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I asked myself the question: What would the hunts look like from the outside if Sam were hallucinating his interactions with Dean because he can't cope with his death? And what if Jessica were still alive and trying to save him, but she doesn't always have the opportunity to do so?

I started a Fanfiction about it and every Sunday I will add another chapter in addition to my other posts.

Chapter one - how everything started

Chapter two - the fake IDs

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Who is your favorite chatacter in the show?

Sam

Dean

Castiel

Luzifer

Crowley

Rowena

Charlie

Gabriel

someone else

Remaining time: 2 days 3 hours

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When I was younger, I always wanted to write. Stories, stories about friendship, finding family, loss, and discovering who you really are.

While writing my storys I thought nearly constantly: Would people really do that? Are my sentences good? Did I used the right words and phrases or did I took them wrong? And how much people would correct my work - even when the Story is good?

And then I stopped writing storys down a few years ago. By constantly overthinking the stories, I've forgotten how to write "properly." And yet, I had just as many ideas in my head as before and couldn't write a single Paragraph or a single sentence because I haven't done that for over 4 years. And I loved it.

And now: here I am: Writing daily minimum 80 words about a series that endet 6 years ago and I experienced 4 months ago AND I have fun doing it.

I experience now that I have to write everything down that comes to my mind and order it a little and then my first written down conversations from all kinds of scenarious were created and now I write a fanfiction with minimum 200 words per chapter/sunday.

So: All in all I learned due my experience with my new Family that I only have to write and be Open.

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In my opinion Supernatural has some good examples what happens when someone gets too much power.

Castiel - nothing against him - for example, flaunts his power and wants to be honored for it.

Metatron - I hate that Guy (besides his Last appearence) more than John - were more than an arrogant assh*le the whole time he was an Angel. And even after he became human, he repeatedly referred to his past "successes".

Chuck/God is a bored guy that thinks that because of his Status he is better than everyone else. He's like the CEO of a billion-dollar company who destroys all his expensive works of art out of boredom.

Lucifer—a guy you wouldn't expect anything good from—was most annoyed by the fact that everyone wanted something from him. But since he was already the worst version of himself, he couldn't get any worse.

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When Sam died his best memories were with his son Dean and Eileen. But also he had so much good memories with his brother.

I think that theire best memories are when they finished a job and were in Baby without saying a word.

Or when they "fight" about a Computer or what kind of Monster they're searched.

The best memories were the little daily things that they never mention to be the best memories.

And the moments they thought were the best, the ones they would remember the longest, ended up being just faded memories and were just a foodnote in a story.

But in his heart would also be the short time at College - the short time he had to be young and had not that much to lie. The first time he had really a permanent home. The first time he found love.

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In supernatural the life of so much people was Changed.

Like Kevin Had a plan for his future. But then he got a Prophet and the whole demon and Angel thing changed his life for ever.

Or Charlie. She was the neardy Woman with time for hobbys and a love-life but then she became a hunter and found a family for the First time in her adult-life.

Sam had at the beginning a plan. We know that all. But then the whole story started.

Rowena - my Favorit and only Queen? She gave her life for the world and hell. And she became a wonderful woman.

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For us "normal" people Supernatural is a normal series that becomes one of our favorit. And after that it doesn't need any time to become an obsession for us.

We go to Conventions to meet others, See the people behind it and ask questions.

We Dress ourselfs like the chatacters and er see clothes the chatacters would wear at Stores.

But that is - for me - normal behavior for a fan.

But supernatural is something Special. The Show endet 6 years ago AND it becomes year for year more Fans and Family members.

So Supernatural is not a normal show anymore.

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This is a conversation that could happen in season 15.

Sam hadn't been on a hunt for several days. He barely came out of his room in the Bunker and now and then, Dean brings him some of his home-made sandwiches. Normaly Sam barely reacts. He barely eats any of it.

Dean walks over carrying one of his sandwiches.

"Here, when you're hungry."

He places the plate on the table and takes the other sandwich – and eats it by himself. He goes out and shortly before he leaves the room, Sam speaks up.

"Dean? I can't do that anymore. I'm tired."

"Then go to bed. Or are all beds broken?"

"No. Not that kind of tired. I'm tired of that life. This life. My life."

"Why? We've got a home, unlimited money and we have so much more..."

"I know... But... I... I can't handle it anymore. I am tired. I'm tired of carrying all of it."

"Then take one or two days off."

"You don't get it, Dean! I WANT TO DIE!"

"I... We... We can get threw it."

"Forget it. I'll figure it out myself."

Dean stand in Sam's doorway for a moment before he leaving.

*A short time later*

"Thank you. See you."

"Who were you talking to?"

