I don’t know if anyone cares or remembers but last year I made a kind of aggressive post regarding localtransvamp. People asked what happened but I didn’t wish to talk about it further unless I needed to, and we’ve reached that point.
Last year, localtransvamp and I got into a bit of a heated discussion in the comments of a post. I can’t show them because I didn’t take screenshots at the time, I didn’t feel I needed to, and their account being deactivated means the comments aren’t there anymore to begin with. Apologies for that. The discussion was about how they felt about Janus. I don’t have their direct words because again, I don’t have those comments, but I do have these screenshots of an ask they sent
I tried to explain that all of how they were perceiving Janus wasn’t intentional, and that I didn’t mean for it to come across that way. I’m not proud of it, but I will admit I was being a bit aggressive with them at this point. For a while before this point localtransvamp would send a lot of asks about how I was writing characters and certain actions they would take, to the point where, despite me trying to explain my reasoning, I decided it best to just block them since it didn’t seem like they had any intention of listening and it was genuinely upsetting. Later on someone came along and passed a message to me about how they wanted to apologize for how they acted.
I took this in good faith and unblocked them. I saw no reason to hold anything against them at that point. But that’s why, if anyone saw the discussion, I was coming off rather aggressively because despite the apology and me unblocking them, they had begun to do this again but with Janus. I can’t say 100% that these anons were them, but based on the wording and their interpretation of Janus’ character I believe so. I could be wrong, but this wasn’t the first time they had sent paragraphs about a character acting in an unfavorable way. Their comments went on to be rather aggressive and frantic, and admittedly I could have responded better. But I didn’t. My response was aggressive in return, and I’m not going to try and hide that.
Genuinely, all of the issues they were bringing up about Janus were incredibly unintentional. In no way did I intend to come off as ableist or supportive of any nazi-esque views. I didn’t think I needed to clarify that how my characters acted was not a reflection of me, but they felt differently. They felt I had wrong them in some way.
If I did I genuinely am sorry, that was not my intent. After this point they had blocked me, but this was brought to my attention
By this point I had said nothing more on the matter. I had said nothing publicly about them, or tried to lie about how I acted. Everything(at the time) was in the open. It wasn’t until they brought up Mini Q did I made this post. Again, it’s very aggressive. I’m not proud of it, but I never deleted it because I wasn’t going to hide how I felt. I believe even before the post was made their blog was gone, but all I have is word of mouth from other users so I’m not entirely sure about this.
All of this to leads us to now. I don’t remember how long ago it was now but @commewnity posted some anons bringing it up once again, claiming that I had chased localtransvamp off of tumblr and that I supported everything they claimed. I was frustrated, it ate at me, so I did ask them to remove the posts, even offering to clarify what happened, but received no response.
I did my best to move on from it, they didn’t talk too much about me and I had more important things to worry about.
That is until the other day. A new blog, @salty-commewnity, was brought to my attention and once again they were discussing the above events. I tried not to care, but the blog seem to instead shift focus to talking about how I treat my daughter. It’s pretty well know by this point that I’m very tired. I haven’t gotten much sleep, maybe at most 4-6 hours of very broken sleep, since thanksgiving. So seeing all of this honestly made me angry. I asked again if the posts could be removed, and I’ll admit I was very aggressive about it but please understand this is them speculating on how I treat my daughter, yet I was met with
I don’t know what they’re up to now, but I refuse to sit on this any longer. I know posting this is risky, that they’ll claim I’m sending people to hate on them or something, but I don’t care. I don’t think it’s fair that I have to sit by quietly while people imply that I would ever harm my daughter because I was angry with someone publicly once. View me negatively, unfollow me after reading all this, I don’t care. I don’t want to and I won’t be silent about this. I’m not trying to hide anything. All I want is for things to be clear.
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