to talk.”

He’s about to leave the house when Ward’s booming voice halts him. Jesus fucking Christ.

“Not now, Dad,” Rafe mumbles, running a hand through his hair in frustration.

“Yes, now. Come here, son.”

He resists the urge to roll his eyes, entering his father’s study. “Look, Dad. I need to be somewhere.”

“Yes, Rafe. You always need to be somewhere.” Ward is unperturbed as usual, stoic as he sits behind the grand desk of his study, barely even looking up from the papers he’s sifting through. “I don’t care where you’re going. But I need you to be here Sunday. I’ve got someone coming over to talk business.”

His ears perk up, “I get to sit in on a deal?”

“If you want. But he’s bringing his family over for brunch. He’s got a daughter your age whom I’d like for you to meet.”

Rafe loses interest immediately, not giving a fuck about whatever spoilt Kook slut his father was trying to set him up with this time. Instead, his mind wanders back to you again. He wonders what that slimy little dweeb in your class had said to you. Had you been impressed by him? Surely not, he couldn’t offer you what Rafe could. Why the fuck had you been talking to him? Laughing with him? God, he needs to see you now. Set the rules straight: you weren’t allowed to talk to any other man. He doesn’t give a shit if you’re mad at him, you’d still need to follow his rules, and–

“Are you listening to me, Rafe?”

“Mm.”

“I said it’s about time you settled down and got serious about your future. Cameron Development has always been a family-orientated business. There’s a certain image you need to build up and maintain, son.”

Ward drones on and on about “settling down” and “eventually starting a family” and some other bullshit along those lines. Rafe’s too busy thinking about you to listen. What if that stupid Pogue fuck didn’t listen to him? What if he was at your house right now? Using the excuse of “project work” to get close to you? In your bedroom? When the only one who’d been in your bedroom was Rafe, and he intended to keep it that way.

“Sure, Dad. Look, I’ll talk to you when I get back.”

He leaves, ignoring Ward shouting his name and calling him back. Usually, he’s pretty good with listening to his father but right now he couldn’t be fucked with it. He has bigger priorities to deal with.

And he knows he probably shouldn’t drive after he’s just inhaled half a bag of coke and chased it down with half a bottle of vodka. Which is why he takes his motorbike again, hoping the roads would be empty at this time of night.

He gets to your house in record time. He’s got the route memorised at this point.

He doesn’t bother with the front door. Knows if your mother answers, she’d probably call the cops on him or some shit like that. When really, she should be calling the cops on that dumb fucking pervert Pogue from your class.

He makes a beeline for your bedroom window at the back of the house. Luckily, your curtains aren’t drawn, and he can see inside. Your bed’s all made, pristine pink sheets with the same stupid stuffed animals arranged meticulously on your pillow. The memory of him on top of your naked body while you quivered underneath him is fast fading, which he hates. He can’t believe you still haven’t forgiven him. He’d give anything to have you look at him like that again, look at him with stars in your eyes as if he’s your saviour, your hero, your god.

“Leave me alone, okay?! Stop telling me what to do all the time!”

For a moment, Rafe thinks you’re talking to him. He steps back, allowing the sidewall to conceal him yet still having a perfect view through your window. You’ve got your back to him, dressed in this fucking insane pair of pink pyjama shorts that make your ass pop. You’ve got your hands on your hips, facing out your bedroom door.

“It’s that boy, isn’t it? Didn’t I warn you not to get mixed up with people like him?” Your mother’s voice.

“Why can’t you just trust me, mom? I’ve always done what you’ve asked, but it’s never good enough!”

You look so petulantly pretty, and it’s a side to you he’s never seen before. Sure, he’s seen you angry, hurt, upset. At him. But this is different. You seem… frustrated almost.

“You can’t afford to get distracted by boys who will just hurt you. You need to keep your head down and mind your own business.”

“That’s all I ever do!” You cry, stomping into your room and he gets a flash of your face, indignant and upset. “I just want to be normal, mom! I just want that normal college experience that everyone else talks about! And I want friends, I want freedom–”

“You’re too naïve.” Your mother appears in your doorway looking grim, “I don’t know what that boy did to you, but maybe now you’ll learn your lesson. Most people at that school are not your friends. You need to remember that, and be smart, and–”

“This isn’t about him!” You look helpless, as if you know whatever you’ll say won’t have any type of effect on your mother’s view. Rafe gets it, has that same problem with Ward. “I’m just so sick of being so good all the time. I hate that everyone thinks I’m so naïve, I-I wish I could show them I’m not.”

“You are.” Your mother says impassively. “And you will stay that way. I forbid you from talking to that boy or anyone like him.”

An incredulous pause, and then:

“JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!”

You slam your door shut and throw yourself on your bed, crying your little eyes out into your pillow. And admittedly, it touches him a little bit. How sweet and soft you look, crying like that with such abandon. Thinking no one’s watching you, thinking no one understands you. Well, Rafe does. And ironically enough, he feels like he’s the only one who could comfort you when you’re like this.

And, despite how sick it sounds, a part of him likes how you’ve fought with your mother. If anything, that distance would only make you more likely to fall back into Rafe’s arms. As long as he was patient and bided his time.

Patience, however, has never been his strong suit. But even in his drunk and high current state, he knows that making his presence known to you right now probably wouldn’t be the best idea. You look equal parts upset and angry, if he added himself to that mix you’d definitely bite his head off. He’d find it hot though, but nevertheless…

He leaves, feeling slightly better. He doesn’t even fully understand why. Maybe it’s because he’s seen you now, and you’re not doing project work with that worm from your class. In fact, he’s not on your mind at all, which was reassuring. Or maybe it’s because the fight with your mother meant you’d slowly come back to him.

Maybe.

***

“Hey Rafe, you spoken to your girl lately?” Topper asks him the following day on campus.

Rafe frowns, “Why are you asking me that?”

Topper shrugs, looking oblivious and gormless as usual, “I don’t know, just asking.”

“Well, don’t.” He doesn’t like when other men talk about you, including Topper. Lately, he’s gotten a lot more paranoid about who’s watching you, who wants to fuck you. Which, he guesses, is most likely every male at this college. Makes him even more eager to publicly claim you, make it be known that you weren’t up for grabs. Sure, his friends knew better than to talk to you or look at you, but he wanted everyone to know. And he didn’t have time to go around personally threatening any man who looked at you.

“Look, there she is now.”

Topper cleanly points at you. Rafe slaps the back of his head and shoots him a dirty look.

“Don’t fucking do that.”

You’re standing on the fringes of that one Pogue girl group that you hang around with sometimes, pretending like they’re your friends. The same ones you were standing with the first time he’d ever seen you. And that was weeks ago, and yet your friendship with them hasn’t seemed to progress. They still ignore you, and you still stand there like you know you don’t fit in, but you try your hardest anyways.

“So anyways, it’s gonna be at this abandoned beach house.”

“Yeah, and Brittney, it’s still OK if we all get ready at your place, right?”

Their stupid chatter doesn’t interest him. But then you speak up.

“What’s happening at the abandoned beach house?” You ask politely, like you’ve rehearsed the line a million times in your head to make sure it comes out right. Tinged with nervousness, afraid they might ignore you as if you hadn’t even spoken.

There’s silence for a beat or two, and Rafe doesn’t miss how some of the girls smirk and exchange looks before one of them answers.

“It’s a party. We would’ve told you but… well, we know you probably wouldn’t be allowed to go.”

“Oh.” Hurt clouds your features for a moment before you force a smile, “I-I’d be allowed to go.”

One of the girls raises an eyebrow, “Really? You? Have you ever even been to a party before?”

They all burst into giggles. You join in too, despite the fact they’re all laughing at you and he bets you know it.

“I have.” You say, sticking your chin up so cutely. And Rafe knows you’re lying through your teeth, and wonders why you feel the need to impress these stupid Pogue sluts who were clearly being mean to you because they were jealous. Couldn’t you see that?

