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&&. LEIA

walking into one of the common areas on base with the intent of scrounging up some food, her path is interrupted when she spied a familiar face in the crowd of strangers milling around for supplies. it took her a second to place her, memory searching for a name that fit. deathstar. plan. death.

jyn erso.

the resistance was really reaching into the archives. leia’s eyes dipped down, and she focused on grabbing a ration pack, debating whether it would be odd to approach erso. sacrifice that allowed for the success of her mission- what does one say to someone who gave up so much? 

she chanced another look and this time, erso’s eyes met her own. leia mustered a gentle smile (chagrin present in her eyes from having been caught). she gestured to a nearby empty table, perfect for the two to sit at- if the other felt so inclined.

she’d met eyes with another who seemed to have a sense of importance to her - - though not obnoxious or overbearing. and she did look familiar which set her nerves at rest although jyn kept her wits about her as always. once the other motioned to an empty table, jyn hesitated before taking the cue and taking a seat and waiting for the other to join. the woman reminded her of that kid... luke, she remembered. a sweet guy, but she didn’t know much about his or his family. if her assumption was correct, this was likely his sister which he’d thanked her for indirectly reuniting him with. ❝ can i help you? ❞ jyn asked - - not in annoyance or anything close, but genuine curiosity. 

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&&. CASSIAN

their shared trauma seemed to only have brought them closer. he supposed near death could have that effect. it made sense, in a way. there was something no one could ever understand that they did. it was nice to have someone that… he didn’t even have to say anything. he knew she understood. he wanted this. they deserved this. he let out a breathy laugh at her comment, smiling, eyes meeting hers, “not if this is the reaction i get from teasing,” he comment back, closing the gap to kiss her briefly, pulling away to look at her, embrace this. 

this was incredibly vulnerable and soft in terms of their relationship thus far. it was a welcomed change - - just one she needed to familiarize herself with. of course, that wouldn’t be hard to do. jyn already felt more than comfortable in his arms and she now found herself craving the taste of his lips. kriff, he was making her so soft. face remaining close to his, jyn observed each stretch of his lips and gleam of his eyes to drink it all it. and just as she was about to reply to him, cassian’s lips ere pressed against his just briefly before he pulled away to look down at her whose grin had only widened. she really shouldn’t be allowing this given his injuries, but they were both adults. she wasn’t going to baby him. ❝ i’ll stop trying to be your nurse then... do me a favor and try not to move around too much. ❞

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&&. CASSIAN

cassian liked this. he really liked this. he couldn’t help but wish he hadn’t been so standoffish before… that they could have had more time. if you could count a couple of days that is. not that it mattered now. this was… this was what they would be doing. at least for the time being. he could soak this in. he smiled some when she repeated him, “oh clearly you’re not worried. is that why you keep asking if things hurt me” he teased some, carefully wrapping an arm around her to pull her a bit closer. 

jyn started to think about how quickly the was happening, but in actuality, it had been a long time coming. they were holding back previously. they had to. and it was good that the both of them had this new sense of emboldenment that allowed them to act on their desires right now because jyn didn’t think she could play another waiting game with cassian. she grinned at his tease - - the tip of her nose just grazing against his. ❝ alright, maybe i’m a bit worried. even when you’re so beat up, you never stop teasing do you? ❞ jyn smirked, pressing close to him. 

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@hopefulrebelle

jyn hadn’t gathered the courage to go and research everything that had happened since her rogue one mission in scarif. she knew it was successful, but to what extent? how many people had lost their lives as a result? jyn was a strong person and knew how to conceal her emotions, but everything began to weigh on her more heavily than anything right now. cassian was here, which was nice, but not even his relieving presence erased her guilt. jyn tended to stay around the base these days, and that was where she was right now as she gathered some water to take back to her bunk. canteens in hand, a woman caught her eye. just casually of course, but she looked just like that boy who had told her about the fleet he’d named after her. 

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@eisleyvera @mvrvjvdes

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CARING FOR STUBBORN MUSES. for when the person you’re trying to care for insists they don’t need your help.

parismemes​:

“at least let me clean the wound!” “you’ll be even worse off if you don’t let me bandage this.” “i really think you need to see a doctor.” “i made you some soup, and i’m going to sit here until you eat it. i can wait.” “your feelings matter too! i can’t help you if i don’t even know what’s making you upset!” “..i’m here if you need anything, okay?” “stop trying to push yourself! you can’t do this on your own!” “listen, i know you don’t want to, but.. maybe you should rest for a while. you’re not going to get anywhere like this.” “i’ll make you a deal: i’ll just get you some bandages, and nothing else, and you stop making a fuss over it.” “how long has it last been since you slept?” “have you even been taking your medicine?” “i know you think you have to get through this by yourself, but you have people here to help you.” “let me take care of you, for once.” “you’re gonna hurt yourself even more if you do stupid things like that!” “i hate to break it to you, but you’re not supposed to do any strenuous physical activity for the next couple weeks, and if i have to personally make sure you don’t every waking hour of the day then i’m fully prepared to do that.” “it’s okay to cry in front of me, you know. you don’t have to carry this alone.” “stop trying to act like you’re not bleeding out in front of me!! this is serious!” “listen, asshole. i’m gonna carry you home whether you like it or not. you’re not in any condition to get there yourself.” “oh my god, why didn’t you tell me it was this bad?!”

