One Such Self

20, He/She, Trans-ish Femboy Was gonna be a kink account but honestly just changed my mind. TTRPG nerd, hypnotist, Pokémon TCG player. Favorite Pokémon is Garbodor.

[onesuchself]

Gotta be 100% real with you, the only reason I'm learning to draw is to satisfy my need to draw yaoi of my glasses and Lamotrigine together

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crying in the bathroom while listening to rave music at painful volumes and thinking about sexual trauma is one hell of a vibe ngl

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I'm making a small TTRPG and I feel like I really nailed the cover art

[onesuchself]

I made it better

[onesuchself]

I'm making a small TTRPG and I feel like I really nailed the cover art

[onesuchself]

Sharing because these are important to me. Two pictures of my biological mother, during the week I had been born. I've frankly ended up looking at it every day. She was literally a kid when this happened, and she looks... protective. I look at her and I feel like the world could have fallen upon her - the windows could have shattered, the walls would topple, and a hail of death could rain down - and she would have tossed herself over me in protection. And she looks tired.

[onesuchself]

my gender is funny because i'm genderfluid but i feel gross being amab. i feel like i should have had to work for my masculine traits, like having them innately is something i was given, but i wanted to earn.

i got handed my body by GenAI when i wanted to make the painting frfr

[onesuchself]

hey so it turns out i can just do this by working out in a different way, getting buff, and voice training my voice to be extra masc

wish me luck

[onesuchself]

my gender is funny because i'm genderfluid but i feel gross being amab. i feel like i should have had to work for my masculine traits, like having them innately is something i was given, but i wanted to earn.

i got handed my body by GenAI when i wanted to make the painting frfr

[onesuchself]

Woe, fluffy boi upon ye

[onesuchself]

Sewing lil decorations onto a plush is kinda fucking amazing, you should do it, trust

[onesuchself]

I fucking NEED a boyfriend I can make dungeon synth with please oh my god i need it please cuddling while making weird music would be so nice oh my fucking god

[caimcamiocaym]

My Mage the Ascension character, Ada Sauer that I can't draw consistently. Butch tgirl lesbian with gun autism.

[onesuchself]

Chin up, madam! I'm an imaginary friend from the Department of Realizations; I hope you don't mind if I intervene.

Create. It's what you do best, right?

[onesuchself]

Got told "You seem way more present now that you're on your meds" and I think that's genuinely the happiest a single sentence has ever made me

[onesuchself]

I need the type of guy who will literally just lie about my body, like, "Mmm, your chest is so flat and smooth~! It looks so good, baby boy~," even though I have tits. Like yes lie so I can have gender euphoria, I'll suck dick in exchange

[onesuchself]

i'm on estrogen right now because i want to look fem, but i don't want tits, so is it like, stolen valor if i get them gone? like, will the Gender Police knock down my door like the Scott Pilgrim vegans and kill me because i killed my estrogen boobs

[onesuchself]

dude not being able to drive due to epilepsy is the worst. there's a club literally just one hour away that i would kill to go to and i can't because uber is eighty fucking dollars just to get there (including tip)

like i want to be able to go and be hot and maybe meet a cute boy???? can't i have that???? pretty please

[onesuchself]

mage the ascension as a ttrpg is cool because it means if i stop taking my bipolar meds long enough and scroll on conspiracy forums for a couple months i'll probably stumble upon SOME sort of paradigm. i could see myself reaching at least arete 2 before i explode

[onesuchself]

i need there to be a trainer in Pokémon Winds and Waves who is extremely hot and flirty, but they have a browt who keeps staring at their potential dates and it keeps ruining the vibes. Like, "Listen, I would date you, but your bird is glaring very angrily at me and it makes me uncomfortable," but that's just kinda how the browt is 24/7 so idk please tell me you see the vision

(i chose the N art because he is hot and i love him, not because he is a good stand-in for a flirt)