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I want to be loved for who I really am, not the optimized version I wish I was.
NEVER LET YOURSELF BE STOPPED BY WHAT IT WOULD HAVE BEEN LIKE IF YOU STARTED EARLIER!!!!! THE ONLY TIME WE HAVE IS NOW
in another universe the light in me never died.
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Sorry, I'm only seeing the reply to this two years later
I don't think there was any point bringing up this issue and I haven't done due to the disinterest. However the disinterest was mentioned during the same convo in which I said I love her and that I can’t let her go having just parted ways few hours before. To my surprise she reciprocated but followed up with disinterest caveat.We just about kept in touch with Eid and birthday greetings since. We did however call for the first time last year in which she more or so gestured me to ask for her hand and had a longer one few months later. Idk if I’m healing but I think I didn’t bring it up due to feeling like a hypocrite.
I tried speaking to my imams but I backed out due to lack of privacy and also feeling like I’m burdening them.
My head is telling me to walk away since it’s coming up to five years very soon as they’re coming up to their mid twenties and I don’t want to be the guy who wasted her time.
There is also the whole disinterest thing making me think to walk away.
Two years on I hope you’re well!! How’s life treating you you? Can I be honest with you? Like really honest with you… I feel like you need to let go of this situation. Even if she does promise to marry you. You want someone to be so sure of you and sooooo certain of you. I personally if I was getting to know someone for marriage If the time comes I wouldn’t be able to move pass any feelings of disinterest they expressed.
When we have found someone who are so aligned with it’s hard to not walk away but sometimes we have to. We make ideas about someone in our mind and think they’re so right for us but you have no idea who they truly are and maybe Allaah is protecting you.
I’m confused so like she agreed to marry you and then what happened ? I feel like you’re speaking in code looool
“No one is coming to save you.” I disagree ! I believe many people made up of many small moments come to save pieces of you , even if just briefly. The mentor who believed in you . The friend who said they’re proud of you. The family member that makes you laugh . The random person who held the door for you out of nothing but kindness. The teacher who took extra time to help you understand. The person who smiled at you when you walked into a store. The little kid who looks up to you. The person who randomly complimented you. Being “saved” isn’t about being whisked away and all your hardships gone, it’s about the people and things that remind you life is not all hardships, it is kindness, love, gentleness, softness, care, thoughtfulness. It is many moments made up of your lifetime that keeps you going and showing you the world is still beautiful, and will always be. Despite.
Emotional safety is my love language.
I know myself, I can handle discomfort, and I don’t waste energy pretending
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