"Huh? Nobody. How do you feel?"

Dean hands Sam a beer.

"Don't know. You?"

"How do you think I feel?"

"I don't know? Concerned?"

"Because you want to die? Nothing new. We all want to die at the one or other point. But look at us. Here we are. Alive, like nothing ever happend."

"The last time I was the vessel of an angel, Dean. But I am serious. I am tired. I just don't know..."

Sam stopped and took a sip of his beer.

"Sam, I don't want to lose you. Not like this. Our Job is dangerous enough. But... I think you know that. And... I don't know..."

The bunker door opens, and Dean stopped when Eileen walkes in.

"I need some food from the kitchen."

He walks out and while he leaves he says:

"But when you're doing something with less clothes remember, we could get visitors everytime..."

Sam throws his empty bottle at Dean, missing him by several feet.

"Sam, what's wrong? Dean called me. He was worried."

"Yeah. He was... I don't know... He's making a big deal out of nothing."

"He never called me because of you. And he was never this worried. That doesn't sound like nothing. What's wrong?"

"I don't know... I feel..."

Sam's voice broke before he took Eileen in his arms and began to cry. After a few moments he stopped and wiped his eyes.

"It is all too much. The hunting, the thing with Chuck, keeping everything together for the other hunters and being a father for Jack. I can't control what's coming out of my mouth. And I can't even handle my own thoughts anymore."

"But you're here. I'm here. We are there for you. Take your time."

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I could imagine that this would a Conversation when they were younger and at Bobbys and John wanted to talk alone with Bobby.

"DeaDea? Can we get the soda?"

Dean Looks at the Money in his hand and in the other the Beer for Bobby and his dad.

"We've got not enough money for that. You know what Dad's like when he doesn't get his beer..."

"But we're at Bobbys. We always drink lamonade there."

"Yeah. But dads never there when we drank it."

"What's the difference? We're at Bobbys and if Bobby allows it..."

"No, Sammy! We can't get it! Dad would Freak out and never let us go shopping again."

Sam tried to hide his tears, but he didn't quite succeed. The saleswoman overheard their conversation while she was putting things away in the next aisle.

"Unfortunately, these two sodas no longer have their labels, so I can't sell them like this. Would you like to take them?"

Dean wasn't sure at First but when he saw Sams face be took them.

What they didn't saw: the Sales Woman took off the lables and paid it when they left.

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What if John wasn't a hunter and Sam and Dean also weren't. So what if they didn't move around to hunt monsters but they moved around to be at shows to be famous at one point?

For example they Drive around and make music together or they tried to act in little shows to be found there from a Scout?

And they called it hunting because it sounded cooler and they were actually hunting for fame and/or rich?

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Charlie: I made a group chat for us. Sam: Why? Charlie: For emergencies. Dean: You named it “Trauma Club.” Charlie: Am I wrong?

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What if Sam and Dean never found the bunker?

Would they lifed in Bobbys house or did they never settled down?

I could imagine that Sam and Dean wanted a home when they saw Jody with the girls and that they're hunting.

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I love Mishas idea of angels with not understandig food and other human things. The idea that all angels act like autistic people without coping.

But after we've seen other angels and that they acted like normal humans made me think: Can angels be autistic too? And if yes: Would Castiel be one of these?

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Whenever in supernatural Sam and Dean argue with each other they figured it out in one or two episodes. In all fithteen years they needed only a few times more than two episodes.

In "our time" they needed one or two, maybe three weeks to let down their argue. But they never stopped completely to communicate to each other even when it isn't easy.

Even when it's initiated by Gabriel/the trickster this Scene could easaly be in every other arguing Situation:

Bobby: "You're bickering like an old married couple."

Dean: "No, see married couples can get divorced. Me and him, we're like, uh, Siamese twins."

Sam: "It's conjoined twins!"

Dean: "See what I mean?"

And even when they're older (aka the Last seasons) they communicate like an married couple (or conjoined twins).

And that is one point why I Love the show!

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If Dean gets to be bi, then so does Sam (or at least pan). I don't accept this token straight Sam nonsense. My boy didn't constantly get called gay in different ways and genuinely enjoy trying to come up with a ship name for him and Castiel for this!!

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jack could literally step on an ant and start having an entire crisis about how he’s evil incarnate, meanwhile his three fathers have a combined kill count of thousands??

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I could imagine that Sam created a blog about true crime and supernatural things until he went to hell with Luzifer.

Some of the cases of his Blog are cases Dean and Sam solved and most of the supernatural articals are Sams versions of the Hunter-diary.

And I could imagine that some new hunters can find at that way easier other hunters and good or better ways to chase and hunt Supernatural beeings.