New to blogging

So I'm Peter, if you have come here before you would see that im a major musician, I still am but this is more going to be my blog or place where I post my thoughts and feelings, if some one else feels the same or I can make things better for some one else then that would be amazing.

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Confidence/ My Goal

So Yesterday (Friday 19/11/18) I went to a meeting to talk about my well being and my confidence. Unfortunately I was feeling rather ill so I couldn't remember talking about much as my head was rather funny. But I introduced myself and gave a background on myself. We started to unpack my problems and tried to address them. Some of the most important points in that talk for me were when we discussed why I feel the way I do. This was down to a few things. I worry a lot, more now than ever and put unneeded amounts of stress on myself; now I’m at university some part of me feels like I have to master everything I'm taught and if I'm not a master at everything before I leave or if I don't have a job in place then I have failed my time here.

Leading on from this, I also explained that I get jealous of others and other bands. This kind of stems from when I was in my old band, we worked really hard to create good music but we were never given any attention even though we worked just as hard. It's not directly this, its more because I'm once again putting myself under lots of unneeded stress.

To me being in a band proves to myself that I'm not as bad as I would think (also its great fun) so if I wasn't in a band or the band was not doing as well as others or was as popular, in my mind that meant I was failing. This was not jealousy because others had something I did not, but more the fact I felt like I was failing my dreams, I think it's only natural to compare myself to others when they are in a position where I want to be.

After explaining all of this to the person I was having a meeting with, It was explained to me I feel this way because I really care. That I really care about what my future is going to be like. That I wan't it to be perfect so I put myself under ridiculous amounts of stress to try and achieve my goal's. I also explained that I think my end goal or like my massive dream is to inspire, to leave something behind or give something to some one which will change their lives or they can take into the real world. For me I suppose I want to have a little bit of that save the world feeling. It’s partly the reason why I’m on here.

Through this I also found out that the idea of failing scares me because I don't wan't to let anybody down. Through explaining this I was shown a little picture of what I think success looks like, a diagonal line like you would get on a graph that mathematicians would love. But then I was shown what success realistically looked like, it was still a diagonal line, but It was more of a squiggle with peaks and dips, you will have good days and bad days and that's okay, we are human, we were never meant to be perfect. So this has helped me put a lot of things into perspective, I have also been given like a diary to keep my emotions and thoughts in check and write down how I can stop or fix the problem I'm having. I have also realised writing like these bloggs have also helped me stop feeling so bottled up about my worries.

First line: What I thought success looked like

Second line: What it actually looks like

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Better Organisation

So at Uni (it’s more a specialised academy) I’m taking a class called PPD (Personal and Professional Development) the main purpose of this class is too help us understand ourselves better so we can work better in the real word and working environment. The lecture we was shown was about organisation and time management.

Now being at a music academy goes without saying that I’m a creative person which is also what our lecturer said us.

He then proceeded to ask if we get some strange enjoyment or buzz leaving our work till the last moment and then seeing if you can bash it out in the last week, try and live in the moment in a joking manor which a majority of the of the lecture room put their hand’s up, he then asked if their are some of us who like to organise things with structure, which I put my hand up with a few other people as well, he then went onto saying how he can understand and appreciate both methods and reasons. How both work for both types of people.

We then watched a TedxTalk in which we was shown how too organise ourselves better, but not just that have a greater understanding on how to mange time. If you are reading this and you are in secondary school (or highschool to anyone who is reading across the pond in America) how often do you’re teachers say something along the lines of “you need to get you’re priorities in order”? I’m guessing you hear it quite often but they never tell you how to, they just expect you to do it.Well in this TedxTalk he explained that everything we know about time management is wrong, time management is emotional as well as logical. And how feelings of guilt, fear and all other negative emotions dictate how our time is spent just as much as anything that is logical or work related.

So how do you deal with all these work and other commitments? Well in the video we was shown called the Focus Funnel which showed how too dilute you’re problems and prioritise what was the biggest problem right now for you. I was also shown what is called the Eisenhower Matrix. This technique was used by president Eisenhower to help him organise and deal with his problems day to day. Coming to the end of this lecture we talked how it’s okay to have structure in your life and get all your work done on time, but at the same time you also have to live in the moment as well, too not worry about everything so much and try and not plan for everything single event (I have a real problem with this just because of who I am). Our lecturer then ended the lesson with a quote which he heard when he was in uni which really opened my eyes and links back round to what I said at the start of this paragraph, and almost what he said at the start of the lecture. ‘music and art are a reflection of life, therefore you need a life time to reflect’.

Thank you and I hope this helps you if you a reading this.

Full Video Below

Eisenhower Matrix (if you cant do number 3 try and swap it out for bartering or compromising): 

Focus Funnel:

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So.....this is a first

This is the first time I’m probably ever using this site on how its supposed to be used, deciding to do this was never something I really thought I would do, I didn’t think I would need too ever, but over the past couple of years (ironically the time since I have been at Uni) I’ve been feeling like I need to put my thoughts into writing, a normal diary wouldn't really work coz i would just loose it, so this is something from me to put it down. This is just somewhere to put my thoughts down. This is a short post and If anyone does come across this who is more experienced at blogging please message me I would like some hint’s and tips. I plan do add more blogs in the future. 

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Les Paul Axcess Custom in Siberian Tiger

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Iron Maiden wishes you merry christmas. 

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You could caption so many things for this and they would all work.... :)

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LONG LIVE THE VOODOO CHILD Jimi Hendrix’ custom 1969 Flying V and Sunn amp. He famously played this axe at the Isle of Wight Festival and in the Rainbow Bridge film. Photographed by Tina Holmes at the Hard Rock memorabilia vault.