“Okay, well, then you should come too,” one of the girls says, her lips quirking up into a smirk, “Although I doubt Rafe Cameron’s gonna be there, if that’s why you want to go.”

Your face morphs in disgust, “I…I… No, I don’t care about him. I should’ve listened to you guys, you were all right about him.”

Stupid Pogue whores, spreading lies about him to you as per usual.

“Well, we warned you.” One of the girls says, looking like she’s about to burst into a fit of laughter, “But I guess you got a bit overexcited, and thought he was giving you attention because he actually cared about you.”

“Which he doesn’t,” another one chimes in, “I mean, let’s make that clear.”

You giggle nervously, but he can tell you’re hurt.

“Yeah, I mean no offence to you, you’re just so sweet and innocent,” one girl pats you on the shoulder condescendingly, “He probably went for you because he knew you’d be an easy target.”

“No offence,” another one emphasises, although the smirks they all exchange say otherwise. “But yeah, you should totally come to the party on Saturday. We’ll take care of you.”

It’s when they’ve all dispersed and you’re on your own, that he corners you before he can stop himself.

“You shouldn’t go to that party.”

You stare up at him in disbelief, “Get away from me, Rafe.”

“It’s not the type of place for someone like you.”

“Someone like me,” you echo, a cloud of hurt crossing your features for a split second before you cover it up with a brave attempt at a glare, “Y-You don’t know me.”

“I do. And those girls are not your friends.”

“Stop.”

“I’m just trying to help you.”

“They didn’t lie to me and pretend to be my friend,” you hug your books close to your chest like they’re a fucking shield against him or something, “that was you.”

You say it so quietly, in such a resigned way that it kills him. And then you turn and leave, and again you don’t even look back once. And he can’t take his eyes off of you.

He doesn’t waste time in texting Topper after that.

Rafe: Send me the location of that party.

***

Rafe fucking hates the Cut. Disgusting place filled to the brim with disgusting people. For the life of him, he doesn’t understand how Sarah had chosen this life over Figure 8. The beach house – if it could even be called that – is all rotting wood and peeling floorboards. And yet the Pogues here were acting like it was some kind of VIP beach club and the party of the century. Fucking losers.

Topper is all smiles, though. Scanning the crowd for Sarah and her little Pogue group. Rafe’s already surveyed the whole sorry property for you, but you weren’t here. And a part of him is relieved, because maybe you’d taken his advice after all. He’d give it another fifteen minutes before leaving.

“You think Sarah decided not to come or something?” Topper asks, plopping down on the couch next to Rafe and handing him a beer.

“Do I look like I know what goes on in her head?”

“Jesus, man. It was just a question.”

“You both need to get a grip,” Kelce leans forward, a scantily clad girl already in his lap and a drink in his hand, “There’s too much fresh meat here for you to still be hung up on anyone else.”

“I’m not hung up on shit,” Rafe seethes.

“Prove it, bro.”

“Shut up before I knock you the fuck out.” He’s not in the fucking mood for this bullshit. The girls here all looked like typical Pogue sluts. Of course, you wouldn’t be here. Either you’d come to your senses, or he’d gotten through to you, or hell, your mother probably didn’t give you permission.

The music is loud and pulsating, making the creaking floorboards vibrate. This beach house might have been considered luxurious once upon a time – by 1960s standards probably – but now it lies in complete desolate disrepair. With way too many sweaty bodies filled to the brim inside. Rafe can’t believe he made the mistake of coming here.

He’s getting up to get the fuck out of here, and that’s when he spots you at the entrance.

And he almost doesn’t recognise you. Yet at the same time, it’s like his heart does because it does this weird fluttery shit the moment he sees you. Walking through the door with that Pogue girl group, except you stand out from them in so many ways, and he knows he’s not the only man in the room who notices.

You’ve got some smoky black shit on your eyes. That’s the first thing he sees, because you’ve never done that kind of makeup before, and you’re not wearing your glasses either. It looks… different. Still so fucking hot, though. Like black eyeshadow smeared over your eyes in the sluttiest way, and your cheeks tinted this sexy, flushed pink with glitter. Lips glossy and berry-coloured, lined with something darker – something else you’ve never done before.

And your dress. It makes him clench his beer so hard he’s surprised the bottle doesn’t shatter. It’s the sluttiest thing he’s ever fucking seen, and it’s almost like the sluttiness of it is amplified because you’re the one who’s wearing it. And he’d never pictured you dressing like this, he didn’t think you could or ever would. In his head, you were the perfect picture of innocence in your cute pastels and flowery prints.

But this. It’s like you’ve taken a dress from your mother’s closet and cut it as short as you possibly could, and he can tell that’s what you’ve most likely done, because the bottom looks slightly frayed, like it’s been cut last second with a pair of kitchen scissors. Barely reaches the bottom of your ass, and it makes him want to audibly growl. Make his way over to you and tug it the fuck down, and then drag you out of here for daring to look so slutty.

You look like you’re cosplaying as a goddamned whore.

But it’s still you. And he can’t tear his eyes away. Like you’re so fucking compelling, so different from any other girl in here. Like there’s a spotlight on you and just you, and you look so deliciously uncomfortable. Like you know you don’t belong here, like you know this dress and that makeup just isn’t you, and yet you smile and try and act confident. But he knows you. He knows you better than anyone here.

“Who the fuck is that?” Some guy Rafe doesn’t know whistles loudly, “Never seen her before.”

And suddenly, it’s all around him. The whole fucking room buzzing as if they all see you like how he sees you. Like every man in here has his eyes on you and solely you. Like you’re some type of fresh meat, a beautiful girl who looks innocent enough to manipulate into hooking up with, despite what you’re wearing.

He’d beat the shit out of anyone who tried.

For a moment, he just watches. Watches as you follow your little girlfriends into the kitchen. To the counter where all the booze is. He notes how your eyes widen, how you take a deep breath before smiling and accepting a drink some fucker offers you. And Rafe’s hands are shaking with rage.Half of him wants to cause a scene right the fuck now, let everyone know who the fuck it is you belong to.

But he knows it would be best if he kept his cool. Figured out what to do in a calm and calculated manner.

“Sarah’s still not here,” Topper’s whining snaps him out of his rageful thoughts.

Kelce groans, “Man, stop talking about Sarah for just two seconds. There’s so many other options here, you know how easy these Pogue sluts are.” He snickers, “Rafe definitely knows.”

“Shut up.” Rafe says warningly, his eyes still locked on you.

“Bro, just get on top of another one to get over the first one. They’re all the same anyways–”

“Shut the fuck up, there’s nothing for me to get over.” He doesn’t know how many times he has to tell his friends that.

Kelce shrugs, “If you say so.”

He knew so. And yet, it doesn’t stop him from making his way over to you, pushing past the crowd and not missing how he’s definitely not the only one staring at you right now.

“That’s some dress.”

He comes up behind you, and you jump despite him making a conscious effort not to touch you. Your eyes widen, but he thinks he detects a brief flicker of relief, as if you’re happy to see a familiar face.

“R-Rafe, what are you doing here?”

“I could ask you the same question.”

“I came with my friends.” You gesture loosely, but it’s clear as day your little girl group has already dispersed without a trace, all but throwing you to the wolves. “Uh, I think they went to the bathroom or something.”

Rafe snorts, but the look on your face pulls at something inside of him, makes him want to just grab your hand and take you back home and keep you happy in a way he knows only he could. If you’d let him. But then it’s like he can’t stop himself:

“Well, homeschool, I barely recognised you in this little outfit. Maybe your friends don’t either.”

You blink up at him with black-rimmed eyes, and he sees a flash of hurt glimmer within them. And he wishes he hadn’t said it, sees how you shrink in within yourself, step back and cross your arms over your chest protectively. Tug your dress down except it’s so short it didn’t even matter.

