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ind. sel. priv. akutagawa ryunosuke from bsd. headcanon based & canon divergent.

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   he’s just gonna. sit in the corner now and blame himself for even falling for it––

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oba--yozo:

“Hahaha…!! April Fool’s!!”

   ❝ suffer. ❞

stabs.

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oba--yozo:

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“I wanted to tell you… I’m sorry for how I treated you in the past. And I’m proud of how much you’ve grown. You’ve become a strong warrior, Akutagawa-kun.”

   he steps back slightly, surprised from the sudden praise. his heart pounds against his chest, but he’s unsure whether he should take him seriously or not. though it doesn’t stop him from getting his hopes up.

   ❝ ...do... do you mean that...? ❞

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he refuses to take part in this holiday.

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rqsebled:

   There’s a sort of defeated feeling to the air and that much he picks up on, and he can’t help but want to try and understand better. He wanted to know what the issue was, what he was trying to convey. Yet, Kanae couldn’t unless it was quite bluntly explained.

   "I–“ His automatic response would’ve been to brush it off and accept it. But now he feels obligated. "Please… try again. In blunter words, if you would please. Giving up because someone cannot understand is hardly… okay… It just leaves me more confused.”

   he digs his nails into his arm, he’s not used to having to be so blunt in front of people–– when it came to his feelings, that is. he had no problem putting people in their place, telling them how they deserved death, but when it came to how he felt, he was blank. nails dig deeper at the thought and cause him to wince, but goes for another try.

   ❝ ...i’m... trying... to say... ❞ he begins, trailing off and already becoming anxious. he takes a deep breath to try to ground himself. ❝ that... i’m not used to... the kindness you give... so when i distance myself when you are... it’s not because i’m mad... it’s because i genuinely don’t know how to react... ❞

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/ @rqsebled from x.

   he can’t get upset over the response, mainly because it’s true. it was hard to tell what akutagawa was feeling, by having a blank face and a monotone voice twenty-four seven. the plea he makes to his subordinate is deemed useless, as he takes a deep breath and looks away.

   ❝ ...i understand. please disregard my previous statement, then. ❞

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“don’t give me space. that’s the last thing i want with you.”

soft angst. / @rqsebled

   akutagawa is surprised to hear this, to say the least. after a small fight over something so minimal it’s already forgotten, he offers to give the other space. it seemed like the right thing to do, but hearing such words throws him for a loop. he’s not used to being wanted. most usually begged him to leave them alone just because of how fearful they were of him. he let’s out a sigh, using rashōmon to nudge kanae’s hand. a motion he couldn’t bring himself to do. he looks down and too the side, acting like he doesn’t notice.

   ❝ ...then i’ll stay. ❞

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“you won’t understand.”

soft angst. / @snowgleam

   he breathes out softly, a familiar gut-wrenching feeling returning to his stomach. he understands how she feels, he once felt that way–– but he turned into the man who once pushed him to edges he nearly fell from. does he regret it? every day. is he mad at her for joining the agency? no. she got the chance that he didn’t have, could never have. he’s in too deep now.

   ❝ ...i do understand, to an extent. but there are somethings we cannot change nor take back, no matter how badly we want to. ❞

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&. SOFT ANGST STARTERS.

“please look at me.”

“is s/he really just a friend?”

“i’m just disappointed.”

“you know i’m not like that.”

“don’t give me space. that’s the last thing i want with you.”

“i know you still love me.”

“i can’t think straight with you.”

“why are you so stubborn?”

“don’t do this here.”

“trust me on this.”

“please don’t misunderstand me.”

“you… you never had a problem with it before.”

“i know i shouldn’t be here.”

“what do you mean by that?”

“you deserve more.”

“can you just kiss me? one last time? that’s all i ask.”

“i’m scared.”

“i swear i’ll do things different this time.”

“s/he’s beautiful. i hope s/he makes you happy.”

“i want to believe you, i do.”

“not everyone is going to hurt you.”

“i’m… i’m trying. i really am.”

“i can’t sleep.”

“how long will this go on for?”

“can i hug you?”

“do you ever mean the things you say?”

“you won’t understand.”

