today, i called out of work for the first time in months. i had just started this job a few months ago, and i'd been determined to do the best that i can for as long as i can. today, i feel like i broke that streak by calling out. i have been struggling to keep up with my new job. the environment is so different than i'm used to. more and more people act like things are "not my problem". there is way more stimulation than i'm used to. i am having a hard time balancing just "doing my job" vs "going the extra mile" because i know no matter what i do, i won't always be seen for my hard work and my good intentions. i'm not used to working with people who hold individualistic, independent, "American" attitudes. i miss working my old job where i worked with mainly immigrants, who held a community oriented mindset. i know that i need to get used to how Americans work, but i am afraid i won't be able to keep up. it's exhausting to work the way i do, and having people around me act like i'm giving them a million dollars when i'm just doing simple favors for them.