“Homeschool,” you repeat softly “I used to think you called me that as like a cute nickname. Now I know you were just making fun of me.”

“I’m not. I wasn’t. Look, I–”

“Please, just leave me alone.” You try to push past him.

“I’m surprised you were allowed out of the house in that. You’re a walking target here with a dress that short,” He moves to block your path.

“Well, it’s a good thing I can take care of myself!”

“Yeah? How’re you gonna do that when you can’t even see? With all that black shit smeared all over your eyes?”

He wants to kick when he sees the hurt on your face. It’s like he’s so used to being the asshole version of himself that everyone knew him as, like it’s so easy to slip that mask back on now that things aren’t going his way. Fuck, why couldn’t you just give in and stop fighting him?

“I can take care of myself.” You repeat, although your voice wavers and your lower lip quivers.

“You can’t do shit dressed like that,” he runs a hand through his hair in frustration, “Look, trust me, this party sucks. Just let me take you home.”

You push past him without another word, and it fucking angers him so bad he wants to punch the goddamned wall. Instead, he watches you with dark eyes as you weave through the crowd. How naïve of you to think you could take care of yourself. When every single man in here was staring at you like you were some hot fucking commodity. Well, he was officially done trying to help you out.

“What’re you doing here, Rafe? Thought this was beneath your country club ass.”

Rafe watches you join back up with your girl group before forcibly turning away, “Barry. Tell me you got some shit on you right now.”

“Is that how you say hello to all your friends?” Barry grins, “You look like shit by the way.”

“You obviously do have some, otherwise you wouldn’t be here.”

“You sound like an addict, country club.”

Rafe rolls his eyes, looking beyond Barry’s shoulder at you sipping on another drink. Who’d given you this one? How many had you had? Jesus fucking Christ, was he going to keep tabs on you all night? He felt like he had to, and it’s putting him on edge.

“Who’re you lookin’ at?”

“None of your business,” Rafe snaps, “Just…Please, if you have anything on you.” He wants to snatch the drink from your hand, scold you for accepting drinks from anyone that wasn’t him. Instead, he watches helplessly as you sip it, scrunching up your nose all cutely because he bets it tastes awful. Like cheap liquor and dollar store soda.

“She’s cute,” Barry says.

“Shut up.”

“Her brothers would kick her ass if they knew she was here.”

That catches his attention, “You know her?”

“I know her brothers.” Barry snickers, patting him on the shoulder, “You might be a little out of your depth with this one, country club.”

Rafe doubts it. Pogues did not intimidate him in the slightest, and he doubts your brothers would be any different. Hell, they could be military-trained mercenaries and it wouldn’t stop him from making you his.

“I wasn’t out of my depth when I fucked her.” It comes out before he can stop himself. He just needs Barry to know. Hell, he needs everyone here to know. Even though it’s technically a lie, but he may as well have fucked you with how close he got.

Barry whistles lowly, “And yet here she is, clearly unclaimed.”

Rafe clenches his fists, eyes trained on you once more. He’d looked away for barely a minute and now you’re surrounded by men. Like a bunch of sorry ass losers vying for your attention, and it’s like you don’t even know how to react to it. You keep looking down, opening your phone, sipping your drink, pulling at your dress. Smiling awkwardly. Reaching up to adjust your glasses before realising you’re not wearing them. Fuck, you were so cute. So different from all the other girls and so fucking cute.

“Hey country club, do all the girls you fuck act like they don’t know you?”

“Don’t fuck around with me, man. I’m not in the mood.”

He runs a hand through his hair, watching like a hawk as you tug your dress down again. God, the way it hugged your ass was insane. You look so fucking hot, and despite the less than stellar interaction he’s just had with you, he still can’t help but think of fucking you. In that slutty fucking dress, but he’d push it up to your waist, rip your panties off and pocket them before jackhammering his cock inside you with such force just so you’d know never to wear something like that in public again. Maybe he’d drag you to his car, maybe one of the rooms upstairs. Or maybe right here in front of everyone while you cried because you were shy but he wouldn’t give a fuck because he’d be showing you who you belong to.

Maybe that’s what you wanted, maybe that’s why you’d dressed like this.

Barry pulls out a baggie, “You wanna push this to your preppy crowd?”

Rafe snatches it up quickly, “Sure, whatever.”

Just then, he sees you being cornered by some idiot who’s talking all animatedly with you, pushing you away from your friends, clearly trying to get you alone. Rafe sees red, pushing Barry aside and making a beeline for you.

“Hands off, asshole.” He seethes, physically putting himself between you and the guy.

The guy raises an eyebrow, “What are you, her bodyguard?”

“Meet me outside and I’ll show you exactly who the fuck I am.” Rafe grabs the guy’s shoulder when he tries to leave, “No, no, where you going, pussy? Come outside with me.”

“Rafe, stop! You’re acting insane.”

Your voice cuts through all the other noise, and the guy takes that moment to scurry away into the crowd like a little rat.

“Yeah, that’s what I thought, fuckin’ pussy ass bitch.” Rafe barks out a hollow laugh before turning back to you. “Are you okay?”

“Why did you do that, Rafe?!.”

He scoffs, “Are you kidding me? He had his hands all over you.”

“No, he didn’t! And even if he did, I could’ve handled it.”

Rafe pinches the bridge of his nose in frustration. Were you deliberately being obtuse just to make him out to be the bad guy again?

“Just stick with your girlfriends. You shouldn’t be talking to these kinds of men anyways.”

You look up at him indignantly with engorged pupils, clearly already half tipsy when you’d barely had a drink or two, “Stop it. Please. You’re not my dad!”

That’s not what you were saying when I was in your bed, he wants to shoot back spitefully. Instead, he rolls his eyes, “I’m the only one here looking out for you.”

“And I’m telling you; I don’t need you to do that. I can look after myself so just leave me alone, okay?”

“Stop trying to be something you’re not,” Rafe hears himself say, gesturing loosely at your body, “This… This shit isn’t you.” 

Again, hurt flashes across your face. 

“You don’t know me, Rafe. You never did and you never will.”

You push past him and rejoin your girlfriends and whatever group of men they’re talking to. Making him look like a gormless fucking chump when he’s the one who was trying to save you. Well, fuck you too then.

That’s how he finds himself back with his friends, at a table snorting up line after line like it’s his fucking job. It’s a distraction really, from all the conflicting thoughts swimming around in his head. Fuck you, protect you, forget about you. You, you, you. He needs this escape. He needs to stop thinking completely.

“Some for me?” a girl sinks down on his lap, her cleavage right in his face. He feels numb to everything, barely even registers her. But nods anyways, pours out a neat line for her. She’s all over him after that, but it’s like a blur to him. The music, lights, this girl’s lips on his, his friends cheering him on. He bets this slut would let him fuck her right here on this couch in front of everyone. And what was stopping him?

She’s pressing kisses down his neck, her hands up his shirt when he opens his eyes almost on intuition. Looks straight across the room and locks gaze with you. The shock is frozen on your face for just a moment or two, before you quickly look away.

The mask was truly off now. You knew who he really was.

Forcibly, you turn away from him. And he wants to look away too, just fuck this girl to forget all about you. But then he sees you bump straight into the chest of someone else. Some stupid fucking punk ass Pogue, different from the other one. More intimidating, larger too. He grins at you, his hand pressing down on your lower back. And it plays like slow motion in front of Rafe’s eyes, and he feels like someone’s put his heart through a fucking shredder.

He pushes the girl off him, gets to his feet. The guy’s talking to you now, talking to you like he knows you. Rafe’s hands shake; he balls them into fists. Shoves his way through the crowd of bodies, keeping his eyes glued on you. The drugs in his system have made him a bit sluggish, but he can still make out the two of you, how the guy’s got you cornered against the wall now. He sees you laugh nervously, and the punk tucks a piece of your hair behind your ear.

