I enjoyed the TADC finale. Did I think it was the best it could have been? No. I think the blog part was too gratuitous and that Caine's return was rushed. But I also think that the pieces fell where they needed to go and that the ending was foreshadowed well through the story, from how I remember it.
I also think that people still not understanding Jax is exactly what Jax was wanting. She never wanted to be liked, she wanted to go and she didn't want to be missed. She's been on the verge of ending it, as I've interpreted it, since the beginning, or at least a pretty long time. Likely due to her mental state in the real world upon entering the circus. She needed to go, and she needed to ensure that no one liked her before she left. I think there were moments when she changed her mind, when she thought that maybe she could handle keeping herself going, but she knew for a long time that she couldn't return to the real world and that staying in the circus was doing more harm than good.
Jax had to abstract. She had been working towards that very goal, likely before Ribbit ever abstracted herself. She pushed Ribbit away to try and make it easier. Pushed Kaufmao and Ragatha away for the same reason. Not every day was bad enough to let go, and then Pomni arrived and she had to hold on a little while longer yet again. I think that Jax abstracting would have happened a lot sooner if Pomni didn't try to reach her, and that even so it would have happened eventually, even if the two of them talked after everything was revealed. The Jax that was scanned in was just at too low of a point, and the circus was too much of a catalyst for anything to be able to get better for her. I think her ending is exactly what she wanted to happen. Alone, with as little mourning as possible. "You weren't supposed to love me."









