You were lounged across a chair in his private quarters, wine still red on your lips, talking too freely under the haze of indulgence. " You, know... I think you'd look good down there," you said idly, tracing the rim of your glass. "Buried between my thighs I mean. Could even cross them a little tighter, see how long you last." You didn't even look up as you said it, just smiled to yourself, content in the heat of the thought alone. Maybe you expected him to scoff. To humor you. He didn't.
Aizen didn't so much as shift in his seat. "You presume that position would give you control," he said, voice calm. He stood slowly and set his untouched glass aside. "But if you wrap your legs around me, you won't be the one dictating the terms." He approached like it was nothing, like you hadn't just handed him the blade and bared your throat with a grin. When he reached you, his fingers brushed your knee. "You're welcome to test the theory, of course. I don't mind watching you try."
Gin Ichimaru
You didn't even realize you were talking out loud until halfway through the sentence. "Bet I'd look good sittin' on your face," you murmured, thumb dragging slow along the rim of your drink. "Thighs around your head, maybe press in a little too tight... see if you'd still be smirking." The last bit came out with a breathy laugh, and you leaned your head back, too warm to care if he was even listening. You didn't have to look to know he was.
"My my~" Gin replied, "You sure you're not trying to kill me with ideas?" You glanced over, and there he was, closer than before, crouched by your chair, eyes just barely open now. "Still," he said, almost to himself, "I don't mind losin' air if the view's that sweet." He leaned in, lips brushing yours. "Say it again tomorrow, when you're sober. Let's see if you still mean it."
Kaname Tosen
You were stretched out across his sleeping mat, voice giddy and sweet from drink. "I think you'd fit just fine between my thighs," you murmured, eyes half-lidded. "I have a firm grip, soft skin, and all that pressure? What more could you ask for?" You laughed softly at your own audacity, "Bet you'd feel down there." He didn't speak at first. Didn't sigh or admonish. Just turned his head slightly, as though he could better hear the heat in your voice.
"I hope you know I won't entertain those words as carelessly as you say them," he said calmly, "If you intend to tempt me, then know that I'll answer." He moved closer until his knee brushed yours, fingertips finding your wrist. "I may be blind, but I'm not unaware of what you offer when your mouth gets reckless." There was no teasing in his tone, "Say it again when you truly want me to kneel for you. Not when you just want a laugh."
Coyote Starrk
You were already half on top of him, cheeks warm with wine, head resting on his chest like it belonged there. "You ever think about it?" you asked, voice thick with sleep and grin. "Me, ridin' your face. Thighs locked in, real slow and heavy. Not sure if you'd black out or ask for more." You laughed to yourself, the idea too good not to share. "Could probably rock you to sleep that way."
Starrk didn't move, didn't flinch. Just exhaled slowly through his nose. "Sounds comfortable," he muttered, hand settling on your hip. "If you're offering, I won't stop you." His voice stayed quiet, almost bored, but the way he shifted under you, the way his fingers hooked just a little tighter, said he was already thinking about how it'd feel. He didn't need to flirt back. He just let you talk, and made it clear he was listening.
Ulquiorra Cifer
You spoke slowly, words half-lazy from drink but deliberate all the same. "If you were under me... I think I'd like to think I can finally get an expression out of you." You traced the rim of your glass, not quite looking at him. "Skin flushed with your eyebrows furrowed. Maybe you'd close your eyes. Maybe you wouldn't." You weren't trying to tease him. Not exactly. It was curiosity more than bravado, because he never reacted the way you expected him to. And right now, he didn't move at all.
When he finally spoke, it wasn't a reprimand. It was a cold, quiet thought. "Do you believe control lies in the one who restrains, or the one who endures it?" His gaze remained fixed on you, unblinking. "Your words imply dominance. But you forget I would not resist." He paused for a moment, "...If you wish to use your body to overwhelm me," he added, "then you must be prepared for what happens when it doesn't work."
