Gracias Graciela

A girl full of paradox : Christian and Lesbian, Sad poetry and Adventures. IG: Graxiela.Guevara

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How I’m I still going through heartbreaks at this point? Aren’t I too old or something? I’m I not supposed to be in a stable adult relationship by now?

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I’m not sure

I’m not sure if it’s the daddy issues.

Or the fact that you held me so close.

maybe it’s the fact I could trust you the most with the little broken parts of me that the past had left me to hold. 

I’m am not sure if it’s the abandonment issues. Or the fact that I am all alone. 

Maybe it’s the fact that you were my only consistent hug that I would receive for weeks at a time. 

I’m not sure if it’s la constumbre que Siempre Es mas fuerte que el amor. 

Or the fact that I haven’t been held in so long. 

Maybe it’s your cooking and the way you would let me vent after a long day of work. 

I’m not sure if It was because I was your first and I was excited to have someone love me with no boundaries. 

Or the fact that I didn’t have to convince you to love me. 

Maybe it’s the fact that I felt safe enough to trust.

But I am really not sure if it’s the daddy issues.

That you understood so well because you had them as well.

I just know at night when I’m all alone I miss your sweet touch the most. 

05/31/2021

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Happiness is free ❤️

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I love you so much

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I love you see you happy. Even if it is not with me.

06/2022

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Us ending is for the better

Knowing we have to move on and stop trying to be together 

You are kind 

You are loyal 

But you aren’t my forever 

I love you 

I love you 

I love you

For all the ways you’ve made me better

I am greatful 

I am sad 

I am hopeful 

That you will be moving to greater 

Greater things 

Greater memories

Greater love 

I just hope that when she comes you don’t begin regretting 

Regretting me 

Regretting the days  

Regretting the nights 

That we spent cuddled up in the sheets during quarantine forgetting.

Even if that was exactly what we needed at That point in time, now that we aren’t together we know that ending was for the better.

05/18/2021

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Does anyone feel like having a younger sibling is like having a child?

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Those sad poems in my notes seem so long ago.

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“CURRENTLY”

Crying often 

It grosses me out the thought of you and her at a restaurant holding hands posting it on social media.

I can’t eat at that thought 

I cry often

At the fact that I lost you. Love of my life. 

Will I ever stop crying?

08/11/2021

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Currently so at peace. A lesbian, child of God, loved bu her family with the healthiest i have always prayed for. Greatful just yearning for more God in my life.

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Some days I wonder if you miss me. Other days I wonder why I’m still wondering

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Love again. Hope again. Like you never been broken before. Like your trust has never been betrayed. As if your heart has no scratches. Allow someone new to show you patience and kindness.

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Not to be a total lesbian … but I’m about to give this girl some babies