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*~*body positive weight loss*~* A space for exploring how I love my fat body and still want to lose weight, my progress, & food. SW: 280.0 (10/17/16)

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Hey @nerd-girl-blog! I'm sure you meant well, but comments like this are not appreciated. I love suggestions on cool things to try, but I said I'll have it with beans next time and the help environment/animals/assumptions about my health come off as rude. Something like a "I bet it'd be great with some smokey tempeh" or "have you tried shitake bacon? You could try that!" would've been a lot better. I don't mean to be a grouch, but I've have a hard relationship with food plus was vegan for a few years so this stuff just doesn't fly with me.

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I'm trying something new than what I've done. I've been against HFLC and Paleo, like on a few levels, but my cousin just became a nutritionist and is super into it. She had some good points and was totally inspiring, so I'm trying out some aspects of it. More on what that means for me later, though. Here's my BLT salad, complete with grilled chicken, an egg and avocado ranch. It was soooo good. I was starving hence why I added the chicken, so next time I think I'll leave out one of the meats or do seasoned black beans.

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I'm back (maybe hopefully)

Hi friends. I'm here. Things have been crazy and slow and stressful and now I'm here, back at my highest weight, trying to figure out how to switch my all pizza, all donut diet to something that won't make me feel like I'm going to shit my pants all the time. I've been through a lot. Y'all probably know how the past two years have been for me and life isn't letting up but I'm slowly, surely moving towards a good place. Like emotionally and what not. Up until recently, I have been feeling fine with my beautiful bod. But over the past few weeks, some not-so-great feels have crept in and I spend too much time feeling embarrassed to be fat. Maybe it's NYC and there's all these tiny models here; maybe it's that I'm back to my highest weight and can't fit comfortably into my favorite clothes; maybe it's how men treat me; maybe it's all of these things or something I can't pin point. Regardless, it's something I want to squash. So I'm back trying to both be healthy and lose weight. I know exercising and yoga will be great for my mental health and relationship with my body. I know losing weight and fitting back into my clothes (as well as certain sizes that are easier to buy for) will be nice too. As always, I love my body and this is all about health first, losing weight second. Also, being healthy and losing weight are completely separate. ✌️

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I know it's been forever. I've been slacking. I haven't gained, though, and I've been working on myself so it's all good. And now I'm back. My sister and I started a DietBet, which we are gonna totally kick ass at. Also, tonight's win: I had a bunch of leftover lo mein (left over from a feast I had upon returning to NYC) that I didn't want to waste but wasn't the healthiest. I decided to "save" it by adding it to a veggie stir-fry. I added some garlic, hot honey, sesame oil, and soy sauce, and voila! Now I have 3-4 pretty healthy and delicious meals.

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So for college we have to do a research project around a subject of our choice as long as it’s linking to; healthy eating, drugs, alcohol and two other subjects.

I was looking at doing what is the impact of the diet industry on mental health in relation to eating disorders and disordered eating.

I need to complete questionnaires but I was wondering if anyone here would be willing to complete one when I do it?

[the-zaftig-ninja]

You can count me in, for sure!

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ME ME ME

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Me three!

[fatgirlgetsfitatlast]

Sure

[alyssa-in-onederland]

I’ll do it

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I definitely will!

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WEIGH-IN 2/29

So I started this DietBet on February 21. It’s run by the same people as my last DietBet, which I loved because they shared so much and focused on non-scale victories. Plus, the short-term goal-making really helps me focus.

Starting DB Weight/Last Week’s Weight: 261.6 Today’s Weight: 256.4

That means I lost 5.2 lbs my first week. Obviously, that’s some water weight and food weight as the weekend before I went a little off the rails. Lol. But it’s nice to see a good first showing and makes me want to amp it up this week!

Also, sorry I’ve been MIA lately. It’s been rough and I’ve been barely holding on. But I think I’m getting better!

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A Better Way to Freeze Bananas For Smoothies, Banana Bread, and More

Really nice recipes. Every hour.

Show me what you cooked!

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I’m at kind of a frustrating point, the point I generally give up on. I see some quick and relatively easy success, which is fun and exciting, but then I get distracted by something life-related and use it to justify a short break which usually turns into a long break and gaining some weight back. I don’t want to do that this time, but I’m stretched pretty thin and I need to find a way to refocus.

Whew. I’m tired.

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Look at these ridiculous eggs we made! 

We’ve been looking for different easy stuff to make for breakfast, and stumbled across these delicious-looking breakfast sandwiches over at Macheesmo. We were pretty skeptical of microwaved eggs, but these actually turned out so delicious! I do recommend you use a larger vessel than the small ramekins we did if you don’t want the world’s poofiest eggs. 

5 Minute Protein Breakfast Sandwich

INGREDIENTS

1 english muffin, toasted

¼ cup black beans

Pinch of chili powder

Pinch of garlic powder

¼ avocado

1 large egg

½ ounce cheddar cheese, grated

Hot sauce

Salt and pepper

DIRECTIONS

1) Toast English muffin.

2) Whisk egg in a bowl and microwave on high for 65 seconds. Remove egg and fold it into a circle shape the size of the muffin. Top with cheese and microwave for another 15 seconds. (Note: We ended up doing 40 seconds for the egg, then 5 seconds for the cheese and that was perfect. You will want to experiment! Also, our egg was totally unfoldable–but awesomely delicious!) 

