asma

i have no idea where i'm going here i come

[papitadodo]

Asma /uh-ss-mah/

19, she/her, Pakistani

my art blog: @utena10jou

quotes and stuff: @sillyofmine

main fandom - Revolutionary Girl Utena, currently big on Cameron Winter and the band Geese

side fandoms - Wander Over Yonder, Doki Doki Literature Club, Vinland Saga. i like Slimecicle's videos also

[papitadodo]

you know how sometimes you'll see a character that's supposed to be smart but you can tell from the way they're written that the author doesn't really know what it's like to be smart. you get that with characters who are supposed to be cool, as well. like they'll just end up using a lot of mob characters to tell the audience about how cool this person is, and their cool-ness comes off as totally artificial. kim kitsuragi, though? oh, my god. supernatural levels of aura radiate from him and the hand that typed him out. he is who every single one-liner wannabe cool guy in marvel movies want to be. sure, there's parts like "he just looks so effortlessly *cool* with that cigarette in his hand" but at least personally i was enamored by him from way before that

[papitadodo]

got on my orange shirt & thick-rimmed glasses. feeling like kim kitsuragi's spirit is reaching out to me.

[orteil42]

i believe an important kind of creative process is "i didn't know that wasn't allowed"

[papitadodo]

i dont really feel like i got fatter. my ribs are still showing, but now i'm overthinking about whether or not they were more pronounced before, because all my shalwars have begun leaving indentations around my waist and my bra still gives me indigestion even though i diy'd it to make it fit more loose. i don't really need a belt to wear my pair of jeans anymore. idk

[papitadodo]

disco elysium is so relatable because i also feel like I've been living one year-long day and that i havent done a single thing right since waking up

[papitadodo]

my rooms fucking doorknob just came off in my hand

[ilchul00]

!!!☞UNNAMED HIMEMIYA ANTHY&MIKAGE SOUJI FOCUSED FANZINE INTEREST CHECK☜!!!

MikageAnthy Fanzine Interest Check

This is an interest check/survey form for an unnamed online-only/non-profit RGU fanzine, focusing on the two characters Himemiya Anthy and M

!!!☞UNNAMED HIMEMIYA ANTHY&MIKAGE SOUJI FOCUSED FANZINE INTEREST CHECK☜!!!

The survey will be open until June 31, 2026, 11:59:00 PM GMT+9!! this zine WILL be happening if there's even one contributor participating. reblogs are appreciated! Thank you!! ☜☜☜

[ilchul00]

@twisted8wasted @thrombosis @stagfever @onionstar123

[twisted8wasted]

ITS HERE THIS IS NOT A DRILL

[miss-naginata]

onio rings for breakfast Baby !!!

[papitadodo]

disco elysium is so relatable because i also feel like I've been living one year-long day and that i havent done a single thing right since waking up

[asmogorna]

summertime with uncle 😛

Based on this

[omniscientpenguininatutu]

I love thinking but it's a bit hard when the lines blur between "your" thoughts and the "what ifs"

[sickbitterandcoveredinglitter]

I don’t think healthy people every really get chronic illness.

I have a friend I know from when we were both 6. She is the only person living nearby and so she saw me go from walking through limping to wheelchair on a daily basis. I keep her updated on my health even tho we rarely hang out anymore. She was gonna come over yesterday and I had to cancel. She asked if I can’t hang out later that day. When I said i won’t feel better later, that if I feel that bad in the morning later will only get worse she got annoyed and “joked” that I’m just finding excuses. And I was surprised, she knows all about me being disabled after all? So, a bit taken aback, I told her it’s a normal thing for me.

“But you got the diagnosis now, aren’t you better?? I thought you’ll get better now”

She was honestly surprised and it made me realize a thing. They don’t get it. They don’t get that getting diagnosed only equals benefits like welfare or parking spot for us, and sometimes better pain meds but that is just like pushing luck. That it’s a forever thing. That that one day we felt good a week ago was just a bright spot and doesn’t mean we won’t need our aids anymore, cause chronic illness is not linear and will make a great comeback in next four hours, and the next good day is planned on when we’re 70. Cause when abled people are sick, they get better. And our illness is just an excuse for them. And when we say we will never get better they think we’re being dramatic and pessimistic. And I don’t think they’ll ever get it, cause to get it you need to live it. And I want my friends to stay healthy and not go through hell.

[sickbitterandcoveredinglitter]

This is definitely okay to reblog and abled people are encouraged to reblog cause maybe it’ll help others understand

[sickbitterandcoveredinglitter]

Hello it’s me Lexa and this post is relevant again as I just had the Legit Same Talk with someone and I exhausted my number of fucks to give

[starryvioletnight]

My brother didn’t get what I had to go through until he tore cartilage in his knee. He had some surgery and he’s a lot better now, but his knee hurts a lot more often, and he never used to before. And he straight up apologized to me because he admitted he didn’t get it until then. He thought I was being a little dramatic and over the top, but now that he has chronic pain himself, he understands.

[monitorkernelaccess]

ok last chance for someone to send me $1,250

[monitorkernelaccess]

Telling too much information to #softcorebeg and #vent but the context is I have a sleep study scheduled for tomorrow night and I only recently realized it was going to cost that much (I should have checked before but I was too hopeful it somehow would have been the cheapest billing code). I am very lucky and my parents are willing* to pay for me to get a sleep study. However they are not willing to pay $1,250 when there might be cheaper options elsewhere.

The problem is I am all pissy about it because I was off my meds for months in preparation (even though it didn't really need to be for this long, I quit my meds much earlier than needed and then didn't go on them again because I didn't want to have to quit again) and now I don't know how soon I can get another appointment somewhere else. Like. I kinda need it in the next week because I reallyyyyyy need to start trying meds again. And it's just ~convenient~ to do the study that's already scheduled.

But at the same time I've already tried to cancel the appointment and maybe they'll actually process that before my appointment and I won't have it scheduled anymore anyway. And I've already not done a test they wanted in preparation anyway so idk if I could even do it. Though I also don't know that they will let me cancel after I've already confirmed?

I also could just pay for it (and in fact I have been asking my parents to let me) buttttt it will take up like half of my savings because I'm #unemployed and I #donatedhalfmysavingsalready

But alsoooooo yknow like. I donated my savings. Because people are constantly more in need than I am. And I am not in any danger I am just being inconvenienced (and not even really that because the hassle is to literally save my money). So I'm kinda e-begging but I'm mostly just venting (publicly even though I haven't stopped venting in private for the past 2 days either) because I would actually feel guilty if someone did give me the money for it.

Unless there's a mysterious super rich benefactor who wants to help me, specifically 👀

[mezzafive]

the rose bride

pt.2

[silvermoon424]

This tweet read me to filth

[nat-but-free]

duo that deserves more fanart COME ONNNN

bonus:

[papitadodo]

most of my interests these days are things that make me feel just as bad as they do good. rgu makes me bone-deep scared, geese makes my head swim with jealousy, disco elysium doesn't even function that well as an after-work relax activity because i get so stressed about the interactions. i think that's how it should be for upper-middle pansies like me