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站着说话不腰疼 | trying to get my life together bc what is this ☆ Olly | he/him | 20+ yo | college student

[painausage]

[tired-n-trying]

i will either get this done or i will kill myself god bless

[painausage]

💤 7h | 📝 5h | 💦 1,5L |

it seems like it's going to be another hard day . . . again. I woke up at 10AM, I have no motivation and a big amount of work. so here goes another to do list :

✅ 10⁰⁰ -> 11⁰⁰ : get out of the bed & get ready for the day

✅ 11⁰⁰ -> 13⁰⁰ : essay

✅ 13⁰⁰ -> 16⁰⁰ : dinner, groceries & free time

✅ 16⁰⁰ -> 17⁰⁰ : chinese

✅ 17⁰⁰ -> 18⁰⁰ : back to essay

✅ 18⁰⁰ -> 19⁰⁰ : catching up with other lectures

🔲 19⁰⁰ -> 20⁰⁰ : job hunting

🔲 20⁰⁰ -> 00⁰⁰ : running, free time & I can't go to sleep later than midnight

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things I would like to do in my free time today :

• watch a movie • write fanfiction • write a slowly letter •

[painausage]

may reading wrap-up

I thought I won't read anything this month, so when I finished the third book this month (my average is 2 books per month) I was surprised. all of them were short and two were audiobooks, but it doesn't matter.

I didn't really like Huxley's one. I hoped for it to be more informative, instead it felt like a bunch of funfacts

Trans-Atlantic was interesting. I'm glad that I caught up on that

reportage by Jacek Hołub about the lives of autistic people broke me. I was expecting nothing when I started listening to the audiobook. I was sure that I won't learn anything new. and I didn't, but instead the fact that I'm too on the spectrum hit me like a train. few specialists told me that already and asked me to get a diagnosis, but I completely ignored that. "even if I am autistic, I'm high functioning. there's no meds for it, so I don't need a diagnosis. I already have an adhd one and it's enough. I can deal with it" - well I can't. I've understood that I'm constantly trying to live like an average (or even above average) neurotypical person would and it drains me. I understood that I have to get to know myself once again. it's scary. I don't like it. but I'll try and maybe it'll get easier. it's hard to believe, but what else can I do if not keep trying?

tbr for June:

private revolutions: coming of age in a new China

dalekowysoko. Tybetańczycy bez ziemi

życie codzienne w Pekinie

[obgydream]

i need to study hard and get a good rank so that I can get out of this house. 🧿🤞

[ialwaysbelieve]

[vayz-is-studying]

how did i watch a 1.5 hr lecture at 1.75x and it still took me 2.75 hrs 🤡

[painausage]

finishing when he text me back

[painausage]

hey hi hello .ᐟ

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today's ⋆to do⋆ list :

✅ get ready for an exam (revise vocabulary & grammar, write a short essay)

❌ write at least one page of thesis at least read a little . . .

✅ send an answer to my teacher

➕ cleaned up

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🍀 gl with your plans everyone .ᐟ 🍀

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💤 6h | 🛫 9⁰⁰ | 🏁 23³⁰ | 📝4h | 💦 1½L

could be better, but could be worse. got distracted in the afternoon. hopefully tomorrow will be more productive

[painausage]

healthy studying doesn't work for me anymore, back to being toxic ig

[dexfiles]

here is a star for everyone who’s not feeling their best today (🌟)

[aquilacalvitium]

Write it badly or it'll never be written

Write it badly or it'll never be written

Write it badly or it'll never be written

Write it badly or it'll never be written

Write it badly or it'll never be written

[aquilacalvitium]

Please keep interacting with this post because when I come to tumblr to procrastinate, this shows up again in my notifications and guilts me into writing again

[rtstudyblog]

📅 14.04.2026

24 days until final mockboard exams

i'm gonna wake up early tomorrow, and all the lies i tell myself

[raspberry-green-tea]

oh look the thing i procrastinated to do took 15 minutes

[painausage]

posting a to do list, because I can't motivate myself at all today :

• go to the drugstore

• read two articles

• write few pages of an essay

• buy a book

it doesn't look like a lot, but it feels like an avalanche •́⁠ ⁠ ⁠‿⁠ ⁠,⁠•̀

💤 4h | ✍️ 0,5 pages |

[painausage]

I didn't write much yesterday, but that's okay. I had some unexpected events and I'm back today ᕙ⁠(⁠⇀⁠‸⁠↼⁠‶⁠)⁠ᕗ

[studylovella]

[painausage]

posting a to do list, because I can't motivate myself at all today :

• go to the drugstore

• read two articles

• write few pages of an essay

• buy a book

it doesn't look like a lot, but it feels like an avalanche •́⁠ ⁠ ⁠‿⁠ ⁠,⁠•̀

💤 4h | ✍️ 0,5 pages |