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Great stories are like stars, they always shine

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As a man knows more about this world, as his ignorance fades and replaced with wonders, he will immerse himself in all the mystery of the universe. And there will be a moment when all things as ordinary as it may seem will be filled with wonders. I have been shaken by this universe a thousand times and like any other mankind, my moment has come. This is the turning point of my life and in this moment I feel uneasy and scared. Scared that it kills me day and night. I am completely clueless about the path that I’m taking and I’m not even sure where I am going. My heart cries every day, it can fill a whole ocean just with my tears and sorrow.  The pain I’m suffering right now, although may appear as a weakness, is indeed my true strength. Because I want to get rid of it so much that I’ll do my best to relieve myself from it.

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Don’t look at my body

Rather, look at my eyes

Did you see it?

My heart?

Because that’s where you are.

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Invisible Mountain

One day, a moment will come when you thought your breathing stops because you are suffocated with the goals that you once thought are your happiness. When this time comes, I hope that you have the courage to lift your feet from the ground and continue to walk the path that is ahead of you.

The recent events in my life made me realized that as people change over the years, everything around him also changes. Not just the physical appearance, but also his heart, soul, and dreams. Things continue to change, reset and like the famous cliché nothing is permanent. In school, one of the first questions that commonly asked to children is what their dreams are when they get old. Each student has different answers. One wants to be a teacher, the other one wants to be a doctor and some wants to be like their parents. Then, years will pass and the doctors wanna-be will turn out to be teachers and the teachers wanna-be will turn out to be something else. For nothing is permanent, even goals and dreams change.

It is the reason why I want you to get rid of the agony you have right now if you feeling down because you keep on failing on something you think you have to pursue. I once heard from a motivational talk show that we are all prison of our minds, so often when we think of something we want to be and don’t end up to be that person we feel miserable. So, don’t be. Let me share this with you --- there is a beauty in change and that is flexibility. Don’t get stuck climbing only one mountain, but rather be an adventurer and explore the world. Let the world communicate to you and help you realize who, where and what you really want to be.

Sometimes dreams are not really the physical things, but rather what makes us happy. I’m sure you have heard, read or know someone that is successful, but lonely. Despite the shine of his career, that person is lonely and unhappy. He makes himself busy earning money every single day, or that person probably read every book he can to be smart and ignore every little occasion with his loved ones just because he is too busy. So on that top of the mountain, he is a winner, but standing alone. And sustained loneliness kills. It kills every part of you.

Let me tell you something I’ve learned about “goal” over a couple of years of my existence. Goal is not a career, fame, or anything else. Goal is like an ecstasy, it gives you the unexplained feeling of bliss. Remember the feeling when you had when you were first asked what your dream was when you were young. Your goal is not what you answered, but rather it is the feeling you had when you first thought of it. The desire and fire inside you. Because a man’s goal is to be happy regardless of his job, status, and situation. That is our goal. To enjoy life.

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You shall not be fooled by fake beauty, 

look deeper in the eyes

the soul and heart

for there you will find the beauty that is hard to find.

As precious as gold, shining under the hit of sun

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Once I was alone, but you let me open myself to you and you dig into my heart. From then, the walls have been broken and I’m laying naked in your eyes.

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My existence is always a mystery.For I’ve walked a thousand miles and still searching for an answer.  I know, I was not made to just sit down and watch the world. I’m here to chase the part of me that was broken and scattered.

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Life is a madness.

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Sometimes I wonder about you The smile that curves on your face Your heat that melts my heart And the touch that warms my body.

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Loving you hurts me. But leaving you is the worst pain of all.

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One day, you’ll understand. Those sleepless nights. The hunger and thirst. Of the unspoken dream. That hunts you day and night.

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I hate my failures and it’s honestly driving me crazy but I always remind myself, it’s okay to try and fail. Than, not even trying at all.

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I’ve been used to how I exist in this world.So used that little by little I’m losing myself.

Is this what you get when you refrain from following your dreams?

Dreams that have been hunting you since the first time you lose innocence.

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When fear kicks your butt, the only way to escape it, is to fart.

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When I suddenly forgot who I am and walked in that room feeling like a superstar.

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Those sleepless nights of mine. Those things that playing around my crazy-little mind. I know what caused it. It's my DREAM hunting me.