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[onesmallenby]

in the words of jean valjean in the song “bring him home” from the musical adaptation of victor hugo’s novel les miserables: “if i die, let me die”

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[onesmallenby]

i’m gonna be SICK (positive)

[onesmallenby]

i am frothing at the fucking mouth WE USED TO PRAY FOR TIMES LIKE THIS

[reasonsforhope]

By the way, you can improve your executive function. You can literally build it like a muscle.

Yes, even if you're neurodivergent. I don't have ADHD, but it is allegedly a thing with ADHD as well. And I am autistic, and after a bunch of nerve damage (severe enough that I was basically housebound for 6 months), I had to completely rebuild my ability to get my brain to Do Things from what felt like nearly scratch.

This is specifically from ADDitude magazine, so written specifically for ADHD (and while focused in large part on kids, also definitely includes adults and adult activities):

How to Sharpen Executive Functions: Activities to Hone Brain Skills

Executive functioning skills range from working memory to cognitive flexibility to inhibitory control, and beyond. They power our daily func

Here's a link on this for autism (though as an editor wow did that title need an editor lol):

Enhancing Executive Functioning Difficulties in Adults with Autism

Practical Strategies for Enhancing Executive Functioning Difficulties in Adults With Autism - Living with Autism Spectrum Disorder (ASD) as

Resources on this aren't great because they're mainly aimed at neurotypical therapists or parents of neurdivergent children. There's worksheets you can do that help a lot too or thought work you can do to sort of build the neuro-infrastructure for tasks.

But a lot of the stuff is just like. fun. Pulling from both the first article and my own experience:

Play games or video games where you have to make a lot of decisions. Literally go make a ton of picrews or do online dress-up dolls if you like. It helped me.

Art, especially forms of art that require patience, planning ahead, or in contrast improvisation

Listening to longform storytelling without visuals, e.g. just listening regularly to audiobooks or narrative podcasts, etc.

Meditation

Martial arts

Sports in general

Board games like chess or Catan (I actually found a big list of what board games are good for building what executive functioning skills here)

Woodworking

Cooking

If you're bad at time management play games or video games with a bunch of timers

Things can be easier. You do not have to be stuck forever.

[mtndewbajablast]

“i’m autistic” = 👍

“i’m a little autistic” = mark of the beast for annoying people

[mtndewbajablast]

“touch of the ‘tism” = punishable offense

[mtndewbajablast]

cartel style execution

[onesmallenby]

“neurosparkly” deserves the chokey from matilda

[onesmallenby]

walked past a classroom where the kids were watching sonic 2 and i almost started barking.

i think the hyperfixation might be coming back.

[life-ennder]

i think completely pre transition trans people should be able to wear one tiny little pronoun pin and get gendered correctly every time. i think cis people should be transitioning just for the fun of it if they want to. i think you should be able to walk into any pharmacy and just buy hrt. i think that little boys should be able to sit in circles and play with dolls and paint each other's nails and make friendship bracelets. i think that little girls should be able to play with flaming monster trucks and play football and get competitive over video games. i think that arson (he/it/paw) should have paw's identity respected and treated as completely normal. i think that we should normalize neopronouns and weird genders and being weird or unusual in general. you should be able to explain your weird one of a kind xenogender to the least queer person on the planet and they should say "oh that's cool!! haven't heard of that gender before". you should be able to wear a tail in public you should be able to make out with your computer if you want i don't fucking care. i love transgenders i love neurodivergent people i love furries i love everyone outside the norm i love freaks i love nerds i love everyone.

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[onesmallenby]

had a dream i saw sonic 4 in theaters and stobotnik went canon

[giveemhales]

I am a big defender of Shane not wanting to come out and one of the biggest reasons that I haven’t seen discussed much is how much worse it is to come out as a Gay Asian Bottom compared to coming out as a bisexual (white) man who is already regarded as a sex machine. Like Asian men are already overly feminized in the west. Shane’s general demeanor is subdued, he doesn’t drink or party often, and he abides by strict rules and a diet that already makes him an outsider. He doesn’t sleep around and has only has one public relationship with a woman under his belt, which ended very quickly. He’s the exact opposite of Ilya in all these ways and it puts him at a disadvantage. He has a “soft” image he spends his whole life actively opposing. His image is working against him; him being gay contributes to it and worsens it. Ilya’s image is working in his favor; being with a man is an anomaly OR further proof of his sexual prowess. And bc of Ilya’s well known history of sleeping around and generally aggressive attitude, it will be assumed he would be the top. Through a heteronormative lens, which is obviously the norm in hockey, that makes him the “man” in the relationship. If anything, his ability to “dominate” another man may bolster his image, make him even more of an “alpha male”. But being a bottom is seen as inherently demeaning and effeminate, thanks to misogyny, homophobia, and rape culture. The less bulky, quiet, shy man with a shocking lack of experience with woman is obviously the bottom (and this is even worse if they have the height and body differences canon to the books). Shane will be seen as weaker (and what could be worse than that in a contact sport like hockey). He’ll be viewed as the “woman” in the relationship, which is to say he will be viewed as inherently inferior. And draws further attention to the parts of him he’s tried to hide (aka autism symptoms) which will now be treated as further evidence of his sensitivity and otherness. Everything he does now is gay. But being with Shane is the only gay thing Ilya does. Without the threat of Russia, Shane has far more to lose from coming out imo. And his team’s reaction proves that. He deserves some grace.

