gold guns girls

madeline. 25. good at the internet, bad at adulthood.

[ohhhmadeline]

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[jclyn]

[undocupop]

I’m the girl

[jillsteinfuneralcity]

if u up

post an incredibly specific meme from your city/town/area

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[colinmcraerally]

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[thrash-bandicoot]

☝️

[ohhhmadeline]

pretty sure the wonka one is about the town where Making a Murderer takes place. this is the intersection of mine and Pete’s interests.

[thetenderpassion]

[mainmanblackdynamite-deactivate]

Put this in the history books

[ohhhmadeline]

i truly love this

[drilalbums]

Drake - Take Care

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[ohhhmadeline]

I remember when Pete reblogged this and I laughed so hard and kept talking about it to my then-gf and she was like “that’s not funny at all.” Now she’s engaged to the girl who dumped me for and this is still extremely funny. In conclusion, I’m always right.

[unflavoredwaxedfloss20]

[ohhhmadeline]

oh my GOD

[ohhhmadeline]

With respect to cancer survivors, I tend to think of my eating disorder as in remission. “Recovered” has such a finality to it, and “in recovery” suggests that I’m in treatment of some kind. My father has a benign brain tumor, and he has to get an MRI every six months to make sure it isn’t growing. I have an eating disorder and I have to do constant upkeep to keep it at bay.

Here is where it lives, now: in the tiny spaces between my ribs, in the very very back of my brain under some blankets and dirty laundry. I do not count calories and I keep my food down and I try to eat normal, balanced meals. 

Sometimes I’m broke or sad or terrified, and lately, since I moved out here, I’ve been a lot of all three. I do well with routine and I do not have that yet. Maybe this is why my appetite is so small. 

It is extremely hard for me to eat for the sake of eating, which is a convoluted way to say for my health. An eating disorder is simultaneously the mark of a deep self-hatred and an extraordinary narcissism. Other people deserve food, but I do not; other people need food to survive, but I do not. 

There are so many little things that can get in the way, and all of the sudden it’s 4pm and I’ve eaten a sum total of one Cliff bar and I’m crying on the bus because my life seems unmanageable. Logically, I know I need to eat something, but I don’t really believe it, and this is how it creeps up.

It’s hard to explain because I don’t feel like I need or even want to lose weight. It’s just that it’s been ten years and these behaviors are hard-wired into my brain. I don’t remember not having them. 

It’s so hard to pull myself out of it. I’ve spent most of today at home and I had some leftover Chinese food at noon and for the last three hours I’ve been willing myself to eat something else. I haven’t moved. 

I can’t explain it to myself. I can’t explain it at all. 

[steampunktendencies]

Snowy Victorian Houses

[ohhhmadeline]

this made me EXTREMELY NOSTALGIC FOR THE PIONEER VALLEY

[plannedparenthood]

Sex education should include all genders and sexual orientations. We’re partnering with Advocates for Youth, Answer, GLSEN, HRC & SIECUS to call for sex ed that’s LGBTQ-inclusive.

 Re-blog if you support equal sex ed!

[ohhhmadeline]

Angelica Schuyler: And I realize, three fundamental truths at the exact same time

Angelica Schuyler: First, Alexander was a vampire. Second, there was part of him - and I didn't know how potent that part might be - that thirsted for my blood. And third, I was unconditionally and irrevocably in love with him.

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[ponyregrets]

Hard same, AV Club

[ohhhmadeline]

tumblr so lame now but idk where else to write

I’m in California and I’ve been here over a month. The list of things I need to do to make this place my home is so, so long. I need to find an apartment for January, but I also need to buy a pair of shorts to wear to run. I signed hiring papers for work today but I can’t go sign up for my background check until Monday because it costs $75 and I don’t have that until tomorrow. It’s a lot of that kind of stuff. I try to stay organized, not overwhelmed. Traditionally, this is not my strong suit.

Still: it’s warm here and I walk a lot. I can get to Carly in a twenty-minute walk and Genevieve in a twenty-minute bus ride. Everyone made me terrified of moving here without a car, but I’m not finding it any worse than getting around Boston, and snowstorms will almost definitely not shut down any trains or buses. I’m seeing a lot of the city. It is another country over here, maybe another planet. I walk around every day in near-shock at all these people just living over here, like it’s normal. 

Also, I have a weed card and it’s fucking sick. Everyone should move here.

[startrekdeepspacenine]

why ask a trans person their birth name when you could:

not do that

[ohhhmadeline]

this is one of those things that blows my mind that people do because a) if you are really that interested wait until your friendship/relationship with someone develops and it will probably come up naturally at some point b) if you don’t become closer with this person then why do you think you deserve this information c) who fucking cares, at best it’s information that will make you go “huh” and then you will move on and d) idk I just cannot fathom how people can be so tone-deaf about what is almost definitely a sensitive, potentially triggering subject for people I mean jesus christ this is not that hard

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[ohhhmadeline]

my prince