Grimmjow Jaegerjaquez
You leaned back against the wall, drink dangling from your fingers, grin loose from heat and alcohol. "Bet I could crush that cocky mouth of yours between my thighs," you said, loud enough to make sure he heard. "Hold you there 'til you stopped talking for once. Wouldn't even take any effort." You bragged. It wasn't just a suggestion. It was a shot fired.
The chair scraped loud behind him. "The fuck did you just say?" Grimmjow was on you in two steps, smirk sharp and eyes borderline feral. He grabbed your hips and leaned in until his breath hit your neck. "You think you can just say that shit and walk away?" His hand flexed, already mapping the grip you'd described. "You got no idea what you're offering. But if you really wanna find out..." His mouth brushed your jaw. "Get on top. Try it. Let's see who taps out first."
Nnoitra Gilga
You threw one leg over the arm of his chair and smirked, half-drunk and bold enough to push. "Pretty sure I could snap your neck if I sat on your face right," you said, tone dripping with fake innocence. "Bet I'd look real fuckin' good doin' it, too." You laughed, not expecting much more than a growl or a barked insult. But he didn't snap. He just turned his head, grinning wide with something nasty already forming behind his teeth.
"You got no fuckin' idea what you're saying." He stalked toward you, "You think you could handle my mouth?" He leaned in, breath hot, "I have a tongue long enough to ruin you before you could finish sitting down. You try and smother me, I'll make you shake so hard you forget what you were even laughing out about." One hand gripped your thigh. "Now be a good girl and prove it."
Szayelaporro Granz
You swirled your drink as you began speaking absent mindedly, "Y'know," you purred, "I've got half a mind to ride your face to try and leave you breathless." You laughed into your glass, enjoying the mental image more than the effect it might've had on him. "Not that I expect a scientist like you to appreciate the view."
His smile didn't flicker, but something sharper glinted in his eyes. "On the contrary," he said while rising with a fluid precision that made your skin prickle. "I've already calculated the pressure thresholds of your thighs." He stopped in front of you, "I could tell you the exact moment your muscles would start to tremble. The precise second your control would fail." He leaned down, one gloved hand curling at your knee. "But I'd rather study it in practice. Assume the position darling, this data won't collect itself."
a/n: Dividers made on Canva, let me know if you plan on using them.
so, in short. @/cryptidcircusco’s response to my warning about him is nothing but lies, victim blaming and manipulation, just like i expected and predicated in my preemptive response. he’s trying to trick you just like he did to me and everyone else. do not let him. you’re smarter than that.
who would have thought.
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@/cryptidcircusco has made his response. i’m going to combat his lies.
hi everyone, i was really hoping i wouldn’t have to make another post about this, but he has indeed responded to my document about him, which i ask that you take a look at here before reading this as it has important context, and i don’t feel like re-explaining everything that happened:
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i also recommend you take a look at my preemptive response, in which i predict many of the tactics he attempts to use to deflect blame:
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i’m about to argue against almost everything he has claimed in his response (i cannot link it here as he has me blocked, but you can and should go look at it for yourself on his blog, thank you!)
this will be very long, so my claims will be below the cut. please reblog if you can. thank you.
he opens his doc right out of the gate with a blatant lie:
this is NOT true. there has been zero months long harassment like he claims. yes, ethan sent him a mean message or two on his side blog, and that was wrong, but that has been all the contact that has been made since the breakup. no one has messaged him since.
he then says this:
if this is true, then who was sending me and two others these inbox messages?:
sure, these are anonymous. but who else would be sending us messages like this shortly before his response came out? i’m not stupid, especially seeing as this anon also claims to know who the testimonies are. someone sent these messages, and i highly doubt it was anyone but Cryptids.
so, we’ve opened with blatant lies and hypocrisy. let’s continue.
this is the rest of that statement:
let’s make this clear, he did not just “go off the rails.” he harassed me, tried to coerce me into talking to him, and you can see exactly what he said to me in my section of the doc. please go read it.
