Someone

he/him🌿📺

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I did NOT consent to being brought into this world

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I just finished a zukka fic that was so precious i don't wanna read another one ever again because it was just so good it's canon to me now

They used gay (otter)penguins as a way to overcome internalized homophobia showing it's completely natural

Worst part is that the author said they wrote a sequel to the fic but NEVER POSTED IT

And was completed in like 2021 so that's not getting any updates anytime soon

Alas I need to move on so gimme zuka hurt/comfort fic recs 🙏

[theo-the-door]

Trans guy going on T, call that Project Male Hairy

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Getting this tatted on my future top surgery scars

[moringmark]

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I hate people that have such nicely curated friend groups bc that's genuinely what I've wanted my whole life: a nice friend group

But I'm in my 20's and at this age if you don't meet people at uni you'll basically never have a close friend group so

Idk

I lowk just want friends and i feel pathetic bc of it

Fuck my stupid fucking chungus life

[hannrum]

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Superbat my beloved

[hannrum]

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Guys im genuinely happy rn life is great ignore everything I've ever posted

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just found out I have bpd and it makes so much sense, and I was pretty sure I had that, but for some reason I hate it, like yeah I finally know what the fuck is wrong with me but somehow it makes me feel even more alone. I don't know who I am anymore, I'm always masking anand when I slip people seem scared or confused which makes it worse

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For anyone that needs to hear this:

It gets better❤️‍🩹

Don't do anything rash, reach out to your friends and loved ones, seek professional help if you have the privilege to, healing isn't a linear process, but what matters is that you take the first step. As cliché as that sounds, it's true.

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Sending asks/vents:

You can vent in my blog, if you either want me to post it or don't want me to post it pls put it alongside the vent x

My blog is mostly about my struggles with bpd, depression, anxiety and being trans, but you can vent about anything

However i do ask you to put a tw

I might respond to the vent or i might just post it, but this is a safe space 🫶

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I hate having borderline so fucking much, it hurts so bad

I get that

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I might be going insane

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Crying so hard i might actually throw up

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I've been delaying going to therapy for my bpd diagnosis bc idk I'm scared for whatever reason, but this week i actually wrote to the secretary and she said the therapist couldn't take another patient, so now I'm on a wait list and im losing it😍

Bc i waited for this long bc i didn't feel THAT bad, but now i do and i get put on a fucking wait list

That's just great

[quinnrants]

the feeling when you just wanna be alone and push everyone away so you could quietly kill yourself vrs the feeling of never wanting to be alone and just wanting to be held and told itll be okay even when it wont.

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Idk how yall are sleeping peacefully after crying like😭😭

When i try to sleep after crying my head is just throbbing and giving me the worst headache ever

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Please someone notice I'm not ok i seriously need help

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My bad guys i was having an anxiety attack LMAO