“you’re making me think that what they told me about you was right.”

“am i too late?”

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Drunk/Drinking Starters

[actual-cross]

❝I do not get drunk– I get awesome.❞

❝I didn’t fall… the floor just needed a hug. ❞

❝Wanna know what rhymes with drunk? Sex. ❞

❝Nothing tastes as good as drunk feels.❞

❝I’ve had… eleventy twelve beers.❞

❝I’ve been cheating on you with a guy named Morgan. He’s a captain.❞

❝I’m not as drunk as I use to was.❞

❝Halloween? More like Hallowe-’re getting fucked up.❞

❝What do you expect me to do- I’m drunk!❞

❝But then I remember that alcohol existed.❞

❝It’s not called slurring your words. It’s called talking in cursive and it’s fucking elegant.❞

❝I’m totally walking straight, but this damn Earth is drunk!❞

❝If you can’t suck a cigarette, you sure as hell can’t suck a dick!❞

❝I wanna bae you up.❞

❝You’re so drunk when I’m pretty.❞

❝It’s 10;30 and I’m already fucking wasted…❞

❝I’m almost sober…❞

❝We are best friends now. Yeah c'mere, let’s get drunk again.❞

❝Why do people wear boxers? They’re just like small pants.❞

❝I am currently dating a tall bottle of Jack Daniels.❞

❝I’m in Pirates of the Caribbean right now..❞

❝Take me drunk I’m home.❞

❝Let’s go dress up like Batman and Robin and patrol the neighborhood.❞

❝Your kitchen is so far away. Who designed this shit?❞

❝Your cat… has it always had a German accent?❞

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‘ Gordon Ramsay ’ Quotes Starters

Warning!! A lot of cursing.

❝ It’s fucking RRAAAWWWWW! ❞ ❝ Fucking idiot. ❞ ❝ You best be jokin’. ❞ ❝ Don’t billshit me! ❞ ❝ Donkey! ❞ ❝ I wouldn’t feed that to my dog. ❞ ❝ I wouldn’t serve that on DEATH ROW! ❞ ❝ Come the fuck on! ❞ ❝ FUCK OFF! ❞ ❝ Tastes like it’s been microwaved. ❞ ❝ ITS FROZEN AND RRAAAWWWWW! ❞ ❝ YOU CAN’T STORE COOK MEAT AND RAW MEAT TOGETHER YOU FUCKING IDIOT! ❞ ❝ THOSE POOR BASTARDS! ❞ ❝ Disgusting! ❞ ❝ In fifteen minutes, I will clear all that furniture and put it back in my van. And this shit here, I’ll put it back in there. ❞ ❝ How the fuck did you burn ice-cream?! ❞ ❝ I’ll get you more pumpkin, and I’ll ram it right up your fucking ass. Would you like it whole, or diced? ❞ ❝ There is more olive oil on this than Popeye’s dick! ❞ ❝ You put so much ginger in this, it’s a Weasley. ❞ ❝ ____, You’re a first class cunt. ❞ ❝ Hey! Excuse me, Madam! Fuck me?! How about fuck you! ❞ ❝ I swear to god, this is the kind of shit you expect Tiger Woods to T-off with. ❞ ❝ If I tell you to get out there I don’t give a fuck if you got a thong up your fat crack. GET OUT THERE! ❞ ❝ Don’t whistle at me I’m not your fucking dog, you look more like a dog than I do. ❞ ❝ You’re cooking in a burned pan you fucking dick! ❞ ❝ I’m watching you like a fucking hawk, you know why? *Whispers in ear* I want you out. ❞ ❝ You seriously surprised me…. Of how shit you are. ❞ ❝ You act like the female version of Hannibal Lecter. ❞ ❝ I’m done standing here with a bunch of idiots. Fuck you all. ❞ ❝ What we are waiting on? I’M ON SOME FUCKING TALENT!! ❞ ❝ I’m calling out orders, and you’re confused! And you’re confused! And you’re at the end of your dick! ❞ ❝ It’s like a bison’s penis! What is that shit?! ❞ ❝ Right now? I rather eat poodle shit than put that in my mouth. ❞ ❝ Where’s the lamb SAUCE!? ❞ ❝ Fuck off you useless sack of fucking Yankee Danky Doodle shit. ❞ ❝ Fucking sue me. ❞

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&. PLATONIC STARTERS.