3) Mash black beans (drained and rinsed) with chili powder, garlic, and a pinch of salt and pepper.

4) Spread black beans on the english muffin and top with the avocado. Place hot cheesy egg on top of the ‘cado and season with salt and pepper. Add a dash of hot sauce.

Eat the sandwich right away or wrap it in heavy duty foil and take it on the go!

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I was just asking myself if I should make egg sandwiches this week AND LIKE A SIGN FROM ABOVE I see this post. So going to the store now.

Further proof Annie is the best.

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We’re in a new office at work which means celebrations which means today I’ve had four pieces of pizza, three cupcakes, chips, and Starbucks.

Oy.

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END OF JANUARY WEIGH-IN

Today/end of Jan: 256.4 lb Last week: 259.8 lb Beginning of Jan: 271.8 lb

That’s a 3.4 lb loss this week and a 15.4 lb loss this month. This was a good month and I’m definitely proud of myself (woohoo for winning my DietBet!), but with two small caveats

1. Some of this weight was holiday bloat/restarting a journey usually puts up great numbers, so I know not to expect these kinds of numbers every month. Mainly, I’m saying this for anyone reading this, because this weight was pretty easy for me to lose, so don’t be discouraged or compare yourself to me.

2. I didn’t work out as much as I wanted to. I am trying to lose weight, yes, but health is the focus of my journey and getting into a regular workout routine is much more important to me than putting up big numbers.

Again, I’m super proud of myself, and I hesitated on writing those two comments down because I don’t want to undermine that. I just want to be honest and clear with y’all and with myself!

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January Goal Round-Up

1. Be vegetarian     -I want to work back to being vegan, or mostly vegan. Ish. Well, I had tuna salad once and a lobster roll once (this is weird for me to say because I’ve disliked fish my whole life haha), so I wasn’t vegetarian, but I made some good progress.

2. Work out 16 times.     -Running 3 times a week (c25k) and yoga once a week. No. I ran 6 times and went to yoga once. I did do a lot of walking, but I need to focus more on this goal.

3. Achieve the DietBet I joined by healthy dieting (4% in 4 weeks). YES. With flying colors.

4. Make a budget and stick to it!     -I made my budget. It’s generous aka I’m only trying to spend less than I make, not necessarily trying to save. Yet. Saving money is to come. LOL NOPE. Not even close. I don’t know how to work therapy into my budget and I bought my cousin a plane ticket to come visit for my sister’s baby shower (neither of which I regret in the least.) And I shopped a lot in Austin (winter stuff was on sale!!!) So yeah. Oops.

5. Read a book (White Girls by Hilton Als). Ish. I read the first short story in this and I listened to all of Fan Girl. So kind of.

6. Take Renly running/to the dog park at least 3x a week.     -Hey that works with my exercise goal! Basically. The first two weeks were stellar, then he was boarded for a week, then this last week was pretty dec and he got some hiking. So yeah.

7. Finish the art project my sister and I started! Not even close. Worked on it once. Yikes.

I made some good progress for sure, but I need to expend more energy focusing this month. Be on the lookout for February goals!

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Check out my January Goal Round-Up! Not too shabby!

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I won my DietBet! I ended at 258.0 lbs, which means a total loss of 13.8 lbs in the last 4 weeks. I'm really proud of myself and am feeling really motivated. I really enjoyed this DietBet and I highly recommend doing one if that's something you're interested in.

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WEIGH-IN 1/28

This week: 259.8 lbs Last week: 260.8 lbs

That’s a 1 lb loss this week and a 12 lb loss since my DietBet began (12/31.) I keep thinking that I could’ve done better, that I should’ve done better, but I need to pause and be grateful to myself and my body that I’m even trying at all. Dealing with depression is hard and trying to be healthy is hard and just having any progress right now is amazing. I am grateful. I am great.

Besides, I accomplished my DietBet and that’s badass.

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Back in NYC (blah haha) and ready to kill it during my last week of my DietBet! I went a little off the rails the last 2-3 days of my trip (we had the most delicious cupcakes at the baby shower), but only a pound gain showed on the scales this morning. Woohoo!

I celebrated by walking 1.5 miles in the snow to work! I wanted to Uber because of the cold and slushie snow, but the surcharge was too intense so I hoofed it. It actually wasn’t that cold and it was fun walking through the snow.

Another woohoo.

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WEIGH-IN 1/27

This week: 260.8 lbs Last week: 261.4 lbs

That’s a 0.6 lb loss this week and a 11 lb loss since my DietBet began (12/31.) That also means that I’ve reached my DietBet goal, as long as I don’t gain back any. Of course, I’m going to try to go out the strongest the last week/this upcoming week, especially since this week has been a little lax (as you can see in the numbers.) I wish I would’ve done better here in Austin, but you know, making decent choices and only having one ridiculous day is pretty great. I could have easily justified eating all the tacos/queso/vegan cupcakes/things I’ve missed and I didn’t do that. Or I’m not doing that, as I still have a few days left here.

So onto the last week! I’ll get some exercising done when I get back to NYC, and this weekend I’ll enjoy with all my family and continue to make decent food choices. I feel good, I’m doing good, and it’s all about progress, not perfection.

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A little tree pose on our hike today.