Lost In My Head

Kirsten|22|Female|She/Her|Asexual|Homoromantc|ProfessionallyDiagnosedI post about my Mental Illnesses /mostly disassociation, depression, and psychosis related posts\. This is an outlet for me. MY ILLNESS IS NOT YOUR AESTHETIC. Anyone can follow or reblog anything on my page unless specifically asked not to. Self dx Welcome. I fully support everypart of the lgbtqai+ community. Don't hesitate to message me if you ever need or want to talk. -message me WHENEVER

[americantoothfairy]

Mental health facilities: "All appointments will be via phone call or video chat"

Schizophrenics with technology based delusions:

[unlikelykingdomphilosopher]

[museicetc-deactivated20161122]

Although Reid makes it personal, there’s still an important message here that shows Dr. Reid knows what’s up re: schizophrenia and violence

[giraffepoliceforce]

Fun fact: schizophrenics are literally less likely to commit an act of violence than someone who doesn’t experience mental illness.

We are however significantly more likely to be victims of abuse, addiction, poverty, and suicide.

Schizophrenics don’t need the media constantly telling people we’re a time bomb. We need help and patience. And hugs. And maybe some ice cream.

[psycholar]

Reblogging because the ‘fun fact’ is both true and important for everyone to know.

[doctorqueensanatomy]

This goes for everyone will mental health problems.

They’re more likely to be victims than perpetrators

But the media doesn’t like that because that’ll take the “crazy” and put it on them

[psychotic-psypport]

Does anyone with psychosis unable to function while alone for too long? Like, a few hours, a night, or an entire day? I'm not sure why, but I always knew I couldn't handle being by myself for too long even if I'm okay beforehand, and that I didn't have any episodes for awhile. I'm not sure why, but I can't function correctly. I'm okay 4 hours in, but I begin to lose portions of myself, and unable to properly control the way I am. Or is that just me??

I can actually relate to this way too much. I can't function very well at all when I'm left alone, the depression is what really hits and I just feel like I cannot be alone without breaking down. So, no, you're not alone. Do what you can to feel better when these things happen, ok? Call a friend. Text someone. Do something to connect with another person. I think having a plac to go when you're alone is really important, and if anyone can provide that for you, take them up on it. It's going to be ok. Take care of yourself, alright? I'm here if you need me.

[thebrokengenderqueer]

[musings-from-mars]

ADHD brain be like “Oh I have a ton of free time, but none of the literally dozens of things I could do to fill that time seem Gratifying Enough to commit mental energy to, so I’m just gonna sit here dissociating for five hours while also singing Queen songs in my head probably.”

[openblogtomyabusivemother]

How do you protect yourself from being stalked online by your parents?

I often get messages from teens living with their abusive parents telling me about how terrifying it is for them to even look at my blog in case their parent finds out. I was a teenager before social networking on the internet. Honestly, when I was a teenager there was barely an internet yet. So, I don’t know how people protect themselves but I feel like probably there are ways. If you know please do share! A lot of people would find it helpful.

[herobrinestradwife]

Advice for keeping your phone safe in toxic environments:

Keep things in google apps

Everything is saved to your account, ex. you can delete google photos when your phone is checked, and download it again afterwards and get all your photos back

Also because it’s on your account you can log into google on a friend’s computer or a library computer or something if you need to

I’m not sure about other apps but I know you can put a password on google docs

People are more likely to check notes but assume you have google docs for school assignments and not check that

A lot of people monitor texts/use programs that monitor texts, but who’s going to remember to check Google Hangouts?

Use the internet on apps that aren’t Safari

Download another browser and put it in a different folder, because most people can check your safari history but won’t find another app and then figure out how to check the search history of that app

Also use the internet when you click the link in social media ex. If you click a link on a Pinterest pin it can take you to that link on the internet but stay in Pinterest, so it won’t show up in search histories

Inform your friends and if you want to be really sneaky use code when texting

Sending messages as code helps. Ending sentences with certain letters can work. Need something? Definitely use code. Friends can help you. Or other family. Or teachers. Don’t hesitate to reach out. (the first letter of every sentence spelled out SEND FOOD)

Literally just google pigpen code or ceasarian cipher or whatever you want and you can find a way to talk that most people wouldn’t understand

[openblogtomyabusivemother]

Awesome info. Thank you!

There are more responses too that I can’t reblog. Check out the notes to see them.

I was in this situation a while ago, another thing to do is you can make second accounts on your social media and block your parents account so they don’t find it

[noosedagoose]

For social media, I either go by a different name/photo w/e and block my family or I just make a second account and block them all again.

And I’ve always had a password on everything, so they can’t go through it and I won’t let them.

[classy-asthmatic]

no one is coming after me but still reblogging because other people definitely need this info

[openblogtomyabusivemother]

Thank you! Yes. Please, everyone boost. So many need this info.

Fake/second accounts are great for this, as long as you still use your other accounts for safe messages and websites, etc so they don’t get suspicious when they check it. Also, only deleting the parts of your search history that your parents would object to is less suspect than deleting the whole thing.

If they’re being sneaky and checking things while you’re not around, make sure to log out of all social media after using it and try to have a slightly different password for each one.

Let your friends and other people know so that they don’t accidentally send unsafe messages to your main account.

[jayhooty]

(Stay safe,guys.Reblog to help each other out.)