“are you feeling better today?”

“you’re my best friend. you’re supposed to deal with the second-hand embarrassment.”

”come on, i can’t go to the party alone.”

“you deserve so much better.”

“here, let me help.”

“can i sleep over? my parents are fighting again.”

“you don’t have to deal with everything alone.”

“how about i come over and help you throw away all those clothes you’ve been hoarding?”

“you know s/he’s just going to hurt you.”

“call me. text me. reach out for me, for godsake.”

“you’re freezing. come here.”

“you know me better than anyone.”

“i’m saying this because i care about you.”

“ugh, you’re sweaty- get off.”

“you know what, we make a pretty good team.”

“we should run away.”

“you’re a horrible liar. i’ve known you far too long to be able to tell.”

“sing me a song please?”

“i miss her/him. and i know i shouldn’t, but i do.”

“let’s go somewhere. i’m tired of this town.”

“i just want you to be happy”

“don’t listen to them. they’re just jealous of how cute you are”

“i’m dying without you. when are you coming back?”

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   Once his lip has started bleeding, Kanae removes his hand from his mouth to examine the blood on his hand from when he spoke, and uses his free, clean hand to pat around his pockets for something to wipe it off with. Rashomon… what an interesting name. It sounded like some book he glanced over while dusting the books at the estate. He would have to look at that when he got home.

   "The name.. is familiar…“ He murmured, looking towards the coat in question. So garments… he can’t help but wonder about what. would a simple handkerchief work? What would rashomon look like with a floral design shirt? So many little questions that ran through his mind. "But thats neat. Maybe I’ll get to see it when it isn’t aiming for my throat. It sounds like something really interesting to just see in a casual setting.”

   he looks surprised slightly, hearing that the name was familiar. that was strange to him, but passes over it nevertheless. ❝ they tend to have a mind of their own at times. they’ll just hang out sometimes. ❞ as he’s saying this, a strand of dark matter forms with a face. it looks intimidating and scary, but has an air of innocence about them. they creep closer to kanae, sniffing his hand.

   they look at him with question, then nudge his hand as if asking to be touched. ❝ ...and they’re a bit of a sucker for being pet. i apologize. ❞ he sighs, used to the matter doing what it wants. when he looks up to kanae once more, he notices a bit of blood on his lip. this causes him to scrunch his nose, digging in his pocket for a handkerchief. he hold it out for him, raising a brow. ❝ ...seems like you need this. ❞

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   Peculiar. Blatant self-loathing. Had his little retaliation been the cause of that? He didn’t want to imagine that to be the case, but it was the only logical conclusion Kanae could come to. He’s lost in thought until he hears the footsteps, and he tenses up – teeth cutting through the inside of his mouth and he winces in pain as blood fills his mouth. The taste is disgusting and he wants to gag, but he finds himself swallowing and covering his mouth with his hand.

   "Ow… I, uh…“ Licking his wounds (quite literally) he found himself staring into what felt a different scenario. He was waiting for an attack: a repeat of only a few minutes ago and none comes. "Mmmh… My name is Kanae von Rosewald.” Fingers rub at his lip, though the injury is likely already healing. Kanae still remains silent for a moment or two, trying to allow it to heal before speaking so he didn’t spit out blood. “I wanted to ask… what that ability was. It’s like a kagune, sort of.”

   he didn’t feel up to another fight. he was way too exhausted and still slightly out of breath to even start one–– and it felt as if the other didn’t want to fight either. he takes note of the name, and it’s familiar. he remembers vaguely learning about the house fire, but didn’t know the details. he does remember though that he was the only survivor. strange how he decided to join the underground. maybe it would help keeping him out of the public eye.

