Pretending to do homework...
I really wish there was a way to get a new brain, or at least REWIRE the one I have. WHY can't I just focus on my homework and get it done?!
Well now I'm tired, my boyfriend keeps telling me to "do my homework" (which is due at midnight tonight). It's 7:18 pm and I WANT TO NAP. My homework is too hard, there's too much information to cram into my brain in a handful of hours so I'm going to skip it tonight, do it tomorrow, it'll be late but at least it'll be something. And I'll have the rest of the semester to get my grade up. Tomorrow is Monday, it'll be a new week and I can just start fresh. I'll be productive at work all day, I'll work on assignments right after work so I don't have to do this again every weekend...
Ugh. So. fucking. tired. I have to at least keep typing for a little while longer so my boyfriend thinks I got my homework done, but I don't know what else to say. I know this is awful of me but my brain just can't do it right now.
We had a good day today though. We met my mom and dad for 'lunch' but it was like a dinner at 2 pm lol. I'm stilll full.. My food was great, we all had good conversations, told corny jokes. I've seen my parents more often lately than I have in years.. which feels better than I thought it would. I know they're happy to see me happy, so that's all that matters.
Am I happy though? I mean, yes. I am. most of the time. but other times, i get really sad. like right now for intsance. I'm sad and I want to go to sleep and wake up at like midnight and then me and my boyfriend stay up and watch movies and talk and then i'll go to sleep and wake up tomorrow and feel better. I dunno. who knows. One thing for sure, I'm gonna go hit the bong and at least try to take a mfkn nap. even if it's just an hour nap.. I am sooo sleeppyyy.