he also shows no signs of an apology for this. he immediately goes into justifying his behavior, and claims that i abandoned him out of nowhere. if you read my section of the document, you can see this is, again, blatantly untrue. the breakup was a long time coming, and you can see that based on how he reacts so violently when i do try to explain what the problem is.
he then goes on to say this about the screenshots i provided as reason i believed he was spoofing a phone number to get me to answer him:
this is manipulative. point blank. he brings up a situation that i didn’t even mention so he has a reason to talk about what he was going through at the time, when none of that is relevant. i only showed the screenshot to explain my reason for believing he had disguised his phone number to call me. i didn’t explain the situation surrounding it. he’s only bringing this up to mention his mental illness.
he then goes on to deny calling me from an alternative number:
let’s look at the time stamps of these phone calls once more:
the last call from him and the call from the unknown number are only 4 minutes apart. sure, he could be asleep in 4 minutes after this, not impossible, but unlikely. he frames it as though it would be impossible for him to do any of this because he was asleep. this is not true.
no, i do not know for sure that the unknown number was him, and im not asking you to believe me based on speculation. i, however, do believe it was him based on what ive seen.
he then goes on to claim that the anonymous person in testimony 1 is completely unknown to him, and that he hasn’t done any of the things they claim:
please go read testimony #1 from my doc if you haven’t yet, and perhaps you’ll be able to tell why i find this hard to believe.
if you really don’t know this person, why are they saying all of this? what reason would they have, especially seeing as no one online besides my close friends know what happened, to come to me and randomly lie? to tell me you were spreading lies about me? and how would they know the details of the situations that they did if you hadn’t told them? i dont believe this denial for a moment, im afraid. read testimony #1, and you’ll see what i mean.
he then says this:
again, i ask, what reason does this person have to lie if you truly have no idea who they are?
and the claim about the throwaway account is…odd, to say the least. someone neither he nor i know has been unwillingly sending him information about me? for no reason? and was so insistent about it that he had to block several of these accounts? i’m not touching that one. make of it what you will.
then, he says this in regard to testimony #2:
please read, in full, testimony #2 of my document to see what he’s referring to here.
again, i feel like a broken record, but i must ask: why would these people lie? the person who gave testimony #2 chose not to contact me anymore long ago. what reason would they have to take part in this at all if they had no reason to? what reason would they have to start this?
how did the person in testimony #1 even know those details about what happened in january?
you can read the testimonies for yourself on my document. i implore you to do so if you haven’t, and then you, too, can see why his denial is so very not credible. i personally don’t believe him, but you can make your own judgements.
he then claims this in regard to testimony #3:
please go read testimony #3 of my document if you haven’t yet. it is very important.
first of all, he puts the blame on this person’s shoulders and how they “blindly fed into [his] dislike” of this person, and brushes off his own actions by claiming he never intended to act on the plans he laid out of doxxing someone. your friend agreeing with you that someone sucks does not lessen the responsibility you bear for your own actions.
the usage of triggering language also happened more than once. there were several times this occurred. he might be able to explain away a instance or two, but this was recurring. it was his responsibility to stop it, whatever that looked like for his system. system accountability continues to evade him.
none of what he says here explains the fact that he would DM the testimony #3 anon rape threats without warning, humiliated them, and would verbally berate them much the way that he did to me and others. he doesn’t address showing rabbit skinning to uncomfortable minors. he doesn’t address the ‘testing’ and blatant emotional manipulation. he doesn’t address most of the claims made in testimony #3. he’s only addressing the things he can sanitize enough to lessen the blame.
he also doesn’t address the fact that he told this person, who is a RAMCOA survivor, that he was going to give them new traumatic triggers. i am not kidding. in fact, i’ll put it here so you can all see it again, even though its in the document:
and, i’d just like to say, that a sexual relationship does not always equate to consent. responding to someone’s statement about their childhood trauma with “who can i do this to“ is in fact strange, regardless of your relationship with that person.
relationship =/= consent.
