person with anxiety

I live with extreme anxiety and depression. I'm just trying to get though every day. Here's some of my journey.

[personwithanxiety]

Be the cat you wanna see in the world.... 🖤🐱 (at Nashville, Tennessee) https://www.instagram.com/p/BqBBWPVhqE0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=ktqjcemye5vd

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Please call these 4 Senators. Please get involved. It does matter. #StopKavanaugh #callyoursenators #democrats #republicans #independents #liberals #progressives #everyone #thisisimportant (at Nashville, Tennessee) https://www.instagram.com/p/BoiWLqshoAf/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=67u391q4opva

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EVERY. DAMN. TIME. No matter whether that survivor is the "perfect" victim or not, I will always believe them. Whether they can remember every detail or remember very little, I will believe them. Whether they were drunk or not, I will believe them and also say, "that doesn't fucking matter." Whether it happened today, yesterday, last week, last month, last year, a decade ago, or 36 years ago, I will believe them. Whether they have physical evidence or not, I will believe them. Whether there was someone to corroborate the survivors story or not, I will believe them. Whether they were dressed in a full on armored body suit or stark naked, I will believe them and say, again, "that doesn't fucking matter." I am SO mad today. I'm mad for myself, but also for every survivor that is feeling the anger, frustration, sadness, fear that all of this has brought up. I'm mad because survivors like Dr. Ford and Anita Hill put themselves on the line to protect us and they are being ridiculed for it. I'm mad because trump and republicans are leading the charge on discrediting and humiliating Dr. Ford. I'm mad because the same exact thing happened to Anita Hill 27 years ago. I'm so fucking mad. I'm going to use that anger, though. I'm going to call my senators, encourage and help people register to vote, post as much as I can about stopping kavanaugh, volunteer as much as I can, and vote on November 6. I'm mad. I want everyone to be happy and live their best lives. I'm tired of seeing these rich, white, straight, cisgender men and women ruin EVERYTHING for EVERYONE else. (at Nashville, Tennessee) https://www.instagram.com/p/BoiSjZAhOc5/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=adb3jlz6m0ht

[personwithanxiety]

I'm feeling myself today. Well, I'm feeling my boobs and hair today, which never happens so I'm gonna go with it. #mentalhealth #bodyimageissues #body #mybody #anxiety #uncomfortable #effyourbeautystandards #feelingmyself (at Jasper, Tennessee) https://www.instagram.com/p/Boc57ViHFo5/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=90j92yefei9u

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I'm still drained from my social interaction yesterday. It was exhilarating but now I'll need to sleep a lot to recharge. #mentalhealth #anxiety #depression #socialanxiety #recharge #emotionallyexhausted #selfcare (at Jasper, Tennessee) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bobl_SPHZZK/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=u4i0r2ryfpbm

[personwithanxiety]

Stuff that isn't that exciting or goal accomplishing to most, but it's a big deal to me! #selfcare #smallsteps #bigaccomplishments #mentalhealth #anxiety #depression (at Nashville, Tennessee) https://www.instagram.com/p/BoW6l0qH_sj/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=f4rkybki2nj2

[personwithanxiety]

I've been feeling this so deeply lately. (at Nashville, Tennessee) https://www.instagram.com/p/BoW3gnbnmQ6/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=10b5dk1offvkg

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Therapy Day I've been feeling very blurred lately. My mind has been foggy. My physical body feels like I've been trudging through thick mud. There's a heavy pressure on everything in my life. Therapy helps me to begin to clear the fog. It helps me calm all those anxieties pressing down on my soul. It helps me see more clearly my own actions and the reality of situations. I talked more about that in my story if you're interested? Does anyone else ever feel foggy? How does therapy help? #mentalhealth #therapy #therapyday #anxiety #depression #grounding #selfawareness #selflove #you #are #enough #foggy (at Nashville, Tennessee) https://www.instagram.com/p/BoW3RXmH-Ow/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=7gmas4hc2dyh

[personwithanxiety]

