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How do you know he’s in love with you,

How do you know he’s deeply into you,

Shouldn’t it be obvious ?

I’d see sparkles in his eyes,

I’d hear the warmth in his voice,

I’d see the attentions, the details, the actions,

I’d feel the love surrounding me,

All I see is the distance between us,

The lack of deep conversations,

The superficial talks,

I miss the cheesy words.

Noéline @personalgrowthsontheway

You are not hard to love

I cannot tell you how you'll know you love someone Two souls grow love together Like you'll never meet the same spirit twice You'll never meet the same love twice Sometimes toxic Sometimes magical ///

Unfinish business

Unfinish thoughts

A close friend of mine once asked me

“How do you know when you love someone ?”

And I started wondering how I knew during my past relationship,

Was it when I couldn’t spend a night alone because I’ve became completly dependant to him ?

Was it when I was ready to apologize about anything just to make a fight stop ?

Was it when I was afraid to tell him my truth because I knew he would get mad at me so I started shutting myself quite ?

Was it the panic attacks every two days because I cared too much and was scared he would leave me ?

Was that love at all ?

I guess it was love. But the problem with giving love is that you never know how it will be used.

They can turn your love to gold.

They can turn you love to dust.

@personalgrowthsontheway - Noéline

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Restarting today.

I’m growing a new perpective of life thanks to everything that surrounds me.

It’s kinda disturbing to be in a healthy relationship when you’ve been used to toxic people for so long.

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My only regret is that I never had the courage to tell you how much I hate you

I need to stop spending that much time on social media, it’s so fucking useless. It feeds ma brain with tones of pointless information, I can use my life better than this.

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“How can I fill the places you emptied by leaving”. I wrote this. I thought at some point of my life that you made me a whole, but you never did. I’ve always been enough, before you came into my life and I’m still enough with you out of my life.

- Noéline

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I can’t handle the pressure anymore. Every wave of stress is like a hammer printing the darkest words in my head, like an infinite echo repeting : death is quiet, death is peaceful, death is what you crave.

“I’m still searching for the happiness you all swear I’ll get by leaving you”

- Noéline @personalgrowthsontheway