i think the testimony #3 anon’s own words said it best, truly. everything you need to know is outlined there. go read it if you haven’t.
he skips over testimony #4 for this moment and goes on to testimony #5 to say this:
go read testimony #5 if you haven’t.
i want to again reiterate that he literally told me he would not care about The Pompeii System (Dirk) as much if he was not sending him money and giving him sex. he asked me directly if he was a bad person for this. i said no because i didn’t know better at the time, but im not going to sit here and act like i didn’t hear him say that. i know what i heard, just like i know what i saw. i remember exactly where i was standing when he said it. he’s not going to lie to me.
i don’t think he was serially faking hunger or disability, and i say as much in the doc. no one claimed he was. there were times, however, where he was not as in need of money as he seemed to want others to think. one specific instance i remember basically boiled down to just not wanting to eat the same thing three nights in a row. does that suck? yes! and even still, he was not starving.
he also brings up that Dirk was supposed to live with him to get out of his abusive home. this is true, though it was not brought up in the doc as it didn’t seem relevant.
still, this is not as altruistic of an act as Cryptids wants you to think. he very plainly said that he thought of Dirk as his property, a thing that belonged to him, and that’s why he wanted to move him in.
here are the screenshots of that:
I think it’s also telling that Cryptids blocked Dirk and effectively dropped him after everything went down, despite him having absolutely nothing to do with it.
and, as a bonus, here’s Cryptids admitting to being a compulsive liar:
make of this what you will. let’s move on
this is what he has to say in reference to testimony #4:
please go read testimony #4 if you haven’t already.
if Ethan has been doing things i haven’t been made aware of, then that’s a different issue entirely.
as far as i and everyone else knows, Ethan sent a maximum of only two (2) messages to the ms-chaos blog. I’ve addressed several times that this was a bad choice that i advised against, but unless he’s keeping some big secrets, this was not anywhere near the ongoing stalking and harassment Cryptids wants to paint it as. it’s just not true.
furthermore, let me say again, a sexual relationship does not equal consent. never.
i predicated he would say this in my preemptive response, that he would claim the victims of his sexual coercion and humiliation actually wanted it. this is not true. having a sexual relationship with someone does not give you blanket consent.
the main issue of testimony #4 was Cryptids exerting unwanted sexual control of a specific introject of Ethan’s system named Kralie. he doesn’t address this at all. let me repeat that Kralie is now dormant because of what Cryptids subjected him to, and in his time before dormancy he was absolutely terrified to front alone because he was scared of Cryptids.
i vividly remember seeing interactions in the Stargate server where, the second Kralie made himself known regardless of circumstance, Cryptids would immediately begin to be sexual with him and call him “puppy,” a word which Cryptids effectively turned into a trigger. even when Kralie would say no, or express not wanting to be sexual in that moment, Cryptids would continue. i didn’t realize that what was happening was so wrong at the time, i thought it was some sort of roleplay or lighthearted teasing. it was not. it was coercion and control. period.
bringing up Ethan “going behind his back” is also very hypocritical, considering he insulted me behind my back during our relationship and would send cropped screenshots of our arguments to make me look bad to other people.
next, Cryptids moves on to addressing me.
i’m gonna go a little out of order for a second. first, i want to address what he say about me here:
i signed him up for a scientology website when he was harassing me after the breakup.
he says it was “every abrahamic church group [i] could find,” this is just not true. i only signed him up for the scientology website in the hopes it might get him to stop trying to contact me.
to be clear, i had no idea something like that could send him into a psychotic episode so severe. still, i have enough hindsight now to know that that was shitty and shouldn’t have been done.
i would have addressed it in the doc, but i literally completely forgot that happened up until this moment.
so, i’ll say here that i am sorry for doing that, and im not just saying that because i have to. i am sorry, Cryptids, that something i did on a whim may have had such intense ramifications for your mental health. though i want to make it clear that such a thing was not my intention, nor did it ever cross my mind that such a thing could occur, that doesn’t make it right.