That’s when Rafe sees him start moving you. Towards the stairs. And he sees your face twist in fear; sees you swallow and try to act brave. Sees you looking around for your friends but they’ve ditched you again. The guy’s gripping you tightly by the arm, no doubt sweet talking as he pulls you up the stairs. Rafe sees your chest rise and fall rapidly; sees you try and talk your way out of it. But he also knows how men think, knows how much stronger they are, and the guy keeps pushing you up the stairs.

Rafe feels like he’s a million miles away. By the time he gets to the stairs, the two of you are long gone. There’s this tightness in his chest, and it won’t go away. He pushes people out of the way, takes the stairs two at a time. Gets to the first-floor landing and grabs some fucker by the shirt.

“Where’d they go? The girl in the black dress and the guy?”

“What the hell!? I don’t know!”

He throws the guy aside, stumbles into the first door that opens. Empty. Then the second. Not them. Fuck.

He finds you behind the fourth or fifth door he throws open. And it’s almost like an out of body experience. He’s not sure he’s ever felt such visceral rage before. The guy’s got you up against the wall, trying to kiss you. His hands all over you. Your tiny fists trying to push him off, and for a split-second Rafe feels like his chest is about to explode.

He doesn’t think before he throws him off you.

“What the fuck, man?”

“Get out.”

The guy snorts, “How about you get out? We were in the middle of something.”

Rafe’s not in the mood to fuck around. He looks at you, sees you sniffle, readjust your dress. Your face is usually expressive, but he can’t read it now. And usually, beating up on Pogues like this guy is an amusing pastime for him, maybe even a hobby. There’s a certain satisfaction that comes with it, a certain rush of adrenaline. But one look at you, and he knows now isn’t the time for that.

“Get out. I won’t ask you again.”

The guy – all tattoos and burly chest – chuckles, tries to grab you again, “I ain’t leaving bro. Hell, you can stay too if you wanna watch.”

That’s when Rafe pulls his gun out.

You gasp. The guy stops short. Holds his hands up.

“Hey, c’mon man, it’s never that serious–”

“You don’t want me to ask again.” Rafe points the barrel straight at him. The coke’s coursing through his veins, pumping through his blood. He’s never entered the Cut without his gun, and in the state he’s in right now, he’d risk getting thrown in fucking jail because he can’t think of a reason why he shouldn’t shoot this fucking pervert right now.

“Okay, okay, I’m going.” The fucking pussy leaves quickly after that. Once he’s gone, Rafe tucks the gun into the back of his waistband. He feels completely calm in the moment. Eerily so, but he knows it’s that certain type of calm that only comes before a storm.

He locks eyes with you, and there’s a moment of absolute silence. All he can hear is your shallow breathing, short and rapid. Glistening eyes looking up at him in what he could only describe as fear. Or reverence. He can’t tell, and it bothers him.

“What the fuck is wrong with you?” He’s trying so hard to keep his voice level, but it almost shakes with anger. Anger at the situation, at what he’s just seen. Anger at that punk that he knows, he knows, he’s gonna take out on you.

You swallow, “I…I…”

“You realise what the fuck would’ve happened if I hadn’t been here?” He takes one step towards you, for once not giving a fuck when you flinch. “I know you’re innocent but you can’t be that fucking stupid.”

Hurt flashes across your face, “I could’ve taken care of myself–”

“You wouldn’t have been able to do shit.”

You shake your head, “Yes, I could! I can handle myself just fine, and my friends knew I was up here, they saw me, so they would’ve come–”

He stares, incredulous as it dawns on him just how naïve you actually were, “they’re not your fucking friends.”

“Neither are you!”

“I saved you.”

Your face crumples up like a piece of paper, your chest rising up and down. Like you’re trying your hardest not to burst into tears, “I’m not some naïve little girl who needs saving, Rafe.”

“Yeah? Is that what you were trying to prove tonight?”

“No! I wasn’t trying to prove anything, I just… I just…” your lower lip quivers, and yet you still will yourself not to cry, “I’m just… I’m not naïve, okay? I’m not some stupid little girl that men just... take advantage of.”

He runs his hand through his hair, “Do you even realise what you’re saying? He was going to take advantage of you.”

“I wouldn’t have let him!” Your eyes are wet with tears, and it’s smudging the black makeup, making it smear and run and you look so hauntingly beautiful like this, “Not how I let you.”

And there it was. It all came back down to Rafe. He was always the bad guy in everyone’s eyes, even yours. Even after he’d saved you. He was evil, through and through – isn’t that what he always knew deep down? Isn’t that what his father saw when he looked at him? And his stepmother? And Sarah? Even now, you look scared like a little fucking mouse. Scared of him, and not the fucker who’d just tried to force himself on you. It was always Rafe who was the villain in everyone’s story, no matter how hard he tried to protect them.

“I stopped.” Rafe steps closer, knowing you’ve got the wall behind you and nowhere to run, “I stopped when you asked me to. He wouldn’t have.”

“You lied about everything.”

He remains silent, not wanting to rehash this shit with you right now. Instead, he closes the gap between you both, pressing you against the wall. You push against his chest, but it’s ineffectual. He needs to touch you, lay claim on you. It’s like an innate, animalistic desire to mark his territory after that fucker’s had his hands all over you.

“G-Get away from me.”

“No.”

“Rafe. Don’t.”

You’d already made up your mind that he was the bad guy, no matter what he said or did. And it would be so easy to be the villain you clearly thought he was.

Gently, he tucks a piece of your hair behind your ear. You gulp, half-heartedly attempt to bat his hand away when it lands on your hip.

“He shouldn’t have touched you.”

“I could’ve gotten away–”

“Nobody else is allowed to touch you.” He says it quietly, but he knows you’ve heard him.

Your eyes widen, “R-Rafe–”

“Only me.”

His lips press against yours in a kiss so possessive, it almost knocks you off your feet. But he’s got you, holding you steady and pressing you against the wall with all his weight. And he’s dreamed of this moment, dreamed of kissing you again. And your lips are so soft, so perfect, exactly how he remembered. Yet all he can think of is making you forget that other man had ever even touched you. His tongue is in your mouth, claiming you like he’s swallowing you whole from the inside out. And he’s so much bigger than you, so much stronger that he doesn’t even notice or register if you’re trying to push him off. It’s ineffectual, irrelevant. He needs this. Needs you to know you’re his.

“Stop!” You finally manage to push him off you, and your lips already looked bruise from his kiss. Bruised and so fucking pretty. Another mark of him on you.

He’s staring at your lips when you slap him hard across the face.

Immediately, your face crumbles, like you’re horrified at what you’ve done.

“I-I’m sorry, I’m… I’m–”

You burst into tears. Like waterfalls flowing down your cheeks. You reach up to blindly wipe at your face, smearing your black eyeliner all over your eyes. And he just watches you, the sting of your ineffectual little slap already fading. Watches how you sob, how your whole body shakes. Watches as your wild eyes look somewhere beyond him. At the mirror in the corner side of the bedroom. Watches you stare at your reflection like you’re looking at a stranger.

“I don’t know what I’m doing,” you whisper like it’s a confession, but more to yourself than to him. “I-I don’t know who I am, I don’t… I don’t…”

In that moment, he sees something broken inside you. Something he’d never seen before. Maybe it wasn’t there before. Maybe it’s only here now. Maybe he was the one who’d broke you. The thought makes him sick to his fucking stomach.

Rafe hoists you up, slings you over his shoulder without another word. You pound against his back.

“No, no, let me go! Let me go!”

He ignores your cries. All he knows is that he needs to get you out of here. You didn’t belong in a place like this. You were too soft, too sweet to be corrupted. He had to save you again, even if he was the villain in your eyes.

He carries you out the bedroom, past the landing, down the stairs. Everyone stares; he doesn’t give a fuck. He weaves through the crowd of writhing bodies, the pulsating music drowning out your cries. One of his hands firmly holding your dress down over your ass while you wiggled and squirm against him.