[cowboisupreme-blog]

If your parents look through the apps on your phone to make sure you aren’t using anything like tumblr or a messaging app, you can create a folder filled with boring stuff like settings, the notes app, general shit like that and give it a name like “utilities” or “general” or something like that. Fill up the first page with those apps, and then put the ones you’re trying to hide on the second or third pages. Your parents will see the app icons from the homescreen and ignore it as they can tell what’s inside, but only if they arent that tech savvy. Only do this if you know that they wouldn’t open the folder and click to other pages

Download duck duck go. It’s a search engine thats similar to google, but it has a much more thorough and easier way of deleting search history. Your parents might even think its a game, as the logo is literally just a happy duck, which would decrease the odds of them actually looking at the app properly

[openblogtomyabusivemother]

I just discovered Hide It Pro. It looks like an audio manager but it’s actually a secret vault where you can store apps your abusive parents will lose their minds over. Anyone ever use this?

Hide Photos, Video and App Lock - Hide it Pro - Apps on Google Play

Hide Photos, Videos, Apps, Messages, Calls in your phone. COMPLETELY FREE and UNLIMITED Hide photos & videos from your photo gallery and ac

[jas-ercising]

I have like 5 active followers but in case anyone ever needs this

[bearthethirdwheel]

A search engine/ browser that my parents literally NEVER CHECK is called puffin- it seems like nobody knows about it but it’s pretty standard and similar to google chrome. It lets you use everything in desktop mode, only it no longer works for iOS devices. Android users, however, are in the clear.

[robokitty77]

Hide It Pro is AMAZING, if you’re on the fence about getting it please do.

[benjaminbadpennywho]

First of all, sharing to save a life yo.

Secondly, this might seem counterproductive, but it seems like an appropriate time to raise awareness of Noonlight for more extreme cases of abusive parents. It’s an app that can alert a list of people of your choosing when you are in danger, or summon the police in an emergency. Works at home, school, work, or anywhere in-between.

https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.safetrekapp.safetrek

Noonlight: Feel Protected 24/7 - Apps on Google Play

Have you ever been in a situation where you question whether it’s dangerous enough to call 911? Instead of worrying yourself with indecision

I’ll always signal boost this stuff until it’s no longer needed.

[everyoneprotector]

thank you guys

[leafinsect-deactivated20201122]

also of you need to store things on notes you dont want your parents finding, search calculator diary into the appstore or google play and theres a tonne of secret diary things disguised as calculators which only open if a code is typed in, do even of they do check it they probably womt be able to do anything with it

[clearnbright]

I feel so bad for kids (and even adults) that have to deal with their parents sitting on their shoulder like parrots like this. Thankfully, my abuser is a literal Boomer and is stuck in the 90s tech-wise. So I don’t have to deal with this. But she has tried to get into both my phone and my laptop, claiming that they are actually hers (my phone is NOT hers by any means; she didn’t even buy it!). That’s the day she figured out I’m smarter than her and put locks on everything I own.

[dnd-homebrew5e]

Reblog if you support bisexual bugbears

[dungeonhavoc]

D4 Ways to Flesh out a Character

These may not be the ‘best’ or ‘most ideal’ ways of fleshing out your new character or NPC, but they’re definitely some of the silliest. Roll on the table for how you should flesh out your new character.

1. Myers Briggs. Take a Myers Briggs test from your character’s perspective. Once you have which of the 16 personality frameworks your working with, it’s easy to look up historical figures who share those traits.

2. Ol’ Surveys & Questionnaires. Back in the days of MySpace people posted ended lists of survey questions. You can find thousands of these things with a quick google search. Just answer the questions from their perspective.

3. Playlists. Pick a theme song for the character and have a general playlist for different qualities of the character.

4. Image Board. Scrapbook a ton of random images of heroes, trinkets, or whatever that give off the vibe of the character you’re imagining.

[musingofapoeticsoul]

[noshameinoursickness]

What Boundaries Look Like 👀

[theresalwaysalwayssomething-blog]

Are You Dissociating?

[lavendertheatre-deactivated2017]

Dissociating is one of the most common responses to abuse and trauma. It involves feeling numb, detached or unreal and (while it happens to everyone once in a while) is experienced more frequently and severely in survivors. Dissociating people vary widely in symptoms and may experience any or all of the things from the following list.

You may be dissociating if you:

find yourself staring at one spot, not thinking anything

feel completely numb

feel like you’re not really in your body, like you’re watching yourself in a movie.

feel suddenly lightheaded or dizzy

lose the plot of the show or conversation you were focused on

feel as if you’re not quite real, like you’re in a dream

feel like you’re floating 

suddenly feel like you’re not a part of the world around you

feel detached and far away from other people, who may seem mechanical or unreal to you

are very startled when someone/something gets your attention

completely forget what you were thinking just a moment ago

suddenly cover your face or react as if you’re about to be hurt for no reason

can’t remember important information about yourself, like your age or where you live

find yourself rocking back and forth

become very focused on a small or trivial object or event

find that voices, sounds or writing seem far away and you sometimes have trouble understanding them.

feel as if you’ve just experienced a flashback (perhaps rapidly) but you can’t remember anything about it.

perceive your body as foreign or not belonging to you

(likes and reblogs always taken as support)

[cwote]

when things seem bad, you just need to keep going and turn the page :))

[feministism]

[delusional-disorderr]

derealization

Me: *does literally anything*

H-hOly sh- I just- I’m sorry,, this is too much for me, this isnt even real,,

[queereyegifs]

[apersnicketylemon]

‘straight passing privilege’ and ‘cis passing privilege’ don’t exist. What’s happening is called erasure, it’s not privilege, it’s part of oppression and a result of heteronormativity and cisnormativity. It isn’t privilege to have your orientation and gender constantly assumed wrongly, it isn’t a privilege to be erased and treated like you don’t exist.