guys i feel like something VERY bad happened to me when i was younger but i cannot put my finger on it and i feel like im going crazy but i don’t wanna get anyone in trouble by lying 💔 WHY DO I FEEL THIS WAY does this mean im just paranoid? 😓
hi pretty!! <3 (i don't know if this is too much, if it is I'm sorry, and english isn't my first language, so don't pay attention to the mistakes :p)
i was thinking about boyfriend!anton... in the middle of a make-out session, he wanted to go further, but you stopped him. you told him yes, but you weren't ready. you confessed that you were scared because you were sexually abused as a child. as expected, he was a sweet and understanding boyfriend (for at least two weeks).
that day, you were play wrestling and he pinned you against the mattress. you were scared and asked him to stop, but then he showed you that he was exactly the same as all men.
he abused you and then said, as if mocking you, "you know it wasn't abuse, right? because we're boyfriends." you couldn't even move. you felt disoriented, scared, uncomfortable, used.
can i be :) anon plss?
SORRY FOR THE year long DELAY 😞 and of course ml !! ૮(˶ᵔᵕᵔ˶)ა
warnings: abuse and mentions of sexual assault !!
boyfriend!anton would be so understanding truthfully at first… things start to get too handsy and clothes begin getting shed, and you tell yourself that you were ready at first, but then memories of before come rushing back and you abruptly stop him to tell him that you weren’t ready ;(( you had never told him before, but you confessed that you had past trauma as a child, and he understands completely, backing down and turning a movie on instead !! so sweet n so considerate !! and it was because he genuinely loved you.
but now, a few weeks later, the both of you were playfighting !! nothing too bad, but then it was like a switch flipped in him because he started to get rougher, pinning you to the bed with one hand, his other suddenly wrapping around your neck !! he wasn’t sure what happened either, honestly, but he grew tired of waiting around. you tell him to stop, voice small and pleading as memories rush back (again..) but this time, he ignores you. in his eyes, if you never stepped out of your comfort zone, you’d never be ready, and he would never get to fuck you ˶o̴̶̷᷄‸o̴̶̷̥᷅˶ and he didnt want that !!
the hand holding your throat leaves to slap you into silence, then again because he liked how pretty you cried, then once more for good measure, the control he realized he had filling him with nothing but pride and a sick kind of joy. “it’s not abuse, baby. you know that, right? we’re together, so this is what couples do.” he’d say, mocking you and your trauma as if it weren’t for nothing but a speck of dirt on the bottom of his shoe ◍˃ᵕ˂◍ you were silently crying, body shaking and fat tears rolling down your face as you sat there stuck, your entire frame locking up in pure terror. not only because of the pain or the way he was holding you down, but also because the ptsd you have engraved in you since childhood. you were so disoriented and uncomfortable that you didn’t even attempt telling him to move or to try and free yourself and put up a fight >.< and anton loved it !! this only made it easier for him to move and use you however the fuck he pleased ໒꒰ྀི⁄ ⁄>⁄ ⁄ <⁄ ⁄꒱ྀི১
NO LITERALLY WHY IS ALL MY FREAKY DISGUSTING RIIZE WRITERS🙁 why is evby leaving omg😔😔
its oki tho cause riri tha goat is still standing 🥹
THANK YOU BABY !! 🥹🥹 i wouldn’t necessarily say im the goat but all the good riize writers are GONE 😭💔💔 genuinely i love you so much i love you all for still sticking around for my unknown disappearances and empty promises you all are the best ever 🥹💖 I LOVE YOU ♡♡♡ !!
Can you do more incest or stepsister please😊 I really love your writing
YES of course ૮(˶ᵔᵕᵔ˶)ა honestly though, the member i see as incest bait is eunseok and he’s still on timeout for me… but i do write for him a lot more than the other members and my fingers have been itching to write some DISGUSTING ass father x daughter incest so I will indulge soon but that does not mean his ass is off the hook 😒 IN THE MEANTIME THOUGH anton and sungchan are looking really good right now for brother x sister 👀👀
Thinking about psycho Sohee fucking you til get very dizzy from the overstimulation and pass out but he doesnt stop and keeps fucking you while you’re unconscious omg it would be so hot he would like smile too when he realizes u passed out and like feeling you having multiple orgasms and clenching around him even in that state😵💫😵💫
warnings: noncon and abuse !! not proofread and VERY rushed i’m sorry for the disgusting delay
i can see him as your abusive psycho boyfriend or maybe a guy from campus who developed an infatuation with you out of nowhere (i like this idea a whole lot more…) !! ◍˃ᵕ˂◍ he’s got you all alone and is treating you like his own little toy, dick hitting deep, hands slapping and bruising your cheeks, ass, thighs, anything he could get his hands on ˶ˊᜊˋ˶
he’s not gentle whatsoever, driving you through more orgasms than you thought was possible, and with how hard he’s hitting your cervix and gripping your throat with more force than you could handle, the dizziness comes quick and easy, and he sees this, but only becomes crueler, laughing in your face and pushing into you harder to make you pass out ૮ ⸝⸝> ̫ <⸝⸝ ა
once you do, he doesn’t stop to check on you. he continues to use you for his own benefit because bitches like you didn’t deserve pleasure. maybe you made him mad because you wouldn’t focus on him or because you decided to talk to another guy ;( either way, you were his and he didn’t like when his things got too close to other people
the entire time you’re passed out, he drives you through even more orgasms with that charming smile that everyone seemed to love on his face, your cunt clenching squeezing and fluttering helplessly !! (⸝⸝๑﹏๑⸝⸝) to the point you were convulsing underneath him, and only then does he stop. not to check on you or anything! just to admire what a mess he’s made of you, cum leaking out of your abused hole, a bead of dried blood with how rough he was trailed down to your asshole, your body twitching from pain and overstimulation. he would definitely enjoy doing it again !! sluts like you like being put in your place anyway! ໒꒰ྀི⁄ ⁄>⁄ ⁄ <⁄ ⁄꒱ྀི১
Ik ppl already probably hating but just wanted to say u are so appreciated to so many people on this site too and so talented as a writer. you don’t have to respond to this at all just needed to put this out there. thank you always for writing what most people can’t 🩶🩶🩶
thank you soooo sososo much my lovee <33 i don’t really mind hate or when people talk about me it honestly makes me aroused i like when ppl are mean ˃ 𖥦 ˂ but of course! no one’s getting rid of me anytime soon! ♡
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