   ❝ it’s... a pleasure. my ability is named rashōmon. ❞ he almost stops there, but knows it wouldn’t be a good explanation considering it says nothing about the ability itself. ❝ ...they’re an omnivorous shadow beast made of dark matter. they can form from my coat or any other garments i wear. they can consume anything, even space itself. they’re adaptable and can quickly switch from offense to defense. ❞

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do you ever get scared that you might stay depressed for the rest of your life

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popular text posts + ask memes (part four)

❛ i don’t need a date, i need cash ❜ ❛ say something, i’m giving up on school ❜ ❛ my love is like a candle, if you forget about me, i will burn your fucking house down ❜ ❛ if i die, my funeral is going to be the biggest fucking party and you’re all invited ❜ ❛ i’m too young to have this many embarrassing moments ❜ ❛ i’m very strong, i could fight off maybe 20 snails. 21 on a good day. ❜ ❛ turn off: being more attractive than me ❜ ❛ drugs? no thanks. the only ‘high’ i need is the natural rush you get form committing a murder ❜ ❛ occupation: the family disappointment ❜ ❛ if you can’t beat them, dress better than them ❜ ❛ do you ever just realize that you’re not a good person? ❜ ❛ everything always happens so much ❜ ❛ listen, i did mean to make you upset and i do think your opinions are shit ❜ ❛ which is messier: my life or my hair? ❜ ❛ i’m tired 8 days a week ❜ ❛ i use humor to cover up the fact that i want to jump off a bridge ❜ ❛ let’s play ‘how rude can i be until you realize i don’t like you’ ❜ ❛ why am i awake? who summoned me? ❜ ❛ i just want good eyebrows and maybe a new face ❜ ❛ for someone who pretends to have no emotions whatsoever i’m really sensitive ❜ ❛ i haven’t made any bad decisions lately and i’m getting bored ❜ ❛ studies show that i am, in fact, in a perpetual state of given’ ‘em the old razzle dazzle ❜ ❛ i came out tonight to get attacked and honestly, i am having such a fun time right now ❜ ❛ is your heart supposed to pound for ten minutes straight after you answer one question in class?  ❜ ❛ no, you are not as funny as me. stop trying. ❜ ❛ it is very important that i am both cute and powerful ❜ ❛ how do you politely tell someone that you want them naked on top of you? ❜ ❛ if i were a bird, you’d be the first person i’d shit on ❜ ❛ raise your hand if you’re a lil bit of an asshole ❜ ❛ i may be a shitty friend, but i’m your shitty friend ❜ ❛ my last word will probably be either ‘whoops’ or ‘shit’ ❜ ❛ pro tip: instead of having feelings, try being dead inside. everything is still horrible, but you will not care at all. ❜ ❛ i get butterflies thinking about myself ❜ ❛ i love you and i’m glad you exist. i’m so happy you’re alive. ❜ ❛ if you’re reading this, i’m beautiful ❜ ❛ your body is 60% water and i’m thirsty ❜ ❛ sorry, i wasn’t ignoring you. i was just watching 7 seasons and 54 episodes of this new show i found. ❜ ❛ how do you find a soulmate when you have no soul? ❜ ❛ is it rude to kill yourself in the middle of class? ❜ ❛ one of these days i’m going to roll my eyes so hard that i’m going to go blind ❜ ❛ i think my parents would yell at me if i died ❜ ❛ i’m having a great time this year. time passes irregularly and i’m disappointing my parents. ❜ ❛ be the villain you were born to be. stop waiting for someone to come along and corrupt you. succumb to the darkness yourself. ❜ ❛ i’m sick of the government reading but never liking my statuses ❜ ❛ my new year’s kiss is going to be a shot of vodka ❜ ❛ i feel so bad for my exes, like imagine losing me ❜ ❛ look, i’m a nice person, but i’m not here to take your shit ❜ ❛ is there an award for fucking up the most times? because if so, crown me the winner ❜ ❛ i’m always a slut for lying in bed for hours on end and doing nothing productive ❜ ❛ at least i can admit that i’m a piece of shit ❜ ❛ no offense, but i’m a blessing to this earth ❜ ❛ lets talk about the universe and make out ❜ ❛ how do people wake up in the morning feeling refreshed? ❜ ❛ are you a piece of art? because i’d like to nail you up against a wall ❜ ❛ true bonding is when you and your friends are all angry about the same thing ❜ ❛ i doubt vodka is the answer, but it’s worth a shot ❜