Just a girl...

29 y/o| this is my safe place | I don't promote anything!!! | ⚠ TRIGGER WARNING ⚠

[pastelfight]

it’s funny. the girl that made me realise, that I am bisexual and was my first love is married. to the girl that hates me because of an incident she wasn’t even involved in. 

don’t get me wrong. I am in a relationship and happy. it’s just funny. 

[pastelfight]

I can’t sleep through the night for weeks now.. It’s normal for me to wake up at least one to two times a night.. but now it’s like 5 times a night?! And I have terrible nightmares for a whole week now..

I just wanna sleeeeeep plssss.. I am fxck tired x.x

[thinplzxo]

Join the dr phils waiting list Discord Server!

Check out the dr phils waiting list community on Discord - hang out with 5 other members and enjoy free voice and text chat.

Hi loves

I was with a group chat on tumblr, before it got deleted and me and a few other people had made a discord server because we all struggled with the same things. I’m offering the link to join, there is no proana, just simply there for a way to communicate to each other and not feel alone. Anyone is welcome to join it and we decided to post this on tumblr as a way to reach more people struggling with the same thing. There is about 5 of us girls in there right now, please feel free to join <3 I would love to make new friends.

[eatpaperandcry]

My safe foods

Snacks

Fruits (mainly apples, berries, peaches, oranges, cucumber, watermelon, melon and grapes)

Popcorn

Tea Popsicles (favs are matcha, strawberry mint, green tea, honey flavor tea, mint, raspberry)

I c e

Low-cal homemade marshmallows

Sugar-free jello

Low-cal homemade chocolate pudding

Gum

Fiber one brownies

Homemade low-cal tiramisu

Low-cal mini pancake

Apple pie filling

Rice cakes

Oat cookies

Low-fat Greek yogurt

Raisins

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Lunch

Chicken breast

Vegetables (mainly spinach, lettuce, carrots, zucchini, mushrooms, celery and pimento)

C o o k e d vegetables (roasted or steamed)

Salads 💚

Tuna salad

Chicken in apricot and chipotle sauce

Spinach wrap

Lettuce wrap

Tilapia

Lentil soup

Knorr bullion chicken soup/vegetable soup

Most soups in general

Shrimp

Mashed potatoes

K e t c h u p s o u p (ketchup with hot water and stevia)

Air fryed "crab" cakes

Rice cake pizza

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Drinks

Strawberry water

Mango water

Water with flavor packets (like tang, zuko, clight, etc)

T E A (especially mint, matcha, green, raspberry)

Coffee (coffee with almond milk is godly)

Unsweetened almond milk

Cashew milk

Cranberry juice light

Diet coke

Coke coffee

Cranberry juice + almond milk (it's good)

7up light

Suerox (0 cal electrolyte)

Regular old cold water

Vodka

Tequila

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Fast food/restaurant/going out

Sushi

Lettuce burgers (those without bread, wrapped in lettuce)

Mango smoothies

Miso soup

McDonald's happy meal

Wings (i order the spiciest ones so I'm unable to eat them all >:3)

When I'm in a buffet I grab mostly vegetables, sushi, and some potatoes

1 (one) slice of pepperoni/shrimp pizza

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Other stuff

Frank's red hot buffalo sauce

Ketchup

Chipotle sauce

Lemon Juice

Cream and spices

Stevia

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I might add and change stuff later -w-

[beingskinnyismydream1]

Workouts You Can Do In Bed

To Get Rid Of The “Are You Pregnant?” Belly :

20 crunches

35 sit ups

10 full body crunches

50 crisscrosses

10 wide leg cross sit ups

20 leg raises

To Get Rid Of The Jello Like Thighs :

100 pillow squeezes

30 side leg lifts (Each side)

To Get That Bubble Butt :

40 butt bridges

25 lying kick backs (Each side)

50 clam lifts (Each side)

20 forward kicks (Each side)

30 knee tucks (Each side)

There is literally no reason why you shouldn’t be doing these workouts ESPECIALLY if you’re in bed. You can do this! You reach that UGW

Made by: ThisIsAnaMyFriend

[starvedoncoffee]

FOUND IT

[httpbon3s]

reblogging because i genuinely lOVE this workout so much and i lost if for a few days but ugh i do it while watching supersize vs superskinny before i sleep

[bigpig32]

i love this

[pastelfight]

🤌🏻

[pastelfight]

Fun fact about me:

I always thought that I am the problem and got into this mental illness mess thing over 13 years ago. Never listened to others when they told me that it’s my parents fault and just blamed myself all the time.

Now my little sister suffers as well from mental illness issues. She is 14, the same age I was when everything went down for me. She sees a professional to help her through that..

And I hate myself for moving far away last year. I lived in the next city to my family for 7 years and last year I decided I need more space between me and my parents.

Never thought once about my siblings because we aren’t really close.. but now I wish we would be because I want to help her. Because I know exactly what the problem is. I was in the same position.

Fuxk -.-

[pastelfight]

On my way to work yay

[pastelfight]

don’t know why... but nowadays I fall for real skiny guys... 

[pastelfight]

Ugh I eat a lot more then I wanted today. Got weak at grocery shopping and bought some chocolate cookies.

And I also not got my ass up to study at least a little bit.

I guess tomorrow is a fasting day for me.

[pastelfight]

One thing I learned in the last years.. I give a damn s*** about people’s opinion about my body.

When I want to see my collarbones and wanna have a tight gap then let me have one. It’s my f***ing body not yours.

[pastelfight]

Control is something so important in this whole thing called life.

Control about your diet.

Control about your money.

Control about your learn schedule.

Control about anything.

I lost it and I am desperate to get this damn thing aka control back. ~.~

[paperweightava]

🌙.

[dream-catcherrr]

reblog if you feel like you NEED to lose 20 pounds in a month

[starve-till-die]

In a week

[yanirexia]

In a day

[sevendiets]

In a second

[amberrumi]

N O W

[dvphvdill]

Y e s t e r w e e k

[prettierbyeveryday]

if i lose 20 lbs i’ll be at my 2nd gw

[pastelfight]

Need that right N O W!

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[makemebelovely]

October Rules

- first thing when you wake up, chug 300mL of water (or half an average water bottle)

- stay within your calorie goal of 300-1,200. higher is unacceptable, while somewhere lower is fine.

- drink 2L+ of water a day

- take care of your skin! wash your face, use facemasks, moisturize and so on

- binge twice a month, and you get to choose when. no more than two binge days.

- workout three times a week at least. this can be skateboarding for an hour, walking running - anything.

- three cups of green tea a day. at least.

-liquid calories dont count unless its heavy in dairy or INCREDIBLY sugary. (so add sugar and milk to your tea, thats fine)

- sleep 7-9 hours.

- do your homework as soon as you get home, and study for at least an hour.

-read for ½-1 hour a night at least. more is okay!!

- shower nightly, making sure to exfoliate and shave!!!

- brush your teeth after you eat, every time. get your teeth whiter and help you not eat more too

- fast four or more times a month, for 24-48 hours, but dont go over 48! ever!!

- will fast 12 hours a day ; can eat from 7:00AM to 7:00PM but not after or before.

-most importantly, stay safe. always always always listen to your body, and try to be kind. its doing what it can for you. stay safe, love.

[pastelfight]

<3