Senselessness

It is what it is Predictably predictable A creature of habit

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My group of friends is me plus 5 other amazing humans. Our friendship has started to unravel. Without them I’m nothing. My family is gone. They are my family.

I’m terrified

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My mom died from pancreatic cancer two weeks ago and I’m so disconnected from the world and my emotions that the only place I can say this is here, where nobody will see it.

I fucking miss my mom.

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Women post photos of themselves heavily pregnant and just looking like they want to die and everyone comments, “OMG YOU’RE GLOWING!”

Fucking liars. They’re not glowing they literally look like straight up shit.

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My grandmother has rusty gardening tools outside next to her door. She’s 94. Every time I see them I think about how one day she was out there gardening, left her tools for later, and then just never went back to them.

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“Nobody exists on purpose

Nobody belongs anywhere

Everybody is gonna die.”

-rick and morty comin in hot with the truth

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Is there any moment worse than that moment that you finally break down and start crying after god knows how long of holding it in.....and then you just can’t stop.

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Everyone my age has had kids at this point.

ONE of those women looks fantastic and worked her ass off to get her body back after three kids.

The rest are massive and just keep getting bigger and complaining about how motherhood ruined them. You’re right. It did ruin you. You’re massive and look like you’ve been hit by a truck every damn day. And the fact that you’re now a miserable fucking beast doesn’t help.

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The same people who want to ban abortion because it’s “murder” are the ones who justify children being held in cages and families ripped apart because their parents crossed a fucking border.

So basically living children can go suck a dick, but save the fetuses!

You people are fucked.

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Does anybody else find themselves discouraged over how hard it is to find like minded childfree people?

I’m 32, my two most serious relationships (including one engagement) ended because the men I had relationships with finally decided that me not wanting kids was a deal breaker. One after 5 years, one after 2. I’m single. I want to travel and spend my money the ways that I want. I don’t want children. And honestly, babies make me nauseous.

I don’t know if babies make me nauseous because I find it disturbing how people fawn over them when they’re just going to be screaming demons until they become functional adults who will probably suck anyway, or because they’re screaming disgusting and sticky demons who just suck more and more as they get older.

I don’t like babies, I don’t like children. Hell I really don’t like people. I just like animals. But it’s just frustrating to never be able to find like minded people who also want a childfree life.

It’s like everyone is blinded by this stupid societal norm that getting married and popping out humans you can’t afford is truly the best life to live.

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Hormones are some crazy shit. Can you imagine something strong enough to trick your brain into looking at a newborn baby and thinking, “my god that’s beautiful.” Instead of, “Jesus Christ it looks like a deformed potato-alien hybrid!”

Because fuck that noise. They ALL LOOK LIKE ALIEN POTATOES!

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That moment your doctor asks for an emergency contact and you realize you have nobody left.

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And today.

Today I think I’m going to be ok.

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All I want in life is a man who loves my horses and small pets, doesn’t mind the money I spend on them, and who buys me a Mother’s Day card and writes “love your fur babies” on it with drawings of all their little paw and hoof print.

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I’m dying from physical, mental, and emotional pain. And I literally can tell nobody.

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My fiancé told me he changed his mind and can’t live without kids. It’s not that he “has to have kids”, it’s that he’s “too scared to not have that support system when he’s old.”

Let’s recap. My fiancé told me he changed his mind about us, because he’s so afraid of being alone on his death bed that he’s willing to create more humans in hopes that they’ll be willing to wipe his ass and change his diapers in the throes of old age.

What THE. ACTUAL. FUCK.

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Pro tip: waterproof mascara is a necessity for the weeks after a break up.

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Oh hey there, rock bottom. I guess I should have known I’d find you here.