it was wrong for me to retaliate in such a manner. i’m sorry, Cryptids.
judge me as you will for the actions of a woman scorned, i won’t act like i don’t deserve judgment for that because what the hell was i thinking? i’m not a perfect victim, no one is.
still, please do not let this asshole move overshadow anything. me being a dickhead does not cancel out anything he’s done in the slightest, especially considering he never considered what it might to do my mental health to be harassed and sent angry messages and anonymous threats. him bringing this up as though it’s the worst thing anyone’s ever done is very hypocritical.
let’s continue.
apologies if i become emotional here. please, even if you’ve read nothing else, go read my section of the doc before reading further.
he tries to claim, again, that the breakup came out of nowhere:
this. is. not. true.
none. of. this. is. true.
go read my section of the doc where i outline every instance in which i tried to bring to the problems to him. you can see it for yourself. i tried so many damn times to make him understand.
i literally called him the day before the breakup to tell him how i was feeling, and directly told him that if things continued the way they were, that i could not go on in the relationship. i literally sent him screenshots of exactly the behavior i had issue with.
his response was to tell me that he was annoyed, and thought i was overreacting, and that it was my fault for being annoying and he was just having a bad day.
i can hear it in my mind clear as day. i know what i heard and i will not waiver on that. he is a liar.
the breakup message i sent was me spilling my honest feelings. me breaking up with him wasn’t the big manipulative ploy he wants to make it out to be, it was me at the end of my rope finally ready to break off from an abusive situation. if that made him feel shitty, then maybe theres a reason for that beyond me being a big meanie pants.
i also definitely did not have the breakup planned “days in advance.” i was losing faith in our relationship towards the end, sure, but the last thing i wanted was to break up. if the timing of our breakup inconvenienced him, then that sucks, but im not going to accept this idea that everything i did was just to ruin his day real bad. the way things were going, i couldn’t have stayed in that relationship.
he’s trying to reverse victim and offender. do not let him trick you. he did the same thing to me to silence me.
he then doubles down on the emotional manipulation:
THIS. IS. MANIPULATIVE. DO NOT LET HIM FOOL YOU.
(PT: THIS. IS. MANIPULATIVE. DO NOT LET HIM FOOL YOU.)
this is what abusers do. they show you all the good things they did for you so you don’t pay attention to anything else. it doesn’t matter how good he was at times, he still gaslit me and berated me and you can see it all in my section of the doc and the receipts provided.
and what audacity he has to act like i’m the bad guy, and he’s just the victim who has terrible mental health who never did anything wrong.
Cryptids, you accused me of faking a breakdown to manipulate you and accused me of calling you a monster when i called you out for weaponizing my BPD to silence me. you do not get to claim the mental health defense now.
it’s also not my responsibility to deal with your issues at the root cause. that is YOURS to deal with. it is not my responsibility to just sit there and take you berating me because that’s what makes you feel good.
you think that me asking you to treat you like a human is just too much.
as long as i live and breathe i will not allow him to minimize what he did to me. hell, i’ll do it from beyond the grave.
i didn’t abandon him. he broke me down until i couldn’t take it anymore.
do not let him lie to you.
go look at my section of the doc. read it with your own eyes. look at it and think.
do. not. let. him. lie. to. you.
not once does he ever apologize to me for what he did to me. he only apologizes when he’s sanitized his behavior enough to make it excusable.
he then goes on to post many screenshots of DMs between himself and The Pompeii system, which you can go see for yourself. if Pompeii wants to speak on that, then they are free to, but all i know is what they have told me and what i have seen. that’s their situation, i’m not going to make a statement on it.
if you have read this far, thank you.
thank you so much for listening to me, and hearing what i have to say.
you are free to ask for questions or clarifications on anything you’d like. i can’t speak for others, but i will answer any questions directed at me.
please, use critical thinking. analyze what you’ve been shown with a scrutinizing eye.
you have all been amazing. thank you for your support.
please give me your thoughts in my inbox or in the notes. i’d deeply appreciate it.