walking disaster

i write and draw sometimes

[oracle-astrophel]

i need my search history to give me a summary of every site i visit because i cant find this one very specific fic that i Need to read again.

like, i love ao3 and its tagging system and its pure joy to me, but when i cant remember what some of the tags are or if the author didnt put any or a summary, its hell trying to find anything.

[oracle-astrophel]

its a criminal minds fic, not exactly sure if it was a different first meeting or if reid joined the bau around the same time as alvez. i dont remember if it was ralvez or a different ship. reid and alvez were in the military (?) together and they were partners or something? i don't remember.

i do however remember this one very specific scene where alvez and reid got separated or something from their squad in the middle east and were hiding out in an abandoned town because they were being hunted down by the enemy. they hid under the floor of one of the houses together until the enemy passed and they were both upset bc the dust and sand was in their clothes and they were running low of food and water.

idk i just need to read this fic again and I Cant Find It. im two days away from being convinced that i hallucinated the damn fic. idc if its incomplete or abandoned, i just need to read it again.

[oracle-astrophel]

i need my search history to give me a summary of every site i visit because i cant find this one very specific fic that i Need to read again.

like, i love ao3 and its tagging system and its pure joy to me, but when i cant remember what some of the tags are or if the author didnt put any or a summary, its hell trying to find anything.

[oracle-astrophel]

the thing i love most about the prequel trilogy: fait accompli

the ending is already written, there’s no subverting the future, the tragedy has been carved into the stone monolith.

watching Anakin grow from a child, to a teenager, to a young adult, theres a hope that he won’t become the monster everyone fears. he grows up, surrounded by people that are for peace, he experiences loss, he falls in love, and is hailed as a hero. despite the sub-text of grooming and abandonment, there’s still a bright spot that maybe he will fulfill the prophecy another way, he won’t turn his back on the jedi to save Padmé, he won’t Fall and become Vader.

not only the prequel movies, but the clone wars series, both the 2003 and 2008 versions, give a look into the time gap between AotC and RotS. new characters are introduced, existing ones get more development, the clones are given names, faces, and personalities. new planets, new species, new plot lines, all with the ability to give the existing characters a new path.

it still doesn’t change what has already happened. Anakin will still Fall. Obi-wan will still lose the Order. Padmé will still lose her life. the clones will still be phased out and the stormtroopers will still take their place.

all the planets and battles, the laughter and tears shared, every relationship built in war time, will all be for naught.

[catchymemes]

[oracle-astrophel]

the first half: this is how the third movie should have gone! :D

the second half: this hurts :D

[oracle-astrophel]

just watched the 20th anniversary showing for Revenge of the Sith. im feeling like writing star wars angst

i would like to remind those present that anakin had just seen ahsoka for the first time in ages right before that movie. he went into that battle feeling pretty good about life. he then promptly had a shit week that ended with his wifes death and the fall of everything he held dear

[guacadoodledoo]

Can't believe Lloyd's soul left his body and he's just like "Damn what a day, lmao shit's crazy amiright?"

[oracle-astrophel]

lloyd garmadon core: "aw man, this [possibly, if not very much, fatal event] is such a wild inconvenience. welp, it is what it is." ┐⁠(⁠´⁠ー⁠｀⁠)⁠┌

bro does Not have a built in danger meter

[oracle-astrophel]

me hearing about the joann store closures

im about to go spend a Lot of my big adult money at that store before class

first world problems, ik, but i Refuse to go to michaels or hobby lobby and all of the small business retailers that i like are always too far to make it worth it or have closed their location in my area

my brother might get me on a new hobby tho. gundam models. i have a kit waiting to be built. its one of the easy ones: no glue required with colored plastic. if i remember, ill update you on how that goes

[the-coffee-fandom]

Had to make a meme to describe me currently

[oracle-astrophel]

always how i start all of my fics and barely a handful if times have i actually completed something

[noirbunnydeluxe]

Them❤️💜

[nickelwick]

Only reason I'm reblogging this is because I have never, in my three years of being a ninjago fan, have seen someone ship these two together.

