eve

welcome to the blog of an enby with a love for anime, LGBTQ rights, video games, and politics. i have to tag stuff so i don’t get lost

[hugsohugs-side]

body horror in robots is a concept that needs to be explored more i think. there's a lot of potential there

here's an example

so imagine you're a robot that works at a grocery store. your life is pretty standard, not much different from any other grocery store robot

but one day you're restored from a backup and now everyone's acting a little weird and sad around you. you have no idea why because your backup was made yesterday morning

eventually you find out that your old body was found laying in a river with its hard drive and motherboard and a bunch of other stuff removed

you were essentially killed and your corpse desecrated and you will probably never find out what happened

now that's bad enough right? but THEN

a whole year later, you've mostly gotten over this whole thing, and you approach a customer who is a fellow robot

you scan them as a Standard Robot Greeting and

they have the same type of hard drive as you

same serial number

you realize that that's YOUR hard drive in the other robot

they have your brain

they have your old brain, and they are using it

WHY do they have your old brain.

and then suddenly the other robot drops everything and BOLTS it out of the grocery store and you never see them again

that would fuck you up a little i think

[succubusboyfriend]

you know a game’s good when you put it down and your brain’s like “okay we’re gonna play this background music as the background of your life now.”

[elalmadelmar]

I gotta say, so much queer intra-community horseshit dropped off my shoulders when I decided to adopt a firm policy that everyone is the expert in their own identity, the single most knowledgeable person about what it's like to live life in their own skin, and that if someone describes their experience in ways I find contradictory or paradoxical I should do them the courtesy of presuming that they are striving to express something very specific and nuanced, rather than leaping to the conclusion that they're just dumb and using words wrong.

Sure, there are some combinations of identity terms that I look at and go "hmm, I don't get how that works." I'm still a human being. But there's a big difference between not getting how something works versus insisting that it doesn't.

[outtatherequick]

Remember the whole MOGAI discourse thing a few years back? Yeah. Myself and multitudes more used to be so irritated by that due to being closed-minded. Why though? People may come to identify with nounself pronouns for many different reasons, be it DID, trauma, schizo, whatever else, and it is nobody’s business but theirs if they’re attracted to telephone poles or identify as a forest.

They feel the way they feel and that’s that. If straight people shouldn’t be homophobic, queer people shouldn’t exclude other queer people because they’re a different kind of queer. Who judges the validity of one’s sexuality? Our entire societal structure around sexuality comes under scrutiny at this point.

Anyways. Be kind to each other. Empathy goes farther than you might think.

[animentality]

[brunhiddensmusings]

historical note- the beginning of most LGBT rights in law started with the MIME RIOTS of 1968 over the right to preform lewd plays (it was about a candlestick maker and was openly bisexual, the candles used were exactly what you are imagining) enshrining public displays of sexual identity under the right to free speech aggressively clowning to destroy the systems of oppression is a noble tradition to keep alive, and historically speaking it works

[headspace-hotel]

Of course. In storytelling, that's the Trickster archetype and it's as old as the human race.

[ohgodthatsacolon]

ya the ‘cis guy got banned for female presenting boobs’ thing is a bit funny but like. this is a horrific example of how much female-presenting bodies are sexualised. he got BANNED for ADJUSTING HIS BRA. it’ll probably get appealed since he’s not a girl, but just remember that twitch sees *bra adjusting* as a sexual act. i’m glad this is getting thrown into the public eye by a big streamer, bc holy hell is it such an issue

[outtatherequick]

LIFE UPDATE

Fuck it’s been a long time since I did one of these.

I don’t even know if any real humans can see my posts or if they just get lost in the ether. Who gives a shit?

I uhhhhhh… used to be a lesbian, then I was nonbinary and ace, and then I was a straight boy, and then a pansexual man, and then a mostly gay femboy, and now I’m just kinda here. My identity “journey” has been fraught with mental illness and sexual trauma so I’ve never been able to trust the way I feel about myself. Others have had the first say in how I present myself for most of my woken-up life. (You know, when I first heard the term ‘agender’, I felt finally awake) So now that I have a supportive partner who encourages me to be myself, I don’t know what to do. I changed my name to Eve, and I use they/them pronouns because the right ones don’t exist. The right gender identity label doesn’t exist. I guess pansexual-polyamorous is a fitting label, but I’m super demi too so maybe the right sexuality label doesn’t exist either. I’m just Eve.

The old me would be frankly bamboozled by this. T/he/y were always doing the opposite of what their parents wanted, what the world wanted, in favor of what he thought would make people love him. I finally feel loved. There’s no one to perform for anymore. Instead of forcing myself into the box I thought I was supposed to enter, and forcing myself to stay in it, it was time to come out. Been questioning if I’m really a man for over a year now.

All this time, through all my different gender/sexuality moments, I wanted I craved validation. I would get so depressed if no one reassured me that my gender was valid. I would act super pathetic to get any type of attention, negative or positive, in order to feel valid. Pressure from my ex made me shift into the mindset of a trans man. Pressure from my parents to undo that made me do it harder. Then I just kinda pressured myself to stick with it. Everyone for the past 5 years has known me as Aiden, the (trans) dude. (Some ppl knew I was trans, some didn’t, T did wonders for me) All the while, knowing it wasn’t true to me. All the while, feeling invalid for the reason that I was hiding from myself. It wasn’t me. Transitioning into a man is not what I wanted.