He only puts you down when he’s got you outside in the back where his car’s parked. It’s a hot summer night, sticky and humid. The stars look huge, almost like they’re weighing down on his shoulders. And reflecting in your eyes, making them shine with indignance and that fierceness he’s only recently learnt you possess.

“Get in the car.”

Incredulously, you shake your head, “I’m going back to my friends.”

“Don’t fuck with me right now. Get in the car.”

You try to storm past him, but he’s already so much quicker than you. The copious amounts of coke he’s snorted tonight paired with the pure adrenaline and determination of wanting to get you out of here makes you no match for him. You, in your heels which you weren’t used to walking in, and that tiny, tight fucking dress. Fuck, he needed you out of here. Now.

Your lips press into a thin line, and your eyes look so big as you stare up at him pleadingly, “I can’t, Rafe. Please. I can’t go with you.”

His face softens, “I’m gonna take you home.”

“I don’t trust you.”

His jaw tenses. I FUCKING SAVED YOU! He wants to scream. Instead, his features grow stoic, the mask slipping back on.

“I don’t care if you don’t trust me. You’re not going back in there. You should’ve never gone to a party like this to begin with.”

“I can handle myself–”

“Jesus fuckin’ Christ, don’t start with that again. You can’t handle shit, okay? I handled shit back there. God knows what would’ve happened to you if it weren’t for me.” He grabs your wrist, ignoring your sharp intake of breath and yanking you back towards his car. He opens the door, tries to push you inside.

It’s when you’re fighting against him that he realises how drunk you are. God knew how many cheap drinks you’d been given tonight, and you’d been polite enough to accept all of them. Probably thought drinking them would help you fit in better, socialise easier. And now your movements are sluggish, slow, erratic.

He easily throws you into the backseat of his car, child locking the doors so you don’t escape.

He half expects you to launch yourself at him the moment he gets into the driver’s seat. But surprisingly, you’ve gone quiet. Gathered yourself in the corner at the back, hugging your legs with your face buried between your knees as you sobbed to yourself.

And there are so many things he wants to say, now that he’s finally got you alone. But it’s like there’s something lodged in his throat, and he doesn’t know what to say or how to even speak. He’s angry, concerned, buzzing from everything that’s just happened. Silence ensues, with just the gentle hum of the car as he drives into the night.

He pulls up to the now familiar dirt road that is your street and unlocks the doors. Waits a handful of seconds, surprised you don’t immediately jump out of his car. Instead, he watches silently through the rearview mirror as you rummage drunkenly through your little purse.

“I, uh, I don’t have my keys.”

“What?”

“I must’ve dropped them at the party… your voice trails off before you clear your throat, “It’s okay, I’ll just–”

“Your mom can’t let you in?” Although Rafe bets your mother would have a fucking heart attack if she saw you being dropped off in his car.

 You swallow, “She’s not at home. She’s… working.”

For the whole night? This was the second time your mother was away from home for the entire night. He wonders what exactly she does for work.

You sit up and open the door, jumping out of the car and immediately teetering in your heels. You were still very drunk, and it shows. Rafe sighs, getting out too.

“You got a spare key under the doormat or something?”

You hold on to the side of his car to regain your balance, blinking rapidly. Your pupils are so dilated, he can see his own reflection in them. And in that moment, it’s like all the frustration and anger he’s feeling at you for how stupid and naïve you’d been tonight, it’s it all dissipates because of how cute and lovely you look in the moonlight. Drunk and fumbling and innocent and away from that party.

“I… I think I’ll just camp out on the porch. The sun should rise soon…”

Rafe stares at you as if you’re deluded. It was only a little past midnight; the sun wasn’t going to rise for a while. And even if it was, there was no way he was leaving you out here in the open on this seedy little street on the Cut.

 “Get back in the car.”

Of course, you choose now to be stubborn again, “N-No! I’ll be fine.”

“Yeah? I know the kind of people that crawl around out here at night. Get in the car.”

You stick your chin out, “Stop trying to help me, Rafe! I’ve lived here all my life, I know what I’m doing–”

He hauls you back into the car. It isn’t too hard, considering how much smaller you are than him. Weaker. Drunk, too. You try to fight against him again, but not too much. Like you know making a scene right now wouldn’t be the best thing to do.

“Where are we going?” You ask timidly once he’s revved the car back up and driven off your street.

“My house.”

You don’t say anything and for once, he’s glad.

*

Tannyhill looms big and shadowy in the moonlight. Rafe watches you gape drunkenly, probably drinking in how big it is just like you had the first time he’d brought you here. You’d remained quiet for most of the drive here, just staring sorrowfully down at your shoes. Once or twice, he’d caught your eye through the rearview mirror, but you’d looked away every time.

“Wait.” He orders before getting out of the car. He opens the door for you and hoists you up into his arms. He means to put you down on your feet, but decides to just carry you. And by some miracle, you let him. And he can’t make sense of this hot and cold behaviour, how all night you’ve been switching between two different characters. Loud, outspoken, angry, not letting him touch you, to then soft, docile, weepy and innocent.  

“I’m scared,” you confess quietly, your pupils dark, glassy and shining in the moonlight. You’re just laying limply in his arms now, as he carries you down the cobblestone driveway of Tannyhill.

“You’re just drunk.”

“No I…” You twist your face to look up at him, and he feels it, so he meets your gaze, “I’m scared of you, Rafe.”

It hits him like a bullet, but he ignores it. Buries it down, deep down in the recesses of his mind where he buried all the other shit. Like his dad not loving him, like the memories of his mother. Buried deep down and abandoned, because he couldn’t deal with that shit. He can’t. You weren’t supposed to be afraid of him. He had saved you.

He doesn’t say anything, expects you to fall back into whatever drunk stupor you’ve been drifting in and out of.

“I didn’t know you had a gun.”

Hadn’t he known you were going to bring that up? He’s surprised it’s taken this long, but he can still remember the frozen shock and fear on your face when you’d seen him point his gun at that guy.  

“You don’t know a lot of things.”

He waits for you to bring up the other things you’d seen him do tonight. All the drugs, or maybe the girl he’d been kissing in front of you. In fact, he half hopes you bring up the second part because it would show that you’d cared, that it had affected you.

But you don’t say anything else, just stare off into the distance. And yet you’re still allowing him to carry you, you’re not trying to get away from him despite being scared. He doesn’t want to cling to that, but a part of him does.

He’s somehow able to fish his keys out of his pocket and unlock the front doors, all while holding you steady with one arm. You’re just so small, and slot perfectly into him, like you were made for him. He’s glad it’s gone well past midnight; means he doesn’t have to deal with his family and their questions. Not that they’d even bother questioning him – they no longer cared enough to.

It’s when he’s carrying you up the marble staircase that you start struggling against him again.

“Not your bedroom–”

“Where the fuck else do you want me to take you? The couch?” Rose would damn near have a heart attack if she woke up to you sleeping on her precious antique furniture imported straight from Paris or wherever the fuck. Not that Rafe cared, but he’d rather have you in his room.

You keep protesting softly, but he takes you to his bedroom anyways. Closes the door and locks it. Places you gently on his bed. And he’s dreamt of this moment for a while, and would’ve savoured it had it been under different circumstances. But he feels a weird mix of leftover anger and a sort of bittersweet sadness. You didn’t want to be here at all. Like any feelings you may have developed for him in that one week had so easily been switched off, and yet he couldn’t switch anything off no matter how hard he tried.

“You should, uh, get some sleep,” he says, quickly turning away lest you think he’s trying to get into bed with you. Rummages through his closet, tosses you one of his shirts, “Here.”

“I’m okay, thank you.” You’ve pulled yourself up into a sitting position, legs hanging off the side of his king-sized bed. You look even smaller than usual, and you’re doing that thing again – hugging your arms protectively around yourself as if he’s some fucking predator who’s kidnapped you, instead of the guy who’d just saved you from sexual assault.

