Meet me in the Afterglow

𝓒𝓪𝓷'𝓽 𝓪 𝓰𝓲𝓻𝓵 𝓳𝓾𝓼𝓽 𝓭𝓸 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓫𝓮𝓼𝓽 𝓼𝓱𝓮 𝓬𝓪𝓷?

[orzorniangalaxies]

Can i run away to somewhere beautiful where nobody knows my name?

[belmasworld]

[orzorniangalaxies]

August doesn’t hurt them.

They welcome it,

arms bare, faces tilted to the sun,

laughing in heat I can’t breathe in.

They call it golden.

They say it feels like freedom.

But August has always arrived

like a ghost,

a slow ache,

a heavy quiet.

It doesn't scream,

it lingers.

It watches.

And it waits for me to fall apart.

They chase the light.

I pull the curtains.

They make memories.

I count the things I’ve lost.

It’s not the heat.

It’s the way everything feels stuck,

as if time itself has melted,

and I’m standing in it,

ankle deep in all the things

I haven’t healed from.

They don’t notice.

Why would they?

To them, August is soft.

It’s sunsets and skin.

It’s music from open windows

and nights that taste like forever.

But for me,

it’s the month when the weight returns.

When nothing moves,

but everything hurts.

The month that promises nothing

and still manages to disappoint.

I’ve tried to meet it with grace.

I’ve tried to rewrite the story.

But August never forgets

what it came here to do.

And maybe one day

it won’t feel like this.

Maybe one year

it won’t find me.

But not this time.

Not yet.

Because for them, it’s summer.

For me, it’s survival.

[thoughtcascades]

there is a version of me that would have explained everything

[landsccape]

[thoughtcascades]

small reminder: you can be grateful and still be exhausted

[ruesdeluxe]

[richhbythemornin]

[katalactic]

[wetheurban]

To the overthinkers:

I hope you find someone who doesn't leave you guessing. It's okay to want reassurance.

[faustique]

the art of not being ready and doing it anyways will take you so far

[aidashakur]

Your daily reminder to be nicer to yourself. You are still learning.

[8nin]

Sometimes you just need to hear how much you mean to someone

[wetheurban]

The right people won't need convincing. They'll know how lucky they are to be in your orbit.

[davetsizperi]

[dafancyuhinspiration]

[orzorniangalaxies]

How are you?

Existing. The verdict's still out.