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[ofangelsflesh]

Angel's blog 𓏲🪽˚. ˖ . ݁

host alter of a DID system - MDNI/18+ ONLY - likes+follows from @thegraveyardsystem - pfp art by dreamalgia - they/them - aroace/bigender

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This comic only mentions different hallucinations based on sensory modality (which sense it impacts) but there are other ways to categorise hallucinations such as the theme of the hallucination or the severity of the hallucination

Hallucinations don’t only affect schizospec people and can happen to people without a psychotic disorder or any mental illness/condition

[ofangelsflesh]

We've experienced visual, auditory, tactile, olfactory, and proprioceptive hallucinations. It's also interesting to me how some of these can be caused by dissociation too! Like our proprioceptive hallucinations. I suppose it has something to do with the disconnect from reality from both of them.

[schizopositivity]

Happy pride to everyone who is schizo-spec/psychotic and lgbtqia+ !!!

We are real. Our mental illness doesn't invalidate our identity. Our identities aren't the reason we are mentally ill.

We are a crucial part of both communities and we are a tough ass group of people.

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[mollybeenoel]

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[ofangelsflesh]

Hmm I'm in the mood for some.. *FLASHBACK FLASHBACK FLASHBACK* *BAD MEMORY BAD MEMORY* *THE EVIL GUYS WHO DID EVIL THINGS TO YOU AND MADE YOU FEEL LIKE IT WAS YOUR FAULT* oh nevermind I will actually just be using this time to curse your family lineage instead.

[ofangelsflesh]

Okay I've been around for a while as a fragment, then became more developed around our earlier highschool years, and now I'm host + have been for a couple years. One of my biggest fears as far a systemhood goes is going dormant. I'm terrified to also be replaced by another host.

If me and clover weren't as close as we are or didn't get along as well as we do I think I would've gone back into denial after they started becoming a co host. Maybe it's an irrational fear but I still have it. I just hope it doesn't happen.

[ofangelsflesh]

feeling bad and the feed of pretty fictional character edits hit, suddenly the function is not so sad.

[ofangelsflesh]

I'm usually the guy who fronts when it's time for therapy, I usually advocate for us the most as host, it's one of my bigger responsibilities/jobs in system.

However, I'm worried I might be suppressing the others still. I know sometimes I'm not the one fronting but they still try to mask around our therapist by acting like I would. I'm worried I might've hurt our system more than I thought by previously suppressing alters.

Our therapist knows we're a system, she's the one who diagnosed us. But still.

I want them to feel comfortable telling our therapist that they aren't me, but I know we have dealt with some different/unkind treatment from doing things like that as a kid. Even unkind treatment from me later down the line.

I know unmasking takes time, I'm willing to be patient, but does anyone have advice for aiding in said process? I don't want to accidentally contribute to our collective masking around safe individuals.

[dozydawn]

[memorygirls-deactivated20250816]

[ofangelsflesh]

I've heard people talk about not feeling like your hands/arms are yours because of dissociation. I have experienced that several times but. What about the dissociative experience of not feeling like your feet are your own. Because that just happened and it was weirder to me than the hand stuff.

[dozydawn]

[caleod]

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