“Just put it on.”

“I’m fine in this.”

Rafe sighs, pacing the room for a second to get his thoughts straight. Then he makes a beeline for you, kneels down in front of you before thinking. Reaches out to touch your legs before he sees you flinch and pulls back.

“Look, I’m not gonna try anything, okay? I know I lied and manipulated you before, but I’m not doing that right now.”

You stare at him for a long few seconds before swallowing, “I can’t tell when someone’s lying.”

He nods, “I remember. And I told you I’d be straight up with you.”

“But you weren’t.”

He runs a hand through his hair in frustration, “I know, but I’m not doing that shit anymore now, okay? I’m not trying to hurt you so just put it on.”

Your dress looks uncomfortably tight now, the straps digging into your shoulders and the bottom riding up. Again, you tug it down, and bite your lip before sighing, accepting the soft shirt.

“O-Okay. But you need to turn around and close your eyes.”

He huffs, but he does it. Stares at the wall for a good ten seconds. Then fifteen. Twenty. Huffs again. “You done?”

He turns back around when you don’t respond, only to find you struggling with the zipper. The dress is so goddamned tight, it may as well have been painted on. And you’re drunk, can barely locate the zip to begin with, and it’s pathetic how you keep tugging at it. And so fucking cute.

“Stand still,” he orders gently, and by the grace of whatever the fuck, you obey for once. Breathing shallow as he comes up behind you, and then your breath hitches with a cute little squeak when he places a hand on your hip to steady you. Easily undoes your zipper, and he likes how he’s the one who’s done it. He likes taking care of you, wants to help you out of it and put his shirt on you himself.

But all too quickly, you pull away, holding the dress taut against your body. He rolls his eyes and turns around again, listens to you shuffle around as you change.

When he turns back the second time, his heart almost leaps up into his throat. He doesn’t think he’s ever seen something so pretty, so precious, so innocent. His shirt is huge on you; makes you look so small and cute. Eyes so big as they blink up at him, and you look so vulnerable. Like you were done playing the part of a whore for the night and you were yourself again.

He finds himself swallowing hard, “You look…”

“Don’t.” You cover yourself with your arms again. Words can’t explain how much he hates when you do that.

He clears his throat, eyes trailing down your bare legs. Somehow, you’ve managed to change out of your dress without even taking your shoes off. And now you’re standing there teetering in your heels, looking at him with those big eyes of yours.

“Sit.” He orders you again, gently pushing you down to the edge of his bed. Again, he kneels in front of you. His hand on your smooth calf, stroking down before he can stop himself. You squeak again, but this time you don’t stop him. He doesn’t know why sometimes you let him touch you, and other times you don’t. But he’s not one to question it.

Your heels have ribbons that criss-cross around your calves, and he works to untie them. Deliberately slowly. And it’s getting him so hard, despite everything, to be the one taking care of you like this. How you’d huffed and puffed and gone to this party, pretended to be an attention-seeking little slut, all for you to end up in his bedroom anyways.

“You really had to wear these?” He murmurs, although he’s secretly glad you wore such complicated shoes because you’re letting him help you take them off.

“I… I thought I looked pretty in them.”

He feels a growl emanate from somewhere in his throat, remembering all the men who’d been staring at you so brazenly tonight, “You do. That’s the problem.”

Silence. And then:

“Why do you care?” It comes out like a genuine question, rather than a spiteful remark, “I…I saw you kissing that other girl tonight.”

“That was nothing.”

“I see.” 

He wants you to ask him more, maybe show that you’re jealous, that you wished he’d been kissing you instead. But you don’t. 

“She came onto me,” he feels the need to explain, “and she didn’t mean anything to me.”

You nod, “Okay.”

It irritates him, how you’re not at all fazed. When every time he’d seen a man approach you at the party, he’d wanted to throttle them with his bare hands. As for the guy who’d taken you upstairs? He deserved to be shot. Point blank. Maybe the only reason Rafe hadn’t done it was because he didn’t want to traumatise you.

And yet… you don’t seem to care at all. Or maybe you’re too drunk to care. You look so fucking adorable, sitting on his bed in his shirt, letting him undo your heels for you like a good little girl. 

“I didn’t mean anything to you either.” You say it so softly, he almost misses it.

Rafe flinches, “That’s not true.”

“But you said it. You said I was just another Pogue who spread her legs for you.” 

“Yeah? Well, I say a lot of shit I don’t mean.” He slips your heel off, and he can’t help but stroke your dainty, bare foot before moving on to your other shoe.

“That’s what I’ve realised,” you stare somewhere beyond his shoulder, “Everyone keeps saying things they don’t mean. And I keep believing them.”

He glances up at you, “Who are you talking about?”

“My friends. They said they wanted to be friends with me, but they… they haven’t even asked if I’m okay.”

He almost snorts out loud, but stops himself just in time.

“And it’s not just them, or you, it’s everyone. Even this guy I was supposed to do my project with. I thought we were getting along fine, but now he won’t even look at me. He asked to join someone else’s group, so now I have to do it alone.” Your voice breaks, “I don’t even know what I did to make him hate me…”

Rafe clears his throat and looks away for a second, “You can’t count on everyone, baby.” The pet name just slips out naturally, but you don’t even notice.

“I know. I wish college came with a manual, because I keep messing up and trusting the wrong people.”

“You can trust me.”

“No, I can’t.”

“Yes, you can.” He takes his chance, sits up on the bed next to you and grabs your hand, and hurriedly keeps talking, “I know I fucked up but I saved you tonight. That should count for something.”

Your lower lip trembles as you look at your tiny hand in his much larger one, and yet you don’t pull away.

“Y-You confuse me so much, Rafe.”

He could say the same thing about you. But he doesn’t. Because he can’t do words and all that shit. He’s never been good at it and he’d just mess things up even more than he already has. He knows what he is good at. And he knows he shouldn’t do it. And yet...

Rafe presses his lips against yours. Softly. Cautiously. Yet with determination. You don’t respond, and it’s like he wants you to so bad. He can’t stand it. His hand goes up to cup your jaw, thumb gently stroking your cheek. He thinks he feels you sigh, or he could just be imagining it.

“Stop,” you beg against his lips, but you don’t push him away.

“Just let me,”

“Rafe, no–”

“Please.”

He doesn’t give you a chance to pull away. And he knows he shouldn’t, he knows he promised you he wouldn’t try anything tonight and he’s going back on his fucking word but he doesn’t care. He needs this. Needs this more than you know. More than he himself knows. Because kissing you feels like he’s been parched his whole life and you’re the only thing that can quench his goddamned thirst. He can’t let you go. He doesn’t know why but he just can’t.

He pulls you into his lap, and you squeak into his mouth, your little hands grabbing on to his shoulders and it feels so familiar. He increases the pace of the kiss, slowly slipping his tongue into your mouth, and you taste so fucking sweet. He’s missed this so much, despite how he’s only kissed you a handful of times before this but you fit so perfectly on him. Like you were made for him and him only. And he deserves this. He’d saved you.

“I can’t,” you whisper brokenly, “I can’t let you take advantage of me again.”

“I’m not,” he says between desperate kisses, “I promise you I’m not.”

“You-You’ll tell all your friends. And you’ll laugh like how you did before.”

He kisses down your jaw, your neck, your skin so sweet, “I won’t, baby.”

“You’re just using me. Y-You’ve probably made another bet.”

Why can’t he just say it? Why can’t he tell you that all he can ever think about anymore is you? That it makes him sick, the fact that he’d hurt you? That he’d do anything to take that stupid bet back, to get you to look at him how you used to. What the fuck was stopping him from saying it?