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&&. CASSIAN

he chuckled at her comment, nodding, too tired to really respond. he knew she knew he did, there was no point in continuing to reassure her. he’d do that with something else later. something that was new to have.. the thought of there actually being a later. cassian smiled some, leaning forward to kiss her briefly before laying back, a heavy breath releasing. he was surprised he was doing this… that he hadn’t panicked or– something but no. he was happy and relaxed. “you don’t need to worry though. there’s nothing to worry about, erso.” 

jyn kissed him back, smiling tiredly as she watched him lay back down in bed. it was a nice sight - - him in her bed. she couldn’t say that she hasn’t thought about this before, but they were definitely in different circumstances. cassian had a long day to say the least, so jyn just wanted to disturb him as little as possible. ❝ erso? ❞ she chuckled, laying beside him and getting comfortable. ❝ i’m not worried, andor. ❞ and she wasn’t. well... she was worried about his injuries and the state of the galaxy, but jyn was more calm than she was when she first saw how torn up cassian was. ❝ tell me if i hurt you. ❞

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&&. BODHI

Bodhi’s eyes went wide again as Jyn spoke. He was so confused about everything. First, how were they both here? How had they gotten from Scarif to Coruscant? Not only that but how had they ended up in the future? Someone had to have answers. People didn’t just transport from one planet and time to another. Second, what did she mean? Why was she apologizing? As soon as she began, Bodhi shook his head. 

“No.” He responded firmly, “W-why are… Don’t. You have nothing to be sorry for.” Bodhi shook his head again. He couldn’t understand. Why would she say sorry? She and the rest of Rogue One had done nothing but help him. They had freed him from Saw Gurerra, helped him deliver Galen’s message, given him so much more purpose than he’d ever had before. Although they had only known each other for a short time, he had so much to thank Jyn for. He couldn’t think of anything she could have done wrong. “No, You… you helped me, you saved me Jyn. I… If anything, you deserved more. You and Cassian and K2 and…” Bodhi paused mid-sentence, suddenly realizing something important.

“You’re here.” He stated, looking around and then back at Jyn. “Are… are the others? Have you seen any of them?”

she had everything to be sorry for. their mission was successful, but bodhi and many others had died because of her plan. while she was eternally grateful, jyn knew that if it wasn’t for her, they may have lived... then again, if they hadn’t done what they had to, who knows where the galaxies would be? while she was still unsure of just how they had gotten here, jyn knew there was more at stake. there was a looming threat that couldn’t be shaken, and more and more dangers were piling on. 

❝ cassian’s here- ❞ she started, feeling a pain in her chest at the mention of the others. it was just her and cassian... and now bodhi. maybe more would come with time, but jyn was an impatient person and wanted to see all those faces she was so grateful to. ❝ that’s it though. it’s only cassian and i for now. ❞ for now. jyn would hold out hope for as long as she could for the rest. ❝ i’m here though. we both are... ❞ bodhi seemed shaken... she was too when she first arrived, but bodhi likely had more he was dealing with given his past. she wouldn’t press on about that, but she did want to make him feel comfortable in this situation. as comfortable as he could be at least. ❝ maybe we should find cassian? it might be good for you to see him too... we’ll talk thing over. ❞

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👌 -- cassian

jyn // cassian headcanon: jyn could still remember the vivid orange and yellows in the scarif sky. the violent explosion hurdling towards them while the two of them held each other tightly in their arms - - all their friends already gone and free of suffering. they did what they to, but jyn still wept... both out of relief that they furthered the resistance, but also because she wished that she could have more time with him. of course neither of them knew that they would have this second chance in coruscant, but in the moment, she was terrified of what awaited them. terrified of whether or not her and cassian would meet again. the air became hotter and hotter by the second and she could hear the grumbling of the rising wave forming. they were out of time. she didn’t even have enough time to give him their first and last kiss, but jyn pressed her lips to his shoulder - - not knowing if he would even realize, but it was enough to make her feel a fraction better about not being able to properly love him. 

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“Have you seen my hoodie?” “Nooo.” “You’re wearing it, aren’t you?” (cassian)

❝ this? no, this is definitely mine- ❞ she argued, though unable to conceal her grin at the obvious lie. that sweatshirt was about four sizes too large on her and the sleeves were far longer than her arms. that, and it smelled distinctively of cassian... comforting and warm. it was why jyn loved wearing it in the first place. she laid in their bed, looking up at him with that same grin, though softened slightly. ❝ suppose you’ll have to take it off of me if you want it back. ❞

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👌 -- bo

jyn // bo headcanon: jyn isn’t really one to get close to people. kriff, it took death for her to finally reveal how she felt for cassian, and that was just by her actions and not words. jyn liked bo though. they may have had a rocky start, but the woman was strong. confident, and intelligent. jyn truly enjoyed her company too - - whether the two were discussing recent events, predicting who will do what next, or just speaking about their day. often times, she would meet bo at that cantina they met at to just sit and have a drink of two. the silence wasn’t awkward between them at all. they just sit and enjoy the other’s company. 