[oracle-astrophel]

the reason /im/ rebloging this is bc i love them so much and i never see enough art of them together. they're such an underrated duo and i need to consume More of them. consider this my official admission of being a Pixal/Kai (or Pixal & Kai) fan.

idc if it's platonic or romantic, i need More

[oracle-astrophel]

my interests have fled me

i am aimless in my pursuits for dopamine

it is tik tok and brain rot rather than any good fix from fics

this is why i hate class. i tell myself to be an academic weapon then my brain gets stuck between being an academic victim and weapon

let me focus on something. Anything!

[writerswritecompany]

[oracle-astrophel]

oh hell yeah!!!! ive got the BAU team from Criminal Minds coming to get me!

[skoulsons]

how many times do I have to open a wip until it writes itself

[oracle-astrophel]

the realest real to ever real

[oracle-astrophel]

the best part about making a god race? i get to kill them of for plot reasons (and its fun)

the in depth Lore im putting into these people, only to kill them to further not a main character but a long dead person in the present time line is insane to me

i have 0 self control

ill post some character sheets for the main people that further the plot when i finish them :)

[pocket-size-cthulhu]

I'm a cryptid in Stardew valley. I live on the outskirts of town. I disappear for days on end, purchasing daily one-way tickets to the calico desert. Nobody knows where I go while I'm there. Can occasionally be found fishing at random spots throughout town. I am never not running on at least one triple shot espresso. I take the abandoned minecarts to get around and am frequently seen disappearing into the sewers. I carry a sword for some reason. Once every week or two I will stride into your bedroom to deliver you your favorite meal. I'm a self-made millionaire. I attend all the town events and will go to your concert in the next town over. I have donated approximately 2583 items to the local museum and singlehandedly revitalized the town community center. There are rumors I can talk to junimos. I'm friends with the local wizard

[oracle-astrophel]

the realest sdv post. i too disappear for days on end and only reappear for some fishing, mining, and the rare purchases (provided I don't use the warp totems that i somehow magically have an abundance of). if i disappear into calico, no one knows whats happened to me until the next passing glace or i appear in Harvey's office. once a year, i disappear for a whole season to ginger island where they just might see me sprinting across the beach to the cove or see me at the night market or the feast of the winter star. i dont interact with the community but somehow i made friends with the little shadow in the sewers, the two old men up in the mountains, and the recluse up in the tower. i carry odd things around like soggy newspapers, poisonous foliage, a stack of 50 stone pathways, clumps of fish bait, or even a whole wood chipper hoisted over my head, sprinting down to the farm.

[pippenpaddlopsicopolisthethird]

The holy grail of searching through academic literature is coming across a string of publications that are like:

Here’s An Idea. Smith et al. 2016

Terrible Idea; a comment on Smith et al. 2016. Johnson 2016.

You’re Wrong Too; a response to Johnson 2016. Nelson 2016.

Guys Just Stop Fighting, None Of Us Know What’s Going On; a Review of the Current Literature. McBrien 2017.

[zinjanthropusboisei]

Not even an exaggeration.

[thiswaitingheart]

“If We Knew What We Were Doing, It Would Not be Called Research, Would It?”

[alberto-balsalm]

[feralbiologist]

tags via @jesterbutch

[oracle-astrophel]

ahhhh finals season

my blog is slowly becoming finals centric and i Hate It. i just wanna word vomit about my Shadowhunters fic and reread the books and catch up with literally All The Other Books In The Shadowhunters Universe bc apparently Cassandra Clare became Brandon Sanderson overnight???

but fr, im writing my last essay on Oryx and Crake and i can almost Taste the Freedom

[oracle-astrophel]

my descent into Shadowhunter hell was sudden and without any sort of warning or precursor event. tempted to reread the books i have and buy the shadowhunter books i don't have.

[oracle-astrophel]

it just hit me that finals season is usually star wars season for me. but ive been hit by a wave of Shadowhunters that i havent touched since elementary/middle school. i read a few fics back in highschool, but nothing as intense as this wave or my initial fixation.

[oracle-astrophel]

my descent into Shadowhunter hell was sudden and without any sort of warning or precursor event. tempted to reread the books i have and buy the shadowhunter books i don't have.