But he can’t, so he just keeps kissing you, and hopes you’ll accept it. Hopes you’ll get him, which was wishful thinking, because nobody got him. His hands curl into your hair, pressing you closer to him, and it feels visceral, it feels desperate. And yet, it almost feels unreal, like he’s kissing you on borrowed time, and it would be over soon and he wouldn’t get his fill.

Sure enough, you pull away, “Why are you doing this, Rafe?”

“Because I want to.” He tucks a piece of your hair behind your ear, “And I think you do too.”

You press your lips together, words coming out hushed and shaky, “No one would respect me if I went back to you, knowing how much you lied and everything you said about me.”

“Fuck what everyone else thinks.”

You slip off his lap, “I wouldn’t respect myself.”

He wills himself to say something, anything to reassure you. But nothing comes out. It’s like his mind is frozen, betraying him once again because he’s shitty with words and can’t think of the right thing to say. And it’s getting too much for him… Too emotional, too vulnerable. He can’t.

“You’re thinking about this too much,” he says finally, and his bedroom’s dark except for the dull lamplight, and you look so fucking pretty that he’s in awe.

You sniffle, “M-My mom said I’m not allowed to see you.”

He exhales, “And yet here you are.”

“Here I am,” you echo weakly. “She doesn’t even know I was at the party tonight. I snuck out.” 

He’d figured as much, “She’s kept you in a cage for long enough, don’t you think?”

You shrug, but he can tell you’re mulling over what he’s said.

Rafe pulls you back into his lap, “I don’t care what your mom says. I don’t care what anyone says.” He pauses, the words I like you, I want you to be my girlfriend on the tip of his tongue. But he can’t be vulnerable like that, he just can’t, “You’re mine. And you need to understand that.” 

“I don’t wanna be yours. I want to be my own person.” 

“Shhh,” he kisses you again, “Remember how I said I’d take care of you? It’s because you’re someone who needs taking care of. Your mom’s coddled you all your life, so you have no idea how the real world works. That’s why you need someone like me.”

You swallow, looking up at him with those shining, imploring eyes. You’re so sweet and naive, you don’t even realise how much, “I want to figure out how to take care of myself.” 

“But you can’t. You keep trusting the wrong people and getting yourself hurt.” The irony of his statement isn’t lost on him, but he hopes the alcohol in your system will make you ignore it.

“That’s what my mom says.” 

“Forget about your mother. Let me take care of you. I’ll make all the tough decisions, you won’t even have to think about it.” 

Rafe lays you down on his bed, right in the centre where he knows you won’t scurry away. He hovers on top of you, much like how he did in your tiny bedroom weeks ago. But this time, you’re in his territory. And he has complete control. And maybe, just maybe, you’re drunk enough to trust him again.

He grabs your hand, pressing his much bigger palm against yours, “Look how little you are. You really think you could’ve protected yourself tonight without me?”

You blink up at him with big, dark, sad eyes. Bite your lip like you’re unsure but he thinks it’s so sexy. 

“Mm, that’s what I thought.” He strokes your hand, his thumb grazing his initials on your palm over and over again, “You’re so small and cute, and completely out of your depth. You need me.”

“N-No…”

“Yes.”  He kisses the sensitive skin of your neck, his hands knotting into your hair. You whimper, but you lie there and let him do it. It’s because you want him too. He knows it. And he allows himself to imagine it again. You under his wing, quietly allowing him to make all your decisions for you. Chanel bag on your arm, a dozen more in your closet. All gifts from him, to let everyone know who exactly was taking care of you.

And there’d be no more parties, especially not in the Cut. He wouldn’t allow you to attend them because you were simply too naïve and sweet. He’d take you to drinks at the country club, or maybe to a game of golf. You’d sit pretty in his lap, like a cute little ornament. His little girlfriend that he’d rescued from poverty, his little doll, that he’d dote on and dress up. All his.

“I don’t want that, Rafe. Please stop.” 

YOU DON’T KNOW WHAT YOU WANT! He wants to scream. Sure, he’d wronged you but you were too fucking naïve to understand how he was your best bet right now. That he would take care of you, and no one would ever fuck with you again when you were under his wing, because he’d kill them.

“Just kiss me back,” he whispers against your lips, his hands itching to slip under his shirt you’re wearing. He kisses you again, hoping you sense his urgency, sense how badly he wants you.

“Please stop, I can’t let you, I can’t…”

Rafe huffs in frustration, a few choice words on the tip of his tongue. Stop being such a tease, or you owe me for tonight, or you wouldn’t have agreed to come to my house if you didn’t want this.

But he realises you’re the only girl in the world he doesn’t want to say those things to. He can’t say them, can’t bring himself to utter a single spiteful word despite the fact had it been anyone else, he wouldn’t have hesitated even for a second.

He’s about to pull away when:

“R-Rafe? I… I think I’m gonna…”

He draws back at your abrupt shift in tone. The room’s dark, but he can see you’ve suddenly gone a shade of green. Your chest heaves underneath him, your eyes widening. Realisation dawns on him in a millisecond and he scrambles off you. Pulls you upright, debating whether to point out the bathroom to you. That’s when your whole upper body lurches, your hand going to cover your mouth. Without another thought, he picks you up and carries you into his bathroom himself.

He barely gets you to the toilet in time before you start throwing up. Hunched over the toilet bowl, barely holding your hair back. Letting it all out. And he just stands there and watches, never having been in such a situation before.

“I’m sorry,” you sob drunkenly between heaves, “I’m so sorry, Rafe, this is so rude of me.”

Despite everything that had happened tonight, despite how mad you were at him, here you were apologising to him. It makes him feel it again, that weird feeling in his chest. It comes in waves so strong he’s almost knocked off his feet. Instead, he crouches down behind you, gently holds your hair back.

And it feels so alien, because Rafe hasn’t done this for anyone ever. He wasn’t some pussy ass bitch who went soft on the girls he dated. But this… you… it was different.

“It’s alright,” he hears himself say softly, stroking your hair and rubbing your back. And it almost feels like he’s no longer himself, like he’s someone else. Affection had always felt unnatural to him, like he was putting on an act any time he tried to show it. And so he never did. It was easier to just to have everyone be scared of him.

But this right here, sitting on the gleaming floor of his bathroom with you, it felt… it just felt like something. Something he can’t quite put his finger on, except he likes the feeling. And you look so sweet, so vulnerable. He feels almost a sense of pride, because he’s the one taking care of you right now.

You keep apologising. Even once you’re done throwing up, and he helps you to your feet. Takes you to the sink, lets you clean yourself up. Hell, a part of him wants to sit you down on the marble countertop and clean you up himself. But it seems too… intimate. And Rafe doesn’t really know how to be like that.

“I’m really, really sorry,” you hiccup once he places you back down on his bed. You make a move to get back up, “Just let me go clean it up, I can’t bear that I left your bathroom in such a state–”

“No, don’t.” Rafe gently pushes you back down, and you’re so little and cute and tipsy that you fall right back on your butt, “The maid will clean it tomorrow.”

You blink as if you don’t understand, “But it’s my mess.”

Rafe rubs his temple, “It’s her job. Now get back into bed.” He goes over to his mini-fridge, thanking his lucky stars there’s a bottle of water in there amongst all the beer and other bullshit. “Here.”

Obediently, you gulp the water down like a good girl before carefully setting the bottle on his bedside table. Your makeup’s almost all washed off now, face scrubbed clean and you look so innocent it makes his head hurt. Like there’s so much he wants to say to you but he can’t figure out how to get you to understand him.

He sighs, “You should get some sleep.”

“Where’re you gonna–?”

He nods at his leather armchair on the other end of the room. You look over and swallow.

“Oh, uh, I could sleep on the chair. It’s not right that you have to–”

“It’s fine.”

“No, it’s not. It’s your bed…”

Drunkenly, you try to get to your feet again. It’s amusing, and he gently pushes you back down a second time before grabbing the duvet cover and throwing it over you.