Now everyone assumes I’m a dude. I don’t know how I feel about being he/him-ed, but I sure as fuck don’t wanna be she/her-ed. So they/them it is I guess. I like what T did to my body, I feel sexier than ever, but I wonder what would’ve happened if I had never met certain people or if my parents had treated me better. Even if they knew I was bullshitting, they could’ve been nicer to me. Would I still have C-cups? How would my face look now, at 23? I don’t know. I wondered about T before I wondered about being a man, so I probably would’ve come to this conclusion at some point.

Humans truly don’t have the language to describe ourselves.

[butchfagminotaur]

i’m so glad i don’t use tiktok if i had to deal with 19 year olds who are so fucking sanitized and brainwashed by tiktok brain rot that they can’t even understand those of us who are loud and proud and brash and bold about our faggy dykey queer tranny selves i would dunk their heads in a fucking toilet

[outtatherequick]

I like your energy sis!!!!

[thunderbottle]

i think queer people should be more confusing actually. i think we should make everyone as confused as possible until they give up and realize that total understanding of other people isnt the gateway to respect and compassion

[outtatherequick]

I like the energy of this post but the phrasing confuses me, a confusing queer. What does that last sentence mean someone help pls?

[lotrreactionmemes]

LOTR + text post

[161afa1312acab]

[thyrell]

im sorry but this post drives me insane every time i see it like . can you imagine packing two hundred and fifyy people into one train car. girl you are making soylent green in there

[outtatherequick]

Train pushers man.

[necrohag]

Caught on a game camera in British Columbia

[outtatherequick]

B I G B O Y E

[inkskinned]

me: hmm it is a nice day. as i am filled with hubris, i will go outside and sit :)

every bug in the universe at once: crawl?????? for to crawl???????

[jumpingjacktrash]

me who likes bugs a lot: darlings it’s ok to crawl but be careful of get squish

bugs who are very smart: between page of book, i will Homestead

me: i turn page now

bugs: o my folly!

[theinvisiblemonsters]

me who understands how nature works: this is communal space but please do not crawl onto skin i cannot see

bugs: there is sweat in yonder shoulderblades and i must be the one who licks it

me: and i must be the one who slaps the tickles

bugs: alas, i am laid low by the salt!

[somethingusefulfromflorida]

A post I reblogged last week has become a bot hive. I've gotten about 40 or 50 followers who have never interacted with a single post of mine except this one

and I'm like 90% sure they're bots. They follows dozens or hundreds of blogs in quick succession, all their original posts are generic single sentences like "having one of those days" or "i love critical roll." 9 times out of 10 they're Untitled, Sin Titulo, Sans Titre, but the remaining time always follows the same format, "Bryce - 28 - bi - imfp - autistic," "Shelly - 22 - pan - ejtp - adhd," "Kami - 19 - bi - inft - schizophrenic." It's like a bad AI that's been trained exclusively on tumblr bios.

The bots have become indistinguishable from real users. Next, they'll be adding carrds and lists of random triggers and DNIs and fandom discourse

[outtatherequick]

Your tags are on point and I truly can’t believe how many of us this is happening to.

And then we make posts like this, saying wtf, that only get 20-30 notes.

What has tumblr become tbh.

[coffeeoysterlayaway]

Where the real followers at? No really, where are they?

[outtatherequick]

Anyone else having this shit happen to them? I get at least two new untitled thirst trap followers a day. Cheapens tumblr if you ask me. Not sure what to do about it so

[biggest-gaudiest-poltergeist]

I'm looking back at random things I was taught as a kid by various adults and media and. did nobody bother to factcheck anything? was that just not an option or

[disappointedcrystalwolf-deactiv]

Could you please name one?

[biggest-gaudiest-poltergeist]

swallowed chewing gum takes years to digest, blue veins are blue bc deoxygenated blood is blue, fossil fuels are made from dinosaurs, feeding bread to birds is fine, mice like cheese, carrots are good for your eyes, cleopatra was a sultry seductress, bulls can see the color red, corsets were uncomfortable and caused deformities, glass is a slow-moving liquid which is why old window panes are uneven at the bottom, tomato juice gets rid of skunk smells, young einstein failed math class, eating before swimming increases your risk of cramps and drowning, cracking your knuckles causes arthritis, iron maidens were used as torture devices, the earth's core is molten rock, and basically anything at all whatsoever to do with the myth of thanksgiving

[elven-writing]

they said name ONE-

[biggest-gaudiest-poltergeist]

bats are blind, diamonds are made of coal, the dark side of the moon is dark, the sun is yellow, lightning doesn't strike twice, columbus landed in the u.s., medieval europeans believed the world was flat, piranhas eat human flesh, goldfish have no long-term memory, porcupines can shoot their quills, people often swallow spiders in their sleep, wolves howl at the moon, humans only have 5 senses, sore muscles are caused by a buildup in lactic acid, and rust causes tetanus!

[biggest-gaudiest-poltergeist]

actually imma just leave this here

[tparadox]