Therapy Day I've been feeling very fuzzy lately, very blurry. Either it be my mind or my physical body, everything is just so hazy at the moment. Therapy helps me start to clear the fog and see things clearer. There's a lot more details about this in my stories if you're interested. Does anyone else ever feel this way? #mentalhealth #therapy #therapyday #selfcare #mindfullness #grounding #anxiety #depression #selflove #you #are #enough #youareenough #foggymind (at Nashville, Tennessee) https://www.instagram.com/p/BoW2fz5Hdlm/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1p6169uvyd8te

[personwithanxiety]

#BelieveSurvivors (at Nashville, Tennessee) https://www.instagram.com/p/BoHZ4g1HSxY/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=ovzgkg90se1y

[personwithanxiety]

Times Up #BelieveSurvivors (at Nashville, Tennessee) https://www.instagram.com/p/BoHZs0KB6IW/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=m08womjslob6

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This is one of the many reasons women don't report. We know we won't be believed. We know we'll be the ones to bear the brunt of the invasiveness of an investigation. We know they won't respect our experience or our opinion. Women are not stupid. We know how society sees us, and we are even more aware of how they see us if we are involved in a sexual abuse, assault, or rape case. WE KNOW. And that's just ONE reason why we don't report. I sometimes wish I hadn't reported the assault. It could have saved me a shit load of uncomfortableness and degradation. I never put my faith in the police department or the justice system. I knew I'd never see justice of any kind. Once the assault was over and the report made, I tried to go back to living. I never even considered that something would be done. That idea had never, and never will be probably, been a part of my recovery because I knew nothing would be done. No one gave a shit. Women and girls must be believed. Our lives and sanity are counting on it. #stopkavanaugh #whyididntreport #whywomendontreport #stoptrump #believewomen #women #truth (at Nashville, Tennessee) https://www.instagram.com/p/BoHMV7JHBai/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1im9fbzmxa1qp

[personwithanxiety]

I just finished an intake evaluation interview for a new sexual assault therapy group here in Nashville. It definitely got more intense than expected, and I am feeling raw right now. This picture, to me, is one of the most unflattering I've ever taken, but I also believe it shows my real, deep, present emotional state. I think it's necessary, for my own growth, to be upfront and real about what I'm feeling at the time. That's also one of the reasons I've chosen to go into group therapy. I want to be honest about my situation. I want to be true to who I am now...not who I used to be or who I think I should be. I want to share this with real people, face to face, who understand what I'm saying and how I'm feeling. I want to find support, compassion, love from a group of people. I want a community where I can be ME. I've never had that before in either friendships or family. I'm hopeful this time will be different. On a great note, I also found a new therapist that I connect with on a level I've never experienced before. I'm stoked. #mentalhealth #health #sexualabuse #trauma #cry #sadness #emotion #selfcare #grouptherapy #therapy #selfcare #healing #honesty #true #truetoyourself (at Nashville, Tennessee) https://www.instagram.com/p/BoCOOm5HqEH/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1a87wn96v4bby

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Three Good Things I wrote down three good things that happened today. I've been really down on myself lately. I can only see the bad. I only hear negative, sad thoughts that have made me a recluse. I've curled into to myself because I'm so sure no one else can stand me. I can't see, can't fathom good right now. It's an idea that is out of my minds reach. Yet, I know deep inside of me that there is good in this world. I have to find a way to see it again. I have to start somewhere and this is where I'm going to take my stand, again. I need to feel good about the world and toward myself again. So I'm going to try every day for the next week to see three good things that have happened in my life. Just three. Because I'm tired of the infinite bad. No matter how small or large, I'm going to write down the good. I'm going to attempt shift my focus from all that could or has gone wrong, and instead focus on the good already happening around me. I found the idea of three good things from the podcast "The Science of Happiness" published by UC Berkley Greater Good Magazine. They focus on techniques proven by science to help find some kind of happiness. Here's their website: https://greatergood.berkeley.edu/podcasts/series/the_science_of_happiness I found it on Spotify and it's in the Apple Store. Go check it out if you don't know what yo do and need some help trying something else. #mentalhealth #anxiety #depression #threegoodthings #selfcare #selflove #selfloathing #selfdoubt #thoughts (at Nashville, Tennessee) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bn2ievDH9iG/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1gkzfc4fxmsjz