“Go to sleep,” he repeats, ignoring how his heart thrums and that feeling manifests again. That weird, bubbling feeling under the surface of his chest that seemed to appear every time you did something cute or enamouring or sweet. “I’ll drop you home in the morning.”

You’re too inebriated to argue any further, which he’s thankful for. His thoughts feel all jumbled up, like he can’t understand for the life of him how this is the second time he’s had you alone in a bedroom and he hasn’t fucked you. But now, he settles down on his armchair and watches you slowly make yourself comfortable on his sheets. Shuffle around a bit before tucking the covers till your chin.

It doesn’t take you long to knock out. And he just keeps watching you, how sweet you look, how perfectly you fit into his room, his house, his life. And he hates how he can’t completely read you – can’t tell how you feel because you didn’t want him to touch you and yet you’re sleeping on his bed, and not anyone else’s. How you kept saying you wanted to take care of yourself and yet you’d let him take you home tonight, let him change you and tuck you in. Take care of you.

Rafe decides you have no idea what you want. You’re too naïve. Which means it’s his job to teach you. Teach you that you belonged to him, and he wasn’t going to let you go.

He tries to sleep after that. He really does. But the armchair is fucking uncomfortable, and it’s his room. And he’d saved you tonight.

It doesn’t take him long to get back into bed next to you. Gently, he pulls the covers back over you both, his heart skipping a beat when you immediately cuddle into him. It only further affirms that you wanted this — you just don’t know it yet. He runs his hands up and down your body, from your waist, to your ribcage, to your arms. You mumble, shuffle around sleepily, and somehow end up with your head on his chest. 

He kisses the top of your forehead, before allowing himself to fall asleep too.

***

It’s all too soon that he’s woken up to loud, incessant knocking. Rafe swears under his breath, rubbing his eyes and immediately checking his phone. Fuck. It was past noon. The sunlight streams in through the large windows, landing perfectly across your face. It scrunches cutely as the knocking continues, but you’re still asleep.

So fuckin’ pretty, he thinks as he gazes at you, all serene and adorable and still very much in his arms. Slowly, he detangles himself from you, sits on the edge of his bed. His phone’s filled up with texts he’d ignored from the night before.

Topper: Bro, are you okay? People are saying you tried to shoot someone.

Topper: Everyone saw you leaving with the homeschool girl.

Barry: You pull a gun on a guy??? You can’t fucking do that shit.

Barry: You don’t know how dangerous these people can be.

Barry: ??? You’re fucked.

If pulling guns on Pogues meant he was fucked, then Rafe would’ve been fucked a long time ago. But most Pogues were stupid and inept, and so he was not worried. In fact, he fucking dares that punk from yesterday to show his face now. Rafe would murder him for real, and he wouldn’t even need a fucking gun.

The knocking increases, growing louder and more rapid. Rafe swears again, glancing back at you. You shuffle and turn on your side, lips all pouty as you cuddle into his pillow.

He makes his way over to the door, unlocking it only to see Ward staring back at him in disbelief.

“Don’t tell me you’re just waking up now.”

Rafe yawns, but straightens up at the same time, “I was out late.”

Ward blinks, does that think where he exhales loudly through his nose. He does that whenever he feels disappointed, which was all the time whenever Rafe was around him.

“Everyone’s waiting downstairs for you, Rafe.”

Rafe blinks before it dawns on him. The brunch. The business meeting. The random girl he was being set up with.

“Shit, that’s today?”

A beat of silence. Ward looks like he’s about to choke him out, “Well, son, you’ve proven again how you can’t fucking be trusted. With anything.”

Rafe rubs his forehead before running a hand through his hair and looking back at you. He can’t be fucked with this shit right now, not with his headache and the fact you’re in his bed and all this yelling would wake you up.

“I’m sorry.”

“You get your ass down there in five fucking minutes, you hear me?”

Rafe doesn’t think he has it in him, to sit through some fuck ass brunch right now. He glances back at you again. This time, Ward sees and narrows his eyes.

“Don’t tell me you’ve got another hooker in there. Jesus Christ, Rafe. It’s like me talking about this family’s image means nothing to you, the way you bring these hookers into my house in fucking droves.”

“It’s not what you think.”

“No?” Ward looks fucking livid, Rafe wonders how he has the energy to be like this so early in the day, “You think I’m stupid?”

“No.”

“Does it go over your fucking head every time I tell you it’s time for you to stop this bullshit and settle down? People are watching us, Rafe. Potential investors, business partners. They see all this shit, okay? And yet you insist on going around and–”

“She’s my girlfriend.”

“What?”

Rafe coughs, again looking back at you to make sure you’re still sleeping, “Uh, she’s my girlfriend.”

“You have a girlfriend? Since when?”

Rafe doesn’t quite know why he’s just thrown this lie out in his father’s face. Maybe because in his mind, it’s not really even a lie. You weren’t just some random girl, you were his girl – even if you didn’t realise it just yet. Or maybe he’s lied because he wants his father to just take him seriously for once.

“Since a while now.” He clears his throat, “She was out late last night and I went to pick her up.”

“How come I’ve never seen her before?”

“It’s serious so I was trying to keep it under wraps,” lying has always come easily to Rafe, and so he speaks smoothly, quickly gaining traction, “And you’ve seen her. On the security footage. She’s the one I had on the patio.”

Ward nods thoughtfully, “The one in that dress? The cute one?”

A strong wave of irritation courses through Rafe’s body, he takes a few quick, deep breaths to keep it at bay, “Yes.”

There’s another long pause as Ward takes it all in. At one point, he looks beyond Rafe’s shoulder and into the bedroom as if to get a glimpse of you. Rafe’s quick to subtly shut the door and step outside of it. Fuck if anyone else saw you right now.

“Fine. You can skip the brunch. We have a business meeting afterwards though. Join us for that, if you can clean yourself up in time.”

“Yes, sir.”

“And Rafe? I expect a formal introduction with her. If she’s to be a part of this family then you can’t keep her a secret for too long.”

“Okay.”

Rafe breathes a sigh of relief when his father leaves, and he returns to his bedroom, shutting and locking the door behind him.

You’re still lying there, in the middle of his king-sized bed with sunlight dappled all over your face. Completely asleep and so serenely sweet. It makes his heart lurch, but he swallows that feeling quickly.

Your phone’s glowing dimly beside you. He doesn’t hesitate at all, whipping it up to see who exactly was texting you. It’s your mother. Multiple messages. He can’t see what they say without unlocking your phone first, but he can guess she probably wouldn’t be too happy with you right now. In a sick way, the idea of that makes him glad.

And Rafe just sits there on his bed, watching you sleep. Strokes your cheek with his thumb, watches as you lean into his touch. That’s when he consolidates it in his head. After last night, you were his. Completely. And now everyone would know. His family. His friends. Your mother. The whole of fucking Kildare would know you belonged to him. You’d know too. And you’d accept it. He’d make sure of it.

Even if that meant turning you against your mother completely.

A/N: Okay. There we go. Rafe's lie counter is through the roof lmfao - how many times did this man lie throughout this chapter???

Anyways, please PLEASE let me know what you thought of this chapter. Any opinions/predictions/thoughts/ANYTHING. Feedback means the world to me. I'll be honest, I am very very nervous about posting this chapter bc I don't know what people will think of it. Like genuinely. And it's a bit scary. I really did try my best to get this out for you guys as quickly as I possibly could write it. Your feedback would mean the world - so please, if you read this and like it, do also consider dropping a comment or reblog or sending me an ask on what you think!

Also, some questions! You don't have to answer, these are just for fun!

Do YOU think reader could've protected herself at the party if Rafe hadn't been there?

What exactly does Rafe feel for reader after this chapter?

What do you think Ward will think of reader?

Do you think reader will go along with Rafe's plans or keep fighting against him?

ANYWAYS. that's it. i'll try to sleep now. please please let me know what you think. thank you so much for your patience and ily <3