Inexperienced T boy who thinks heās broken. He canāt get himself off, heās tried. So many times. He gets so worked up but he just canāt get there. And heās tried with partners, before he knew he was a boy. Theyād get frustrated or impatient and heād get anxious and insecure. His throat would tighten with embarrassment and frustration. Heād fake an orgasm, not really sure what it was supposed to sound like, just to appease his partners.
So naturally he just figured this was life, this would be his normal. He would never know what an orgasm feels like, he would only have stories and fantasies to go off of. And now he wasā¦something, with another trans boy. Theyād make out, touch eachother under the pants, and yeah heās gone down on this boy. But everytime he tries to reciprocateā¦he tells him itās okay. That he doesnāt need it. He really doesnāt want to fake it with this guy.
āIt wonāt work.ā He finally admits, feeling the familiar sting in his eyes. āItās not even worth trying because Iām not designed that way. It doesnāt feel like anything to me. I like getting you off but you trying to get me off is just going to be a waste of time.ā
And oh how wrong he was. After alot of coaxing and promises that he wonāt be disappointed if it doesnāt happen, he relents. And heās touched like heās never been before. Careful hands that touch him like theyāre familiar with his every nerve, knowing when and where to curl and push. He feels tingles in his spine, tiny explosions bursting off his skin. Itās unfair that heās able to touch him like this, when he isnāt even able to touch himself like that. His head is thrown back in pleasure, hips faltering and toes curling while he cries out for his new found savior. Heās on a high that no drug could ever match, and maybe thatās why when itās over heās grabbing his wrist and trying to hump his hand.
āDo it again please please please do it again please oh god fuck do that againā he doesnāt even know what heās saying, positive heāll be embarassed about this later when his brain isnāt fogged with unimaginable pleasure.