Just thinking about the way in TLG, BookShane, 3+ years into their relationship would never consider using a pet name for Ilya that isn’t also a word that would’ve gotten my mouth filled with soap by the nuns who taught me in elementary school (asshole, dick, shithead).
VS.
The look in TVShowShane’s eyes throughout the majority of ep5 and all of ep6 where you can see him mentally shadowboxing himself and God trying to keep the “baby” he so desperately wants to release trapped behind his fucking teeth. Shout out to Hudson William’s on how he physically portrayed Shane’s self-restraint especially in this bc you can feel it in the way he holds his jaw and shoulders as Shane climbs into Ilya’s lap in the Tampa hotel room, when they’re on the video & phone calls, and most obviously the I love you/I love you too scene.
It’s so subtle but so fucking potent it makes me insane.
