You know that moment when The Metatron was giving Crowley the death glare?
I just caught that Crowley was sneering right back at him.
This was the look on Crowley's face when the camera cuts back to him. It wasn't coming from just The Metatron, they were giving each other a prolonged look of very personal hatred.
Okay. But.
What if.
What if Crowley was the first angel to ask (question) whether the Metatron's orders where actually Her orders.
(Which they aren't, obviously. This mf is the actual final boss)
The Metatron would not take that lightly.
One: he would be pissed, because how dare this angel question him.
Two: that one question it's all it would take to ruin him. One angel asking that question could turn into every single angel of the Host asking themselves the same. And realizing that the answer is no.
So, maybe, Crowley wanted to talk to God. But God, busy preparing for humanity and having rows with one of her archangels, appointed the Metatron as a filter, a secretary of sorts (hell, maybe the Metatron came up with the idea himself and God went with it).
Maybe, somewhere along the way, he started doing as he pleased.
Maybe, Crowley went to God, but found the Metatron instead. Maybe the Metatron's answers weren't enough, so Crowley insisted.
Aziraphale tried to do the same in S1. The Metatron stopped Aziraphale from questioning further. Aziraphale stopped.
Maybe Crowley didn't.
Maybe he insisted on talking to God, insisted on questioning this absurd plan, but the Metatron wouldn't listen, insisting that his word is Her word.
Maybe Crowley asked if this really was the case, maybe not even really doubting it in a malicious way, but innocently curious.
And the Metatron knew he needed to nip this in the bud.
So, he got rid of Crowley. He made him Fallen.
No risk of other angels hearing these questions. And a good incentive for the Host not to ask questions ever.
This, to me, would explain a few things.
Crowley doesn't understand why he fell when all he did was ask questions. And he wouldn't, because that was never enough reason to fall. He didn't fall. The Metatron threw him out.
Crowley talks to God. He curses the plan. But he never, not once, curses God. (Not that i remember at least, please correct me if i'm wrong). He asked questions, but with his faith intact. He didn't stop loving Her.
And when he talks to Her, he mentions how she said she would test them. And he wonders, he thinks, it shouldn't be to the point of destruction.
Why.
Why, if God had been the one to sentence Crowley to fall, would Crowley still talk to her, instead of cursing her, hating her, resenting her. He resents Heaven, cold and impersonal. He resents the angels, cruel to the world and to Aziraphale. But does he resent Her?
Why would he marvel at Job's opportunity to actually ask, unless he never even got the chance to do so.
Crowley doesn't act like an angel who had an actual personal confrontation with God.
Maybe he never had one.
Maybe there was no confrontation at all. Only the Metatron, quietly and arbitrarily getting rid of a threat.
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Totally unrelated, but when Crowley talks to God, to me personally, it sounded like he was recounting a conversation. I might be wrong and he just heard this from other sources or the bible or something else. But, if it was a conversation, when would he have talked to God. And even if it's something he heards later on, from other sources, why would he bother asking? Pleading for humanity, not a drop of hatred in his voice?
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