fuck all the other times i needed help, this sets the bar.
I had a stroke in july that thankfully left me 95 percent undamaged, but the medical cost of trying to figure out what caused it in the first place is killing me, and it couldnt have been more ill timed than now. ive already had to miss three days of work (thats an entire work week for me, i work twelve hours so that has actually taken hundreds of dollars off my check lmao), and half another because i had a scare last week contrived of psychosomatic symptoms brought on by sheer terror. My landlord two months ago decided that he was going to sell the property out from under me and my roommates under the pretense that its too much of a hassle trying to renovate around four people living in the house, so he's forcibly making us vacate. i was under the impression me and two of my roommates were going in on an apartment but their inability to maintain steady communication is proving to be less than beneficial for me, and im trying to find housing on my own, which hasn't been very fruitful due to the stringent requirements set by property management companies and landlords; ie i have bad credit in their eyes. if i dont move into someplace soon here in my city, i will have no choice but to move in again with my strictly (and batshit insane) conservative, anti vaxx abuser who lives inconveniently for someone like me who cannot drive because of a pre existing mental condition, in the middle of bumfuck nowhere, making it very difficult for me to get to work as my commute will devolve into a two to three hour trip, and a lyft ride that will cost me 200 dollars for just a single fucking day, and thats just going in, not including coming back. I just cant do it. It isnt feasible. i might have to quit my job, and im petrified by the notion. I cant live like that again. im not strong enough right now. all of my medical help is here in seattle. its just not something i can maintain.
On top of everything i might have a hypoplastic vertebral artery, which means the main vein to my brain is potentially clotting, which means that if i dont have a stent put in to clear it, the next stroke i have could possibly kill me. i might need brain surgery. so thats cool.
As it stands im frantically trying to find somewhere to move into. I have to be out at the end of september. I have a friend who says theyre willing to lend me their couch but theyre wishy washy as it is, and i dont trust. this stroke is draining me financially, and i just need some help to try and put money together to give as a deposit, and the first and last month of rent for a place. i dont know how im getting through the day with all of this happening at one time. i just have to. i dont know how i can stay positive like i have been but its a miracle that i can even say im happy. you just have to be when it comes at you like this. life is bizarre lmao. im still alive to say so.
anyways, heres my paypal, i appreciate anything and anyone who passes this along. i hope youre doing okay. its gonna work out.
