Orrery System

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[deadeyedfae]

Fer Justice

[neo-pilled]

Common things in DID that no one likes to talk about

- switches that feel like you’re turning into someone else rather than them taking control (non-possessive switching)

- being unable to recognize amnesia until something requires you to remember something you forgot

- staying in the front for weeks at a time

- being unable to communicate with alters internally (this is so common why does everyone act like this is weird?)

- feeling like you don’t have any problems because you feel disconnected from them

- constant denial

- rapid identity, label, and appearance changes

- comorbidities, particularly personality disorders, anxiety disorders, and the schizophrenia spectrum

- autism (there is science pointing towards autistic people being more susceptible to trauma)

- disliking your system

- wanting final fusion

[the100percent]

"Do you really have to make being plural your whole personality??"

I'm gonna hold your hand when I tell you this

[red-skills]

self research

[orrerysystem]

Sometimes Syscovery is splitting new members abruptly (how we wound up kind of stumbling upon the whole system thing last year, won't go too into the specifics of what happened there outside of circumstances causing a major splitting event)

Sometimes it's encountering new stuff and an introject just appears.

Sometimes Syscovery is revisiting old stuff we had been into and discovering "oh there's just been an introject of that character bonking around in our brain the whole time"

[viverelyka]

A mod of mine shared an app called Hivemind (linked) in our server, and I geniunely have fallen a bit in love with the app. I'll list a few pros and cons, as well as other information that may be of importance.

Information

the app uses the word alter once, but in any other place it refers to them as "members".

assumption that member limit is depended on your device (mine holds 1k with zero struggle)

assumption that this is for android and windows only, but anyone is free to correct me

Pros

entirely offline, meaning your data belongs only to you and there's no worry about sunsetting

highly customizable, including profile banners, image markdown and custom colors for the app

allows importing members from pluralkit, tupperbox and simply plural (please read the app instructions for this)

various features such as custom fields, subsystem mindmaps, relationship tracking, innerchats, journaling, stats and analytics

Cons

entirely offline, meaning you can't share profiles with friends or family

has no folder or group system / when importing it counts each folder as a subsystem

fronting times can't be changed or added at a later time

there is no search feature when manually putting in front over the "fronting" section, or when setting relationships

the app is still young, you may experience bugs (lightmode doesn't completely work, for me at least)

Please note that I also only know the information written on the carrd - I'm just sharing a cool find in hopes it helps somemany out. :) Stay safe.

[systemprojects]

System App - PluralSpace

Not to be confused with Plural Space, which is a different project.

A system app created by Drex!

PluralSpace has customizable member profiles, with front tracking and custom statuses. Alongside the ability to register a profile as a fronting status, create relationships between members, and view them on a relationship map!

The app also features journal entries, poll creation, an inner system chat, and in-depth analytics on your system, from fronting frequency to journal entries and poll responses!

If you would like to support PluralSpace, you can access the alpha website here. To learn more information, or follow updates, you can read through their website, share feedback on their dedicated page, follow their twitter, or join their discord (18+)!

[the--pod]

amnesia is this thing that always seems to be treated as this huge dramatic event that happens in stories. but for us, its more like a quiet realization.

you go through your day and you come home. someone asks you how your day was. you try to think back. nothing is there. you know you left for work cause you have an alarm set, theres gas missing from your car, the food in your lunchbox you always pack is gone, and your body hurts a lot. but the details are gone. the emotions that you experienced during that time are so faint it barely feels like your own. maybe it wasn't even you in that moment.

and someone is still standing there, waiting for an answer. and you say, "it was good." because well, you are alive and you are home and you are happy you are home. that is the only thing you know in that moment. you feel good now. so that is the emotion you say you feel. but you try to sit and remember what you did all day and there is nothing. you don't really know.

and every day it feels like your brain is just dumping memories into a trash pile. People tell stories that you were there for but you don't remember it. People show you pictures, so you must have been there. there is evidence. but you cannot recall.

you are stranger in your own life. living moment to moment cause thats all you can do. that's all you know how to do.

[ronrono-system]

we began using the term plurality just around a week ago, and we thought we didn't have amnesia, but we think this applies a lot to us. thank you for sharing your experience; it really helped us, and we're sure it will help a lot of other systems out there

[semiplural]

Spreadsheets!

Here's a simple spreadsheet template for documenting or exploring three things:

When did major life events happen? Are any of them potentially connected? (Also contains info on NT developmental milestones to help with any cross-referencing against what you remember- this has occasionally helped with pinpointing the date range of an event.)

Who's in your head? What information is useful to know about them?

What decisions should you make?

