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[oldventthung985]

how to fix the neverending cold within me

[oldventthung985]

so it turns out no one likes you if you are just fucking miserable all the time

[oldventthung985]

there's probably a deeply repressed reason i feel the need to make so many blogs and keep resetting my past.... eh idk

[universeleads]

Having a fixation and special interest on a topic that's not a piece of media and is also a real problem that affects people means that talking about your interest is a very very delicate thing. My number 1 topic under the psychology umbrella that I like to research and study and am planning on doing my thesis on is eating disorders. But I really can't say things like "I've been thinking a lot about eating disorders recently" (people will be concerned), or "does anyone want to hear a statistic I just learned about purging disorders" (people usually don't) or "I've been really into restrictive tendencies in religious psychosis lately" (you just can't be saying that at the social function)

[universeleads]

Bringing this back because I just had a horribly stressful busy day and I finally got to sit down and scroll through research articles about eating disorder treatments (which is my way of transitioning from work to home and relaxing into my bedtime routine) and I almost went to post "save me eating disorders. Save me". GIRL YOU ABSOLUTELY CANNOT BE SAYING THINGS LIKE THAT PLEASE

[oldventthung985]

hey so i'm normal now ❤️

[oldventthung985]

i never learn from my mistakes bc tell me why i keep getting on packed trains despite hating physical touch :)

[maxxie-or-smth]

i was crazy back then (8 minutes ago)

[depsidase]

[oldventthung985]

why do i feel like i'm always in wait of something

[wiki-but-made-them-up]

[oldventthung985]

i wonder what it's like to be comfortable in your own body

[oldventthung985]

no thanks. i choose my own destiny

[oldventthung985]

fun weekend activity: tie your self worth to numbers on a screen

[oldventthung985]

hey so how do i deal with the constant fear and awareness that I'm forgetting something?

it's driving me insane actually. i cant sleep im forgetting it!!!!

[gelphienation]

I mean surely we all grew up feeling like there was a wrongness inherently deep inside us that will endure for the rest of our lives

[greenmossloveisreal1998iloveyou]

hi

[greenmossloveisreal1998iloveyou]

actually i want to be alone rn

[greenmossloveisreal1998iloveyou]

no i dont... hi

[greenmossloveisreal1998iloveyou]

i think i might need to be on my own rn

[oldventthung985]