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° Stay a little ° Stay a while ° I don't mind ° M ¦ 22 ¦ Leo ¦ Welsh born ¦ Spanish raised ¦ 📍UK ¦ Over grown emo ¦ Alternative ¦ Wannabe hippy ¦ stoner ¦ psychedelic enthusiast ¦ Some NSFW content (18+) ¦ Feel free to message me ¦ Generally just looking for friends 😭 ~🏴󠁧󠁢󠁷󠁬󠁳󠁿🇪🇸🇬🇧~ (new around here🤙🏼)

[ohnoicantstoptumbling]

Over grown emo.

After 9 years of having long hair, I cut it all off at the start of November. I absolutely hate me with short hair so I'm happy to see the length coming back through 😊

[ohnoicantstoptumbling]

I guess I feel like a little vent for once..

I am in a disgustingly bad place mentally. Theres friends I haven't spoke to for months, shit that I need to deal with, but I feel I can't. Idk how much longer I have left. The past couple months have absolutely fucked me, idk how much I can take it's making me feel worthless and out of place. I am not myself at all, and idk how to bring that back. Dad's birthday is coming up and his death traumatised me so much, I've been having panic attack after panic attack and having to suppress them around people but that just makes em worse when they do come on.

I just don't know what to do anymore, I don't feel worth living. I don't feel worth anything. I am literally in the worst position I've ever been in, and that's a phrase I keep saying and each time it's worse than the last. I didn't know I could feel sadness and depression like this.

[ohnoicantstoptumbling]

I have been quite truly very depressed recently.

[femmeholograms]

every day that I go unkissed is a tragedy actually

[blackvelvetofnight]

love when creatures sniff your hand and are like. ah understood

[log6]

the 5 love languages are:

- Sharing a blunt

- All forms of cooking

- Being incredibly stupid on purpose

- Collaborative hating

- Ignoring things

[greyriver]

gonna smoke my problems away

one joint at a time

[justgoghawaypls]

dude i just wanna be kissed

[a-lover-of-life-ameli-deactivat]

ʸᵉᵃʰ ʲᵘˢᵗ ᶜᵒᵐᵉ ᵒᵛᵉʳ ᵃⁿᵈ ᵐᵃᵏᵉ ᵒᵘᵗ ʷⁱᵗʰ ᵐᵉ ᵗʰᵃⁿᵏˢ

[rxtton-deactivated20250310]

i would die for one crumb of intimacy rn

[m00n-k1tty]

Cred: @batsyhead on insta

[xxxdirectorxxx]

Girls who masturbate in front of you are angels.

[soulmeetsworld]

plot twist: she’s a very freaky girl that you can bring home to momma

[void-flesh]

Bob Vylan is UK grime punk and I need more ppl to get into them immediately so they come tour the US.

[icecreamheadachez]

wtf was in the air in 2010-2013 that made metalcore so fucking good???????

[ohnoicantstoptumbling]

Throw back to when life was perfect. Feeling particularly nostalgic about being raised in Spain, missing those that are still there, and those that unfortunately are only there in spirit.

I never got to give Tony a proper good bye as he died while I was back living in England, but he was like a father figure to me, riding me around Sierra Cabrera. Will never forget those memories.

"El maestro de los caballos"

"The master of the horses"

27/07/44---21/11/15

[ohnoicantstoptumbling]

TW: depression rant

Life got me feeling down. I just want to escape. Nothing feels right anymore and I just wanna start again, from scratch. I have no freedom, no space to myself, dunno how much more I can take before I break.

I go up n down with feeling depressed cus life ain't the worst but it ain't the best, but all I know is I for sure feel numb af right now.

I keep craving getting obliterated drinking or go out and get drugs that I've not taken for years n get absolutely fucked up. Surely this isn't all life has to offer.

I don't wanna die, nor do I wanna hurt myself, I just really don't wanna live this life the way am living it. I had so many aspirations and things going on in life and one by one I watch as they shatter into a million tiny specs fluttering down. It makes pushing through difficult, and I can already hear the "we all wanna see you succeed" or whatever other words of encouragement but like, I don't mean to disregard any of it but I've heard it all before, and felt it all before, the shattered specs of aspirations are just forking a layer of dust on life making it hazy and difficult to navigate.

I'm currently jobless and going through a rough breakup that's been going on for the past 2 months and it feels like this part of my life is never going to end. I just want released. I want my life back. I forgot how to be me, how to have fun, how to experience life.

I just want to be me

Side note. Here's a nice picture from a walk I went on the other day. Probably the highlight of the past few days..