[hollanovhaunting]

I need someone to write a fic where

1) Shane is moving to the Cens and it actually IS very awkward and the Cens are not lovely and wholesome right off the bat because

2) there is a widespread misunderstanding when Shane and Ilya get outed where the Cens, missing ALL of the context, are assuming that Shane must’ve been a shit partner with how rough Ilya was doing this past season and assume that Shane was *forcing* Ilya to stay closeted because he’s *ashamed* of Ilya and their relationship

3) Shane is actually pretty hurt by the Cens being cold and distant with him but doesn’t complain about it because literally everyone else ever has behaved like that towards him in his life except for Ilya, Rose, and the Pikes. He’s very much like “well well look who’s inside again” about it.

4) Ilya doesn’t realize the Cens are thinking Shane is BadTM because he’s wrapped up in how happy he is to have Shane around now. He actually does not realize any of this is happening until their first week of practice as a new team and he sees his team icing his husband out

5) Ilya tries to talk to Shane about it but Shane is very much like “don’t worry Ilya this is normal and I’m fine cause I have you” and it makes Ilya want to kill the Metros three times over

6) Shane also agrees with the Cens about himself being a shitty husband when he hears the reasoning behind their behavior. So he just decides to work hard at being a husband and a teammate and keep his head down.

7) Ilya doesn’t know what to do. Shane is adamant that he doesn’t want Ilya to confront the team and that he can’t control what others think about him and he doesn’t want it to be a big deal. But Ilya is also seeing Shane be as sad and withdrawn as he was last season and is actively getting worse- being more strict than ever about his diet, constantly working out and straining himself, being first on the ice and last to leave

8) some of the Cens slowly start realizing that they have Shane wrong over more time with him- mainly Luca, Troy, Harris, Wyatt, and Bood. But they have put walls up that they don’t know how to tear down without spooking Shane.

9) The rest of the team don’t realize how shitty this must be for Shane until the Cens go up against the Metros and they realize that they’ve been treating Shane the same way his old and terrible teams did- they watch as Shane takes scathing insults with a blank face, gets back up without a word after being smashed against the boards, gives a polite smile (the same smile he’s given them when they’re being passive aggressive) when receiving glares and threats from his ex teammates.

10) idk it can go many ways from here- Shane gets hurt and has to leave the ice and the teams finds him genuinely upset and they all have a confrontation- or the Metros target Ilya and the Cens see Shane lose his shit and how in love and protective he is- or the Cens stop icing him out after this and slowly start to actually get to know him and maybe apologize. Idk. The world is your oyster or whatever. I just want Protective Cens but it Backfires Pretty Badly.

11) Bonus points if Ilya eventually confronts them and then, when he hears their reasoning, is very much like “you??? Hurt my husband??? For me??? He wasn’t a bad partner??? I have depression??? Is chemical imbalance not abuse???????” And is absolutely pissed lmao

[gingerpolyglot]

This has utterly consumed me since I saw it but the piece that I'm stuck on is what if Shane truly just. Doesn't notice.

Because the Cens are absolutely icing him out but compared to the active malice he's used to he totally sees what Ilya means about how great they are!!

Yeah, they don't invite him out with them and he's kind of a pariah at team dinners but that's just how it goes? He's boring, he knows that, and now that they're not desperately trying to spend every spare moment together Shane doesn't mind Ilya going out without him, honestly it's kind of nice for them to have time apart.

And sure, they don't joke around with him at practice, but Shane's always been kind of intense and he knows he misses a lot of social cues about that kind of thing, but nobody is putting the burden of winning entirely on his back and he's not catching flak for every tiny mistake.

And maybe it'd be nice to have someone to celly with besides Ilya but he only ever really had Hayden and JJ in Montreal anyway, and hey, he's getting proper defensive coverage again so who cares?

Like imagine the bar being SO LOW that the Cens' behavior barely registers for Shane as a problem because it's STILL such a step up from what he's used to. He's still surprised every time nobody says a slur to him, which has been a daily occurrence since practically mites.

And then The Big Thing Happens, maybe he gets hurt in a game against Montreal and the Cens see how he just puts up with SO much shit and it makes them reflect a little and they get all apologetic, and Shane is just like. What are you apologizing for? For not liking me? Nobody likes me, it's really not a big deal guys, and Ilya is in the corner, heart breaking quietly, because he somehow missed all of this and more importantly he is starting to realize how seriously he underestimated the amount of shit Shane was getting in Montreal and why he was so terrified to come out.

[onesmallenby]

it’s been awhile since i left the stobotnik discord server (damn adhd and its waning hyperfixations) but every time i see the word whimper my brain still goes “RAAAH WHIMPERING”

the hyperfixation may have faded, but y’all still infect my brain <3

[anexperimentallife]

[onesmallenby]

i want to read more heated rivalry/game changers fics where someone (preferably ilya or hayden) really stops and considers how shane’s race impacts both his professional and personal life. ik there are a lot of fics that mention racism, but i feel like most of them include scenes of shane directly experiencing racism (to an almost cartoonish degree sometimes), and it gets kind of exhausting to read about a marginalized character having to deal with bigotry so much. it feels more cathartic for me to have the white people in his life take a minute to use some goddamn critical thinking skills and really reflect on how shane’s asian identity in a majority-white sport and general social circle affects him and how they are a part of it. like, i don’t want to focus a poc’s narrative on the white people around him, but i’d love to see those white people unpacking their own shit instead of shane having to put up with it all the time.

[orykorioart]

Egg 🥚

[callmeakblr]

Do it for Porcino

[transformativeworks]

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