Regreting My Sins

Sad girl, Smokes weed and pops X, Jobless, Depressed and posts Sad poetry all day 25 years old and wish it would stop

[partymakemesweeter]

I’m gonna switch up my content soon, theses last few months have been pretty intensely stressful to me, which made my mental health pretty bad. But I’ve been watching and loving new things, I don’t wanna be depressed anymore I just wanna learn. About a month ago I had a conversation with my boyfriend’s mom and it was kinda enlightening to me, it was like a cosmic boom or anything just a light bulb going off. I love so much about this planet than just a few things, YouTube videos and shows. I’ll still smoke weed and my boyfriend and I still will pop x here and there, I’m just tired of thinking and posting negative thoughts. I love you all 🩷

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I GOT A JOB I GOT A JOB I GOT A JOB I GOT A JOB I GOT A JOB I GOT A JOB I GOT A JOB I GOT A JOB I GOT A JOB I GOT A JOB

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I might be getting a job soon, I really hope this goes through. But damn can my bf stop being so mean and nitpicky about everything. Literally woke me up by turning on the light and yelling at me to washing the dishes.

[partymakemesweeter]

I really don’t get how everyone knows their place in this huge puzzle of a world, and I don’t know where I fit in at. I know people are gonna say “Well actually I don’t know where I fit in-“ dude you’re doing life better than mines I already know.

[partymakemesweeter]

Everything has been so crazy lately that idk what to write anymore, plus I know nobody really cares about this little depressing blog. I have like almost 30 followers anyone wanna ask me something?

[partymakemesweeter]

Watching some Inuyasha to take the nerves off.

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I hope every tear I shed waters the flowers and plants that nobody thinks about.

[bratty-raven]

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Fuuuuuuuuuuck why is everything getting so complicated now. I hate this so much, im just trying to have a good life with him.

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I hope this next x experience will be better than the last ones we had, It’s getting kind of boring and frustrating. If it's bad I’m just going to stop doing it with him. We had such fun times on ecstasy before this, but I'd rather close this chapter than taint the good memories we had on it anymore.

[partymakemesweeter]

I’m so lonely

[thoughtcascades]

“are u ok” lol hell no, please don't ask me that again

[partymakemesweeter]

My boyfriend before: You didn’t deserve any of that stuff that happened to you. You know you’re a really sweet person.

My boyfriend now: You’re just gonna cry about it like a baby.

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Shout out to my boyfriend who didn't wanna listen to me, so now we have no weed cause we went to this dispensary twice and now he's too good to buy street weed. Stupidest shit ever

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Lol imagine having hope

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I'm gonna get some white castle.

[partymakemesweeter]

I just wish I was someone else, someone who’s prettier smarter, and just rememberable. I feel like everything I do is wrong, everything I like is wrong and I’m just not pretty enough. Nobody cares, listens to me, or likes anything that I do. I’m truly trapped in a world where not even my own mother would hug me or just show me love. I try to be a happy and bubbly person, but people just don’t like that and I don’t know what else to do. This world wants peace, love, and happiness but you treat kind people like shit.