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8 weeks

I’m around 8 weeks pregnant now.

The first ultrasound was 5 weeks 4 days, and there’s nothing but the sac. And it was empty. Negative thoughts haunted me since then. I was afraid of blighted ovum, however it was also sill too early too see anything. So I pray and keep fighting to have positive thoughts. As long as nothing suspicious (like cramp, spotting and bleeding) I knew I would be fine.

Then on April 1st, I had the second ultrasound.

Oh my God, I was so nervous. But hubby kept saying it would be just fine. Then it turned out that everything indeed just fine. We saw a “tiny bean” inside the sac. We also can see the baby heartbeat. Everything is good and normal.

I guess that's all for now.

For all of you who is still struggling ttc, I wish you the best and lots of baby dust to you...

Happy Easter and happy long weekend.

#pcos #pregnant with pcos #8w #8 weeks #pregnant #pregnancy

Thank you loveliest.. I wish u you all the best. And happy weekend. :)

Have no update about ttc for such a looooongggg time. Basically I avoided or probably reduced my activity through social medias. Not only this blog, but also Facebook, Path, Twitter, etc. Somehow it helps me. I feel more relax and not as stessed or depressed as I used to be.

Anyway, I was in fertility treatment again last year from July to November. Almost got pregnant, didn't test but finally it gone. I suspected it was a chemical pregnancy. But as I told you in my previous post, we didn't have any proof about that.

And then we moved on. On December we decided to stop seeing the doctor. I'm just dieting and exercising. I also tried Vitex for about 2 months (one bottle, taking a capsule a day). But it seemed didn't work also. On February I decided to change my meals. I cut off carbs. I followed the diet name Mayo Diet. It is now quite famous in Indonesia. The diet basically has simple rules: no salt, no rice, no ice, no fry food. Just boiled, steamed, grill or bake. It is only for 13 days. I know it sounds ridiculous but if we really discipline and stick to the rules we can lost weight until 5kgs. Of course that is too much for me. I was just lost around 3 kgs. And I'm quite happy with that. And then I continue to stop eating bad carbs especially rice until now.

Oh btw, I have had bad yeast infection down there (sorry TMI). It's just strange because I've never had something like that before. But I'm so lazy to go to GP then I'm just using virgin coconut oil to clear it up and somehow it worked!

Then on the last couple weeks of February I got this breast thingy. You know the felt tender and hurt and so on. I thought I will have my AF soon. But it doesn't show up until now. So yesterday I just randomly took hpt. I bought so many cheapest hpt from my country, so I thought I wouldn't feel guilty if throw away one or two if bfn. And then....Surprised! I saw the positive line. I asked my hubby and he saw it too. Unfortunately I already threw away the pee in the cup so I couldn't use another test to make sure.

Finally this morning I tested again with three hpts. The two above was Onemed hpt from Indonesia and the one in the bottom was First Response Dip test. Oh my God it's BFP!!! But still I'm not sure, so I immediately called my GP and had blood test. Tomorrow will know the result. Oh God, I still can't believe. But I hope it is a true miracle. Because I've read that there are cases when you got positive hpt but negative blood test and vice versa. I hope it won't happen to me.

PS: is it really BFP??? What do you think?

#pcos #ttc with pcos #BFP #hpt bfp #am i pregnant?#pregnant #probably pregnant #lttc #ttc after 25

ttc-confessions

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TTC is A LOT harder than I thought it would be…

Little Things

I've tried not to complaint too much

Yet my life still stuck

I've tried not to post too much in social media

Yet why the one who complaints everyday got pregnant already?

Why???

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God answers so many of my little prayers, so why not the big ones too? I just can't understand it Why does He do the things he decides to do? My deepest desire lies unfullfilled I feel so hopeless inside I know I should be thankful and not so full of pride. I ask God every day for this or that, you know, little things. And when He answers so clearly my heart just really sings. But in those deep, pondering moments When I ask for the desire of my heart, I get no clear answer and then my tears start, Oh God, I want a baby to hold and kiss and love I know that You alone can give me that blessing from above. I keep waiting, waiting, waiting and my patience grows to despair. Oh why can't I have a baby? For nothing else I truely care. I know You haven't forgotten me for better things to do because You answer all my little prayers, I just wish You'd fulfill my big one, too.

#ttc #pcos #lttc #pregnant #bfp #bfn #Bfn again #tired #wantingbabysobad #sigh #wttc

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Sigh… #9gag

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Always…

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Well i’m certainly the right one… #9gag

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I want to be pregnant so badly..

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same

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Preface: I would have never thought I was “the type” of woman who would write a post like this… but, here I am. If anyone is reading this who is not going through infertility, I swear, I am a perfectly sane person.

Dear tater-tot,

Your dad and I love you so so much, and we are so thankful you...

I'm tired of being tired..!

#Depression #tired #stress #Ttc #ttc over 25 #BFN

Early Miscarriage???

Phew long time no update.. I just so busy so have no time to write. But today I'm gonna give you some updates. So this cycle (I forgot the number of the cycle) start on September 16, 2014 Took femara for 7 days. Got the trigger shot on cd 14. My OB say I will ovulate on cd 15 around afternoon-evening. So we BD in cd 15 early moning, at night and on cd 16. After that we just have regular intercourse. On 2ww. My boobs didn't immediately sore, thats weird bcoz usually they sore after I ovulate. But I kept positive thinking, bcoz it sounds promising. Then they got sore around 9dpo. I thought AF would be on time. I waited on 14 dpo: nothing. 15 dpo: nothing, start to feel PG symptomps like bloating, dizzy, out of breathe, etc. 16 dpo: still the same, and the dizziness/headache getting worse. AF 2 days late now. I wanted to test tomorrow morning but hubby said why don't wait until Sunday? 17 dpo: supposed to test, but didn't. Got an extremely pain in lower abdominal for about 10 minutes after woke up in the morning, it's like a contraction. Like period cramp but more painful. Thought it's good sign, but still worry. After I took a shower, I start spotting. Put the pad on and there's light bleeding with bright color blood. Really weird, bcoz if it's period, then the color usually not like that. The bleeding keep continuing until I went to sleep. 18 dpo: today. Woke up and still feeling unwell. Check the pad and saw the blood clots. It's like regular period but heavier. Got the hpt, but BFN. I guess the hpt can't read my HCG level bcoz it's too low. Keep bleeding and got the cramps. So thats my update so far. I'm crying like a lot yesterday and this morning. It's exhausting. On December our marriage will hit the 3rd year. I'm scared, don't know when we will have our own children.. :((