Feel free to edit, share, etc. as much as you'd like- consider this set of sheets to be CC0. Every system has their own needs, and you might need more or less or different information than these sheets provide space for.

You can get your own copy of the spreadsheet here for free.

[semiplural]

A quick update was made to the Timeline spreadsheet after someone pointed out a numbering error. Only the Timeline sheet was affected (the 30s were accidentally duplicated thanks to an off-by-one brain error). The issue has been fixed, and the fixed version was uploaded to the same link given previously.

If you've downloaded the sheet template but haven't used it (or want to splice the fixed version in), then redownload the file and you should be good to go.

[semiplural]

Spreadsheets!

Here's a simple spreadsheet template for documenting or exploring three things:

When did major life events happen? Are any of them potentially connected? (Also contains info on NT developmental milestones to help with any cross-referencing against what you remember- this has occasionally helped with pinpointing the date range of an event.)

Who's in your head? What information is useful to know about them?

What decisions should you make?

Feel free to edit, share, etc. as much as you'd like- consider this set of sheets to be CC0. Every system has their own needs, and you might need more or less or different information than these sheets provide space for.

You can get your own copy of the spreadsheet here for free.

[sparks-theastronaut]

isn't it interesting how something so small can cause something so big

[endcrys]

Former host speaks on stupid origin discourse bullshit, something that caused real tangible conflict and damage both within our system and in our physical outward life

(Also the iPod thing is only half accurate, that was just our first outwardly noticeable host exchange)

[thevoillohiarchive]

the reason why is that the more people we have to comprehend at a time the more energy we use thus making the body feel worse. however it was REALLY funny that it was Flowery LOL

[donotenter-sys]

WAS NO ONE GOING TO TELL ME.

[blakesreefium]

for those out there who feel like their dissociation 'isn't enough' and feel like they're faking because of it, hey. maybe it's because you lived your entire life with this experience and got too used to it. but here's the thing, dissociation isn't just 'suddenly blacking out and having no memory of the entire past day' no matter how much its painted as that. not all dissociation is sharp and obvious.

forgetting passwords, forgetting names and people, forgetting your dreams, having too vivid dreams, insomnia, brain fog, face blindness, remembering your days like a blur, struggling to remember your schedule, school/work day gone too fast, forgetting to eat, forgetting to drink, derealization, depersonalization can all be caused by dissociation. i know its hard to accept but it is, just because you don't black out doesn't mean you don't dissociate; if you sit on your computer stopping for a second doubting your password or if you wake up feeling like that was a trainwreck of a dream then suddenly it stops being visible is caused by dissociation. if you're awake, looking around but having the feeling that something with the existence of the surroundings is wrong is also dissociation. if you suddenly remember that you forgot to eat that day, that you forgot to drink that day, the time is 3 am and even though you never blacked out and you were always there, is still dissociation.

if you grew too used to constantly living these little things, then you are probably ignoring your symptoms. so please stop the doubting. you're not fake, your dissociation is real, your amnesia is real and you are not lying. please remember this. you are a system, and it's okay to dissociate. it's not your fault.

[bathhousekitty]

For the longest time, I truly believed I couldn’t have DID because I “didn’t have amnesia”.

Now, in my mind, amnesia meant everything sort of went black and you’d come to days later without a clue of what had happened or where you were. And while, that absolutely can be the case for some— it wasn’t for me.

Amnesia for me is much more complex. The gaps of memory I loose are patched together by the things that I do remember. My mind may omit half the day, but because I can remember the other half, it doesn’t feel as if I’ve lost any time truly. My mind worked overtime to hide how much time I was loosing, simply because if I knew, I don’t think the past version of myself would’ve handled it very well. </3

I suppose all this is to say that how amnesia presents itself is much more complex than most realize, especially when your brain is trying to protect you in its own weird way. It took me a long time to understand its true face… Q_Q

[hazedxg0]

DID symptoms that people don't talk enough about

The cycle of forgetting and then re-remembering trauma memories

Constant depersonalization and derealization

Feeling as if you're stuck living someone else's life

Failure to plan for the future because nothing feels real + losing time

Thinking a flashback is over when you've actually just dissociated away from it, and having it resume as soon as you stop dissociating

Dissociative stupor/trance

Alexithymia

Identity issues outside of alters

Inability to connect with other people

Being unable to tell if you've healed from a past problem/trauma or if you've just dissociated away from it

Not learning from past mistakes because of amnesia and dissociation

Feeling nothing psychologically despite physical shaking, racing heart, nausea, crying, etc

The extreme disorientation + identity confusion that comes with co-consciousness and co-fronting

Somatic flashbacks

Being triggered by your own DID symptoms because you know the only reason you're experiencing any of this is because of what they did to you