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“Is that blood?”

jyn furrowed her brows in slight confusion before glancing down at her shirt which had a few blood stains on it. ❝ oh... yes, just a bit, ❞ she noted, wiping at her shirt at if that was going to do anything. ❝ it’s nothing, don’t worry about it... not mine. ❞ and it wasn’t. cassian arrived with quite the injuries, so the stains were just a product of jyn assisting him. ❝ that a bruise near your mouth? why don’t we talk about that, who did that to you? ❞

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“YOU SAID TO BE HONEST STOP HITTING ME!”

❝ not that honest! ❞ she shouted back, administering another punch to bo’s shoulder before that pout of hers returned. yeah, the sentiment was true, but bo didn’t have to say it! ❝ i-... i know my teeth are big, you don’t have to bring it up! ❞ she crossed her arms over her chest, glaring a bit at the taller woman. ❝ and i can kiss just fine. ❞

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JYN ERSO &. CASSIAN ANDOR // WELCOME HOME

⌜   APOCALYPSE.   ⌟ CIGARETTES AFTER SEX ✧   ⌜   I LOVE YOU.   ⌟ BILLIE EILISH ✧   ⌜   ONLY ONES WHO KNOW.   ⌟ ARCTIC MONKEYS ✧   ⌜   FADE INTO YOU.   ⌟ MAZZY STAR ✧   ⌜   DREAMING OF YOU.   ⌟ CIGARETTES AFTER SEX ✧   ⌜   I WANT YOU.   ⌟ THE BEATLES ✧   ⌜   R U MINE?.   ⌟ ARCTIC MONKEYS ✧   ⌜   CHERRY.   ⌟ LANA DEL REY ✧   ⌜   DELICATE.   ⌟ TAYLOR SWIFT ✧   ⌜   WHEN WE WERE YOUNG.   ⌟ ADELE ✧   ⌜   FLIGHTLESS BIRD, AMERICAN MOUTH.   ⌟ IRON & WINE ✧   ⌜   ROBBERS.   ⌟ THE 1975 ✧   ⌜   TEENAGE BLUE.   ⌟ DREAMGIRL ✧   ⌜   GET BACK IN LINE.   ⌟ THE KINKS ✧   ⌜   SOMEBODY TO DIE FOR.   ⌟ HURTS ✧   ⌜   TRUST GOES BOTH WAYS.   ⌟ MICHAEL GIACCHINO ✧   ⌜   BORN TO DIE.   ⌟ LANA DEL REY ✧   ⌜   NEVER LET ME GO.   ⌟ FLORENCE + THE MACHINE ✧   ⌜   RESISTANCE.   ⌟ MUSE ✧   ⌜   THE CURE.   ⌟ LADY GAGA ✧   ⌜   NEUTRON STAR COLLISION.   ⌟ MUSE ✧   ⌜   REBEL REBEL.   ⌟ DAVID BOWIE ✧   ⌜   KNOCKIN' ON HEAVEN'S DOOR.   ⌟ BOB DYLAN ✧   ⌜   ONLY THE GOOD DIE YOUNG.   ⌟ BILLY JOEL ✧

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&&. CASSIAN

cassian smiled some when she finished, reaching to take her hand when she was finished, intertwining their fingers together. “but i like you more than the nurses. so i’d prefer this,” mumbled to her. he shifted some to face her, wanting to take in her as much as he could. savor this, fearing iit was fleeting. 

shrugging, he chuckled, “i;m okay, on both fronts. you don’t need to be so worried,” he teased, smiling some, “i just want to stay here, with you.” 

❝ well i hope you like me more than those nurses, ❞ she grinned, settling beside him and keeping a hold of his hand. jyn had to remind herself that they had time now. they didn’t have to forgo their small touches and gentle kisses in order to go out and fight kriff knows what this time around. it was nice... new, but nice. maybe it would take a bit of time to completely acclimate to all of this though. while his words were touching, how could she not worry? his injuries were serious, and jyn knew that she’d never forgive herself if something happened as a result of her not getting him real help. but she trusts that cassian knew himself well enough she supposed... ❝ fine... and i want to stay here with you too. ❞ cassian’s chest was still bare - - his shirt laying to the side of the bed. now that she was finished with his bandages, she realized that this was the most intimate they’d been although they weren’t really doing much. there was a mutual trust and vulnerability between them that she savored. ❝ i do worry about you though... i want to be sure you’re okay. ❞