[peplexa]

A good thing is happening i cant quite believe it.

[peplexa]

So awkward in counselling when they're like what do you feel when telling me that? Girl NOTHING i told you it's behind the wall

[alivehouse]

what do you mean you havent used mindfulness techniques to accept the state of the torture labyrinth as is yet. its like youre not even trying

[strawhatsufi]

it's like you don't even want help

[peplexa]

Awkward! Well I don't know if you feel awkward but we don't have to. Glad you got the interview and you should follow my advice to get more.

[kosmogrl]

don’t take my defeatism too seriously I will always begin again and again no matter what

[kosmogrl]

I might sound miserable most of the time but at my core I’m a very hopeful person

[kosmogrl]

[peplexa]

Listen if you're reading this you need to be opting into the disability scheme when you apply to these things. Other people with adhd are getting your interviews bc of it and they all shortlist unfairly

[peplexa]

I did nice things all weekend with cold dread under my skin like a water balloon. When I sleep tonight I will feel cold dread, when I smile and greet people tomorrow it will be sickly

But thank you for the infographic.

[peplexa]

Yes it got worse. Yes it somehow got worse.

[peplexa]

Im incapable of showing anyone the soft emotional thing i really am, they just have to take my word for it. While i look like a cold cold bitch

[peplexa]

been off work two weeks hate myself and turning into a creature

[peplexa]

I'm doing so bad right now I'm turning evil. But not harming myself even though I'd absolutely love to

[peplexa]

So. Not to narrativise it, but had something bad done to me on my recent date. My friend started a hinge and found a great girl within a week. Was I a puppy shredder in a past life or something?

[maidthings]

im generally not a very jealous person so i am feeling lots of brand new emotions right now

[demilypyro]

i'm an expert on being jealous you can ask me anything you're confused about

[maidthings]

how do i kill everything thats ever lived

[peplexa]

Dreamt about someone killing a hedgehog. Going for an mri shortly.

[peplexa]

I think this has broken my comfort fantasy, which is heartbreaking. Now i feel too embarrassed to take comfort from it. So i wonder what i will do about sleeping, or working, or living.

[pngblog]

[peplexa]

I must stop crying